Nicholas

had many many favourite parts of that episode but I did love shane's mom being like 'so do you love your team ilya?' and ilya so confident he knows how to answer this question right like 'not as much as i love your son mrs hollander' and shane's mom being like EH ❌🙅🏻‍♀️ WRONG ANSWER and shane being like mom what the fuck??

I feel like something GREAT is going to happen to me. I feel like something WONDERFUL has happened. It hasn't reached me yet but it's on its way.

Aaron goes into neurosurgery. Every time he cracks opens someone’s skull to heal it, fix it, find what’s broken, do you think he thinks of the time he splattered a different brain all over the bedroom floor of a house he once lived in? Do you think he remembers the first skull he cracked open, this time in protection of his twin, his mirror image? Do you think the one time he was faster than Neil Josten is the first thing that crossed his mind?

started calling my executive dysfunction issues my board of dysfunctional executives and treating it like a room of frail old white men and it hasn't fixed everything but it sure is fucking funny

alright everyone we need to do the dishes! the DISHES. no, ted, it's not in your phone. ted you have so many apps open. ted how did you download a virus. the nice exiled nigerian prince sent you an nft? thats nice ted. now, about those dishes,

alright on todays agenda: LAUNDRY. yes laundry as in dirty clothes. yeah greg that's a board-level task in this organization. greg its very undignified to throw a tantrum like that at your age.

tumblr is less a social media site and more language's final frontier

aftg au where andrew is a burnt out musician who's sick and tired of writing/playing shitty music bc his label says it sells better. he meets one deaf neil josten at some no-name pub on the east coast. he's a little mesmerized by the way neils hair catches in the bar lights and how his eyes track the woman playing bass on stage. andrew offers to buy him a drink and then he offers to blow him. it's a no but at first neil looked at him confused and andrews about to start wondering how someone who looks like that would be confused about an offer like that but then neil asks him to write his question down. he does. (there's something humbling about writing a proposition down). neil says no but they trade notes back and forth until the line of indie artists waiting their turn for the stage dwindled into nothing. the last thing andrew writes is his phone number. they talk, well, they text. neil doesn't know him, not the way magazine covers and top 40 radio hits know him. to neil, andrew minyard is just a guy that plays the drums and occasionally writes lyrics. one day, when he asks why neil loves watching him play his drums so much, why he goes to indie night at the pub when he can't hear the words they sing, neil tells him that he likes the thumping in the ground. it steadies him, calms him down as if his ear was pressed to someone's heart. he likes the way the artists lose themselves to their music in a way so obvious. its with neil peering into andrew's grand piano, his eyes watching the hammers pop, that he remembers why he started making music in the first place and for the first time in months he actually wants to compose something

now that we canonically know that andrew hated people knowing about the assault and abuse he went through as a child, now that we know he sees it as something that will make his family lose faith in him and view him as weak, I wonder if part of his "hatred" for neil is that neil knows all of this ugly history, put himself in harm's way to protect andrew from more abuse, and still views him as this strong and steadfast person. in andrew's mind, it seems pretty black and white - he is either the protector or the victim. he spent so long building this identity as a protector, but his abuse coming to light means he is now a victim. so for neil to see him as a protector but also believe he deserves protecting as well, it shakes something pretty foundational in andrew's world view, which we know he never takes well. there are many reasons andrew hates neil, but this makes for a very interesting development.

andrew helping neil shower was so tender i’m crying into my fucking fist. andrew wrapping up neil’s wounds so they wouldn’t hurt in the water. andrew helping him take his clothes off to shower because it caused neil too much pain to pull them all the way off. andrew washing neil’s hair. andrew helping him stand up when he was struggling to balance. and then neil crossing his arms behind andrew’s head to keep him closer, tilting andrew’s face up to kiss him. i’m so fucking soft for them oh my god