erazawa:
AND TENDERNESS WAS EITHER a hit or a miss when it came to Shouta. Either bringing him closer to the person delivering it to him, or pushing the two of them further away –––– it either felt so comforting, or so painful. He sucks in a sharp breath, steadying a mind that was quickly dizzying –– unsure of what to do at this point.
He decides he wants to pull her in –– starved of affection, this was a moment where tenderness didn’t ache his already bruised heart. However, was it right to do so? Immediately, he questions whether it would be unwanted, for him to tug her in, as well.
He finally exhales, calmness washes over him as he does so. He decides not to panic. It was okay.
“…” He doesn’t mean to be silent after they part. Equally, he doesn’t mean to avert his eyes.
“––––thank you,” is finally said, “––i don’t know what is… correct to say.”
A moment where he was unsure of himself; unsure of what words to choose.
“––most people don’t go this far,” a pause, “–it’s… appreciated.”
sayuri quietly worries that it was a MISTAKE to touch him -- especially with the way he inhaled, with the way he felt against her, and the way he averts his eyes away from her afterward. she feels cold. her touch has always been DANGEROUS -- she has shocked people throughout her life because of the currents moving inside of her. ( she has scars from being unable to control her quirk. she hides them underneath the long sleeve of her costume. ) he looks so small there. not like the badass hero everyone knows.
he thanks her, and sayuri wonders... still. she smiles as best she can. “there’s no correct way to say,” she offers softly. “if you’d -- like me to leave you alone --” but he mentions the last part, and that hurts. she knows. she knows what it’s like to be isolated and alone. it’s her very existence, as much as she tries to hide it now. she’s ALONE. alone. she’s always been alone... she’ll always be alone. but it hurts to hear him say that. “w--well,” she clears her throat. “you can count on me, aizawa-senpai.” but she has her own sadness too and avoids his eyes. “i -- i should go. i have papers to grade.” she wants to give him an out.
