Words to Help You Get Through Life

She is still saved as Queen❤ on my phone after 4 months.

But you came back to me so jokes on you.

Left tumblr in January. I remember the frustration i was in. The only person i have ever evolved feelings for or let come close to me was abandoning me like old clothes. I thought i needed time for me. Somewhere in between she came back. Sort of apologized. And i promised myself that i will do everything to make her so happy that she wil never leave. So happy she would be afraid of leaving me. I took her on walks, chit chat and everything that she likes. But she ignored me again. Called me "Pathetic" yesterday. So everything crashed again. So i decided that this place helps me let it out to strangers and it feels nice to know someone knows what is happening with me. So here i am.

My diary

I have to stop dedicating myself to her. She is lost. No matter how much times i tell myself its her loss... She lost someone who truly loved her... No matter how i try get up from the dirt i am in... I end up falling and sobbing in it again

Myself

I thought... It was true...

Am I that bad?

I'm suicidal.

Until i make her happy, i cannot sleep.