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jealousy ch 2: Alex (nsfw)
patrick hockstetter x henry bowers
part one
previously on: after Patrick almost fucks a girl at a party, he and Henry fuck around.
summary: Henry has a conversation with his pigs. then, he calls up a girl he once fucked and asks her to a bonfire. they go, they fuck, and then Henry drives everyone home.
word count: 3942
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The next day, Henry spent the entire day at home alone. Well, as alone as he could be with Butch there half the time.
But he didn’t want to hang out with the guys. He didn’t want to see Patrick.
He hadn’t gotten lucky. He hadn’t blacked out and forgotten it.
Sometimes, when he wasn’t forcing himself not to think about it, he could still feel the weight of Patrick’s dick in his mouth. And that was not something he wanted to remember.
Butch left for a late shift after dinner, and Henry went out to the pigpen to see Bip and Bop. He brought his cigarettes and a lighter, and sat on the fence, looking down at his pets, chain smoking.
He got about three cigarettes in before he remembered the last time he’d chain smoked, just last night, after… whatever it was he did with Patrick.
It wasn’t that he didn’t know what he did — he remembered it like it was still happening. It was that he didn’t know what to call it. Did they fuck? Just plain fuck around? Did it matter? Could he convince Patrick to forget about it?
It did matter. And no, if he knew Patrick only half as well as he knew him, Patrick wouldn’t let go. He’d gotten a chance to sink his teeth in, and now he wasn’t going to let go.
Henry put his cigarette out and tucked the butt back into the pack so neither Bip nor Bop could get a hold of it. Bip snuffled at where his boot was propped up on part of the fence, and Bop laid down.
“I did something stupid, you guys,” he said to them. “Real fucking stupid.”
Bip snorted.
“Hey, shut up,” Henry said, then he felt silly. It had been a long time since he had a conversation with his pigs, but he needed them right now. “I don’t always do stupid shit, just sometimes.”
Bop turned his head to better look at Henry, and Henry imagined him looking at him with something like pity.
“I — I fucked around with Patrick. I sucked his dick,” he said, voice hushed.
Neither Bip nor Bop did anything for a long moment. Then, Bop stood up and started snuffling at Henry’s other boot. He felt like he had both their attentions, now.
“I didn’t really want to. ‘Cept maybe I did? I don’t do shit I don’t wanna do, and I did that.” He paused, swallowing hard, whispering, “I can still taste him.”
Bip let out a grunt and Bop mimicked him. Henry smiled.
“It wasn’t so bad, I guess. I wish — I wish it hadn’t happened. But it wasn’t so bad. He sure can suck a dick, I’ll tell you that. Fucking fag. Does it all the time. You know he tells me that shit?”
Bop grunted again.
“I know. I know a lot more about a lotta guys than I wanna know, ‘cause of Patrick. But that’s just Pat, I guess.”
Bip nudged his foot. Henry reached into the bag hanging off the fence beside him and drew out a handful of plain popcorn, holding it out for Bip to munch on. He smiled as they both snuffled at his hand, going at it like there was nothing they’d rather do.
“I don’t know what to do, now, though,” he said. “I don’t know what to do.”
They chewed, looking up at him.
“I don’t know, guys. Like, do I ignore him? What if he wants to do it again? Do I… do I go along with it? And does… does it make me gay to do this shit?”
They continued chewing.
Henry sighed. “You guys don’t even know what gay is. You’re just pigs. Unless… you could be gay pigs, I guess… we never did get you guys a lady friend. Just didn’t want to deal with piglets, you know. Hell, maybe you guys are gay, and I just don’t know ‘cause I don’t speak pig.”
Bip bumped Bop with his shoulder, closing his eyes for a second.
“Huh. Well, thanks for listening. I’m gonna go get drunk.”
He reached down and gave them another handful of popcorn before he hopped off the fence and walked back into the house.
He did get drunk, on a bottle of cheap whiskey he’d been hiding under his bed for a rainy day. The storm was all inside his head, but the whiskey… well, it helped. A little. Made some parts of it louder, but at least the taste of the alcohol was heavier than the memory of Patrick’s dick.
He jerked off that night, trying to think about the last real tail he got, some snarky girl from Etna, but that quickly turned into Patrick. It wasn’t his fault — the girl kinda looked like him. Shortish dark hair and eyes that take no shit without laughing in its face. And that smile — kinda scary, like she was begging the world to try something so she could fuck it up.
That’s who he should have been fucking around with. Not Patrick.
Sure, she looked like him. But she wasn’t him.
At least she was a girl.
The next morning, he dug around for her number, trying to remember her name. He found it, written in red permanent marker on a napkin, under her name.
Alex.
Alex. Nice.
He called.
“Gray residence,” said a tired-sounding lady. “Who is this?”
“Uh, my name’s Henry, ma’am. I’m calling for Alex?”
“Huh. Alex!” she shouted, pulling the phone away from her mouth.
“What?” came a voice that sounded far away.
“Some boy’s on the line for you,” said Mrs. Gray.
“Fine,” huffed who he assumed was Alex. The phone got shuffled around. Then: “Hey, Tony.”
“Who the hell,” he said, “is Tony?”
“Sorry, who’s this?”
“Henry Bowers,” he said.
“Who?”
“We met at a party. I’m from Derry. Bet you a dollar you couldn’t shotgun a beer in four seconds. You won.”
“Oh,” she said, and he could hear her smiling. “That’s your name. I had forgotten.”
“Yeah,” he said, smiling too, though he was a little taken aback that she’d forgotten his name. Even though he had forgotten hers, too.
“So, what’s up?” she asked. She was chewing gum. He could hear it popping.
“There’s this bonfire tonight. Wanna go?”
“What kinda bonfire?”
“The drinking kind.”
“Sounds good.”
“Should I swing by with the guys, or?”
“No, I gotta car. No sweat, just tell me where it is and I’ll show.”
He told her, and they talked for another minute before saying goodbye.
Good. So he had a little bit of ass lined up for the night. Hopefully her pussy would take his mind off Patrick’s dick. Hopefully.
He finished his chores and took a shower, making faces in the mirror while he dried his hair off. It was always so fucking fluffy and everywhere when it was wet.
When the guys showed up, he walked out to the car, pointing from the front seat to the back so Vic would get the message and move.
“Hey, Henry,” Patrick practically sang.
Henry grunted but didn’t say anything.
“How was yesterday?” Patrick asked. “We missed you.”
Henry snorted and got in the front. “It was fine,” he said, running a hand through his hair. “I called up that chick who knows how to shotgun a beer — Belch, you remember, tight little piece of ass with black hair? Anyway, I invited her out to the fire.”
Belch grinned, his eyes crinkling.
“Jesus,” said Vic. “How long’s it been since you got laid?”
Henry made the great mistake of looking over his shoulder at the back seat and got an eyeful of Patrick’s wicked smile. He looked away from him to Vic, grinning.
“A week,” he said. “Fucking long week. What about you, princess?”
Vic winked.
“What was his name again? The guy whose dick you sucked at the party?” Patrick asked.
Henry wasn’t dumb. He knew exactly who those questions were directed at, and it wasn’t Vic.
“James,” Vic said. “More of a grower than a shower.”
Belch and Henry groaned, Henry reaching back to swat at Vic’s knee.
“We don’t need to know that shit, Vicky,” Henry said.
“Yeah, yeah. Here’s a question — how come you guys can talk about dripping wet pussy but I can’t talk about the size of a guy’s dick?”
“You can talk about pussy, too, Vic,” said Patrick, chewing on one of his fingertips. “You just gotta get some first.”
“That’s not what I asked,” Vic shot back. “Besides, if I wanted pussy right now, I could get it. I’m just having so much fun with guys who are discovering dick for the first time.”
Henry felt his ears heat up.
“Okay,” he said. “Okay, I’m done with this.”
And then he reached over and turned the music up to blaring.
They arrived at the bonfire half an hour later, piling out of the car and lighting up cigarettes. Everyone except Belch smoked at parties — well, kinda. He preferred weed to smokes, and right now he was wondering out loud if there would be someone willing to share.
There always was. No one said no to them.
He and Vic wandered off into the crowd, joking and pushing each other every few steps. Suddenly, Henry was very alone with Patrick, something he didn’t want to be, not even in the slightest.
“Henry,” Patrick said in that sing-song way he had. He walked around so that he was in front of Henry, and Henry pushed his back up against the Trans Am, blocked in as Patrick put his hands on either side of Henry’s shoulders.
“What do you want, Hockstetter?” Henry snapped, looking away from him.
“How ‘bout a repeat performance before that sweet little girl shows up, hm?” Patrick asked. “What, did you think I’d just forget about that?”
“I fucking know you,” Henry said. Reminding him, not that he really needed to. Patrick knew. Patrick wasn’t dumb.
“Yeah, you do,” Patrick said.
Then he reached in and dragged one of his thumbs down Henry’s bottom lip, pulling it down.
“I’m not just gonna let go of that pretty little mouth, baby,” he said.
“Too fucking bad,” Henry barked as a car pulled up next to them. He pushed Patrick away as hard as he could, making him stumble away, grinning. “I said it was a one-time thing. I meant it.”
Out of the car climbed Alex, her hair a little more neat than Henry remembered, her skirt as daringly short as last time, her boots as tall. God. He’d only seen her once before, but she was a damn sight for sore eyes.
“Henry,” she said, grinning up at him.
“Alex,” he said.
“Who’s your friend?” she asked, eyes skipping over to Patrick for just the shortest moment, nothing more than a heartbeat.
“That’s Patrick. He’s an asshole.”
“Oh, I didn’t know he was your best friend,” she said, laughing.
In spite of himself, he laughed, too.
“Yeah, yeah. Let’s get you a drink,” he said, putting an arm around her and guiding her away from the cars, closer to the fire and the small grouping crowds of people. He heard Patrick suck his teeth.
Half an hour later, and Alex was gloriously drunk, swaying in Henry’s arms. She was short enough that he could put his chin on top of her head, and he did, holding her.
She turned in his arms.
“Guess what?” she asked.
“Mm. What?”
“Something new,” she said.
Then she stuck her tongue out. There was a bar through it, two balls on either end.
“Well, fuck,” he said.
“Isn’t that just the prettiest thing you ever saw?” she asked.
“Sure, baby. Wonder how it’d feel on my dick.”
She grinned and played with her tongue ring, making it scrape along her bottom teeth.
“You don’t even have to wait to find out,” she said.
“Oh, yeah?”
“Yeah. C’mon.”
She took him by the hand and pulled him away from the fire, out into the darkness by the cars. She found hers and pushed him up against it, pulling him down for a hard kiss. He was surprised that the tongue ring didn’t really feel like anything while kissing. Just something a little bit extra.
He slipped a hand down to her ass and grabbed it, pushing her skirt up so he could really get at her. She was probably wearing a thong, because there was more skin than fabric under his hand.
She got to her knees, undoing his pants and pulling out his dick before he could really think about it. Then — she licked a thick stripe up the shaft, and he closed his eyes, sighing, as the ball of her tongue ring slid over him.
“You like that, babe?” she asked.
“Yeah,” he said. A little shot. A little breathless.
She giggled and went right back at it, taking him into her mouth, licking at the slit, swirling her tongue and that little ball around the head before taking him further into her mouth. Into her throat, making her choke just a little bit.
He swallowed, suddenly remembering Patrick. How he didn’t choke. Not even a little bit.
He shook his head, then looked down at her. Her eyes were closed. Good.
He put a hand in her hair, gently pulling her on and off him. Then, he pulled her fully off. She pouted up at him.
“What?” she asked. “Do you not like it?”
He pulled her up by her hair and she let out a little whine, scrambling to her feet.
“Love it,” he said. “But I’m gonna fuck you now, okay, baby?”
He shouldn’t have said that. He should have just called her by her name.
When he heard baby, in his head echoed Patrick’s voice.
He pulled her in for a kiss, then turned them around until her back was pressed to the car. Still kissing her, he reached up under her skirt and pulled her panties down. She stepped out of them and bent down to pick them up. Then, she tucked them into his back pocket.
“For safe keeping,” she said.
“Mm.”
He pulled a condom out of his front pocket and rolled it on as she hitched her skirt up. He swiped two fingers over her cunt, then pushed in. She sighed, eyes fluttering closed. She slipped one leg up around his waist, and he pulled the other one up to match it, letting the car hold her up, fucking into her.
In a few minutes, he was coming. He pulled out of her and took the condom off, tying it before throwing it out further into the darkness. Then, he got to his knees and started eating her out, pushing his tongue into her, licking at her clit, pushing two fingers in and curling them up, pumping hard and fast.
It didn’t take her long to come, and when she did, she sunk to her knees in front of him with a whine, pulling his fingers into her mouth.
“Fuck, baby,” she said. “Holy fuck.”
He huffed out a laugh.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah,” she said, putting her forehead on his shoulder. “Gimme a minute.”
He grinned.
“Okay,” he said, putting a hand in her hair.
Finally, she took a big breath and kissed him, just a little soft thing. He kissed her back, a little more insistent, and she sighed.
She stood up, dusting dead grass off her knees, and pulled him to his feet. He tucked himself back into his pants. She started to walk away, and he caught her by the shoulder.
“Your panties,” he said.
“Keep ‘em,” she laughed. “You earned ‘em.”
He grinned.
“Okay.”
“Fuck, I gotta sober up,” she said.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah. I gotta — I gotta go home. Eventually.”
“Well, okay,” he said, taking her by the hand and pulling her toward the fire. “Let’s get you some water.”
An hour later, with Alex gone, he was ready to leave. He wandered around, looking for the guys. He found Vic and Belch sitting with a group of stoners, some baby-faced boy in Vic’s lap, all of them absolutely high.
“Jesus,” he said. “You guys are gone, aren’t you?”
The girl sitting next to Belch laughed, high-pitched and kinda annoying, putting her hand on Belch’s knee.
“Yeah,” Belch said slowly. “How was… what was her name?”
“Alex?”
“Hey, that’s my name,” said the boy on Vic’s lap.
Henry rolled his eyes.
“I’m gonna be honest, babe,” said Vic to the boy. “I had forgotten your name.”
“That’s okay,” the boy said, Alex said, pressing a kiss to Vic’s forehead. “You can call me whatever you want.”
“Alex was good,” Henry said, over the chuckles and giggles the whole group let out. “But I’m ready to go. Want me to drive?”
“Fuck, yeah, you better,” Belch said, standing.
The girl beside him started pouting, and he ran a hand over her hair, making her brighten up.
“Vic,” Henry barked. “C’mon.”
It was Vic’s turn to pout. But still, he pushed the boy Alex off his lap and stood.
“Where’s Hockstetter?” Henry asked.
“Looking for you,” Belch said slowly.
“Great,” Henry said.
All three of them started walking around, looking for Patrick. Patrick, who seemed to not want to be found. Finally, they gave up and walked out towards the Trans Am, lighting up cigarettes as they went. When they got there, the car was gently rocking.
“Found him,” Vic said, chuckling.
“Yay,” Henry snarked.
Just what he needed. To sit around waiting while Patrick got laid not two feet away from him.
They all heard a girl’s loud moan, and then the car stopped moving.
In a minute, both Patrick and the as yet nameless girl scrambled out of the car. The girl seemed exhausted. Patrick, of course, was grinning.
The girl was blonde. Her hair, short and scruffy. She wore a short dress that she pulled down in front, Patrick’s hand on her ass in the back. Her nose was familiar for a moment, and then it hit close to home.
Somehow, Patrick found the one girl who looked just like Henry.
Just like Henry’d fucked a girl who looked just like him.
“Get your hand off my ass and introduce me to your friends,” the girl said to Patrick.
Patrick kept his hand on her ass as he said, “guys, this is Hailey. Hailey, these are the guys.”
Not a proper introduction. She must not be sticking around.
“Now, go,” Patrick said. “They want to leave, and I’m going with them.”
She huffed, and left, giving Patrick a tight smile over her shoulder. He gave her a short wave, waiting until she looked away to roll his eyes.
“Now, that,” he said, “is a one-time thing.”
Henry knew exactly what that meant. It was for him. Because of course it was.
“What, no good?” Belch asked.
“Oh, she was fine,” Patrick said, making a dismissive hand gesture. “But not good enough to keep around.”
“Mm,” said Vic. “That’s a shame. She’s cute.”
Henry rolled his eyes.
“Let’s go. I’m driving,” he said.
“What?” Patrick asked.
“Belch and Vic got too high. I’m driving,” Henry said.
They all piled into the car, Belch and Vic sitting in the back. Much as it made Henry’s stomach tight to have Patrick up front with him, he couldn’t say anything about it.
Ten minutes into the drive home, and Belch and Vic were both asleep.
“Aw, look at that,” Patrick said, grinning. “The kids are all tuckered out.”
Henry snorted but didn’t say anything.
Then, Patrick put his hand on Henry’s knee. Henry pushed it off, and Patrick just did it again. Sighing, Henry let him. He was tired, didn’t feel like fighting every little thing.
“You know,” Patrick said, rubbing a little circle over Henry’s thigh with his thumb, “I could suck your dick right now, and they’d never know.”
“Patrick,” Henry hissed. “No.”
Patrick leaned in and nipped at Henry’s earlobe, then whispered in his ear.
“Fucking some little girl who looks just like me. Like I wouldn’t notice.”
“I didn’t fuck her ‘cause she looks like you, asshole. I fucked her ‘cause I like her. She’s cool.”
“Mm hm. Doesn’t take away the fact that she looks just like me.”
Henrys sighed and took a hand off the wheel to push Patrick away.
“What about Hailey or whatever her name was?” Henry spat. “What about her, huh? Talk about someone looking just like someone else.”
“Yeah, that was the plan. If I can’t have you, I wanted the next best thing. But she didn’t suck a dick like you, sweetheart.”
“I didn’t suck your dick, asshole. You fucked my fucking face,” Henry hissed, keeping his voice down even though he wanted to yell.
“Mm. And you did good. Much better than her.”
Henry sighed. Patrick got in his space again, licking at his neck, pressing little kisses to it. Unwanted, a shiver traveled through Henry’s body.
They got back to Derry without anything real or bad happening. Henry woke the guys up, dropped off Belch and then Vic, then headed to Patrick’s place, parking at the curb, wishing he’d had the good sense to drop Patrick off first.
Patrick unbuckled himself and then climbed into Henry’s lap. Henry sighed, looking away from him.
“Look at me,” Patrick barked. “Look at me right now.”
Henry’s eyes stayed to the side until Patrick grabbed his chin and pulled it to the front, forcing him to look at him. Henry swallowed, seeing the hungry look in Patrick’s eyes.
“What do you want?” he said, voice tired, a little too soft.
“You,” Patrick said. “Always you.”
Then he leaned in and kissed Henry. Henry willed himself to not respond, to just sit there and let it happen.
“Jesus,” said Patrick, pulling back. “You really think you don’t want this, don’t you?”
“I don’t want you, Patrick,” Henry said, shaking his head. He swallowed. “I don’t want you.”
Patrick ground down on his lap, against him, and Henry felt himself getting hard. His dick was a fucking traitor.
“Your dick says you do, baby,” Patrick said.
“Yeah, well, it doesn’t know what I’m thinking. I want you to leave.”
“No, you don’t,” Patrick said.
“Yeah, I do.”
Patrick kissed him again, harder this time, one hand going down to drag fingernails over Henry’s bulge. The little vibrations of the nails over the denim went straight to his fucking stomach, making it tight.
“What do I have to do to make you leave?” Henry said when the kiss had ended.
“Just kiss me. Once. Like you fucking mean it.”
“That’s it?”
“That’s it, baby.”
“I’m not your baby, Hockstetter.”
“You are. You just don’t know it, yet.”
Henry sighed and pulled Patrick into a hard kiss, holding him by the sides of his face, licking into his mouth, biting at his bottom lip. Patrick sighed into it, relaxing, hands going to pull at Henry’s hair. He pulled, hard, and unwanted, a moan came out of Henry’s throat.
“That’s it, baby, moan for me,” Patrick said, lips brushing Henry’s.
“You got your kiss,” Henry said. “Now, leave.”
“Aw, c’mon,” said Patrick. “Don’t you wanna see where this will go?”
“Not really,” Henry said, pushing Patrick off his lap. “Go.”
Patrick grinned and pulled Henry’s hair again, his thumb making little circles on the side of Henry’s neck. Then, he leaned in and pressed a short kiss to Henry’s lips, and got out of the car, walking to his door.
Without waiting to see if he made it inside, Henry drove away.

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chasing after dreams ch 10 & epilogue (vaguely nsfw)
poly bowers gang x ambiguously gendered reader
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previously on: you go to see an apartment, and sign to move in. you pack, inviting john over. patrick and then vic show up. then, the other boys. patrick and henry have something new they want to try. your mother wants to know if you’re sleeping with the boys.
summary: you finish packing up the boys, and you move. fast forward, and things are going pretty good.
word count: 2062
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The next two days were a mess of work and helping the boys pack. The last to get packed up was Henry, partially because he hadn’t told Butch yet that he was leaving.
The day before you were set to move in, you all went to the Bowers land. Henry was already there, waiting for you with a black eye, a cut on the very bottom edge of it. You flinched to see him like that, but stayed strong, if only for him.
Butch was sitting on the couch, empty beer bottles around him on the end table and the ground, watching you with quiet, hateful eyes. You went straight to Henry’s room, packing up his few belongings without a single word. He told you in a hushed voice that he wasn’t allowed to take any of his furniture, even the stuff he’d saved up for to buy himself, so there wasn’t much to take.
You left the house, boxes in hand, without a single word to Butch.
That was how Henry wanted it.
He was quiet for the rest of the night and stayed over at yours. You laid in your bed with him, running a hand through his hair, soothing him.
The next day, you woke up bright and early to the alarm on Henry’s phone, some Mindless Self Indulgence song you couldn’t identify from the thirty second clip that continued playing over and over again until he finally woke up and turned it off, grumbling.
Belch arrived, Henry’s boxes still in the trunk of the Trans Am, and you piled as much of your stuff as you could into the tiny trunk.
The day was spent driving between various houses and the new apartment, moving things inside, then going back to the car and starting all over again.
When it was all done, you went to Lucky Day, sitting in Marcia’s section.
“Moving day, huh?” she asked as she took your drink orders.
“Yeah,” you said, head propped up in your hands. “Fucking exhausted.”
“Well, it’s not over just yet,” she said. “You still gotta unpack, don’t you?”
Vic groaned, his forehead on the table.
“Don’t remind us,” he said, voice muffled.
“Don’t worry about it too much,” she said. “You got a lotta time to get it just right. It’s gonna be fine.”
You smiled up at her.
“Thanks, Marcia.”
You all sat quietly, tired, as she got your drinks. When she brought them to you, she asked for your food orders, one hand on your shoulder.
“Chicken fried steak,” said Belch.
“Cheeseburgers for us,” said Vic, motioning between him and Henry. “He doesn’t want anything but meat and cheese, I want everything.”
“Okay,” she said. “What about you, sugar?”
She was looking at Patrick. He grinned at her, trying to scare her. She raised an eyebrow at him, unimpressed.
“Side of beans and rice. And a slice of lemon meringue.”
“Sure thing. And you?”
You smiled up at her.
“Whatever comfort food you got,” you said.
She smiled at you.
“Big bowl of mac and a baked potato?”
“You’re the best,” you said.
You waited for your food, one hand in Henry’s hair. Your food took almost no time to come out, and she artfully put it down in front of all of you, listing off the orders as she did.
“Anything else I can get you kids?” she asked.
You looked between your boys, then said, “no, we’re good.”
“Okay. You just holler if you need anything else.”
“Will do.”
You ate, ravenous after your day of work, stealing bits and pieces of each other’s food.
When you were done, you paid, leaving Marcia a good tip, and left.
When you got home — your real home, the apartment — you all sat in a line on the pull-out couch Mrs. Huggins had helped you all buy.
“We got you something, baby,” said Patrick, getting up and getting something from one of the boxes littering the living room.
“Oh?”
“Yeah. We wanted something that shows you’re ours,” said Belch.
“Well, what is it?” you asked, making gimme hands. “Give it to me.”
“First get on your knees,” said Henry.
You did, kneeling in front of where they all sat.
Patrick took it out of its bag and showed it to you, hanging it from one finger in front of your face.
It was a collar. A chain, with a heart-shaped lock connecting the ends. It looked like a necklace, really, just a little bit heavy.
“Oh, wow,” you said.
“You like it, baby?” asked Vic.
“Oh my god, you guys. I love it.”
Henry grinned.
“Can I put it on?” you asked.
“Yeah, baby, just gimme a second,” said Patrick.
He took out a tiny key and unlocked the lock, kneeling in front of you and sliding the chain around your neck. Then, he locked it again, tucking the key into a suede pouch and putting it into his pocket.
“There,” he said, grinning at you. “It’s stainless steel, so you don’t ever have to take it off.”
“I love it,” you said again, one hand going to the lock, lifting it off your chest.
Then you pulled him in for a kiss.
Your phone buzzed in your pocket, and you pulled it out.
9:35pm. From: John
Happy moving day. Let me know if you need anything.
You grinned.
“Who’s that? Cleaver?” asked Vic.
“Yeah,” you said.
“What’s he want?”
“Nothing, really,” you said, putting your phone back in your pocket, pulling Vic in for a kiss. “Nothing at all.”
——————
EPILOGUE
EARLY FALL
You woke up in Vic’s arms, sandwiched between him and Henry. Patrick and Belch were in the other room.
Or so you thought. The door opened, letting in a little bit of light from the living room, and Belch walked in, two mugs of coffee in his hands. He reached across the bed and set down a cup for Henry, something one of you did every day to wake him up.
“Hey, baby,” he said.
You pulled out of Vic’s embrace and sat up, crawling down the bed and getting off. You went to Belch, taking the coffee, made just how you like it, and kissed him once on the cheek.
“How’d you sleep?” he asked.
“Mm. Not enough.”
You’d passed out after being fucked, rough, by Henry. He’d had a bad day, had spanked you for no reason, and now your ass was sore, if not red anymore. You’d been at it for hours, him not letting you come for a long time.
“I know, baby,” Belch said. “How’s your ass?”
He’d taken pictures of it in the middle of your spanking, and just thinking of the pictures sitting in his phone — along with all the other ones, you covered in cum, you with two dicks inside you, you on your knees, you even eating Henry’s ass one memorable afternoon — made you blush.
“It’s okay,” you said. “A little sore.”
“Well, c’mon. Breakfast’s on.”
You followed him into the kitchen as Vic and Henry stirred, Henry reaching for the cup of coffee by his head.
Patrick stood in the kitchen, eating pancakes with his fingers, completely naked. You were used to it by now — he never wore clothes if he didn’t have to.
“So,” you said. “It’s the first day of school.”
“Why the fuck would you tell us that?” Patrick said, obviously exhausted and gearing up for a bad day.
You leaned in and kissed him, stealing a bite of one of his pancakes after, popping it in your mouth with your fingers. He gave you a tight smile.
He spent less of his time pretending now that he didn’t have parents to worry about on the daily.
“John,” you said. “He wants me to come over tonight after work.”
“Mm,” said Belch. “He’s gonna want to unwind.”
“Yeah,” you said.
Belch flipped two pancakes onto a plate and handed them to you. You stood at the counter, buttering them and pouring on syrup. Then, you set to eating them, ravenous. You always ate like this after getting fucked the night before. Always.
Which was most mornings, if you were honest. You actually couldn’t remember the last night you hadn’t gotten fucked. You’d probably just fallen asleep as soon as you got home.
Not that that would stop Patrick or Vic. With your permission, they sometimes fucked you when you were asleep, being careful not to wake you. Sometimes they did, though, and that was fine. It just meant you got to participate. Patrick was the most careful about it, though. When he wanted to fuck you asleep, he wanted to fuck you asleep.
You ate in silence, Belch tunelessly humming something as he finished making pancakes. Vic wandered into the kitchen, followed by Henry, scratching his chest and sipping his coffee. You kissed them both hello and went back to eating.
You wondered, sometimes, what your parents were up to. But not often. You hadn’t spoken to either of them in months, had even passed them in Walmart with none of you saying a thing.
Your mother was still furious at you for fucking the boys. Your father, most likely, was embarrassed, and just doing what his wife did to not cause a fuss with her.
You wondered, sometimes, if Henry wondered about Butch. Sometimes he would see someone who looked just like him, and he would flinch, or he would shake, obviously memories of his time under his father’s roof playing in his head.
You caught him crying, once.
It had never happened again. Whether because he stopped himself from crying, or was more careful to not let you see, you didn’t know. But you never saw him shed another tear.
You finished your breakfast and got ready for work. You were still working full-time at Lucky Day, still with Marcia, though she swore she’d retire soon. Even if she did retire, you figured she’d still work, to bored to do anything other than serve anyone else. Too lonely to do anything other than talk to everyone all day.
When you were getting dressed, your clothes in the room where Patrick and Belch usually slept, your phone buzzed on the dresser. You picked it up.
7:32am. From: John
Are we still on for tonight?
You texted him back.
7:33am. To: John
You bet :)
You still saw him regularly. He’d gotten laid a few times, a couple of people his age that he’d picked up in bars in Bangor and Portland. You were glad to hear about them, would lay in his arms as he talked about them, their laughs, the cheesy jokes they told to get him to smile, the way they tasted, the way they took his cock. It was comforting, knowing you weren’t going to be the last good fuck a man had. It was also comforting to know that you could be friends with someone after you’d fucked them. It was a rare occurrence. He was special.
When you were almost done dressing, Belch came in, getting dressed himself so he could drive you to work. He was still humming to himself, something that sounded like Fat Bottomed Girls by Queen. You smiled, pulling on your uniform t-shirt and straightening it over your hips. You found your apron and pulled out the tips you’d made yesterday, putting them in the coffee can you had specifically for them. You’d count them when you got home tonight.
Belch came up behind you, his arms going around your waist. He kissed your neck, then sucked a hickey right under your ear, where you had no chance of covering it up. Usually, he was shy about leaving a mark on you, but today must be something special.
You smiled, putting a hand in his hair. When he was done, he pulled back, pressing one last kiss to your neck. Then, he got his hat and pulled you out into the living room, finding his keys, and waving goodbye to the guys.
You rode in silence, still tired in the early morning.
You got to the diner and hopped out, kissing him one last time before you went in.
When you got in, tying on your apron, Marcia said hello.
Then: “How’s it going with you and your boys?”
“Perfect,” you said, touching your collar, still heavy around your neck. “Absolutely perfect.”
chasing after dreams ch 9 (nsfw)
poly bowers gang x ambiguously gendered reader
masterpost
previously on: after fucking around with the boys, john asks you to come over. you go over to his place, and you’re very bad. the next day, you get punished for it. then, you go swimming at the quarry. you discuss moving in together.
summary: you go to see an apartment, and sign to move in. you pack, inviting john over. patrick and then vic show up. then, the other boys. patrick and henry have something new they want to try.
word count: 4398
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a/n: this chapter is dedicated to alex heckstetter because of the nasty, nasty ideas he gives me. <3
The next week went by, you being passed around between the guys. Going to Henry’s house to fuck around, sleeping with Belch after he fucked you. You didn’t see John again, but he did call you from time to time to check in.
You managed to talk Anne and Louise, your bosses, into putting you on full-time. That, with tips, and the money rolled in.
It sucked, not being able to see the guys as much as you used to. But you made do. You’d go to Vic’s after work, or Belch’s, or Patrick’s, and fuck around. Sometimes Henry would show up and fuck you raw while you sucked one of the other boys’ dicks.
Belch ended up getting the job, full-time, at the mechanic’s shop, and you all took turns using the car, some days letting him have it, others dropping him off and picking him up when he was ready to go.
The day of your appointment to see the apartment arrived, and Patrick managed to talk them into showing a bigger one. It wouldn’t be ready until the beginning of July, but that was only a week and a half away.
You asked off work that day, and the guys picked you up. You had a cigarette during the drive, nervous, jiggling one leg. Vic put his hand on your knee to stop you, and you sighed.
When you arrived at the apartment office, you all shook hands with the landlady. Then she showed you to the place.
It was really nothing special. Two bedrooms, a bathroom. A living room. A kitchen the size of a shoebox. But you were thinking about it already like it was home. And you could see yourself — you could see all of you — in it.
She needed a deposit before you could move in. You were the only one with enough in savings. But that was fine. You could pay the deposit. You could do it, to live with your boys.
You signed the papers.
You’d be moving in at the beginning of the month. You had a week and a half to get ready.
That night, you went home and called John, putting him on speaker so you could throw away the things you didn’t want to take with you.
“Hey, there, you,” he said. He sounded exhausted.
“Hey, yourself,” you said. “How are you?”
“Tired. Having a drink. How about you?”
“Oh, you know. I’m me. But guess what?”
“What?”
“Me and the guys are moving in together.”
He laughed.
“That’s wonderful,” he said. “But are you sure you want to?”
“I’m sure. We already live in each other’s pockets, anyway. What’s the difference?”
“The difference,” he said, pausing. You imagined him taking a sip of his whiskey. “The difference is that someone has to do the dishes.”
You laughed.
“That’ll be Vic. He’s surprisingly neat, actually.”
“Oh, really?”
“Yeah. You should see his room. Nothing out of place.”
“Huh. What are you doing right now? Your voice sounds far away.”
“I’m cleaning my room. Getting ready to pack. I have you on speaker.”
“Ah.”
“Yeah.”
“Would you like to come over tonight? We can have a drink, we can watch a movie. And go to sleep.”
You laughed, again.
“What a night,” you said.
“Mm. I’m a very simple man, underneath it all.”
“I’m actually not surprised at all. The most surprised I was, was when I saw your dick.”
You imagined him blushing as he paused before responding.
“Well.”
“Well.”
“When will you be here?” he asked.
“Do you want to pick me up? Or should I walk over?”
“Ah. I keep forgetting you don’t have a car.”
“I’ll get there. Just. Not now.”
“Mm. I’ll pick you up.”
He did, and in the cover of night, you gave him a short kiss before he drove you to his apartment.
You watched a movie, you had a drink. You laid your head in his lap and he pushed his fingers through your hair.
Then you went to bed, lying in his arms as you drifted away.
He woke you up in the morning with gentle kisses, and you sighed and opened your eyes.
“I have to be at the pool soon,” he said.
“Mm,” you grumbled, not yet quite awake.
“Would you like me to drive you home? You have to work today, don’t you?”
“Fuck. Yeah, I do.”
“Well, then. Get up. We’ll leave soon.”
He drove you home, and instead of kissing him goodbye, you squeezed his knee and got out of the car.
You went to work, your mind not quite with you. You messed up an order, busy thinking of your soon-to-be home with the guys. You fixed it, and the customer was understanding once you explained that you were moving, soon, and couldn’t keep your mind off it.
You went home and finally told your parents you were moving.
Your mother pursed her lips.
“Are you sure?” she asked.
“Yeah.”
You wanted to tell her that it was all you wanted, to live with them. You wanted to tell her that you were all together. You wanted to be loved, to be accepted. But your relationship with her wasn’t like that. It just wasn’t.
“Those boys are trouble,” said your father. He was watching a football game, not looking at you.
You sighed.
“I know they are,” you said.
“Just as long as you know what you’re getting into,” he said.
“When are you moving in?” your mother asked.
“The beginning of next month.”
“That’s only a few days away.”
“I know. I’m already packing.”
“Good.”
And just like that, the conversation was over. Just like that, they were ready to let you go.
You went to work the next day and went home after your eight-hour was done.
You texted John.
5:35pm. To: John
Wanna help me pack? My parents aren’t home
5:42pm. From: John
I’ll be there, soon.
You buzzed around your room, folding clothes up and shoving them into big black trash bags, grabbing a thing or two as you went between your closet and the bags, tucking things into boxes.
The doorbell rang, and you half ran to the door, swinging it open. John was on your front porch, and you let him in, leading him by the hand to your bedroom.
He looked around, taking in the half-undone look of it all.
“I would’ve liked to have seen it when it wasn’t partially packed,” he said.
He went to your closet and began taking things off hangers, carefully — more carefully than you had — folding them and setting them on your unmade bed.
You pointed at the trash bags your clothes were going into, and he sighed, taking the stack he’d made and gently putting it in the one that was almost full.
Then, he pulled you into a kiss. When it was over, he stayed like that, pressed up against you, his forehead leaning down on yours.
“I’ll be seeing less of you, won’t I?” he asked. “When you move in with them.”
You sighed, too, looking away from him.
“I hope not,” you said, pushing your face up to brush his lips with yours. “I hope not. But probably. You can find someone else. I won’t mind.”
He smiled. It was a sad little thing.
Then, the front door slammed open. You jumped away from each other, your eyes glued to your bedroom door, shut as it was.
“Honey, I’m home,” came Patrick’s unmistakable voice.
You sighed in relief, shutting your eyes for a moment.
Then, you called: “We’re in my room!”
“What, did Vic beat me here?” he asked, opening your door, eyes falling on John. “Oh. Okay.”
“Hello, Patrick,” John said.
He sounded uneasy. Like he was a little bit scared to be in the same room as Patrick.
“Hey, Mr. C. What’s up?”
Patrick flopped down on your bed, in the middle of boxes and piles of junk.
“We’re… packing,” said John.
“You were making out, weren’t you?”
“Patrick,” you said. You were scolding him a little bit.
“No, baby. Whatever you’re about to say, no.”
“Fine, we were kissing. You happy? Also, are you going to help, or are you just going to lay there and piss me off?”
“I’m here to look good and distract you from your work,” he said. “Or at least, I was. But I see my job has already been taken.”
You sighed.
Then you went back to packing, John staying well away from you.
“So, good news,” Patrick said, inspecting the fingernails on his left hand.
“What?” you asked.
“Got a job. Full-time.”
“Oh?” asked John. You could tell he was trying hard to get comfortable with Patrick, whatever that meant. “Where?”
“Record store on Main street.”
“They obviously haven’t heard of you,” John mumbled.
You laughed.
“What?” Patrick snapped.
“Your reputation must have not reached them,” you said.
There was a pause. Then, Patrick laughed, too.
“Come here and kiss me,” he said.
“Patrick,” you said.
“Kiss me, right now.”
You sighed and went over to him, leaning down and pressing a short kiss to his lips. He grinned wolfishly at you, and pulled you in for a deeper kiss, forcing his tongue into your mouth. You pushed him away, laughing nervously.
You looked over at John. He was scratching the back of his neck, one of your shirts in his other hand.
And he was blushing, too.
Patrick kept on grinning, looking between the two of you.
“Patrick,” you said.
“Yes, baby?”
“Be good.”
“Mm, let me think about that. No.”
Then you went over to John, feeling like it was only fair. You got up on your toes and kissed him, winding your arms around his neck. Surprised, he didn’t kiss you back for a moment. When he did, it was reluctant, slow. You pulled back, smiling.
You wished you could tell him it was all right.
You wished you could call him daddy, get him all worked up in front of one of your boyfriends.
But you didn’t. You couldn’t.
“Cute,” Patrick drawled.
“Be good or I won’t blow you later,” you said, not taking your eyes off John when you stepped away from him, going back to your desk.
“Aw, baby. It’s cute that you think you actually wouldn’t,” said Patrick.
You continued packing, John slowly warming up to Patrick, for another hour. Then, you ordered a couple of pizzas. Before they arrived, Vic did, unannounced.
“Hey,” he said, standing on your porch. “Is Pat here?”
“Yes, and so is John. So be good.”
He grinned at you, putting a hand over his heart.
“Oh, I will. I promise.”
“You little shit. That’s the most sarcastic promise I’ve ever fucking heard.”
You pulled him inside, and he said hello to John before going over and kissing Patrick. John raised his eyebrows at that but said nothing.
When the pizza arrived, you ate, all quiet.
“I got a job today,” Vic said. “Part time. The movie theater.”
“That’s great, babe,” you said.
Patrick picked the meat off his pizza, saying, “You gotta get another part time, though.”
“I know,” Vic sighed. “But I’m having trouble finding people willing to hire me.”
“If only you were a fucking sociopath like Pat,” you said, faking a sigh. “He probably talked his way into his job.”
“What?” he asked. “You got a fucking job, Patrick?”
“Sure did, baby. Record store.”
“That’s great,” said Vic.
John sat, quiet, looking between all of you. You leaned over and pressed a kiss to his cheek. He blushed, a little bit.
For another hour, you packed. Vic and John helped, Patrick lay on the bed, lazily watching all of you. Then, you let John go, leading him to the living room and shooing the boys away so you could say goodbye to him properly.
You kissed him, and his hands went to your waist. Then, hesitant, to your ass, pulling you close. You smiled into the kiss, then pulled back to look at him.
“I mean it,” you said. “You’ll find someone else.”
“What if I don’t want to?” he asked.
You pulled your head back farther, searching his face.
“John,” you said softly. “Are you in love with me?”
He laughed quietly. Gently.
“No,” he said. “No offense.”
“None taken.”
“What I meant was, I’m fairly satisfied with what I have right now. With what I have with you.”
You smiled.
“But if you want to fuck someone else, please do. You can even tell me about it if you want to.”
“I might,” he said, looking away from you. Then, quietly: “I’m happy for you, even though I can’t sleep with you.”
“Thanks. I wish I could sleep with you, too.”
He smiled.
“Well, I better go. Lydia needs to be walked, and I have dishes to do.”
You laughed.
“What an exciting night.”
“Mm. At least I can touch myself and think of you.”
“Oh, yeah?”
“Yeah. I think — I think a lot about the night we fucked. How good you looked on my cock.”
You grinned.
“I think about it a lot, too.”
“Well. Goodbye.”
“Bye, John.”
You leaned in and gave him another kiss.
Then, he left, giving you a short wave after he got in his car, before driving away.
You watched him go, then pulled out your cigarettes and lit one up, just thinking.
Two minutes into your cigarette, Henry and Belch pulled up in the Trans Am. You sighed, glad they hadn’t been here at the same time as John.
They got out, coming up the walk and both kissing you as soon as they reached you. Henry took the cigarette from you, holding it between his finger and thumb, taking a drag.
“What’re you up to today, baby?” Belch asked.
“Packing. Vic and Patrick are already here,” you said.
“Mm. I heard someone else was here, too,” said Henry.
You blushed.
“Yeah, I — I invited John over to help me pack,” you said.
“Were you good, baby?” Belch asked.
“I didn’t have time to be bad,” you said. “Patrick let himself in when John had only been here a little while.”
“Did you want to be bad?”
You grinned, then winked at him. He smiled back, eyes crinkling.
“I always want to be bad,” you said.
“Good thing you weren’t,” said Henry.
He dropped the cigarette and ground it under the heel of his boot.
“Let’s go,” he said.
Then, surprising you, he leaned in and kissed Belch.
“Is this a thing, now?” you asked.
“Yeah, baby. It’s a thing,” said Belch.
You smiled and took them both by the hand, leading them into the house, into your bedroom. When you got there, Patrick and Vic were already making out, sitting on the floor, Vic in Patrick’s lap.
“Are you gonna help me pack, or are you just going to keep on kissing?” you asked, holding back a laugh.
Patrick, not pulling his face away from Vic’s, flipped you off.
You fully laughed, then.
Then, you got back to it, putting books in boxes, telling Henry what to do with the remaining contents of your closet, things like that.
In a few hours, with little breaks here and there to kiss and have Henry and Belch finish the pizzas, you were done. All that was left unpacked was your work uniform and your cigarettes.
Henry sat down on your bed with a huff, patting one of his legs.
“C’mere, baby,” he said.
You did, sitting on his leg, each of yours on either side.
“Yes, daddy?” you said.
He kissed you, hard, pulling you in by the back of your neck, his other hand going to your ass, pulling you down harder on his leg.
You heard the door to the garage open, and your parents’ voices.
“Fuck,” you hissed.
“What, baby?” Vic asked.
“My fucking parents are home,” you said.
“I know,” Henry said, eyes sparkling. “How about we see how quiet you can be, hm?”
You flushed.
Then you kissed him again, sliding your tongue up against his.
“Pat and I have something we’ve wanted to try, baby,” he said, lips brushing yours.
“What’s that, daddy?”
“We wanna fuck you at the same time. Two dicks in that slutty little hole. How’s that sound, hm?”
If your face hadn’t already been bright red, it would have been, now.
“I —” you said, voice halting. “I’m not sure if I can, daddy.”
“Oh, you can. We’ll stretch you out nice and big, get you ready.”
Then he pushed you off his lap. Patrick came up behind you, hands all over you, pawing at you, the front of your pants. Pinching at your nipples through your shirt.
You sighed and pulled away from him, reluctant. You locked your bedroom door.
“Take off your clothes,” Vic said, one hand going to his crotch.
You stripped slowly. It wasn’t that you didn’t want to get to it — it was that you were a little scared. You wanted to — but fuck. Two cocks at the same time. Fuck.
When you were completely bare, Belch pushed you back on the bed, putting his hands on your hips and holding you still while he ate you out, swiping his tongue over your hole, then pushing it in. Then, he set to fingering you. First just a single finger, then working his way up to four. You put a hand to your mouth, biting down between your thumb and first finger to muffle your moans.
Vic pulled out his phone and started blasting Billy Idol. Belch pumped four fingers in and out of you to the sound of White Wedding.
Hey little sister, what have you done?
Hey little sister, who’s the only one?
Hey little sister, who’s your Superman?
Hey little sister, who’s the one you want?
Hey little sister, shotgun
It’s a nice day to start again
It’s a nice day for a white wedding
It’s a nice day to start again
You huffed and whined, already feeling stretched and unsure how much more you could take. Then, he slipped his thumb in, too, fisting you, and you yelped, your voice only barely covered up by Billy Idol’s.
When he was satisfied, he pulled his hand out of you, licking you one last time before he stood.
“Spread that pretty little hole for daddy,” Henry said, holding out his phone to take a picture.
You did, whining, holding your hole open with both hands. He snapped a picture, then put his phone down on your dresser, slowly stripping as you laid there, holding yourself open. He rolled on a condom.
“Stand up, baby,” Patrick said, holding one hand out for you. You took it, getting to your feet, legs shaking. You leaned up against him, and he smoothed one hand down your back, ending at your ass, roughly grabbing it.
Henry sat down on the bed, waving you over. You went to him, climbing into his lap, straddling him and kissing him over and over. He lined up with your hole and pushed in, pulling you down on him. You whimpered.
“That’s it, baby,” said Vic, one hand in your hair. “Take daddy’s cock so good.”
You sighed, gently pulling yourself up and down on Henry’s cock. He laid back and pulled you forward, your hands on his chest.
“Stay still,” said Patrick.
You looked back at him, stilling on Henry’s cock. You felt the head of Patrick’s pull at your hole, and you gasped. You weren’t sure you were stretched out enough.
Still, he pushed in, going still once he was in a few inches, letting you adjust. You took in great gasping breaths, breathing through the stretch.
Then, he started fucking you, pushing you forward and pulling you back on both of their cocks.
He grabbed you by the shoulders and pulled you so you were sitting up, lifting you by your hips and dropping you onto them again. Your hand shot to your mouth, silencing the yelp you wanted to let out. Vic and Belch went to stand where they could see you better, Belch with his phone out, taking pictures. You smiled, weak.
“That’s it, baby,” said Patrick. “Smile for the camera.”
You grinned at Belch, then looked down at the camera.
“Such a good little whore for us,” Henry said.
“Yeah,” you whispered.
“Say it,” said Vic. “Say you’re our good little whore.”
“I’m — oh, fuck, Patrick — I’m your good little whore.”
“That’s it, baby.”
In two minutes, Henry was coming. Patrick came right after him, pulling out of you. Henry stayed inside you, and Vic came around, pulling at the edges of your hole so he could push his tongue inside. Henry licked his fingers and put them to you, stroking you hard and fast.
You came with a barely muffled shout into his shoulder. Then, too sensitive to keep going, you pushed Henry and Vic away from you. You laid on the bed, next to Henry, just breathing, eyes shut tight.
“You did so good, baby,” Belch said, one hand smoothing over your ass. Then, he gave you a quick slap.
“Jesus, Belch,” you said, finally opening your eyes. “Lay off. Let me breathe.”
“Fine, baby,” he said.
He laid behind you, pulling you up to his chest. You felt him, hard, against your ass, and smiled. But god knew you didn’t have the energy to take care of it.
“Vic,” you said quietly.
“Yeah, baby?”
“Blow Belch. I can’t.”
“Sure you can, baby,” he said.
“Vic.”
“Baby.”
“Blow him,” Henry said, voice so hard it gave you no other option.
“Okay,” you said, sitting up.
Belch stood and undid his pants, and you knelt in front of him, taking him into your mouth. Your movements were slow, languid. You lazily licked him over, taking as much as you could into your mouth and then pulling off.
You felt a tongue at your hole, and you flinched. You looked behind you, and Vic was laying on the ground, head under you, eating you out as gently as he could. You smiled at him, put a hand on his chest for just a moment, and then went back to sucking Belch’s cock.
He came in your mouth, and you pulled off of him, holding his cum on your tongue.
“Stay like that for a second,” he said, pulling out his phone. He took a picture of your cum-covered tongue, and then you swallowed.
“Good, baby,” he said, kneeling in front of you to kiss you as Vic continued eating you out. “You’re so good for us, aren’t you?”
You nodded. He reached down and started stroking you. A little too sensitive, you came quickly, pushing up so Vic couldn’t reach you anymore.
“That’s enough,” you said.
“Will you at least blow me?” he asked, eyes shining.
You sighed, pretending to be put-upon.
“Fine,” you said, letting out a grin.
He got up and turned you around, and you bent down to undo his pants and reach inside, pulling out his cock and stroking it.
Then you took it into your mouth, swirling your tongue over the head before taking more of it. Your ass was in the air, and you felt another tongue at your hole. You looked over your shoulder for a bare moment, seeing Patrick eating you out. You smiled and hummed, going back to Vic.
He came in your mouth, and you swallowed it, again.
“That’s it, baby,” he said, one hand in your hair. “You love eating our cum, don’t you?”
You nodded.
“Good little slut,” Henry said. “Now, get dressed. We’re gonna go pack Belch’s shit.”
You got up and found your clothes, putting them on, still sore from getting fucked.
When you were dressed, you unlocked the door and followed the guys out, heading out to the car.
In the hallway, your mother caught you by the arm, forcing you to look at her. You waved the guys away, silently telling them to go on ahead, that you’d catch up to them.
“Let me talk to you before you go,” your mother said.
Taken aback, you froze. What the hell could she have to talk to you about?
“What?” you asked.
“Are you sleeping with them? All those boys?”
“What?”
“Are you sleeping with all those boys?”
You blanched.
“What I do is up to me,” you said.
“What you do is my business,” she said. “You’re my only child.”
You swallowed, face going hard.
“It’s never mattered to you before what I do,” you said.
“It matters to me that you’re whoring around with four different boys,” she said.
“No. Listen to me. It’s never mattered to you before, and it only matters now because you want to make me feel bad for doing what I want with my body.”
She opened her mouth to say something, and you cut her off, one of your hands slicing through the air between you.
“No. I’m done talking about this.”
“I’m done talking to you, period,” she said.
You took in a deep breath, then let it go.
“Fine. I’ll be gone soon, anyway.”
“Fine.”
You broke away from her, going out to the car, pissed. You lit up a cigarette as soon as you got in the car.
Sensing that something was off, Patrick asked, “what’d that bitch have to talk to you about?”
“She — she wanted to know if I was fucking all of you,” you said, exhaling a drag.
“Jesus,” said Belch, peeling away from the curb. “Like it’s her business.”
“I know,” you said, voice quiet.
“I know what you need,” he said.
“Don’t say dick,” you said. “I’ve had all I can take for one day.”
“No, you need Mama’s fried chicken. She’s making some today.”
“Oh, fuck,” you said. “Fuck yeah.”
You arrived at Belch’s house shortly, all getting hugs from Mrs. Huggins. Then, she fixed you a plate of her chicken, mashed potatoes, and green beans. You ate it all, even though you’d just had pizza.
When you were done eating, you all went to Belch’s room and started helping him pack. He didn’t have much, so it didn’t take long, just a couple hours. When you were done, you flopped down on the bed, and the boys all laid beside you.
“We’re actually doing it,” you said.
“Yeah,” said Vic. “We’re doing it.”
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chasing after dreams ch 8 (nsfw)
poly bowers gang x ambiguously gendered reader
masterpost
previously on: you tell mr john cleaver that you can’t fuck him again. the boys go see you at work. after, you all go to henry’s place to get fucked and fuck around.
summary: after fucking around with the boys, john asks you to come over. you go over to his place, and you’re very bad. the next day, you get punished for it. then, you go swimming at the quarry.
word count: 3720
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As you laid in the hay loft with your boys, all fucked out, your phone buzzed. You looked across the loft to where it lay, forgotten, on the floor.
“Pass me my phone, Pat?” you asked.
He picked it up, typing in your passcode and reading it.
“Patrick, you asshole,” you said. You didn’t know what you expected, though.
“John wants to fuck you,” he said, finally passing the phone down the line to you.
5:46pm. From: John
I happen to have an entire pizza that I can’t eat alone. Would you mind helping me eat it?
You grinned.
“What?” Belch asked. “Who’s John?”
“Yeah, who — oh. Cleaver,” said Vic.
“Don’t you dare fuck him again, baby,” Henry said, gearing up to a growl.
“I won’t, daddy,” you said, voice soft. “I told him I can’t, and he understands.”
“Good. He needs to know who you really belong to.”
You smiled.
“I think he knows.”
“Do you want us to take you there?” Belch asked.
“If you don’t mind. We’re just gonna eat pizza and probably make out. Maybe even cuddle.”
Vic laughed.
“What a guy,” he said.
You all got up, collecting your trash and the yet to be empty bottles of booze. Then, you took it all inside and got in the car, driving off towards the center of town. You gave Belch directions on how to get to John’s place, and when you arrived, the boys all got out.
“What are you doing?” you asked.
“What, you just thought we’d let you walk in there without reminding him who you belong to?” Patrick asked.
“Fine,” you huffed, climbing the stairs to John’s door, knocking on it.
He opened it in a moment, happy to see you. Then his eyes fell on the guys.
“Gentlemen,” he said.
“Hey, Mr. C,” said Vic, putting an arm around your neck.
“You can call me John,” John said.
“That’s okay,” said Belch.
You shot him a look.
Then, rolling your eyes, you turned and gave each boy a quick kiss, ending with Henry.
“Remember who you belong to,” he said against your lips.
You sighed and pulled away from him. Then, you went in the door, closing it with a short, “bye, now.”
John laughed.
“They’re more territorial than I thought,” he said, leading you to the couch. A pizza box was on the coffee table.
“I’m not sure why I was surprised,” you said.
He sat, and you climbed into his lap, kissing him. Surprised, his hands went to your ass, holding you down on him.
“Are you sure you should be kissing me, with how they acted?” he asked when the kiss was over.
You shifted your hips, grinding down on him.
“I’m sure, daddy,” you said, then caught yourself, smiling. “Oh, fuck. I forgot.”
“You did not,” he said. “You wanted to call me that. You wouldn’t forget.”
“Maybe I did,” you said. “What are you going to do about it?”
“Well, I could spank you, but that could easily become me fucking you. And we don’t want that, do we?”
You grinned, telling him without a word that yes, you wanted that.
“Listen,” he said.
“No, you listen. I’m sure you have it in you to restrain yourself from just… pushing your cock into me nice and slow after spanking me raw.”
He swallowed and looked away from you. Then, he reached over and picked up the glass of whiskey on the end table and downed it in one gulp.
“I want to spank you so bad,” he said. “But I really shouldn’t.”
“You could,” you said, grinding down harder on him.
You could feel him getting hard under you, and it made you smile.
“Do you think you deserve it?” he asked.
“Well, I got fucked by my boyfriends today,” you said. “And now I’m at an older man’s house, teasing him. I think I’ve been bad.”
“How did they fuck you?”
“Well, I rode Patrick. And then I blew Belch.”
“Mm. And now you’re here, begging me to fuck you. You’re being very naughty.”
You wiggled your ass in his hands. Then, you leaned in and pulled his bottom lip between your teeth, gently nibbling at it.
“You certainly have a talent for making people want to fuck you,” he said when you pulled away.
“I sure do, daddy.” You grinned. “Oh, damn. I can’t believe I did it again.”
“I can.”
He stood, wrapping your legs around his waist, kissing you as he walked to you his bedroom. Lydia, in the armchair in the corner, looked up when you came in.
He sat on his bed, pushing you off of him.
“Take off your pants,” he said.
“Are you gonna fuck me?”
“No, but I want to see you. Take your pants off. Now.”
You untied your boots and slipped them off, then took off your pants.
“Now sit right here,” he said, patting his left thigh.
You did, one leg on either side. You ground down on it, letting him feel how aroused you were. Riding his thigh for all it was worth, hips tilted forward to get more friction.
“Be good,” he warned.
You sighed and kissed him.
“I’m not good at being good,” you said. “Not when there’s nothing in it for me.”
“I know,” he said. “It’s not easy, but you can do it. Just imagine how mad Henry and the boys would be if I made you come.”
You sucked in a breath.
“That’s — that’s actually what I’m hoping for.”
“Oh, yeah?” he asked. “You want them mad at you?”
You nodded.
“Just imagine the look on Henry’s face. How hard he’d spank me. He already said he would if I disobeyed him.”
“Hm.”
“What? Are you afraid of having Henry mad at you?”
“You’re… with him, and I quite desperately want to fuck you again. He’s already mad at me.”
“What if,” you said, “what if I get off without you touching me?”
“Mm?”
“What if I just ride your leg, and I come, and you have nothing to do with it? What if you just watch me get off?”
He groaned and pulled you into a kiss, hands going to your hips, holding you down harder on his thigh.
“Go on,” he said. “I want to see you come.”
You rode his thigh, hands on his shoulders, tipping your hips forward and back. Then, you put a hand in your underwear, stroking at yourself, nice and fast.
“Bet you wanna fuck me so bad right now,” you said.
He swallowed.
“I do,” he said. “There’s nothing I want more than to be inside you.”
“Good,” you gasped.
In two more minutes, you were coming. You took your hands out of your underwear and held them up in front of his mouth, giving him a sly look. He took your fingers into his mouth, licking them clean, groaning.
Then he pushed you off his lap onto the bed, going to lay with you, spooning up behind you. You could feel his hard cock in his jeans, pressed up against your ass. You wiggled, and he sighed.
“If I could fuck you, I would,” he said.
“You can always touch yourself and think of me,” you said. “There’s no rule about that.”
“Thank god for that,” he said. “I’m actually fairly close right now.”
“Just from watching me?” you asked.
“Just from watching you.”
“Huh.”
You drifted off to sleep in his arms, pizza forgotten. When you woke, he was still awake, but sitting up, back against the headboard.
“Hey,” you said, rolling over and looking at him.
“You should go home,” he said.
“Aw,” you said.
But you knew he was right.
“Did you get off?” you asked.
“I did,” he said, taking a deep breath. “Watching you sleep. Staring at your ass. Thinking about spanking you.”
You blushed.
You got up and put your pants on, petting Lydia before putting your shoes back on.
Then, you went over and kissed him again.
“Thank you,” you said.
“Mm. For what?”
“For letting me ride your leg. For not fucking me, even though I want you to.”
“You’re welcome, then,” he said.
“I’ll show myself out,” you said.
And you did, walking home in the summer dusk.
The next morning, you woke up to a text.
10:13am. From: Henry
We’re going swimming. Be ready baby
You sighed and got up, hunting down the bathing suit you usually wore to the quarry and put it on, slipping a shirt on over it.
Then you ate breakfast, walking past your parents without so much as a look in their direction.
You went out on the front porch, having your first cigarette of the day.
The boys showed up, Henry hopping out to give you a kiss and let you into the back seat. When you got there, you kissed both Patrick and Vic hello, still sleepy. You put your head on Vic’s shoulder, and he put an arm around you.
“So,” said Belch, pulling away from your house. “How was your date… thing?”
You laughed, short.
“It was… good.”
“Were you good, baby?” Henry asked.
You swallowed, remembering that no, you hadn’t been. Then, you smiled, sly.
Patrick looked you over, taking you by the jaw and forcing you to look at him.
“Henry,” he barked.
“Yeah?”
“Let’s go home. Our baby needs a spanking, I think.”
“Why’s that?” Henry asked, turning, giving you that terrifying smile that meant you were in for something bad. “What’d you do, baby?”
“I — well, I kissed him, but you said that was all right?”
“Yeah, that’s fine. What else?”
“I called him daddy, and I wasn’t supposed to.”
His smile was just growing wider and wilder and more frantic by the second.
“We talked about that, baby. I’m your daddy now,” he said.
“I know. I guess — I guess I just wanted him to spank me.” Then you paused, and in a small voice said, “I wanted him to fuck me.”
“What was that?” Henry barked.
“I wanted him to fuck me,” you said, louder.
“That’s what I thought,” he said. “Anything else you wanna tell us, baby?”
You opened your mouth and closed it again.
Then: “I rode his thigh. I made myself come so he could watch me.”
“Belch. Home. Now. Please and fucking thank you.”
You blanched. Henry didn’t say please or thank you unless he was absolutely pissed.
Oh, god, you were in so much trouble. Much more than you thought you’d be.
Home, today, was Patrick’s garage. Henry hauled you out of the back seat by your upper arm, his grip on you bruising. He dragged you into the garage and pushed you down on the floor. You went, letting out a huff as you landed on your knees.
“Daddy?” you said quietly.
He glanced at you as he took off his belt.
“Yeah, baby?”
“I didn’t do it ‘cause you’re not enough, I —”
“That’s exactly why you did it,” Patrick said. He ground out the words between his teeth, wildly excited. “If any of us was enough, you wouldn’t have come for him. You needed to. You needed to be a little whore, sweetheart.”
You swallowed.
“I guess,” you said.
“Take off your pants,” said Henry. “Now.”
You undid your swim shorts and pushed them down to the floor, to your knees. Bare from the waist down, you stood there on your knees, watching Henry as he folded his belt in half, then slapped it against his open waiting palm.
“You sure you should use your belt, Hank?” Belch asked. His voice was quiet, thoughtful.
“Our baby comes for another man, and you’re worried about a belt,” Henry snarled in response. Then he turned back to you, getting on his knees beside you. “Head down, ass up.”
You did it, keeping your eyes on the belt. He slapped it again against his palm, then swatted you on the ass with it. You yelped, and without thinking about it, inched forwards on your knees, trying to get away.
“Oh, baby. I haven’t even started yet. You think that’s bad?” Henry asked.
Terrified, you nodded.
“But don’t you deserve it?” Patrick asked, coming to kneel next to your head, pulling your face into his lap. “Nasty little thing. You practically cheated on us.”
You whimpered, nodding, face buried in the space between his legs. Your whimper turned to a whine as Henry’s belt came down again, this time full force on your upper thighs.
And again, on your ass. And again, on your upper thighs. Trading off, Henry laid into you, one hit right after another, swearing at you the whole time, calling you every nasty thing in the book.
After fifteen strikes — or something like that, you weren’t counting — he stopped. And stood.
“I think that’ll teach you your lesson, hm?” he asked, putting his belt back on.
“Yeah,” you sighed.
God, your ass hurt.
You felt someone kneel behind you, but didn’t look back until a tongue ran over your hole. It was Belch, gently eating you out, pushing his tongue inside you, reaching up to stroke at you.
You moaned, pushing back into his touch. He was spreading you to get to your hole, hands heavy on your sore ass, but it felt strangely good. It felt like it ought to — bright, fiery, red.
You came a minute later without knowing that you’d been that wound up. He pulled back, licking up your cum and wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.
“There, baby,” he said, swatting you once on the ass. You whimpered. “That’ll do it.”
You sighed into Patrick’s lap, then gingerly pushed up until you were kneeling. You pulled your swim shorts up your sore ass, straightening your shirt.
You tried to stand, and failed, falling on your ass with a gasp.
“Holy shit,” you said. “Henry — daddy — holy shit.”
“So what’d we learn, huh?” Vic asked.
“If I want to come, I need to come for one of you,” you said, voice halting.
“Yes, now get your phone,” said Henry.
You got your phone.
“Call John and tell him that’s not gonna happen again. Never. That we punished you for it. And that if he lets you do that again, we’re gonna have a problem.”
You got into your contacts, and dialed John.
It went to voicemail.
“Hello, this is John Cleaver. Please leave me your number and a message.”
“Uh, hey, John,” you said, nervous. “Listen, what happened last night can’t happen again. Not us seeing each other, but — me coming for you. We can’t do that. Henry — uh, spanked me for it. And he says that if you let me do that again, you’re gonna have a problem. Anyway, I’ll talk to you soon. Bye.”
You hung up and hung your head.
“Now, now,” said Patrick. “Don’t be sad, sweetheart. It’s just one less dick. What’s the fuss?”
You sighed. You weren’t sure.
“You do that shit again, and I’m not gonna let you see him anymore,” Henry said. “Now c’mon. We’re going swimming.”
You slowly stood, getting to your feet and following your boys out to the car. You gingerly got to your seat in the middle of the back.
Vic put his arm around you.
“You’re fine,” he said. “You’re tough. You can take it.”
“I’m tough enough for a fight,” you sighed. “For this, though? I’m not so sure.”
He kissed you right under the ear before pulling you into a real kiss.
He whispered against your lips: “You did so good. So good.”
“Thanks,” you said.
Patrick hauled your legs up into his lap and set to massaging one of your calves.
“Uh, Pat?” you asked. “What the fuck are you doing?”
“Making you loosen the fuck up. You’re so tense.”
“Uh huh. You’re just groping me for no reason.”
He grinned at you, then licked his lips.
“If I wanted to be groping you, you’d be naked right now, sweetheart.”
You grinned back, your first real smile since you got belted.
“There it is,” said Belch, watching you in the rearview. “There’s that smile.”
You beamed at him, and he smiled back, eyes crinkling.
You arrived at the quarry in ten minutes, piling out and walking to your usual spot. It was absolutely crawling with younger kids, and you scared them away, yelling and throwing rocks until they got the message.
Henry even took out his knife, pressing the button to let the blade out, holding it out near one kid who got brave.
The kid wasn’t so brave after that. They all scattered to the sound of you laughing.
“C’mon,” Henry said, gesturing to the cliff before he pulled his shirt off over his head.
“You first,” you said, pulling your own shirt off.
“No, please, by all means,” he said, grinning.
“Henry,” you said as he stalked towards you.
“Baby,” he said.
And then he pushed you off the cliff.
“Fuck you!” you yelled as you fell toward the water.
You hit it with a splash, surfacing just before he hit the water with a whoop.
You tread water, waiting for him to surface. When he did, you splashed him with both hands. Some of it got in his mouth, and he sputtered and spat, splashing you back. Vic and Belch jumped in together, and you watched as they pushed back up, laughing. Patrick climbed down the rocks and got situated, pulling out a cigarette and lighting up.
You swam for something like half an hour, playing chicken against Henry and Vic, on Belch’s shoulders. You won, making Vic fall into the water.
There was one really good thing about all of this — the cold water soothed your ass and thighs. You were reluctant to leave it, but when the guys decided they were done swimming, they were done. You got out of the water, choosing to sit in Patrick’s lap — as he grumbled about you getting him all wet — rather than on the rocks.
“God,” Vic said, lighting up a cigarette once his hands were actually dry. “What are we gonna do for the rest of our lives?”
That hit you hard. You knew it couldn’t always be like this, working in the mornings and having an occasional day off, spending your nights with the guys, fucking around, getting loaded, getting high.
“Haven’t thought about it,” said Henry.
You knew that was a lie. You knew, at the very least, that he was dying to get away from Butch. To do something, anything, that his father couldn’t control. You didn’t understand as much as you wanted to. Your parents had been done parenting you for months, but they weren’t like Butch. Neglect was their poison, not abuse.
“We all need to get jobs,” Belch said quietly. “I applied at the mechanic’s.”
“Oh, yeah?” you asked. “Which one?”
“The good one. Flusche’s.”
You grinned.
“You think they’ll give you the job?”
“They take one look at the Trans Am, they’d have no other choice,” Vic said, passing you his cigarette.
You pressed a short kiss to his lips before taking it. He snapped his teeth at you, grinning.
“What about you, Patrick? What’re you gonna do?” you asked.
“See if I can get my parents to fucking pay for me to leave them alone,” he said. Then, he paused. “They kinda want me to move out.”
You put an arm around his shoulders, pulling his face into your chest, playing at comforting him.
“There, there,” you said.
Without answering, he bit down on your neck. You let out a short whimper, settling into it as he set to sucking a hickey next to Vic’s quickly disappearing mark.
When he was done, he said, “you should move in with me, baby. They’re already looking at apartments for me.”
“Oh, yeah?”
You thought about it. About what it would be like to get to come home to him. You already sort of did. But what would it be like to not be able to sleep, and just… go to his room and tell him you wanted to go for a walk? No meeting up. Just leaving.
“Yeah. We, actually, we could all live together. All of us.”
You looked at the guys. But especially at Henry. His eyes had an almost wistful look in them, and you watched as he shook it off.
“Like I’d want to live with you, Hockstetter,” Henry said. “You’re a fucking slob.”
“Well, you can always pick up after me,” Patrick said.
“I’d rather die,” Henry said, lighting up a cigarette.
“But just think about it, Henry,” you said. “Just think about it. You could — you could just come home and get your dick sucked, like, every day. You could come home and fuck me, daddy. You could have me in your bed.”
You gave him your best begging eyes. You really put your back into it, too, and you saw his resolve breaking little by little.
“It would be so good,” you said. “C’mon. We could get a place with two bedrooms, a pull-out couch for when one of us wants to sleep alone. It would be so good.”
“All right,” he said, finally. “Beats living with that asshole.”
You beamed, then got out of Patrick’s lap to go to Henry, kissing him over and over again all over his face.
“Thank you,” you said.
“Hey, now,” said Belch. “We don’t even know if we’ll find somewhere. We gotta wait and see.”
“I actually have an appointment in a week for a place. I might get them to show me a bigger apartment, if you guys want,” Patrick said, nonchalant.
You grinned at him, and he broke his uninterested face to smile at you.
“This is great,” you said. “Now all I need is a full-time job.”
“You think they might put you on forty hours at the diner?” asked Belch.
“If I beg. And I’m very good at begging.”
“Yeah, you are, baby,” Patrick said, reaching out to swat at your ass. You laughed, batting his hand away.
You all lounged around in the summer sun for a few more hours, talking about nothing.
But it kept replaying in your head. How you could do this. You could move in with them. You could do it.
chasing after dreams ch 7 (nsfw)
poly bowers gang x ambiguously gendered reader
masterpost
previously on: you FINALLY fuck mr. john cleaver. then, you go to henry’s place to collect your twenty dollars. after, you go to vic to talk about it.
summary: you tell mr john cleaver that you can’t fuck him again. the boys go see you at work. after, you all go to henry’s place to get fucked and fuck around.
word count: 3295
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You woke up the next day bright and early, sun streaming through the window onto the bed, dousing you and Vic in morning light.
You picked your phone up and got your cigarettes and went out to the back porch. You called Mr. Cleaver. John.
You wanted to get used to thinking of him as John.
“Well, hello,” he said.
“Hi,” you said. You were smiling but a little sad.
“What’s that voice for?”
“Oh, you noticed.”
“I’ve been told I’m very observant.”
“We can’t sleep together again. I got with Henry and he… had some conditions.”
“Well. You certainly move fast.”
“Now will you believe I’m a whore?”
“I will never call you that. Never.”
You smiled wider.
“He said we can still see each other, just… you can’t fuck me.”
“Can you fuck me?”
“Smart,” you said. “But something tells me the answer’d be no.”
“Mm. Would you like to still be friends?”
“Friends who kiss each other sometimes?”
He laughed. “Friends with very simple benefits.”
“I — I wouldn’t mind still being cuddled by you,” you said. “You’re a good cuddler.”
“Well,” he said. “If you need time off from your multiple boyfriends, give me a call. Just because we can’t sleep together doesn’t mean we can’t sleep beside each other.”
“Okay,” you said, beaming. Then, you paused. “Oh, and I can’t call you daddy.”
He sighed.
“From what I know about Henry, I’ll assume he’s taken on that role?”
“Yep. And he’s the jealous type.”
“You don’t say.”
“Oh, but I do.”
“Well, I’m glad you talked to me. And I’m glad you were honest. But I have to leave in three minutes for the pool. I’ll talk to you later?”
“Sure.”
“Goodbye.”
“Bye, John.”
You heard the door open behind you and Vic came up, putting his arms around your middle. You lit a cigarette, taking a drag and passing it to him. He took it and nuzzled into the side of your neck.
“Who you talking to?” he asked.
“Cleaver. John.”
“Mm. What about?”
“How we can’t fuck again. ‘Cause Henry says so.”
He made a short dismissive sound.
“He’s just worried he can’t compete with that dick,” he said.
“I know. And he kinda can’t. But I agreed to it, so.”
“Yeah.”
He kissed your neck, a short press of his lips to your skin, right under your ear.
“I wanna give you a hickey,” he said.
“Oh, yeah?”
“Yeah. Partially ‘cause I want people to know you’re taken. But also ‘cause I want to piss off the guys ‘cause they didn’t do it first.”
You laughed and turned in his arms, taking the cigarette from him. You took a drag and blew the smoke away from his face.
“Where do you wanna do it?” you asked.
“Right here,” he said, touching your neck where the collar of your t-shirt began. “So you can kinda hide it but kinda not.”
“Okay,” you said, smiling.
And he did it, biting down before he sucked on your sensitive skin. When he was satisfied, he pulled off, wiping the spit away with his fingers.
“Perfect,” he said.
“Good, babe,” you said, pulling him in for a kiss. “I’m glad you’re happy with it.”
“Well,” he said. “You better go. Tables aren’t gonna wait themselves.”
“No, they’re not.”
You went home, got changed, went to work. Nothing much happened for a couple hours — you spent a lot of time gossiping with Marcia about the new waitress who was an absolute mess and needed to get her life in order, but nothing else of note happened.
The bell over the door rang while you were talking to Marcia, and you looked over your shoulder. It was the boys — all of them. Henry must have caved and finally said something to the others to end their fighting.
You rushed over and guided them to a booth in your section, pulling out your notepad and pen.
“So,” you said. “Why’re you guys here?”
“Just wanted to see our baby,” Belch said, reaching out and touching your elbow for a second.
“Oh, yeah?” you asked, smiling. “You gonna leave me a good tip?”
“As long as you flirt with us like the other customers, sure,” Patrick drawled, blowing his straw wrapper across the table at Vic.
“Well,” you said, putting both hands on the table and leaning in like you were telling a secret. “What can I get for my boys?”
“Your ass,” Henry said, grinning.
“C’mon,” you said. “You can’t have dessert first.”
Vic laughed so hard he choked and Henry pounded him on the back, laughing along.
“How ‘bout a pot of coffee, baby?” Belch asked.
“Sure,” you said, writing it down.
Then, you left the table, blowing them all a kiss.
You got the coffee and four cups, plunking it all down on the table. When Vic had finished making his cup perfect, you picked it up and took a sip.
“What can I get you guys to eat? And don’t say me,” you said.
Henry, who assumedly had been opening his mouth to do just that, snapped his mouth shut.
“Toast, eggs, and hash browns. Over easy,” said Vic.
“Same for me, but scrambled,” said Henry.
“Belch?” you asked.
“Omelet. With ham.”
“Okay. Pat?”
“Slice of lemon meringue pie.”
You did a double take.
“Are you serious?”
“If I can’t have dessert first, I may as well have pie,” he said, grinning at you.
You laughed.
“What the fuck is that on your neck?” Henry asked, squinting at it.
You widened your eyes in innocence.
“Well, it’s a hickey, Henry,” you said.
“Did fucking Cleaver leave a hickey on you and I didn’t see?” he growled.
“No, John didn’t leave a hickey on me.”
“Oh, he’s John, now?” he said, gearing up to jealousy of enormous proportions.
“That’s his name, Henry. We’re friends. I can’t just call him Cleaver for the rest of our lives.”
He let that part go, grumbling, “well, then, who did it?”
“Look to your left,” you said.
He did. Vic smiled and waved.
“Oh, fuck you, Vic,” Henry said.
Then, miracle of miracles, he cracked a smile. He pulled Vic into a headlock and messed with his hair.
You rolled your eyes and walked away, putting their orders in. A few minutes later, Marcia came back to the wait staff station to chat.
“Well, sugar, I think now’s the time to tell you how you’re in a mess of trouble,” she said.
“Why’s that?”
“Don’t go flirting with four boys at once. That’ll only lead to a fight.”
You turned to face her and pulled down the neck of your uniform t-shirt, showing her the entire hickey.
“Those four boys,” you said, “are all my boyfriends. And if they fight over me, I’ll beat their asses.”
She laughed, throwing her hands in the air.
“I knew all that flirting would get you somewhere, honey, but I never thought it’d be here,” she said, wiping her eyes.
Then she pulled you in for a hug, completely surprising you.
“You don’t think I’m a total whore for this?” you asked.
“Honey,” she said. “You’re on that free love stuff my parents were crazy about. Ain’t nothing wrong with that.”
You pulled back from the hug, smiling.
“Okay,” you said.
“Order up!” shouted Josue, the head chef. “That means you,” he added, glaring you down through the window.
“Sorry, sorry,” you said, hands in the air.
You loaded up a tray and carried your boys’ food to them, carefully setting down the plates in front of them. Then, you made Patrick scoot over so you could sit next to him, have a bite of his pie.
You took a bite, and he put his arm around your waist.
“I’m gonna fuck you so hard later you won’t be able to walk,” he whispered in your ear.
You kept a straight face, but you blushed so hard that all of your boys laughed. Vic leaned across the table and pecked you on the lips, and you batted him away.
“You guys are gonna get me in trouble,” you said, glancing around.
Marcia was watching with a knowing smile.
“Good. If we get you in trouble, maybe we can give you a spanking,” said Henry.
“Henry,” you warned.
“Baby,” he said, imitating your tone. Then he leaned in and hissed, “I’ll do what I want to. Talk back to me and I’ll spank your ass red, hear me?”
“Henry.”
“Baby.”
“I’m not getting paid to do what you tell me to do. You’re literally not the boss of me.”
He grinned, and it put knots in your stomach. You swallowed.
“I can and will make a scene if I want to,” he said. “You don’t want everyone here to know you call me daddy, do you?”
You bit your lip, then finally looked away.
“No,” you said.
“That’s it, baby,” said Patrick, leaning in to nip at your earlobe.
“I have to get back to work,” you said. “I have other tables.”
“Okay, baby,” said Belch. “You go. We’ll leave you alone, won’t we, boys?”
Henry glared at him for a bare moment before you stood and walked away, going to pick up a pitcher of ice water and do your rounds.
When the boys left, they each gave you a kiss on the cheek.
And a damn good tip.
And when you got off work, they were waiting outside in the Trans Am.
“Get in,” said Henry.
You smiled as he got out to push the seat forward for you to climb in the back. You ended up on Vic’s lap, one of Patrick’s hands high up on your thigh. Patrick and Vic kissed behind you, and Henry looked back at all of you. Almost surprised to see the boys going at it, but not really.
“So, what are we up to today?” you asked.
“Getting drunk,” Henry said. “At mine.”
“Thank god,” you said. “I wanna unwind a little.”
“Mm,” said Belch. “Work?”
“Yeah. Here’s something funny,” you said. “I told Marcia — you know Marcia, the older lady I work with — anyway, I told her about all of us being a thing, and she just laughed. Called it free love, like in the sixties.”
Henry snorted.
“What are we?” he asked. “Fucking hippies now?”
“Maybe not you,” said Patrick.
You laughed.
“What, baby?” asked Belch.
“Sorry, I’m just — I’m just imagining Henry with flowers in his hair,” you chuckled.
“So pretty,” Vic cooed, making you laugh harder.
You arrived at Henry’s place soon, all piling out and going inside to get the cooler he kept in his closet. Then, you took it out to the barn, Belch putting it on his shoulder and carrying it up to the hay loft. You all got settled in a line, Patrick and Henry to your sides, Belch and Vic on either side of them.
You took a beer.
“You want some whiskey, baby?” Henry asked, holding out the bottle for you.
You wrinkled your nose. After having John’s whiskey, you were spoiled.
“No thanks,” you said.
Vic looked at you, dumbfounded.
“You never say no to whiskey,” he said.
“Well,” you said. “I kinda had some with John, and now… I don’t know. I don’t think I could drink this stuff.”
“Fucking Cleaver,” Henry growled. “Spoiled you fucking rotten, didn’t he?”
You grinned. “He sure did.”
“What can we do,” Patrick said, one hand high up on your thigh, “to get you back?”
“Get me drunk and get me off,” you said. “Got any vodka?”
“Sure do,” Belch said, reaching into the cooler and pulling out a bottle. He passed it to you, and you opened it, taking a swig, and then two more.
In fifteen minutes, or something like that, you were sloshed. Absolutely drunk.
“You know what I like the most about this?” you asked.
“About what?” asked Vic, lighting up a cigarette.
“About all of us. Together?”
“Mm. What, sweetheart?” asked Patrick. He was kissing you over and over again, right under your ear.
“I don’t think I’m ever gonna get bored,” you said. “I have so many boys to choose from. I don’t think I’ll ever get bored.”
“You need the options, don’t you?” Henry asked. “Little slut.”
“Henry,” you said. “You’re just as bad as me.”
“You think so? I don’t think anyone’s as bad as you. Bad little slut.”
“Mm,” you said. You turned and got in Patrick’s lap, straddling him, grinding down on him. He smiled up at you like he wanted to eat you whole. “You could learn a thing or two from me, daddy.”
“Yeah, baby? What’s that?”
“Four is so much better than one,” you said. Then you kissed Patrick, licking into his mouth. Someone whistled.
“You think I should fuck around with the boys?” Henry asked when you finished kissing Patrick.
“If you want to,” you said. “But it’s fun. It’s so much fun.”
“Do you want me to?” he asked. You looked at him. He was cautious, curious.
“Yeah,” you said. “Vic wants you to fuck him.”
Vic hissed, trying to tell you to shut the fuck up.
Henry laughed. “Oh, yeah?”
“Yeah,” Vic said, sighing. “I guess.”
“You guess? Or do you want me?”
“I want you, Henry.”
“Come here, then,” Henry said.
Vic got up and went to Henry, and you watched as Henry, hesitant, reached out and took Vic by the back of his neck and kissed him. In a moment, all hesitancy was gone as he groaned, pulling Vic into his lap and kissing him harder, almost violently. So much teeth, so much tongue. It took your breath away just watching.
Patrick took you by the jaw and forced you to look back at him.
“Like that, baby? You like watching your daddy fuck around with Vic?”
You nodded, reaching for the vodka. You took a swig, and he took the bottle from you and took a sip. Then, he kissed you, tasting like cheap alcohol. You moaned as he forced you down on him, feeling him, hard, under you.
“God, baby,” he said. “What you fucking do to me. Wanna fuck you right here.”
“Yeah?” you asked. “Wanna fuck me, have the boys watch me take your cock?”
“You know it,” he said.
“Well then, what are we waiting for?” you asked.
Without answering, he undid your pants and pushed one hand into your underwear, slowly stroking you.
You heard Vic moan, and you glanced over to see Henry kneading at the front of Vic’s pants. Vic’s eyes were shut tight.
Belch was just watching. You swore to yourself that you’d get right to him as soon as you were done with Patrick. You winked at him, and he smiled.
You got off Patrick’s lap, undoing his belt and opening his pants, pulling his cock out. You got to sucking it, one of your hands playing with his balls. He sighed, ran a hand through your hair.
After about a minute of that, to the sounds of Vic moaning, Patrick pulled you off his cock and into a kiss.
“Stand up,” he said. “Take your clothes off.”
You did, untying your boots and taking them off before pushing your pants down and pulling your shirt off over your head. You watched as he pulled a condom out of his back pocket and rolled it on. Then, naked, you got in his lap, positioning yourself over his cock and slowly sinking down. You closed your eyes, breathing into it.
“That’s it, baby,” he said. “Fucking take my cock.”
He gripped your ass, holding on as you slowly moved up and down on him.
“Look so good on his dick, baby,” Henry said, pulling away from Vic for a moment.
“Thanks, daddy,” you said, a little breathless.
Patrick wasn’t especially thick, but he was long, and you had to stretch a little to fit him.
“Get on your hands and knees,” you heard Henry hiss to Vic.
You watched, riding Patrick, as Vic got to his hands and knees, pushing his pants down. As if experimenting, Henry pushed two fingers into Vic’s ass. Vic let out a short, guttural moan, pushing back on them.
“Fuck — daddy,” he moaned.
“Am I your daddy, Vic?” Henry asked, grinning.
“Fuck yeah,” said Vic. “Fuck me.”
You knew he wasn’t ready for it yet, so when Henry took his cock out and shoved into Vic, Vic’s shout wasn’t a surprise.
“Jesus, daddy,” he gasped.
“That’s it, Vic. So good for me, aren’t you?”
“Pay attention to me,” Patrick snapped.
You looked at him, a little shocked. Not that you should have been.
“Sorry, Pat,” you said, pushing down harder on him.
You kissed him, and he forced his tongue into your mouth. He spread his legs, getting at a better angle to pound up into you, holding you still above him.
“But doesn’t Vic look so good on daddy’s dick?” you asked, voice hitching.
You leaned in and licked his lips, taking him by the chin and forcing him to look at Henry and Vic. He looked hungry. He looked fucked.
“Yeah, baby. He looks good. But you look better on mine.”
You grinned.
He reached a hand down and started stroking you, hard and fast, unforgiving. You kissed him, moaning into his mouth as he kept fucking up into you.
You came fast, and he came a minute later with a groan. You pulled off of him with one last kiss, getting up and stretching. He laid back, just watching Henry and Vic.
You walked over to where Belch sat, watching them.
“What do you want?” you asked him. “Do you want me to suck your dick?”
“Sure, baby. Whatever you want.”
You got on your knees in front of him, wrapping your arms around his neck and kissing him, soft little presses of your lips against his, sweet little licks at his tongue. He sighed.
Then, you pulled back, unbuttoning and unzipping his jeans, pulling his cock out of his underwear. You licked the head, dipping your head low, arching your back, ass in the air.
He moaned as you took him into your mouth, one hand in your hair. The other snaked around and slid into your hole, pulling at the edges, feeling how loose you still were after Patrick.
He came in your mouth, and you swallowed his cum, then got up and kissed him again. He groaned into your mouth, pushing your hair off your sweaty forehead. His fingers were still in your hole, slowly pumping into you, and you whimpered.
You looked over your shoulder as you heard Vic and Henry groan. Seemed like they came at the same time. You smiled.
“Bet I can make you come again,” Belch said, pulling your attention away from them.
“Oh, yeah?”
“Yeah, baby. Get in my lap.”
You climbed into his lap, legs around his waist, grinding up against his dick, against his hand, forcing his fingers deeper into you.
He gently stroked at you, licking his fingers before putting them to you.
It took you five minutes — five minutes that were absolutely divine — but you came again with a whine. Then, you sighed and hugged him, arms around his neck.
He laughed and laid down, positioning you so you were on top of him, your ear to his chest. You looked over at your boys, the loves of your fucking life. Everyone was sleepy and drunk. Vic laid with his head on Henry’s chest, his feet in Patrick’s lap. You watched as he turned his head and sucked gently on one of Henry’s nipples. Henry laughed and pushed his face away.
You all stayed like that for hours, sobering up, smoking cigarettes. Talking about nothing. It was perfect.

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chasing after dreams ch 6 (nsfw)
poly bowers gang x ambiguously gendered reader
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previously on: you and patrick and vic fuck around. you go for a midnight ride with Belch, and he shows you how much he cares. then, you all get high.
summary: you FINALLY fuck mr. john cleaver. then, you go to henry’s place to collect your twenty dollars. after, you go to vic to talk about it.
word count: 4511
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The next night you called Mr. Cleaver.
“I’m tired of waiting,” you said instead of hello. “I want you to fuck me. Tonight.”
“Have you been drinking?” he asked
“No, daddy.”
“Are you telling the truth?”
“Yes. I swear.”
“I’ll come get you, then. Are you at home?”
“Yes. I’ll be out front.”
You got dressed up in your tightest jeans and t-shirt. Then you went out front and waited.
He showed up ten minutes after the call had ended, and you got in his car without a word. You leaned over and kissed his cheek.
“Are you sure you want to do this?” he asked.
As if you could say no. As if you would.
“I’m sure. Take me home.”
He drove you to his apartment complex, going around and opening your car door for you. Then, he took you by the hand and led you to his door, unlocking it and holding it open for you.
You were immediately greeted by his dog. Lydia.
You stooped down to pet her.
“Oh, look at you,” you said. “Such a good girl. Look at you, so pretty.”
He laughed, watching you.
“Come on,” he said.
He led you into the kitchen.
“Would you like a drink?” he asked.
“Whiskey?”
“Sure. Just one, though.”
“Of course.”
You looked around, noting the sparse decorations and the way the dining area was painted blue.
“What do you think of the place?” he asked.
“It’s nice,” you said. “It’s perfect for you.”
“I think so, too,” he said, holding out a glass tumbler with a finger of whiskey in it.
You sipped it, rolling it over your tongue, as he brought his glass to his lips. It was so much better than the whiskey Henry usually supplied that you were surprised.
You pushed Henry from your mind.
“What are you thinking about, right now?” he asked.
“Oh, I can kiss you. I can fuck you. Without anyone seeing, I can do what I want. You can do what you want.”
You stepped in until you were toe to toe with him, lowering your voice.
“What do you want to do, daddy?”
He set down his glass and pulled you in, hands on your waist.
“I think you know exactly what I want, baby.”
You winced.
“Don’t call me that,” you said.
“No?”
“No. It’s… the boys call me that.”
“Ah. Your boys. How are things with them?”
“I’d rather not talk about it,” you said, thinking about Belch fucking you.
“Your eyes are so far away,” he said, putting one hand under your chin. “Come back to me.”
“Sorry, daddy.”
“It’s okay. Come on,” he said, taking your whiskey from you and setting it down before taking you by the hand and leading you to the only closed door in the place. His bedroom.
It was just as he’d described it. But you didn’t expect it to feel so much like him.
He sat on the bed, and just like with Belch, you stood in between his legs, raking a hand through his hair, touching his beard. Then, you kissed him, soft, so soft, just once on the lips before pulling back.
It was something you’d done countless times with countless partners, but with him, it felt so new. So different.
“What’s that look for?” he asked.
“You’re… just so different from anyone I’ve ever slept with,” you said. “You really want to take your time with me, don’t you?”
“A thing worth doing is not a thing worth doing fast,” he said. “How about you take off those clothes?”
You pulled your shirt off over your head and he mirrored you. He ran two fingers down your chest, your stomach, to the top of your pants. You undid you pants, pushing them down your legs and standing in front of him in just your underwear. He looked at you, so hungry and so lonely, that you just had to kiss him
So you did. You kissed him, slowly sliding your tongue into his mouth as his arms went around you, pulling you in by your ass. You bit his lip, and he let out just the quietest moan.
“You like what you see, daddy?” you asked when the kiss had ended.
“Very much,” he said. “Take off your underwear. Now.”
You did, stepping out of them and throwing them to the side. He stood and took his jeans off, leaving just boxers. Boxer briefs, actually.
“How about you take these off, too?” you asked, smiling, hooking two fingers into the waistband.
He did, slowly sliding them down his legs and stepping out of them.
“Fuck,” you said.
“Hm?”
“You… are more well-endowed than I thought.”
You dropped to your knees without another word, taking his cock in your hand and slowly stroking from base to tip. You looked up at him, and he looked down at you. You licked the slit, and he closed his eyes. You took him into your mouth, stretching wide to fit him, pumping the last three inches with your hand. And he moaned, one hand going to your hair, gently pulling.
He certainly wasn’t a teenager. You sucked him off for something like five minutes, without a single sign that he was going to come.
“Stand up,” he said.
You did, keeping one hand on his cock.
“Get on the bed.”
You did, keeping your eyes on his.
He got a condom from the bedside table, carefully opening it and rolling it on.
“How do you want me to fuck you?” he asked, leaning in to nip at your earlobe.
“Fuck,” you said.
Truth be told, you wanted him every way. You hadn’t really decided on one way or another. You wanted everything.
“I — I don’t know,” you laughed.
He laughed, too, eyes crinkling.
“Well,” he said, getting on the bed and pulling you to him, “why don’t you let daddy decide, hm?”
You grinned.
“Okay. Whatever you want.”
“Spread your legs for daddy,” he said.
You did. He knelt between them, kissing you over and over again until your head was spinning. Then he kissed a line down your jaw, your neck, ending at one of your nipples, taking it into his mouth and sucking on it, nibbling at it, while one of his hands played with your other one.
“Daddy,” you moaned. “Fuck, daddy.”
“That’s it. You’re so good for daddy, aren’t you?”
You nodded.
“I want to hear you say it,” he said, twisting your nipples between his fingers.
“I’m good for you, daddy. I’m so good,” you said.
“That’s it.”
He kissed down your chest, your stomach, ending with his mouth over you. Licking, sucking. He slipped a finger, and then another, into your hole, and you moaned.
“Yeah, daddy. Like that. Oh my god.”
“You’re so good for me. Look at you, waiting so sweet to get fucked.”
You nodded, frantic, as he curled his fingers in you.
“Want you inside me,” you said.
“What do you say?”
“Please? Oh, please, daddy, please. I want you in me so bad.”
He licked you one last time, then kissed his way back up to your mouth, sliding his tongue up against yours.
Then he lined up with your hole and slowly pushed in, letting you adjust to him.
You gasped as he bottomed out, then pulled him down for another kiss, hard, biting his lip.
“Oh, daddy,” you said. “Daddy, oh my god.”
“You’re doing so well,” he said, slowly pumping into you, your knees pushed up to your chest.
“Faster?” you begged. “Oh, please, go faster.”
“How fast do you want me to go, hm?”
He sped up just a little bit, testing your patience.
“I want you,” you said, “to fuck me so hard and fast that I can’t fucking breathe.”
“Ask nicely.”
“Please, daddy? Please, I’m begging you. Go faster. Fuck me harder.”
He started pounding into you so hard you had to catch your breath, gasping over and over as he filled you again and again. He held your legs up, slamming into you.
“Do you want to change positions?” he asked after he’d been going at that for something like three minutes.
“Fuck, I — yeah. Yeah, let’s do it.”
He picked you up, arms under your knees, sitting you on his lap. Then, he picked you up and dropped him onto him. You threw your head back, eyes shut, moaning.
“You better be more quiet,” he said. “It sure sounds like I’m fucking a teenager.”
“Fuck, daddy. I don’t know if I can.”
“You do it or I put you over my knee and give you the spanking of your life.”
You smiled at him, sly. He dropped you on his cock again, and you practically screamed.
You slapped a hand over your mouth, though. You wanted that spanking, but you didn’t want him to get in trouble with his neighbors.
“Fuck, daddy,” you whimpered.
“You feel good?”
“Yeah, I — oh, daddy, fuck.”
He picked you up and dropped you again and again, roughly fucking you. You let out little whimpers and strangled wails as he did. He leaned in and silenced you with a kiss.
“You’re so good for daddy,” he whispered, lips against yours. “Aren’t you? Do you want to come for daddy?”
You nodded, frantic.
Then he reached down between you and began stroking you, hard and fast. You threw your head back, moaning quietly.
“Yeah, daddy — just like that, fuck.”
You came on his hand and he brought his fingers to his mouth, sucking on them.
“Daddy’s going to come in you,” he said.
“Don’t,” you gasped.
“No?”
“No. Come in my mouth.”
He laughed, a short and breathless thing. Then, he lifted you off his cock and set you on the bed in front of him. Suddenly empty, it left you gasping.
“Fuck, daddy,” you whined.
“I know. I know.”
He grinned at you, and you knew that he knew his dick was hot shit. You grinned back. You liked your partners confident. You’d picked the right man.
He took the condom off, tying it and tossing it in the trash can beside his bed. Then, you took his cock in your mouth again. You bobbed your head on it, up and down, and in a minute, he was coming on your tongue with a soft groan.
“Come up here, let me see,” he said, lifting you with one hand under your chin.
You stuck out your tongue, showing him his cum. Then you swallowed and stuck it out again.
He laughed, breathless.
“It’s been a long time since someone swallowed my cum,” he said.
“That’s a shame,” you said, leaning in to kiss him, once, barely more than a peck.
Then you got off the bed, looking for your clothes.
“What are you doing?” he asked.
“Getting dressed.”
“Why?”
Surprised, you looked at him. Now, he was laying down on the bed, head on one of his pillows.
“Do you — do you want me to cuddle with you?” you asked.
“If you don’t mind,” he said.
You huffed out a short laugh and went back to the bed, getting on it and sitting next to him. He laughed, too, manhandling you until you were laying in his arms, facing him. You went with a squeak.
“Have you never been held after sex?” he asked, searching your face.
“No, not really. Once, but it doesn’t count. I was sleeping over with him, so it’s not like either of us had anywhere else to be,” you said, thinking of Belch.
“Mm. And how is he?” he asked.
You swallowed and looked away. Seemed like you couldn’t hide anything from him. He knew who you were talking about — or at least, he had three options.
“He’s good. He’s not sure he can share me, but he’s going to try.”
“It’s interesting,” he said, “the dynamic you have with these boys.”
“Yeah?”
“Yes. Before you told me you’d kissed two of them, I assumed you were all together. Hearing that it’s only just beginning was a surprise.”
“Hm. And you were still interested in me.”
“What’s one more person when you already have four?”
“Three.”
“What’s that?”
“Three. Patrick, Vic, and now, Belch. Henry’s not in on it, and I don’t think he will be.”
“Hm. Why not?”
“He’s really mad at me. He thinks I’m a whore and I’m tearing the group apart, I guess.”
“Ah. That’s why you called yourself a whore after your fight with him.”
“Yeah. I guess.”
“You’re not, you know,” he said. “You’re not. I stand by my statement that you’re just young with an appetite.”
“Thank you, but I don’t think he’s wrong. I eat anyone I can alive.”
“That sounds like an appetite if I’ve ever heard of one.”
“You really don’t mind?” you asked. “That I’m with them?”
“I said I don’t mind. Really, what’s one more? I am still surprised that you’re interested in me, though.”
You looked him over, a little surprised.
“Why wouldn’t I be? I mean, look at you. You’re so fucking hot.”
“I’m really nothing special. I am, also, twice your age.”
You laughed.
“I guess. But… I really should go. I can’t stay — I have another breakfast shift tomorrow.”
“Ah. And I have the pool.”
“Mm. Should I show up one morning, barely wearing anything?”
He laughed.
“I don’t recommend it. Not that I wouldn’t love to see it, but still.”
You grinned.
“Okay, I won’t.”
You pulled yourself from his arms and got off the bed, stumbling a little bit as you looked for your clothes. You pulled them on, slowly, a little bit sore. God, he fucked your brains out.
Once you were dressed, he stood, getting dressed, too.
“Should I take you home or do you have somewhere to be?” he asked.
“I’ll walk,” you said. “I need to stretch my legs.”
“Are you sure?”
“Yeah. It’s not that far, anyway.”
“Well, okay,” he said.
You both left his bedroom, greeted again by Lydia. You petted her, going to the kitchen. You sipped your whiskey, looking him over. You’d done it. The bet was won. But it wasn’t about the bet, not at this point. At this point, it was because you wanted to. Because you wanted him.
“What are you thinking about?” he asked you again, sipping his whiskey.
“Patrick and Vic will be happy to hear we fucked,” you said.
“Oh?”
“Yeah. They both think you’re hot.”
He blushed, just the tiniest bit.
“Well, I’m flattered.”
“You should be.”
You finished your whiskey and set down the glass. You checked your pockets, making sure you had your phone and wallet.
“Well, I better go,” you said.
“Come here and kiss me,” he said.
You did, a light peck on his lips. His arms went around you, holding you there, and you kissed him again. And again. And one more time, finding yourself more reluctant to leave than you’d thought.
Finally, you pulled away.
“Bye,” you said. “I’ll see you around.”
“Goodbye.”
He smiled and you left his apartment, stomping down the stairs, elated.
You walked through town, stopping at a burger joint to get a milkshake to go. You sipped it as you walked, finding a trash can when you were done.
Then, you grinned.
You knew you were looking for trouble. But fuck, if you didn’t care.
You walked out towards the outskirts of town, hoping Butch wasn’t home. When you arrived on Henry’s land, you sighed in relief. Butch’s cruiser wasn’t there.
You knocked on the door.
Henry answered, not wearing a shirt.
“What do you want?” he spat.
“Twenty dollars,” you said, thumbs in your beltloops.
It took a moment before realization dawned on him. Then, he was even more angry.
“Fuck you,” he said, going to shut the door.
You stuck your foot in it, grateful that the steel toe in your boot saved your foot from being crunched.
“No,” you said. “I did it. You said twenty dollars, and I’m here to fucking collect.”
“Fine,” he said, opening the door with a glare. “C’min, I guess.”
You walked into the house, closing the door behind you for him as he stalked off to his bedroom. He got out his wallet and handed you two tens. You stuffed them in your back pocket.
“Have fun with him, whore?” he asked.
“Lots,” you said. “And since I said I’d rub your pretty little face in it, that’s what I’m gonna do. I was right.”
“About what?” he snapped.
“He has a huge dick. I’ve never been so stretched before. And he loves it when I call him daddy. He fucking made me scream.”
He huffed and looked away from you.
“You really will whore around with anyone, won’t you?” he asked.
“No,” you said, giving him a pointed look. “Not anyone.”
“Fuck you,” he ground out.
“You wish,” you said.
“No, I don’t,” he said. “I wouldn’t fucking touch you.”
“Aw, come on, Henry,” you said softly, playfully. “Don’t you wanna know what all the fuss is about?”
He glared at you.
“No,” he said.
“That sounds like a yes, to me.”
You stepped closer to him, toe to toe. You put a hand on his chest and he flinched away.
“C’mon,” you said, voice still soft. “Bet you wanna know. Bet you wanna be inside me.”
He growled and broke, all composure gone. He kissed you, hard, so hard your teeth clacked together. He pulled you in by your waist, your hips, your ass, pulling you so close to him there wasn’t a part of you that wasn’t touching him.
“Whore,” he growled, gripping your hair and pulling hard. “Fucking slut.”
“You’re right,” you said, eyes watering. “You’re fucking right.”
“Calling a full-grown man daddy. Fucking whore.”
He pulled your shirt off, roughly grabbing one of your nipples and pulling on it, twisting it.
You couldn’t hold it back. You moaned.
“That’s it, fucking whore. Be nice and loud for me. Bet you I can fuck you better than him.”
“I’d like to see you try.”
“Get on your knees,” he growled.
You did it, and he undid his belt and pants, pulling his cock out. Without a second thought, you took it into your mouth, tonguing at the slit.
“That’s it, whore. So good with your mouth, aren’t you? So much —” he thrusted into your mouth, and you choked — “fucking practice.”
He had one hand in your hair, pulling as hard as he could. He slapped your face, and you gasped, surprised. But you kept sucking his cock, doing your very best to let him know that you were in this. You were fucking in this.
“Stand up,” he said.
You did, and he undid your pants, shoving them down below your knees, before he turned you around and pushed you towards his dresser. You put your hands on it, and he roughly shoved his cock into you. Still sore from your time with Mr. Cleaver, you flung your head back and let out something that was like a moan, but more like a scream.
“Fucking slut,” he said. “You’re so loose. Came to me right after you got done with him, didn’t you? One in a night wasn’t enough for you, was it?”
He put a hand around your throat, squeezing hard. He fucked you at a brutal pace, his other hand meeting the first around your throat. You gasped, unable to breathe well at all.
“Whore,” he growled. “Bet you like it. Bet you like my hands around your neck, don’t you, you fucking slut.”
You nodded, one hand going to his hands, trying to pull him away. He just squeezed harder.
“Fucking around with all our boys, too,” he said. “One dick’s just not enough for you, is it? You have to be a whore. You just have to.”
You gasped, a little moan finding its way out of your mouth.
He took his hands away from your throat. You took in huge gasping breaths, your vision returning to normal.
“You’re my whore now,” he said. “And I wanna hear you say it.”
“What?”
“Tell me —” he said, fucking into you so hard you wailed — “you’re my fucking whore. Not Cleaver’s. Not the guys’. You’re mine.”
“Fuck, Henry, I don’t belong to you,” you gasped.
“Yes — you — do,” he ground out, pounding into you.
“Fuck you.”
“Say it or you don’t get to come.”
He pulled back far and then slammed into you.
“Fuck, Henry! Fine, I’m you’re whore.”
He reached around and began stroking you, slow, so slow.
“Please,” you whined.
“What, does my whore want something? You want something from daddy?”
God, but that sounded so different from him. With Mr. Cleaver, it had been tender, if dirty. But with Henry, it was filthy. And you loved it.
“Yeah — daddy, please — please make me come.”
He did, and you came with a shout. Then, he groaned, burying himself deep inside you, coming.
He pulled out and kneeled behind you, eating his cum out of you, spreading your ass with both hands.
You sighed, one hand in your hair.
When he was done, he stood, putting himself back in his pants and redoing his belt.
He spun you around and pulled you into another kiss. This one wasn’t as hard, was a little more forgiving.
“I mean it,” he said. “You’re my little whore now.”
“You have to share me,” you said. “I won’t give up the boys. I just won’t.”
“It really isn’t enough for you, is it?” he asked, eyes hard. “You can’t be satisfied with one dick. You gotta have all of us.”
“Yeah,” you said softly. “I gotta have all of you.”
He sighed.
“I don’t want you fucking Cleaver again,” he said.
“Why not?”
“Why do you think? You belong to us, now. Just us.”
“The guys don’t mind me fucking him.”
“Maybe not Patrick and Vic, but you know Belch does. And I do. Fuck him, I don’t wanna share you with him, too.”
You pouted.
“Can I kiss him?” you asked. “Can I at least do that?”
“Fine. Whatever. Just no more of that daddy shit. I’m your daddy now, hear me?”
“Are you sure, daddy?” you said, voice playful and soft. You traced around one of his nipples with your fingernail and he took in a deep breath, holding it for a second before letting it go.
“I’m sure, baby. Now, leave. I got shit to do.”
“Are you sure? If it’s chores, I could help you.”
He smiled, finally.
“I’m sure, baby. Get out of here.”
You stepped back, straightening your clothes and checking your pockets. Once you were sure everything was in order, you kissed him one last time and left.
You walked home, alone, the sun long gone. Cars whizzed by you on the backroads and you hummed to yourself, lighting a cigarette.
Tomorrow, you’d tell Mr. Cleaver that you couldn’t fuck him again. But tonight, you’d let it go. You’d let him enjoy himself.
You pulled out your phone, shooting off a group text.
10:05pm. To: Belch, Patrick, Vic
I fucked Cleaver. And Henry
In seconds, you got responses.
10:05pm. From: Patrick
That’s my baby
10:05pm. From: Vic
WHAT
10:05pm. From: Belch
What the hell kind of night are you having
You grinned, texting them back
10:06pm. To: Belch, Patrick, Vic
A good night
10:06pm. From: Patrick
So Henry finally came around?
10:06pm. To: Belch, Patrick, Vic
Well he came
10:07pm. From: Vic
God I love you
You put your phone in your back pocket, only for it to buzz again. Another message, this one outside the group chat.
10:08pm. From: Vic
Come over. You can sleep with me. I want to hear everything
You walked to Vic’s house, taking your time. You had another cigarette as you walked, slowly sauntering through residential streets until you arrived at his house. He was waiting on the front porch, shirtless and grinning. You smiled to match him.
He pulled you into a kiss, and you went, grateful for something more tender than Henry. He licked into your mouth, as always fond of using his tongue, and you sighed, melting into it.
“C’mon,” he said, ushering you into his house. “Tell me everything.”
You went into his bedroom, flopping down on his bed and staring at him.
“Well,” he said, getting settled on his side, one hand propping up his head. “Go on. What was it like?”
“What? Cleaver, or Henry?”
“Who came first?”
“Cleaver.”
He gestured for you to go on.
“He’s… really sweet? He really took his time with me, even though all I wanted was him to bend me over and make me his.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah. I mean, listen. I blew him, and he didn’t come. He fucked me missionary, didn’t come. I was in his lap, and finally he wanted to come, but I had him come in my mouth.”
“And you called him daddy?”
“Yeah. He tried to call me baby, but I didn’t want to take that away from you guys.”
He laughed.
“I wouldn’t have minded. Was he big?”
“Oh my god, Vic. He was so big. He fucking stretched me out so much that I’m still sore. Doesn’t help it that Henry fucked me right after.”
“How did you run into Henry?”
You smiled, giving him a look.
“I didn’t run into him. I went to his house to collect my twenty dollars.”
He laughed.
“You are the absolute worst,” he said. Then he kissed you, one hand on your jaw. When he pulled back, his eyes were glowing.
“How was Henry?” he asked.
“Mm. Good. He choked me and made me tell him I’m his whore.”
He smiled. “That sure sounds like him.”
Then he put his head down, slinging one arm over your waist and pulling you in.
“Think he’d fuck me?” he asked.
“Who, Henry?”
“Yeah.”
“I don’t see why not. For all his talk about how I’m a slut, he’s just as bad as me.”
Vic sighed, a happy little thing.
“He only calls you that because he was jealous you weren’t fucking him.”
“Yeah?”
“Of course. I think he’s had it bad for you for a while.”
“Really? I never noticed.”
“Oh, baby. Sometimes, you are so dumb. Everywhere you go, he watches you. Why do you think he found us at that party?”
“Hey, I’m not dumb. I just — I just forced myself not to see it. I was tired of hurting over you guys.”
“You were?”
“Yeah. I wanted you all. Bad. And I thought I couldn’t have you.”
“Huh.”
“I keep having this dream,” you said, finally confessing. “It’s about all of you. All of you, kissing me. Fucking me. It’s all I’ve wanted for a really long time, and when I thought nothing could ever happen, it was killing me.”
He kissed you again and you curled up to his chest.
You wanted to talk more, but you were so sleepy. You fell asleep in his arms, listening to his heartbeat.
chasing after dreams ch 5 (nsfw)
poly bowers gang x ambiguously gendered reader
masterpost
previously on: you talk to the hot teacher on the phone. you go to a party, and vic has what patrick’s having. things go to shit. the teacher picks you up. you get yourself a daddy.
summary: you and patrick and vic fuck around. you go for a midnight ride with Belch, and he shows you how much he cares. then, you all get high.
word count: 3636
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The next day, you worked another breakfast rush. Mr. Cleaver wasn’t there, but you knew it was because the pool opened today, and he was busy, off being a lifeguard.
You wondered if you should show up one day and swim. Wear your most attractive bathing suit and get all wet, see if you could get him excited.
But that would be utterly irresponsible of you. He was there to make sure no one drowned.
But it didn’t mean you didn’t think about it. Consider it. Wonder about it.
After work, you walked to Patrick’s place, letting yourself in, getting a furtive glance from his mother. You avoided her and her husband at all costs, and they did the same for you.
You went to Patrick’s room. Him and Vic were laying on his bed, side by side, lazily kissing each other. The kiss ended when you walked in, quietly shutting the door behind you.
“Hey,” you said softly.
“Hey there, baby,” Vic said. “C’mere.”
“I’m not your baby,” you said.
Just to say something. Just because you didn’t know what else to say.
You climbed on the bed, crawled in between them and flopped down, your head between theirs on the flat pillow.
“You are,” he said, taking one of your hands and brushing your knuckles with his lips. “You’ve been my baby for a long time. Our baby.”
You leaned in and kissed him. A light little thing, barely more than a peck.
“Oh, yeah?” you asked, looking at Patrick.
He nodded.
“Our baby,” he repeated, pressing a kiss to your neck.
It made you shiver.
“What happened when you left?” Vic asked. “You walk home?”
“Nah. I called Cleaver, and he picked me up and took me home.”
Patrick grinned.
“Home with him?”
You laughed.
“No, I wasn’t so lucky. He said he wouldn’t fuck me when I was drunk.”
“Mm,” said Vic. “Too bad.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah,” said Patrick. “Woulda loved to hear about that.”
“Might be something you do wanna hear,” you said, sly.
“What’s that, baby?” Vic asked, nuzzling into your neck. He kissed your collarbone, pulling down the collar of your uniform t-shirt to get to it.
“I called him daddy. He’s so into it.”
Patrick laughed, one of his good day laughs. You smiled.
“He looks like the daddy type,” he said.
“Right? He’s such a daddy. I can’t wait to fucking suck his dick,” you said. “I kissed him.”
“You kissed a lot of people last night,” said Vic.
“Yeah,” you said, smiling. “I did.”
“Was he good?”
“He was… reluctant. He wanted to kiss me, too, but. But you know, I was drunk and he thought it wouldn’t be right to do anything if I was.”
“Show me how he kissed you,” Patrick said.
You turned to him and imitated the surprised and slow way Mr. Cleaver had kissed you, one hand in the back of Patrick’s hair, gently pulling.
“Damn,” he said when you pulled back. “Okay.”
“Show me,” said Vic.
You did. When you pulled back, his eyes were sparkling.
“I’m so jealous of you,” he said, scooting in closer to you. “You get to kiss him.”
“I worked hard for that kiss.”
Your phone buzzed in your pocket. You pulled it out, unlocking the screen.
1:34pm. From: John
I can’t stop thinking about you.
You smiled and held it out so both boys could see.
“Damn,” Patrick said again. “You got him whipped.”
“Hell yeah I do,” you said, shooting off a response.
1:35pm. To: John
Good, daddy. Soon
“You really gonna fuck him?” asked Patrick.
“What do you think?”
“I think I wanna get there first.”
You smiled at him, reaching over and putting your phone down on the bedside table. Then you rolled over on top of him, straddling his hips. You ground down on him as you leaned down and kissed him, one hand pulling at his hair. He slipped his hands down to grab your ass, to pull you down on him harder. You let out a very quiet moan and cut your eyes over to look at Vic, who was palming the front of his pants. You grinned.
“Looks like someone’s gonna have fun watching,” you said.
“You bet, baby,” he said.
You kissed Patrick again and he pushed his hands into the front of your pants, roughly stroking at you. You unbuckled his belt, slipping your hand into his pants. He wasn’t wearing underwear, which didn’t surprise you in the least. But he was hard — so hard that when you scooted back and pulled his pants down, he was more than ready to go.
You walked back on your knees and took him into your mouth, licking at the head, the slit, a thick stripe up and down the shaft. He moaned, closing his eyes.
“That’s it, sweetheart. Show me how bad you want my cock.”
You hummed, mouth stretched around his cock, bobbing up and down, one hand stroking near the base. Vic reached over and pushed your hair off your forehead so he could see your eyes, grinning at you.
“Look so good with something in your mouth, baby,” he said.
“Don’t worry,” you said, pulling off for a second. “I’ll get to you.”
Then you went back to it.
Patrick came in something like two minutes, and you swallowed his cum, hot ropes of it splattered on your tongue. He pulled you up to kiss you, to taste himself in your mouth, groaning.
Then he rolled the both of you over, putting you on your back.
“Gonna get you off, sweetheart. Return the favor,” he said.
“Okay,” you said, pushing him down to your crotch, one hand in his hair.
Vic took you by the chin and kissed you. Then he got to his knees, kneeling over you as Patrick pulled your pants down and licked a stripe over you. You gasped, more than ready.
“Wanna fuck that pretty little mouth,” Vic said, one finger pulling down your bottom lip. “What d’you say, baby?”
“Please?”
He laughed.
“Such a good little slut for us, aren’t you?” he said as Patrick put his mouth on you and sucked.
You nodded, frantic.
“C’mon, Vic. Fuck my mouth.”
He undid his pants, pulling out his hard cock and sliding it over your bottom lip.
“Open up, baby,” he said.
You opened your mouth wide and he pushed inside. He wasn’t as long as Patrick, but he was a good size, and you gagged a little bit when he was fully in you.
“That’s it, baby, choke on my dick,” he sighed.
Then he began pumping into your mouth. In and out, in and out, at a brutal pace. You could barely breathe and tears were forming in your eyes.
Meanwhile, Patrick was still going down on you, humming as he did like he was having the time of his life.
He pushed a finger, then another, into you, curling them and pumping them quickly. You came with a quiet shout, and Vic pulled out of your mouth for a moment to let you breathe before he got right back to it.
Vic came in your mouth, and you swallowed again. He pulled out, tucked himself back into his pants, and flopped down on the bed beside you.
Patrick laid down next to you, manhandling you so he could spoon up behind you, one arm around your middle, your pants still halfway down your legs.
You laid there, absolutely debauched, but feeling amazing.
“How long have you wanted to do this?” Vic asked quietly. “’Cause it’s been years for me.”
“Mm. Me too,” Patrick said into your neck.
“Yeah,” you said. “Years.”
“When you fuck Cleaver,” said Vic, “I want to hear all about it.”
“Okay.”
That night at midnight, you got a text. Expecting Vic, or Patrick, or Mr. Cleaver, you picked up your phone eagerly.
12:02am. From: Belch
I’m picking you up. Be ready in 5
You sighed and got up, pulling on a pair of shorts and leaving his Anthrax shirt on. It was just Belch. It didn’t matter what you looked like.
You were waiting by the mailbox when he pulled up. You got in without a word, and he drove away, music quiet on the radio.
“So,” he said five minutes later, as you were driving out to the outskirts of town. “Pat and Vic, huh?”
“Oh,” you said. “Henry told you.”
“You knew he would.”
“Yeah.”
“Why?”
“Hm?”
“Why them? Why both of them? I can see you and Patrick, I mean. You’re always all over each other. I figured it was only a matter of time. But you and him and Vic?”
“Well,” you said slowly. Telling the truth, when it came to Belch, was worth its weight in gold. “It started out as just Patrick. I kissed him one night and begged him not to tell anyone. And then he said he wouldn’t, as long as he could kiss me when we were alone. And then Vic caught on that something was happening, and made me tell him, and then at the party he decided he wanted in, and… it’s so much simpler than it sounds.”
You ended it with a fake sounding laugh.
“You,” he said, “have a talent for this kind of thing.”
“What kind of thing?”
“Biting off so much more than you can chew.”
You looked out the window, away from him.
“I know,” you said quietly.
“I worry about you, that’s all,” he said.
“I know. But I’m a big kid. I can take care of myself.”
He was quiet for a moment, then said, “maybe you should let other people take care of you sometimes.”
You stared at him, mind blank, as he parked next to the kissing bridge.
“Well,” you said. “I’ve got Patrick and Vic for that, now.”
“That’s — that’s not what I meant.”
He got out of the car and you followed him, walking behind him. He stopped and looked down at the Barrens below.
“What did you mean?” you asked softly.
He sighed, took his hat off and scratched his head.
“I meant — I meant maybe I wanna take care of you sometimes,” he said.
“Belch.”
“Hm?”
You put a hand on his shoulder, pulling him around to look at you.
“What do you mean by that?” you asked.
He looked at you, searching your face.
Then he leaned in and kissed you, hands holding your face.
You gasped and kissed him back, doing your best not to melt, but not entirely succeeding. He pulled you into his arms, held you tight, and you wanted to cry. It was everything you’d ever wanted from him, and it was right here.
The kiss ended, and you smiled up at him. He looked worried sick.
“You were jealous,” you said.
“Still am.”
“Don’t be,” you said. “I’ve wanted you for years.”
He swallowed and looked away from you.
“I don’t know if I can share you with them, but I’ll try, if that’s what you want,” he said.
You leaned up and pecked him on the lips.
“I want that,” you said. “I want that a lot.”
“What else do you want?”
“How about you fuck me?”
“You really want that? Hm? You wanna be under me in my car?”
You swallowed.
“How ‘bout you take me home so we have more room?”
“Okay.”
You both got in the car and drove back to his house. Mama Huggins’s car was gone, and you were glad. You wouldn’t have to be quiet.
You went inside, getting to his room quickly. He turned on his lamp and sat on his bed, knees wide. You stood between them, taking off his hat and throwing it to the floor. You leaned down and kissed him again, sliding your tongue up against his until he sighed. Then you climbed in his lap, grinding down on him slowly. He put his hands on your hips, holding you down on him.
“You’re gonna fuck me nice and slow, aren’t you?” you asked.
“If that’s what you want,” he said.
“Yeah,” you said. “That’s what I want.”
“Okay,” he said softly. “Get on the bed. Take off your clothes. I wanna see you.”
You stood, pushing your shorts and underwear down, pulling your shirt off over your head. You threw it all in a pile near the foot of his bed, and got on the bed, watching as he slowly undressed.
God, but he was fucking hot. So big and covered in muscles that you’d been dying to just touch for so long.
You spread your legs and he crawled up the bed until he was hovering over you, running his fingers down your side, the center of your chest, over your stomach. He pinched one of your nipples and then bent his head down to lick it.
You put your head back and quietly moaned. He trailed his hand down until it was between your legs and slowly stroked at you. Getting you wound up.
“You can — oh, fuck, Belch, you can fuck me.”
“Okay,” he said.
He reached over into the bedside table and pulled out a condom, ripping it open with his teeth and rolling it on. Then he lined up with your hole and slowly pushed in. He fucked you, his pace so agonizingly slow you were sure you would never come.
You pulled him down for a kiss, feverishly pushing your lips against his, licking at his lips, his tongue.
“Yeah, baby,” he gasped.
“Baby?” you asked. “Am I your baby, Belch?”
“Yeah,” he said, fucking you just a little bit harder, little snaps of his hips driving him into you. “You’re my fucking baby.”
You grinned up at him, and he smiled down at you.
“That’s what Patrick and Vic say,” you said.
“Oh, yeah? You their baby, too?”
“Yeah,” you said, sighing. “Haven’t fucked them, yet. You’re first.”
He absolutely grinned at that. Then he kissed you, hard, one hand on your jaw.
“Just think about it,” you said, figuring you may as well get him used to you being fucked by more than just him. “Think about it. Think about me riding Patrick.”
“Baby,” he said. “Fuck. You’d look so good riding him.”
“I know,” you said, smiling. “Think about me going down on Vic. Think about — oh, fuck, yeah — think about them watching you fuck me like this. They’d be so happy. So turned on.”
“Yeah?”
“Fuck yeah.”
He pulled out until he was only just barely still inside you and then buried himself in you in one short thrust.
You moaned, loud and long.
“Fuck, yeah, Belch, fuck me.”
“So good on my dick, baby. So good.”
You smiled at the ceiling.
“Fuck, get me off?” you asked.
He reached down and gently stroked at you. It was too slow. You took his hand and forced him to speed up as he continued fucking into you.
He came with a barely strangled shout just before you did, and you smiled, sighing. He pulled out, put the condom in the trash and laid down, pulling you into his arms.
“I don’t share easy,” he said. “But for you, I think I can.”
“Good,” you said.
You fell asleep like that, in his arms.
When you woke up in the morning, you were on top of him, his arms still around you. You squirmed, trying and succeeding at getting comfortable.
You picked up his wrist to look at the time on his watch. It was just more than nine.
“Okay,” you said, sighing.
“What’s that?” Belch asked, finally cracking his eyes.
“Oh,” you said. “You’re awake.”
“Yeah, I’m awake. Been waiting on you.”
You smiled.
“Well, I better get home. I’m working a lunch shift for once, so.”
“Okay, baby. I’ll drive you.”
He did, quietly listening to music and singing along in that tuneless way he had.
When you pulled up to the curb outside your house, you kissed him once, lightly, on the lips and pulled away.
He smiled.
“I can’t believe we did that,” he said.
“Me neither,” you said. “I’ve wanted to forever, though.”
“Really?” he asked. “You’ve wanted us like this forever?”
“Yeah,” you said quietly. Thinking about Henry.
“What’s on your mind?” he asked.
“Henry,” you said.
“Yeah. He’s… not happy about this,” he said.
“Won’t it be worse once he finds out we’re together, too?”
“Probably. I’m willing to take that chance.”
You smiled and sighed.
“What do we do?” you asked.
“Just… try and stay out of his way?”
“But he’s Henry. His way is our way.”
He sighed.
“I know. So, I guess I don’t know.”
“Well, I gotta go.”
“Bye, baby,” he said, leaning in to kiss you again. You sighed into it, then got out of the car.
That night, you, Belch, Vic, and Patrick got high together. Patrick and Vic were utterly unsurprised when you kissed Belch hello.
You sat in a circle in Patrick’s back yard. It felt good, having your boys together. Belch seemed to be warming up to sharing you, and you were glad.
It was unspoken, how you were all avoiding Henry. It was also unspoken, how he was avoiding you.
Vic shotgunned a hit to you, holding you firm by the jaw, ending in a sloppy kiss. You sighed into it, feeling amazing.
Belch kissed your neck, trailing his fingers down your arm. You shivered at the touch, so light but so sweet.
“What do you think Henry’s doing right now?” asked Vic.
You all groaned.
“Probably jerking off, mad that he’s not in on it,” said Patrick, gloating. He leaned in and kissed you, hard.
“Fuck that,” you said when the kiss had ended. “If he’s gonna get pissed at me for this, fuck him.”
“But you want him, don’t you, sweetheart?” Patrick asked.
You swallowed and looked away from them, mad.
“So what if I do?” you asked. “He’s such an asshole.”
“Oh, but you like that asshole,” said Vic.
Then, you all laughed.
“Maybe I do,” you said, chuckling. “But I dunno. He’s so… he’s just so awful sometimes.”
“Yeah,” said Belch, taking a hit. “But that’s Hank, I guess.”
“Yeah,” you sighed.
You laid back, propping yourself up on your elbows. The boys followed you, going to lay around you. Belch on your right, Vic and Patrick on your left. You took the joint from Belch and took a hit. Then you leaned in and kissed Belch, one hand on his jaw.
“What do you think it’d be like for him to be in on it?” Vic asked, sighing.
“Why, you want that dick?” Patrick asked.
“Of course I do. Despite my better judgement, I want that unwashed, nasty dick.”
You laughed.
“Something tells me he wouldn’t want to share me,” you said.
“Too fucking bad,” said Patrick. “If we can, he can.”
“Hm.”
You gave Vic a kiss, then leaned over him and kissed Patrick.
“Why don’t we move this inside?” Vic asked.
“Why?” you asked.
“’Cause I want you to suck my dick. Much as I want to do this out here, I don’t think Pat’s neighbors would appreciate it.”
Belch got to his feet, pulling you up by one hand. The other boys followed, and you all went inside. You went to Patrick’s room, shutting the door behind you. Patrick and Vic pushed you up against the door, kissing you, kissing your neck, your jaw. You pushed them aside after a long moment, going to kiss Belch. You pulled him in with a hand on the back of his neck, licking into his mouth. He sighed. Sighed, like it felt so good.
You got to your knees, undoing Belch’s pants and pulling them down a bit to get at his cock. You pulled it out, licking a stripe up the shaft, bobbing your head over the head, licking at the slit. His hand went to your hair, gently raking through. You felt another hand in your hair, and you pulled off him to see Patrick, standing next to him, with his cock out.
You turned and licked gently at the head of his cock. Vic joined him, and you went to him, licking a fat stripe up the shaft.
You went like that, moving between them, for a few minutes.
“Gonna come on your face, sweetheart,” Patrick said, that shark-toothed grin on his face.
“Yeah,” you said. “Do it.”
They did, coming in stripes over your face, over your open mouth.
“Fuck,” said Belch. “Stay like that for a second. Don’t move.”
He took out his phone and snapped a picture. You smiled.
Vic got to his knees and licked the cum off your face, ending in a heated kiss.
“Look so pretty covered in our cum, baby,” he said. “So pretty.”
You grinned, kissing him harder.
Then, Belch got you to your feet and pushed you toward the bed. You went, laying back on it. He pulled your pants down past your knees and went to eating you out. You moaned, one hand in his hair.
“Fuck, Belch,” you said.
“That’s it, baby. Taste so good,” he said, pumping a finger, then two, into you.
Patrick and Vic sat on the bed on either side of you, hands in your hair, fingers on your nipples. Vic leaned down and kissed you, then went to one of your nipples, sucking it into his mouth and gently nibbling at it.
You came, whining, with Belch’s fingers in you, curled up and pumping hard in you.
Patrick licked up your cum.
You laid on the bed, Belch joining the three of you, all of you looking at the ceiling.
“Wow,” you said.
“Hm?” asked Vic.
“I really have all of you, don’t I?”
“Yeah, baby. You got us,” said Belch.
“Wow.”
chasing after dreams ch 4 (nsfw)
poly bowers gang x ambiguously gendered reader
masterpost
previously on: you talk more with the hot teacher. he gives you his number. you and patrick go for a midnight walk and come to an agreement. patrick has a bad day. you hang out with the boys.
summary: you talk to the hot teacher on the phone. you go to a party, and vic has what patrick’s having. things go to shit. the teacher picks you up. you get yourself a daddy. also jerking off, no pants, and henry’s temper.
word count: 3956
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The next night, around eight, you called Mr. Cleaver.
“Hello, this is John,” he said on the other end.
“John,” you said, rolling over onto your stomach, feet in the air.
“Oh, it’s you,” he said. He sounded satisfied.
“Yeah, it’s me. You told me to call. I called.”
“How’s it feel?”
“Hm?”
“How’s it feel to do what you’re told?”
“Good,” you said. “Surprisingly, when sex may come of it, I’m very good at following orders. Very good.”
“Mm. I’m somehow glad to hear it.”
You kicked your feet.
“You sound relaxed,” you said.
“I am. I have my whiskey, nowhere to be. Nothing to do.”
“And you have me.”
“And I’m not afraid of anyone hearing us. Is there anyone on your end who could hear us?”
“No,” you lied. Your parents were in the house, but they were ignoring you. It may as well have not been a lie.
“Mm. What are you up to?”
“I just got done hanging out with the boys.”
“Your boys.”
“My boys,” you agreed.
The weight of the last kiss Patrick had frantically pressed to your lips haunted you. You didn’t want to be thinking of him, not now.
“Is this the part where you ask me what I’m wearing?” you joked when he said nothing.
He laughed. “What are you wearing?”
You looked down at your chest. You were wearing one of Belch’s Guns N Roses t-shirts, that and your underwear.
“Not pants,” you said.
He laughed again.
“I didn’t figure you for someone who’d wear pants if they didn’t have to,” he admitted.
You smiled. It was so true.
“And what are you wearing, John?”
“Also not pants.”
“Ooh,” you said.
“I like it,” he said. “I like it when you call me by my name.”
“Just when I don’t throw it at you like acid,” you pointed out.
“Mm. That’s very true.”
You sighed.
“What are you thinking about right now?” he asked.
“How bad I want to suck your dick.”
“Ah. Well.”
“Don’t get shy on me,” you said. “You gave me your number.”
“I can’t say I haven’t thought about it,” he said.
“Oh, yeah?” you asked, grinning. “You think about how I’d feel wrapped around you?”
“I mostly think about your face. How you’d look, going down on me.”
Your phone beeped and you pulled it away from your face. Vic was on the other end.
You sighed.
“What?” Mr. Cleaver asked.
“Vic’s on the other line.”
“Mm. More trouble.”
That made you smile.
“Yeah, he is. I — I should go.”
“Yes, you should. I’m sorry I gave you my number. It was a very rash decision that I shouldn’t have made,” he said.
“Hey,” you said. “I wanted this. I want you. Don’t be sorry. I think about you all the time.”
You could hear him smile when he said, “I can say the same to you.”
“Well, bye.”
“Goodbye. Sleep well.”
“You too, John.”
You hung up with him and picked up Vic’s call, ready to tear him a new one.
“Jesus, Vic, I was talking to Cleaver,” you bitched.
“Like I fucking care,” he snapped.
“Well, fuck you. What’s up?”
“I wanna know what’s going on between you and Patrick.”
You flushed.
“What do you mean?” you asked softly.
“You know,” he said, “exactly what I mean.”
“No, I don’t think I do.”
“The way he looks at you, now. There’s something different. Are you fucking him?”
You rolled over onto your back, looking at your ceiling fan, sighing.
“No, Vic. I’m not fucking him.”
“Like I’ll believe that. I’m not stupid, sweetheart.”
The way he said it, pulling out Patrick’s special nickname for you like he was throwing a bucket of ice water over you, made you suck in a breath.
“Vic, seriously. We’re not fucking.”
“Uh huh. You tell me, right now, what the fuck is going on. I’ll leave you alone.”
“That’s a damn lie. You’re like a fucking pit bull. You never let anything go.”
“Don’t forget that’s part of why you love me.”
You closed your eyes. He was more right than he knew.
“You really want to know?” you asked.
“Yes.”
“You can’t tell anyone.”
He sighed. “Fine. Whatever. Just fucking tell me.”
“We kissed. We’ve kissed. A lot.”
He was silent for a moment, and you could just imagine that vicious smile he had.
“Well,” he said. “You got some shitty taste.”
“Fuck you,” you groaned.
It was nice to tell someone, for it not to be some huge secret. But now, you guessed, it was an even bigger secret — just adding one more person who knew.
You, Patrick, and now Vic.
“Why?” he asked.
“I — we went for a walk, you know how we do when we can’t sleep. And I kissed him. It was a stupid thing. Really fucking dumb. I told him not to tell anyone, and he said he wouldn’t if he could kiss me when we’re alone.”
He laughed.
“Well, I don’t know what you expected,” he said.
“I don’t know what I did, either,” you said, half miserable.
As wonderful as being able to kiss one of your boys was, you were terrified.
“Well, I hope you know you dug a grave for yourself,” he said.
“What?” you asked. “You jealous, Vicky?”
“Fuck no,” he barked.
That sounded like a yes, but you decided to let it go. It was probably just your imagination running away with you, anyway.
“What I meant was,” he said, voice softer, “you better hope and pray Henry doesn’t find out.”
You sighed again.
“I know,” you said. “He’d fucking freak out.”
“Yeah, he would. Well, I gotta go. Sleep and shit.”
“You’re gonna sleep? This early?”
“Well, I’m gonna get high first.”
You laughed. That sounded more reasonable.
“Wish I was there,” you said.
“Yeah, you do,” he said.
“Bye.”
“Bye. Go back to romancing Cleaver.”
You laughed again.
“Fuck you,” you said.
You hung up.
You didn’t call Mr. Cleaver back.
You went to sleep early.
The week flew by in calls, in kisses, in secrets. Now that Vic knew, he gave you knowing looks a lot. You wished he’d stop.
The times Patrick spent with his thumb to his bottom lip — telling you he wanted to kiss you but couldn’t — were more often than not. It made your stomach grow tight, tight, tighter each time.
You wanted to kiss him, too. Desperately.
And though your focus was on him, now, you still wanted all of them.
Desperately.
You continued having the dream. It even invaded your naps. You fell asleep between a breakfast shift — where Mr. Cleaver had shown up, and you’d talked about nothing important, knowing you could really talk on the phone — and when you needed to get ready for a party, and you had the dream. It changed. It started with Patrick this time. Bruising kisses, teeth clacking together, his hands pulling you so close you couldn’t breathe.
You woke up, gasping and terribly turned on, right when Belch was pushing you down on a bed, going to kneel between your spread legs.
You got up, shrugging it off and getting ready for the party. Your usual — heavy boots and tight pants. You wore one of Patrick’s shirts, tucking the front in and letting the back hang. You knew he’d like it, seeing himself on you.
You took Mr. Cleaver’s ring off and hung it by a chain around your neck. It felt like the spoils of war — something to show how far you’d gotten, how much progress you’d made. How close you were to something happening.
The guys picked you up and you all went into the party. You got drunk as fast as you could, doing shots and drinking the punch.
When you were sufficiently drunk, you felt a hand on your elbow. You looked down at it, then up over your shoulder.
Patrick.
“What d’you want?” you asked.
“You know exactly what I want, sweetheart,” he said, thumb to his bottom lip.
You sighed.
“Let’s find somewhere,” you said.
And you did.
You didn’t know you’d been followed until you closed the door behind you, and it opened right back up again.
Vic.
“I want in,” he said, closing the door behind you.
“Fuck you,” said Patrick.
“No,” said Vic. “But I could.”
You were so drunk, you didn’t even care. You were so drunk, it may as well happen.
You held your arms out, and Vic went into them. You kissed him, once, lightly, on the lips, ending with a short kitten lick.
“Happy?” you asked.
“No,” he said, pulling you close. “Not until I have what Patrick’s having.”
Patrick stood to the side, arms crossed over his chest.
“How about,” you slurred, “how about you kiss Patrick for me?”
He grinned.
“What d’you say, Pat? Wanna kiss me?”
“No,” said Patrick.
It sounded like yes.
“C’mon,” you said. “You can do it. I won’t tell anyone.”
“You’re so drunk you don’t remember your own name,” he said, that predatory smile on his face. “I doubt you’d remember not to tell anyone.”
“Your secret’s safe with me,” you said.
His eyes went hard for a second, remembering your first kiss.
He leaned in and kissed you, hard, one hand on your jaw, holding you in place. Then he pulled off and kissed Vic, softer, hesitant.
When he was done with Vic, you kissed Vic. Patrick went to stand right behind him, and you took turns kissing them. Vic, Patrick, Vic again. It got more frantic as you went on. God, you were getting turned on just by doing this. You were getting what you’d always wanted — at least, half of it.
The door opened, and you pulled back, cheeks burning.
It was Henry, some little piece of ass hanging off his arm.
“What the hell,” he said, anger picking up speed, “is this?”
“Henry, I —” you said, pulling away from the boys. Patrick put his arms around Vic’s stomach, resting his chin on his shoulder.
“No. No fucking excuses. What the fuck is going on?” he asked.
“I —” you started.
Patrick interrupted you.
“We’re making out,” he said. “You fucking mind leaving us to it?”
“Hell no,” said Henry. Then he said to the girl hanging off him without looking at her, “get lost.”
She did, pouting.
Henry came into the room, closing the door behind him.
“What the hell are you doing?” he asked you, pulling you farther away from the boys, both hands on your shoulders. “It isn’t enough to whore around with anyone with two legs, you gotta start with our guys, too?”
“Fuck you, Henry,” you said, starting to get pissed. “I can do what I want.”
“Not if it affects the group,” he said. “Not this.”
“What, are you jealous or something?” you asked, furious.
“Fuck no,” he said.
You pushed him, both hands on his chest.
“Fuck you, whore,” he spat.
“Fuck you, Henry. It wasn’t hurting anyone.”
You turned to Patrick and kissed him, hard, furious.
Then you pulled back. Henry’s face was unreadable.
“I’m leaving,” you said.
“Don’t expect us to give you a ride,” he said.
“I wouldn’t want it even if it was an option,” you spat.
You stalked downstairs, taking one last shot before you stomped out of the house.
You stood at the curb, thinking.
Then, you took out your phone and called.
“Hello?” came a sleepy voice from the other end.
“John,” you said, voice as soft as you could make it.
“What’s going on? Can’t sleep?”
“No, I — I want you to pick me up.”
“Oh. Where can I find you?”
You grinned.
“Meet me at the corner of Maple and Hayfield.”
“Okay. I’ll be there soon.”
You walked slowly, stumbling, getting there in five minutes. A car was already there, and the open window showed you Mr. Cleaver’s worried face.
You got in the car, not looking at him.
“What’s wrong?” he asked. “What happened?”
“I —” you said. Your voice was a little bit slurred, and you shook your head, trying to steady yourself. “I got in a fight. Henry.”
“Mm.”
He started the car and drove off.
“Where do you live?” he asked.
“I’ll go to your place,” you said.
“No, you won’t. You’re absolutely drunk.”
“C’mon, John,” you said, putting one hand on his thigh, high up. “Don’t you want me in your bed?”
He shook his head but didn’t move your hand.
“Not like this. I want you to be fully cognizant.”
“Cognizant,” you repeated, voice soft.
It reminded you of Belch. Of statutory rape and incorrigible, the words he’d pulled seemingly out of nowhere to describe you. To describe your actions.
“Yes. Where do you live?”
“On Mayhew street.”
“Mm.”
You rode in silence.
“I — I kissed Patrick,” you said. “And Vic. And Henry found us. And he got mad.”
“Is this a confession?”
“I guess. I’m — I’m such a whore.”
He was silent for a long moment. Then:
“I wouldn’t say that. I’d say you’re young with quite an appetite.”
“I guess.”
“Did it feel good?” he asked. “Did you want it?”
You looked him over. He was worried, still.
“Yeah,” you said. “I wanted it.”
“Not just because you’re drunk.”
“Not just because I’m drunk. Patrick and I — we’ve. Had this thing. An arrangement, I guess.”
“I see.”
You pulled up to your street, and you told him which house was yours.
He parked at the curb. He said nothing.
You leaned up and kissed his cheek.
When you pulled up, he touched his face, surprised.
“What was that for?” he asked.
“For being my knight in shining armor,” you said. “For picking me up. For listening to me. For not judging me.”
“I can’t judge you,” he said. “I — for god’s sake, I want to fuck one of my students.”
You grinned, could feel Patrick’s smile on your lips.
“You want to fuck me?” you asked.
Then you took a chance, unbuckling yourself and climbing into his lap, straddling him.
“How bad do you wanna fuck me?” you asked.
He swallowed, avoiding your eye.
“Look at me,” you said, taking his chin in your hand, pulling his face until he had no choice but look you in the eye. “Tell me. How bad. Do you want. To fuck me?”
“It’s —” he said — “it’s all I think about.”
You pressed a short kiss to his lips.
“We can’t do this here,” he breathed.
“We can do whatever we want, wherever we want,” you said.
“You’re drunk,” he said.
“And tomorrow, I’ll be sober, and I’ll still want you,” you said.
Hesitant, he put his big hands on your waist. You ground down on him, and he held back a gasp. He was already hard under you, and it made you smile.
“You want me,” you teased. “You want me. How do you want me, hm?”
“I —”
“You want me on top? Riding you nice and slow?”
He swallowed again.
“Or do you want me under you? So small and so eager.”
“Listen,” he started.
You cut him off.
You leaned in and whispered in his ear. “You want me so bad, daddy. I know you do.”
You ended it with a short nip to his earlobe.
When you pulled back, he had his eyes closed. He was breathing hard.
“You like that,” you teased. “You wanna be my daddy?”
“It doesn’t matter what I want. I don’t fuck anyone when they’re drunk,” he said. “It’s just not right.”
“You could fuck me,” you said, grinding down on him, a nice and slow circle.
“I could,” he said. “But I wouldn’t be able to live with myself.”
You kissed him, hard. Surprised, he didn’t respond for a long moment, then, finally, he kissed you back. You slid your tongue into his mouth. He groaned, pulling you back by the hair. You pushed your head back into his hand.
“Do that again,” you said.
“No,” he said.
“No?” you asked.
“No. You’re drunk. I want you to go inside and drink some water and go to bed.”
“I want to go to bed with you,” you said, gearing up to a whine.
“Be good for me,” he said.
You blushed.
“You want that? You want to be good for me, don’t you?” he asked.
“Can I at least blow you?” you asked.
“No.”
You reached down, unbuckling his belt and pushing your hand into his pants quickly, so quickly he obviously didn’t know what you were doing for a moment. You softly stroked at his hard cock for a moment before he grabbed you by the wrist and pulled you away.
“Be good,” he said.
“No,” you said. “You don’t want me because I’m good. You want me because I’m a slut, and I want you, and —”
“I want you to go. Now. Go inside, drink some water, take two ibuprofens, and go to bed.”
You kissed him again, and he pulled your hair, hard.
“Go inside, now,” he said.
“What happens if I say no, daddy?”
He pushed you off his lap, and you went, pouting. Then, he got out of the car, walking to your side and opening the door, pulling you out with one hand on your wrist.
He pulled you up the walk to your porch. You stood there, dumbfounded.
You’d never been told no before. No one said no when you wanted to fuck them.
No one.
He zipped up his pants and redid his belt.
You got on your toes to kiss him again, and he sighed. Sighed, like the world was on his shoulders.
“What?” you asked, pushing up against him.
He put his hands on your ass, pulling you closer.
“I want to do this,” he said, gently. “Just not right now. I want to do this right.”
“No one wants to do this right,” you said.
And you were struck by how correct you were. People did this, right or wrong be damned. People fucked you, right and wrong forgotten.
“I do,” he said.
He kissed you on the cheek, and you touched your face, where his lips had been just heartbeats before.
“Now, go to bed. Be good for daddy,” he said.
You grinned.
“I knew you liked that,” you said.
“I do. Be good.”
He took a step away from you, and then turned back to you. You rushed in and kissed him again, on your toes, arms around his neck. He groaned.
“I’m gonna touch myself and think of you,” you said, lips brushing his. “Think about your dick, you inside me.”
He swallowed again.
“Go to bed.”
“Yes, daddy.”
You went to the door, unlocking it and watching as he walked back to his car. He gave you a wave, and then drove away.
You went inside, getting a glass of water, taking two ibuprofens, going up to your bedroom.
You pulled your boots off, and then stripped until you were completely naked.
You looked at your phone.
You had three messages.
1:05am. From: Vic
Henry’s pissed. I left too
1:30am. From: Patrick
Come to mine after work tomorrow
1:35am. From: Patrick
Vic will be there
You didn’t respond to either of them.
You laid down on your bed, on your back, thinking about Mr. Cleaver. John. His hands on your waist, your ass, his hand pulling your hair.
God, he had such big hands. You slipped two fingers into yourself, thinking about what it would feel like to have his fingers inside you. His cock. You’d touched it, though his underwear had been covering it. But it was thick, and probably long, and god. God, you wanted him inside you.
Unwelcome, Patrick and Vic slid into your mind. You watched the memory of them kissing, eyes shut tight. You tried to push it away, but it stayed, playing over and over.
Then, you thought of Henry.
Henry, who knew, now. Henry, who’d been so mad he’d been spitting at you. Who’d been so mad, he’d practically shaken you, trying to get you to see the error of your ways.
God, but you wanted him, too. You wondered what it would be like, to have him in on it, the way Vic was, now. You imagined him kissing Vic, kissing Patrick. How pushy he would be, how violent even a kiss from him would be. There was nothing soft about him, and fuck if that just made you want him more.
You reached up and pinched one of your nipples, rolled it between your fingers, thinking about Belch. If he didn’t know, he’d know soon. Henry wasn’t the type to keep things from him.
You wondered what he thought. If it turned him on, maybe, thinking of you with your boys. With Patrick and Vic. You imagined him jerking himself off, thinking about you with them. How he’d look, moving one hand on his dick, eyes shut and mouth open, gasping.
You came with a moan, one hand over your mouth. You got up, went to the bathroom, and cleaned yourself up.
When you went back to your room, your phone lit up for just a second.
You picked it up.
2:05am. From: John
Are you being good for daddy?
Instead of shooting off a response, you called him.
He picked up.
“There you are,” he said.
“Here I am. Being very good for you, daddy.”
“You had some water?”
“Yeah. And a couple ibuprofens. And I touched myself.”
“What did you think about?”
“You,” you said. You gulped in a breath of air, making yourself be brave. “And my boys.”
“Mm.”
“I just wanted to hear your voice,” you said. “This night sort of turned to shit.”
“I’m glad you asked for my help,” he said.
“I’m glad you helped me, even if you wouldn’t fuck me.”
You could hear him smiling when he said, “I will. Just not tonight.”
“Will you,” you said, taking another breath, “will you touch yourself and think of me?”
“Of course.”
“Okay. Do you — do you mind talking to me until I fall asleep?”
“What should I talk about?”
You smiled, sleepy.
“Tell me about your house. Where do you live?”
“I live in an apartment, actually. With a golden retriever.”
“What’s its name?”
“Lydia. She’s a very good girl, and I’ve had her for five years.”
“Lydia,” you repeated. “Pet her for me.”
He laughed quietly.
“I will. I’m in my bedroom right now, and she’s laying on the bed next to me. She sleeps in my bed with me unless I have a guest.”
“Do you have guests often?”
He knew what you were asking. You were asking if he got laid a lot.
“Not that often. It’s been a while.”
“Mm. What does your bedroom look like?”
“It’s white. I have art hanging on the walls, by a local artist whose work I’ve fallen in love with. I sleep on a king bed with green sheets and a blue comforter. There are two bedside tables, two lamps, and an armchair in the corner. I usually read before I go to bed, have a glass of whiskey if I feel like I deserve it.”
“You deserve it tonight,” you said, slowly, eyes fluttering closed. Your eyelids were so heavy, you couldn’t lift them.
“As a matter of fact, I do. I’m having a glass right now.”
“Mm.”
“You’re very sleepy, aren’t you?” he asked.
“I’m always sleepy after I come,” you said.
“Good. You can go to sleep, now. I won’t mind.”
“Daddy?”
“Yes?”
“Thank you.”
“You’re welcome. Go to sleep, now.”
“Goodnight.”
“Goodnight.”
You hung up and put your phone down on the bed next to your pillow, drifting off to sleep.
chasing after dreams ch 3 (sfw)
poly bowers gang x ambiguously gendered reader
masterpost
previously on: you graduate high school, and run into that hot teacher in walmart. then, you go to a party and find someone to fuck, pretending he’s patrick. you sleep over with Belch
summary: you talk more with the hot teacher. he gives you his number. you and patrick go for a midnight walk and come to an agreement. patrick has a bad day. you hang out with the boys. also, daddy issues, weed, and wrestling.
word count: 3928
tag list: @heckstetter @bowersbeloved @surahbow @cordysblog @purplezebra68 @frostwolfie2936 @not-uh-author @paulslefttesticle @sarah-bow-beara @daddyyourembarassingme @marsieparsie @tonguepopperr @daddywise-issues @bisexualbitchbabe @forevermore-fanatic
The next day, you woke up bright and early with a small headache. You nudged Belch’s shoulder until he woke, cracking his eyes in your direction.
“I have to work,” you said. “Will you take me home and then there?”
He smiled.
“Sure,” he croaked.
At home, you got changed and ran a comb through your hair, wiping off the makeup you’d been wearing last night. Then you ran out to the curb, where Belch was waiting on you.
You gave him a high five when you got to work, and got to it, rushing inside, tying on your apron.
“You’re late, sugar pie,” Marcia said as you clocked in.
“By two minutes,” you said.
“Five,” she countered.
“Damn,” you swore. “I got a lift and his car said I was doing okay.”
“You’re just lucky Miss and Missus aren’t here this morning.”
Miss and Missus was what she called the owners, Anne and Louise. You were never sure which one was Miss and which one was Missus.
“Thank god,” you said.
She laughed.
“Quit thanking god and get to the table I saved for you.”
You looked at her in surprise, pulling a pen out of the jar at the wait staff station and putting it in the pocket of your apron.
“Why’d you save a table for me?” you asked.
“He asked for you. Table eleven.”
You peeked around the corner and found Mr. Cleaver, sitting alone, nursing a cup of coffee.
“Oh, my god,” you said. “He came back.”
“Looks like you didn’t scare him,” Marcia said, one eyebrow up.
“I don’t think he scares easily,” you said. Then you leaned in and kissed her on the cheek. “Thank you. Seriously, thank you.”
You walked up to the table and sat down across from him.
For a moment, he was confused. And then he actually got a look at you, at who it was, and he tensed up.
“You asked for me?” you said instead of hello.
“Don’t be so surprised. I’d rather talk to you than Marcie, or whatever her name is. She treats me like I’m her son.”
“So, does this mean I’m special?”
You were holding on hope that it did, and he could tell.
He put his hand on top of one of yours for the smallest moment, then pulled it back to his side of the table.
“A former student is always special to a teacher,” he said.
You leaned in, softening your voice.
“That’s not what I meant.”
“Why do you want this so bad?” he asked.
“I told you,” you said. “I’m curious.”
“No,” he said. “Curiosity is what had me mixing baking soda and vinegar as a kid. It wasn’t what got me pursuing a degree in chemistry.”
“Did you just admit that I’m not a kid?”
“Why do you do that?” he countered. “Why do you take words and twist them and use them against me? I tell you my first name and you give me those eyes. I make a simple comparison, and —” he lowered his voice even more — “you seem ready to climb all over me. Where does it end?”
You lowered your voice to match his.
“If I can’t use my body, I will use my words. That’s just the way things work, John.”
He sat back, laughing, breathless.
“You really are something,” he said at a normal volume. “I see you’re still wearing my ring. How do your many boyfriends feel about that?”
You glowered at him.
“They’re not my boyfriends.”
“I am not the only one getting eyes from you. You should be more careful about who you give them to,” he said.
You stood.
“Short stack and some bacon, right?” you snapped.
He smiled.
“Right.”
“I’ll have that right out for you.”
You put in his order and started in on another table, pushing away your frustration with him to be kind to them. Feelings be damned, you’d get a good tip.
“Ooh, look at that,” Marcia said. “What’s got your panties in a twist, huh? Mr. Tall Dark and Handsome want to play it slow?”
You took a sip of the iced tea you had stowed in the wait staff station.
“Listen, it’s complicated,” you said.
“What, more complicated than him being twice your age?” she asked, chuckling.
“Amazingly enough, yes. He was my teacher,” you said.
“Oh, honey. Honey, honey, honey. That’s fire. Don’t play with it.”
“I’m eighteen,” you said, picking up his food from the kitchen window. “I’ll do what I want.”
“Just as long as you know you’re gonna get burned,” she said.
You set his food down on the table and turned without a word. He caught your wrist and pulled you back to him, until you were leaning up against him, one hand on his shoulder to steady yourself.
He looked up at you, a gentle smile on his face.
“Sit,” he said. “At least until you have to get to your other customers.”
“Why?” you asked. “So you can finish tearing me apart for wanting you?”
“So I can convince you that you don’t want me,” he said.
You sighed and sat down, this time next to him. You put your hand on his knee, and he pushed it off.
“How’s your relationship with your father?” he asked.
You went to get up, and he threw an arm around your waist, pulling you back down then immediately taking his arm back.
“That good, huh?”
You glared at him.
“You might be trying to replace him with me,” he said.
“If we both enjoy it, who cares what I might be doing?” you said.
For good measure, you looked him over, licking your lips.
He shook his head.
“Give me one good reason I should take you up on your offer,” he said.
You leaned in and whispered in his ear, “I give the best head you’ll ever get. I’m so small compared to you, so willing and eager. Don’t you want to make me feel good?”
He took a sip of his coffee, pretending not to be interested. But you heard his breath hitch. You weren’t an idiot.
You put the hand that was wearing his ring on his thigh, high up, close to his crotch. He was wearing jeans, something you’d never seen him in before, and you wondered what his ass would look like when he stood in them.
“I’ll call you daddy,” you whispered.
He almost spit out the coffee in his mouth.
“That’s quite enough,” he said shakily. “I think I’ve heard all I want to hear.”
You grinned.
“You could teach me a lot, you know,” you said, standing as you saw one of your other customers raise her hand to get your attention. “I’m a very fast learner.”
“I recall,” he said.
“Just think about it,” you said.
“I will.”
You winked at him and walked away, going to refill your other customers’ waters.
When he left, there was a scrap of paper with a phone number on it. And another fifty percent tip.
You grinned, putting it in the pocket of your apron.
That night, after you got done hanging out with the guys, you laid in bed, unable to sleep. You picked up your phone, thinking for a moment that you should call Mr. Cleaver.
Then you thought better of it. It was after midnight, and he was a respectable adult, though single. He was probably asleep or desperately wanting to be. Much like you.
You shot off a message.
1:14am. To: Patrick
You up?
1:14am. From: Patrick
Can’t sleep?
1:15am. To: Patrick
No
1:15am. From: Patrick
I’ll be there in five
Midnight walks with Patrick were a long-standing arrangement. If one of you couldn’t sleep, and the other was awake, too, you’d go for a walk. Since you sometimes had bouts of sleeplessness, and Patrick was a full-blown insomniac, it was a common enough occurrence that you’d text him and he’d show up, hanging out by your mailbox, waiting for you to sneak out.
Now you were eighteen, there was no sneaking out. There was just leaving, and parents who didn’t care.
You left. He arrived three minutes later, slinging an arm around your neck, pulling you close.
“What’s got you all worked up, hm?” he asked.
He looked exhausted. At night, he said, he didn’t have to pretend anymore. And when he stopped pretending, he stopped looking entirely human. There were deep pools of shadows under his eyes, exaggerated by the streetlights you walked past. The dip at the base of his throat looked like the deep end, and you felt like going for a swim.
You laid your head on his shoulder as you walked toward the park.
“Cleaver,” you said. “John. Did you know his name is John?”
“Makes sense,” he said. “Everyone’s got a name.”
“I know.”
You paused.
“But knowing his… somehow makes it more real. He looked so lonely when he told me what his name is. You think he has any friends?”
“Probably not,” Patrick said.
You arrived at the park, climbing up into the tubes, the only place the passing patrol cars wouldn’t be able to see you. You laid in one long section, face to face, chins propped up in hands.
“Sweetheart?” he said.
You blushed a little bit, grateful for the dark, grateful he couldn’t see you. But the way he said that in his sleep-deprived voice did funny things to your stomach, and you wished he’d say it again.
“Hm?”
“Do you really want his dick?”
“Who, Cleaver’s?”
“No, Santa Claus’s. Yes, Cleaver’s.”
You only thought about it for a moment.
“Of course I do,” you said. “You look at that man and tell me he doesn’t have a big dick. God, I want him in my mouth. I want him inside me.”
And then, tired as you were, you giggled.
“Oh, baby, keep talking nasty,” Patrick said, yawning.
“You know what I want the most, though?”
“What?” he laid his head down on his folded arms and looked up at you through his lashes.
“I want him to kiss me for the first time. I want all the waiting to be over. I want — I want something to start.”
“Mm,” he said, lazily propping his head up on his hands again. “What else do you want?”
You weren’t thinking straight.
You knew you weren’t.
“You wanna know what I want?” you asked.
“Yes, asshole. I just asked.”
“What I really want?”
You were headed for disaster. And you saw yourself, and you couldn’t pull yourself away.
“Yes.”
You leaned in and kissed him. Surprised and sleepy, he didn’t kiss back, and you pulled away.
“Fuck,” you said, suddenly in perfect control of what you were doing. “Fuck, I’m so sorry.”
He looked at you, picking you apart with his eyes.
Then he grabbed you by the back of the neck and slowly leaned in, pressing his forehead to yours.
“That’s what you want, sweetheart? You want me to kiss you?”
His lips ghosted over yours as he spoke, his breath hot over your face.
You swallowed, hard.
Then, you nodded.
He kissed you this time, just a slow press of his lips on yours. Then, he slowly swiped his tongue over your bottom lip, and you opened your mouth to let him in. He licked at your tongue, the roof of your mouth, your top teeth.
You let out a sigh, eyes screwed shut.
When the kiss ended, you took a moment before you opened them again.
“Like that?” he asked. “You want me to kiss you like that?”
He was still looking like he was picking you apart.
And his hand was still on the back of your neck.
“I’m sorry,” you said, pulling away from him and getting out of the tube.
You walked away, waiting for him to catch up to you. He did, long legs carrying him up to you easily.
“Don’t be,” he said.
“Hm?”
“Don’t be sorry. It was a damn good kiss.”
You thanked god that you were walking, that you didn’t have to look at him.
“Yeah,” you said. “Don’t — don’t tell anyone about this.”
“Why not?”
“Because —” you took a deep breath, then let it go. “Because.”
“Your secret’s safe with me, sweetheart.”
When you got back to your house, you paused next to the mailbox.
He gave you that appraising look that meant that now, he was more awake than not.
“I won’t tell anyone,” he said, “if I can have another kiss. If I can kiss you when we’re alone.”
You swallowed again, mouth dry.
“Okay,” you said.
Because let’s face it, you dug this grave, so you may as well curl up to him in it, right?
Right.
He leaned in and kissed you, hand going again to the back of your neck. His other hand went to your waist, pulling you flush up against him. You blushed, not knowing what to do with your hands.
Damn it, you’d wanted this so bad, and now you had it, you didn’t know what to do with it.
He pulled back and looked you over, then pecked you once on the lips.
Then he left, giving you a short wave before he turned the corner towards his street.
You went back to bed, head a mess.
You’d kissed Patrick, and it hadn’t been a complete disaster. You’d kissed one of your boys, and the world wasn’t falling down around you.
But where did you go from here?
Where did this leave you?
It left you at Patrick’s mercy, a place you weren’t sure you wanted to be.
You worked the breakfast rush again the next day. Mr. Cleaver showed up.
“You didn’t call,” he said when you brought him his usual tankard of coffee. “That shows remarkable restraint.”
“I couldn’t sleep,” you said. “But I thought of you.”
“I hope that doesn’t mean what I think it means,” he said, pouring a tiny bit of half and half into his first cup of coffee.
“It actually doesn’t,” you said. “I got caught up in other things. Patrick and I — we went to the park.”
“Patrick Hockstetter,” he said, sighing. “That boy’s trouble.”
You grinned. “So am I.”
“This, you never fail to remind me.”
“You’ll be having the usual?”
“Yes, please. Thank you.”
You put in his order and attended to your other customers.
When you brought his food to him, he said, “why aren’t you with Patrick?”
You opened your mouth, surprised, then shut it again.
“Ah,” he said. “I see.”
“There’s nothing to see,” you insisted.
“The look on your face tells me otherwise.”
You looked at him, silently pleading your case. You still wanted him. You still wanted Patrick. And the boys. But right now, you focused on him.
“You would be good with him,” he said. “Better with him.”
“I don’t think there’s a thing he could give me that you couldn’t do better.”
“Well, I have more experience. But he’s more appropriate. Any of your boys would be.”
“I still want you,” you said quietly.
“You shouldn’t,” he said.
You sighed.
“But I do,” you said. “I do.”
He smiled at you. You saw pity in his eyes, but also recognition. He saw some of himself in you.
“What’s that look for?” you asked.
“Look at us. Wanting what we can’t have.”
You put one hand to your chest for just a heartbeat before you placed it on his hand.
“We can have what we want,” you said. “I’m eighteen. I’m a consenting adult. We can have what we want.”
“What we want and what we need are very different things,” he said. “I have no doubt that we could have fun. But fun is the farthest thing from my mind.”
“What, are you worried about ruining the world for me?” you asked.
“Something like that. I’m worried about ruining men for you.”
“What,” you said, a laugh playing in the curve of your lips, “you think your dick’s so great I’ll never want anything else?”
“That,” he said, “is not what I said, and you know it.”
“If you ruin men, it won’t be a problem. Girls work too.”
He raised his eyebrows at that.
“You never fail to surprise me.”
You smiled.
“I’ll leave you to it,” you said.
You did, letting him eat while you attended to your other customers.
Before he left, he caught you by the hand as you walked past him.
“Do call me,” he said. “At least once.”
Again, he left an exorbitant tip.
At the end of your shift, you pulled out your phone from the cubby in the wait staff station you were using.
12:31pm. From: Patrick
come to mine after work
So you did.
When you got to his house, his parents were gone, as usual. You went to his room, throwing down your bag and flopping face first onto his bed. He laughed, and it was completely lacking humor.
So today was a bad day. Damn.
He nudged you with his foot, then got on the bed next to you, looking at you.
“What’s going on in that pretty little head of yours, hm?” he asked.
“Cleaver — John. He gave me his number. Told me to call him.”
“Mm.”
“Yeah.”
“Sit up.”
You did, reluctant to leave your position, but willing to do anything if it would make him happier.
Bad days were no good, for anyone involved.
“C’mere,” he said.
You scooted closer to him.
“No,” he said, “come here.”
He hauled you into his lap, and you went, surprised. You had your legs around him, feet on the bed behind him.
He kissed you, hard. So hard your teeth clacked together, and you tried to pull away. He put a hand in your hair and made you stay put, licking into your mouth. You sighed and let him, winding your arms around his neck as he pulled you even closer by your hips.
You were pressed up against him, could feel his growing bulge against you, and you blushed.
There was no darkness to save you, this time.
“That’s it, sweetheart,” he said. “See what you do to me?”
“Patrick,” you said.
You had to draw the line.
“I know, I know. You don’t want to fuck me. You’ll fuck someone who looks just like me, but me? No.”
“I —”
“Stop,” he snapped. “Just don’t. I don’t want to hear it.”
His face was an absolute storm, grey and swirling.
You swallowed and ran a hand through his hair, tucking a lock behind one of his ears.
“I’m sorry you’re having a bad day,” you said gently.
“Fuck it,” he said. “Who gives a shit?”
“I give a shit. I do.”
He just huffed, looking away from you.
“Let’s lay down,” you said.
“Only if I can have you on top of me,” he countered.
He expected you to say no.
You pushed him back, pulling your legs out from under him and sitting on his hips, straddling him.
Then you leaned down and kissed him. He reciprocated, one hand around your throat, such a perfect imitation of your fuck with Blaine that it made you gasp.
“You like that?” he asked. “You like my hand around your neck?”
You nodded and went back to kissing him, biting at his lip and sliding your tongue up against his. He reached down and grabbed your ass, pulling you down to grind on him.
It felt like hours had passed, when both of you pulled back, when the fire came back to Patrick’s eyes. He was feeling better, and you were glad.
“C’mon,” you said. “Let’s raid the kitchen. I’m fucking starving.”
So you did. You ate handfuls of grapes and cheese and crackers and even some hummus that was sitting around.
Then, he rolled a joint.
“The guys should be here soon,” he said before licking the paper to seal it.
“Fuck,” you said.
“What? You wanna spend more quality time with me?”
“No. I mean, yes. But no, what I meant was how do we keep it a secret?”
“We’re already all over each other,” he said. “They’re not gonna notice.”
“Just —” you said, “just don’t try and kiss me in front of them.”
“Oh, I won’t. I don’t want Henry to try and beat my ass and then get embarrassed when he can’t.”
That made you laugh. Because it was true. Because Patrick fought dirty, and you knew it, and you’d taught him half of what he knew.
“C’mere,” he said, lighting up the joint. “Something I’ve wanted to try.”
He took a puff and put a hand on the side of your face, coaxing your mouth open. Then, he blew the sweet smoke into your mouth as you inhaled.
You closed your eyes, hiding the emotion in them.
That was something you’d wanted for a very, very long time.
When you opened your eyes again, he was watching you.
“What you thinking, hm?” he asked.
“I’m glad I get to kiss you, even though it confuses me,” you said without a moment’s hesitation.
“Mm.”
The guys showed up and you hung out, watching shitty horror movies that made Patrick laugh and drinking shitty whiskey that Henry brought and smoking more.
You fell asleep with your head in Henry’s lap, one of his hands in your hair.
When you woke, he was gone, on the floor, wrestling with Belch. Belch had him pinned and was trying to talk him into tapping out. That wasn’t going so well.
You got up and went to Patrick’s room to get your cigarettes out of your bag. Patrick followed you, closing the door behind you and pushing you up against it before you could think. He kissed you, licking into your mouth as soon as he could.
Then, he pulled back from the kiss, grinning.
“And what’s going on in your pretty little head?” you asked, echoing what he’d said a million times before.
“Mm. You taste good. You’re so soft.”
You smiled, then pushed him away, going to your bag and pulling out your cigarettes.
“C’mon,” you said. “Let’s have a smoke.”
You did, going out to the back porch, where no one followed you, sharing a single cigarette with him, passing it back and forth on the exhales.
“Soft,” you said quietly.
“Mm?”
“You said I’m soft.”
“You are, sweetheart.”
“Huh.”
“Wish I could kiss you right now,” he said, putting his thumb to his bottom lip.
“Well,” you said. “Why don’t you do that every time you want to kiss me, but you can’t?”
“Do what?”
He put his hand down.
“That,” you said, imitating the gesture, thumb to your bottom lip. “Do that.”
“Hm,” he said, doing it.
“Just like that. And then I’ll know.”
“And then you’ll know.”
You heard a shout from inside and then the back door opened, the rest of your boys piling out, coming to sit around you and Patrick.
“What’re we talking about?” asked Henry, hating to be left out.
“Cleaver,” said Patrick without a second thought, his thumb going to his bottom lip. “Probably has a big dick.”
“Mm,” said Vic. “I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t thought about it.”
“You two,” said Belch. “You two.”
“You’re just jealous we don’t want your dick,” Vic said.
Belch winked at him. And you all laughed.
It was normal, to play like that. To be all over each other. It was normal.
You were each other’s entire world. It was normal.
chasing after dreams ch 2 (nsfw)
poly bowers gang x ambiguously gendered reader
part one
previously on: you’re secretly in love with all the boys in your gang. with graduation quickly approaching, you cause some trouble. also, getting high, flirting with a teacher, jerking off, making a bet, and waiting tables.
summary: you graduate high school, and run into that hot teacher in walmart. then, you go to a party and find someone to fuck. you sleep over with Belch. also noxious punch, vic’s a little bit gay, the resident whore, and lettuce.
word count: 4026
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On Monday, you graduated. After everything was done, you ran to Belch. He swept you up a hug, and you laughed, loud and long.
You were free. Finally, you could do what you wanted with your life.
After you did the cursory hello, yes, isn’t it great, with your parents, they let you go with the boys.
You took off your gown and hat, stuffing them in the trunk of the Trans Am.
“What should we do today?” asked Belch.
“Who fucking cares?” asked Henry.
You could tell he was silently hurting.
Butch hadn’t made the effort to come, working a shift of pulling over speeding drivers instead.
“I care,” said Vic. “This is our first day as free people. Should we go to the quarry?”
“Fuck no,” said Patrick. “It’ll be full of kids.”
The way he said kids told you all you needed to know.
“So, what then?” you asked, leaning up against him. “If you say no to an idea, you gotta have something better.”
“Walmart,” he said. “Let’s see if we can get kicked out.”
Nothing you’d done so far had gotten the staff to give you the boot, but fuck, if you weren’t going to try.
So you went, wandering around, being loud and causing a ruckus.
In the produce section, Vic gently shoved your shoulder.
“Look,” he said. “It’s your boyfriend.”
Confused, you followed his gaze. Inspecting a head of lettuce was Mr. Cleaver. You grinned.
“Bye, boys. I got business to attend to,” you said, leaving them behind with a swish of your hips.
“Hi, there,” you said, arriving at Mr. Cleaver’s side.
“Oh,” he said, caught off guard. “Hello.”
“Guess what?” you said, giving him your signature smile.
“What?”
“I’m not your student anymore.”
“Mm. Congratulations on graduating.”
“You know that’s not what I’m talking about,” you said, taking a step closer to him. He didn’t move away, but he didn’t lean in. He was being so, so careful.
“I know.”
“Mr. C,” you started, intending on telling him exactly what you wanted.
“John,” he said, voice quiet.
“Hm?”
“My name. It’s John.”
He finally made eye contact with you. What you found surprised you. He looked lonesome.
“John,” you said gently. “John. What are you up to today? A beer or two after a long school year?” Then you paused, correcting yourself. “Oh, no. No. You look like a whiskey man.”
“As a matter of fact, I am,” he said.
“Good thing I like a man who can hold his liquor,” you said.
He laughed, eyes crinkling.
It reminded you of Belch, and you angrily shoved that thought away.
“You talk like you have so much experience,” he said.
“Come on, John. You know my reputation precedes me,” you said, putting a hand on his shoulder.
He tensed under the touch, looking out behind you.
You looked over your shoulder, and Henry, grinning, gave the both of you a little wave.
“What is this?” Mr. Cleaver asked. “Is this some kind of joke?”
“Oh, no,” you said, lying your ass off. You’d sooner die than tell him about the bet. “Even I’m not so cruel.”
“Then what is it?”
“Call it… curiosity. Call it me harboring a crush and wanting to see it through.”
“Curious about what?” he asked.
You sent a pointed look to the front of his pants before looking back to his eyes, one eyebrow up.
“I think you know exactly what I’m curious about. John.”
He leaned in.
“There are some things kids shouldn’t play with, no matter what their reputation is.”
“I’m going to a party tonight,” you said, changing the subject. “Mind if I find some boy who looks just like you and practice a little?”
He blushed. He actually blushed. You grinned.
“You can do what you want,” he said. “I’ll have nothing to do with it.”
“Oh, but you will,” you said, holding out your hand. The one where his ring still rested on your thumb.
He looked at it, and back to you. You couldn’t read his expression.
“Don’t deny it,” you said. “You like having a bit of yourself on me.”
He licked his lips, and you smiled.
“Whether I like it or not is no concern of yours,” he said.
“Oh, but it is. I bet you love it. I bet you’re wondering what it would be like for you to be all over me.”
“I have to go,” he said quickly.
“Mm. Think of me?”
“Against my will, I probably will,” he said.
You took a chance, backing away from him and blowing him a kiss. He raised his eyebrows at you as you rejoined the group, walking away, your boots heavy on the tile, carrying you away.
“I know a word for you,” said Belch.
“Hm?”
“Incorrigible.”
Vic laughed, grabbing his side.
“Jesus, Belch. What’s up with you and all the big words?”
“I’m not stupid,” Belch snapped. “But you are, doing this.”
The last remark was directed at you.
“Belch,” you said gently. “It’s fine. I’ll fuck him once and forget him. Just like everyone else.”
“One day,” he said, his voice halting. “One day you’ll understand that your actions have consequences.”
You took his hand, squeezing it for a bare moment.
“I’ll be okay,” you said.
“I know you will. But other people aren’t toys for you to play with.”
You pulled back, shocked.
“Other people are toys to you,” you said. “What about that string of girls you’ve fucked and forgotten? What about the kids you wail on just because you’re bored?”
“That’s different,” he said.
“No,” you said. “No, it’s not.”
That night, the guys picked you up, all heading for a party one of the football guys was throwing. You were in combat boots and your skinniest fuck-me jeans. You even had a little bit of eyeliner smudged on your lids. You were going for sex on a stick, and you were pretty sure you’d accomplished your goal.
“Damn, sweetheart,” said Patrick, finally getting a good look at you once you’d all gotten out of the car and were standing in the lawn, getting ready to give them hell. “Do a little turn, let me see your ass.”
You grinned.
“No,” you said.
“Aw, c’mon. I know you’re gonna find someone to fuck, I wanna know what you’re walking in there with.”
You patted your pockets, making sure your cigarettes and Bic were where they were supposed to be.
“Then watch it as it walks away,” you said, leading them into the party.
When you got in, and people saw you were there, a few people cheered, raised their plastic cups of booze to you.
It wasn’t a party without you and the boys.
You spotted Gretta Bowie in the kitchen. She looked at you, then past you, at Patrick. She wasn’t nearly as slick as she obviously wanted to be. You could tell exactly what she was looking for. What she wanted: to be on top of him, in some dark corner, moaning like a little bitch.
You gave her a predatory grin, getting yourself a drink. Something strong. Some of the punch, whatever was in it. It smelled like vodka, and you figured that was good. You didn’t trust anything you couldn’t taste the alcohol in.
Then, you waved goodbye to the guys as you left, going out to the back porch. Smokers and stoners congregated, a thin cloud of smoke over everyone.
You were looking for something. Someone. Anyone would do — anyone to take your mind off your boys. Anyone to replace Mr. Cleaver, the dick you wanted, the dick you’d have, but not now.
You wondered what he was doing. Alone, in an apartment, or maybe a house. Sitting in an armchair or up in bed. Probably just in his boxers, nursing a few fingers of whiskey.
You wondered if he’d jerk off thinking about you. Would it be fast, stripping his dick, thinking about you on top of him, or would it be nice and slow, just wondering? Just thinking. Just hoping.
“Hey, there,” said a voice you hadn’t heard before.
You turned, surveying the boy in front of you.
Not bad. Shaggy dark hair and blue eyes. He looked a bit like Patrick, when you squinted.
He had almost the same predatory smirk, too. It put knots in your stomach, that halfway dark smile.
“Well, hey,” you said. “You’re cute.”
That smile just got bigger.
“I can say the same thing for you,” he said.
“So, what’s your name?” you asked.
“Blaine,” he said. “I’m Blaine.”
“Well,” you said. “Nice to meet you. I’m —”
“Oh, I know who you are,” he said.
You furrowed your brows, confused. You’d never even seen this boy before. You doubted he was even from your school.
“You’re the one who runs with Henry Bowers and his crew. I’ve heard of you.”
“Oh, yeah?”
“Yeah. I’ve heard… well, a lot, actually.”
You put one hand on his shoulder, pulling him closer to you.
“How much have you heard?” you asked, voice soft.
“Enough for me to want to see what the fuss is about. I think I get it, now.”
“Oh, I can show you more,” you said, pulling him even closer and slipping one of his legs between yours.
“That’s what I was counting on,” he said. “Can I get you a drink?”
You held up the cup in your hand, chugging what was left, then held it out for him.
“Sure,” you said. “I’m having the punch.”
He grinned.
“I’ll be back,” he said. “Don’t go anywhere.”
While he was gone, Vic found you.
“You already find your piece of ass for the night?” he asked.
“You fucking know it,” you said, lighting up a cigarette.
He took it from you, taking a drag, and you fought the thought that that’s where your mouth had been, only moments before.
Your life seemed to be full of things that could be kisses, could be embraces, could be affection, if just… just moved a little bit. Adjusted.
“What’s their name?” he asked, careful not to leave anyone out. God knew you didn’t.
“Blaine. Kid from another school. And my reputation reached him long before he found me.”
“Yes, it did,” said Blaine, standing just behind you.
You turned to see him looking Vic over, a little jealous.
“Blaine,” you said. “This is Vic. My friend. Part of my crew.”
“Mm,” said Blaine. “A friend.”
“Trust me,” said Vic. “Nothing’s happening here. Just checking in.”
And then he walked away, passing your cigarette back. Blaine put his arm around you, and you smiled up at him, giving him the attention he obviously so desperately wanted.
“Got you a refill,” he said, holding out your cup.
“Thanks, sugar,” you said.
You took it and swallowed down several gulps of the sickly sweet and deadly strong concoction. He took your cigarette and took a drag, holding it between his forefinger and thumb, the way Henry smoked.
You forced Henry from your mind.
You finished your cup, and he took you by the hand, pulling you into the house. The music was blaring, something popular and kinda shitty, but it had a decent bassline. So, you pulled him into the living room and grinded on him.
In the corner behind Blaine’s back, Henry and Belch sat talking. Henry looked at you, then looked at Blaine. You slid your legs around one of Blaine’s, grinding down on him to the beat of the song, looking away from Henry.
Blaine curled one hand around your throat, forcing your face up to look at him. Then he kissed you, hard, biting your lip before soothing it with his tongue. His hand stayed tight around your throat.
You moaned for him, putting on a little show. You pulled back, licking your lips.
“Wanna take this somewhere more private?” you asked.
He smiled.
“I guess,” he said. “Much as I’d love you to blow me with everyone watching. Let’s find somewhere.”
You took him by the hand, leading him around the house, searching for somewhere to fuck. You ended up upstairs. He tested one door, and finding it unlocked, he opened it. You both got an eyeful of Patrick fucking Gretta at a brutal pace and closed the door again.
Your cheeks were burning. You hoped Blaine wouldn’t notice, but he did.
“What, you jealous he got that ass?”
“Fuck no,” you spat. “I wouldn’t touch her pussy with a ten-foot pole.”
“Ah,” he said, testing another door. It was locked. He turned to the bathroom, blissfully empty with no one standing around waiting on it. “C’mon.”
He pushed you into the bathroom, closing the door behind you, and locking it for good measure. Then he pulled you into another hard kiss, forcing his tongue into your mouth. You moaned again, hands going to his hair, gently pulling.
“I know what it is,” he said.
“Huh?”
“You’re jealous of her.”
“What?” you asked sharply.
“You’re jealous that he’s fucking her, not you.”
“Fuck you, Blaine,” you said, pulling him in for another kiss, hands going to his pants, undoing them and pushing inside, stroking over his clothed cock.
“Tell me I’m wrong,” he said, pushing you to your knees. “Tell me I’m fucking wrong.”
“You’re wrong,” you said.
He slapped you lightly on the cheek as you were pulling his pants and underwear down.
“Don’t lie to me. You want him to fuck you.”
“So what?” you spat.
“So pretend, if that’s what you want so bad. Wanna call me Patrick?”
You glowered at him, slowly stroking his cock in one hand.
“No,” you lied.
“Don’t lie to me. You want that.”
“So I call you Patrick. You gonna get off on me wanting someone else?”
“I get off on being what people want me to be,” he said, grinning down at you. “You want me to be Patrick, close your eyes and think of him.”
Dubious, you did it. You closed your eyes and imagined that it was Patrick’s cock in your hand, then in your mouth, pushing past your gag reflex. You imagined it was Patrick’s hand in your hair, pulling you on and off of him.
“Slut,” Blaine said.
Patrick said.
You moaned around his cock, and you could imagine Patrick’s grin, that shark faced thing he had when he was getting what he wanted.
“Get up,” he said. “I’m gonna fuck you.”
You stood, keeping your eyes halfway shut. Like this, he really looked like him. Tall, lanky, dark. Dangerously handsome.
He put his hands on your waist and pushed you up against the counter, reaching around you to undo your pants and push them down to your knees. You faced the mirror, but you couldn’t see his face at this angle, as you bent over and he reached down to slide a few fingers over your hole.
“Look at you,” he said, slipping two fingers inside. “So tight for me.”
You swallowed hard. Then, you got brave.
“Patrick,” you whined.
“That’s it, baby.”
He rolled on a condom and pushed into you, a slow slide like he had all the time in the world. His hands were bruising on your hips, pulling you back on him. You went with little moans and grunts.
“Fuck, Patrick,” you said quietly.
You desperately didn’t want anyone to hear.
“You’re my good little slut, aren’t you?” he hissed in your ear.
You flushed.
“Yeah,” you said. “I’m — fuck, Patrick, I’m your slut.”
“Just mine, aren’t you, baby,” he asked, licking a stripe up the side of your neck.
You nodded, frantic, one of your hands furiously stroking yourself.
He picked up the pace, eventually pounding into you, one hand wrapped around your throat. You could breathe, but only barely, and you let out strangled little moans and whines as he slammed into you again and again.
He came with a groan, pulling you back on him, and then pulled out, turning you around and kneeling at your feet, putting his mouth on you.
You moaned and threw your head back, one hand in his hair as he made you come, and come hard.
Then, he stood. He took the condom off and threw it away and quietly put himself back together. You did the same, cheeks burning, your back turned to him.
You washed your hands, and he wrapped his arms around your middle, resting his chin on one of your shoulders.
“You’re a damn decent fuck,” he said.
You laughed, shoving unruly thoughts of Patrick out of your mind.
“I’m the best fuck you’ve ever had and you know it,” you said.
“Nah, the best fuck I ever had was last year. Fucking mind-blowing. But you? A close second.”
You dried your hands and turned in his arms.
“You really don’t mind?” you asked, looking at his chest instead of his face.
“If I minded, I wouldn’t have let you,” he said gently. “Listen, he’s hot. I kinda want to be him just as bad as you want to fuck him.”
You leaned up and kissed him in gratitude. That sly smile he had returned.
“You know,” you said. “You’re really not much like him at all.”
“From what I hear,” he said, “that’s a good thing. C’mon, let’s rejoin the world.”
You opened the door to find Gretta Bowie standing waiting for the bathroom.
“Jesus, that’s what took so long,” she bitched.
“Yeah, yeah,” you said, cheeks burning again.
You left the bathroom only to immediately run into Patrick, who was zipping up his pants and giving a wolfish smile to the back of Gretta’s retreating head.
“Who’s your bitch?” he asked, nodding at Blaine.
“This is Blaine,” you said, one hand still in his. “Blaine, Patrick.”
“Something you wanna tell me, sweetheart?” Patrick asked.
“We fucked? But you could tell, I know you could.”
“Uh huh. No offense, Blaine, but you look a lot like me.”
Blaine laughed. “I don’t see it,” he said.
Bless him.
“Mm. C’mon, I wanna smoke. You still got yours, or you trade it for dick?” Patrick said to you.
“Patrick.”
“Yes, sweetheart?”
“I never pay for dick.”
“I’m not talking about money, I’m talking about a barter system,” he said as you headed downstairs, Blaine pulling up the rear.
You got outside and managed to get chairs. You sat, then put your feet in Patrick’s lap. If you didn’t, he’d be able to tell that something was up. You had to keep being as handsy as he was, or he’d smell a rat.
Blaine sat next to you, lighting up one of his menthols. He was about to throw an arm around your shoulders but caught a hard look from Patrick and thought better of it.
“So, how long have you guys known each other?” Blaine asked, gesturing to the knot that was you and Patrick.
The two of you looked at each other.
“Ten years?” you asked.
“Thirteen,” he said.
“Yeah, right. Thirteen. Since kindergarten.”
“Jesus,” Blaine said. “How the fuck did you stay friends for so long?”
“Nothing better to do,” you joked.
“Everyone else is boring,” Patrick said.
That was the truth. You were utterly bored by just about everyone outside of your group, but Patrick held a special place in your heart. You could still remember the first time he drew a picture and handed it to you, in your first-grade class in the middle of Art. It was all black and brown squiggles, and for some reason, you knew you should be afraid.
But you weren’t. You were stupid that way.
Stupid, or just hard headed. You were determined to be his friend, and you were. He wasn’t friendly, barely even acted like he liked you, but you stuck by him, and now here you were, the fruits of your labor evidenced by his arm now around your shoulders.
The rest of the guys had come later. In middle school. All three of them at the same time — Belch glued to Henry’s side, Vic glued to Belch’s. They thought you were a twerp and Patrick was a creep, but when they tried to wail on the both of you, they discovered that in a fight, you two were unstoppable.
There’s something to be said for a boy who gets his ass beat and turns around and says, “Fuck you. Do you wanna eat lunch with us?”
That was Henry. Always the wordsmith.
“Jesus,” Blaine said quietly. He put his cigarette butt on the ground and crushed it under his foot before he stood. “Well, kids. It was fun. I’m leaving, though.”
You stood, pulling him in for another kiss.
He whispered in your ear.
“If you ever want to pretend again, look me up.”
You smiled at him and watched him go.
“What’d that fag say?” Patrick asked.
“Patrick,” you said. “You fuck guys and girls. Don’t you think that word applies to you?”
He grinned, pulling you onto his lap.
“Whatever.”
You managed to get someone to bring you another cup of that punch and worked your way from merely tipsy to slightly sloshed. You didn’t want to get any farther than that, though, and you asked Patrick — before downing yet another cup of punch — to make sure you didn’t drink any more.
Patrick was good for that sort of thing. He didn’t want to deal with you getting sick, so when you reached for another drink, he handed you a bottle of water.
You sat with him, smoking, watching through the glass doors as people danced and grinded on each other. Vic was in the mix, some cute boy you were pretty sure was a junior right in front of him, ass to crotch.
“You think he’s gonna get that ass?” Patrick asked, clearly not caring much either way.
“Nah,” you said. “If he was, he would’ve already.”
“Fair,” Patrick said, lighting up another cigarette.
When Henry decided he was done, you all left, talking in twos and threes about the party, who’d been fucking around with who in what dark corner, who’d been puking in the bushes.
“Our resident whore got some ass,” Vic said, clapping a hand on your shoulder in the back seat as you pulled away from the party.
You took a bow.
“Guy named Blaine,” Patrick said. He said his name with a certain amount of artful disdain.
“Good for you, getting legal dick,” said Belch.
“Cleaver is perfectly legal,” you said, knowing exactly what he was thinking about.
“He shouldn’t be,” he shot back, pulling up to Vic’s house.
Vic climbed out of the back seat, waving goodbye as he walked to the door.
“I don’t want to go home,” you said.
“Poor baby,” Patrick said, pulling you in with one arm around your shoulder. You put his head on your shoulder, closing your eyes for a bare moment.
“I mean it,” you said. “Can I stay with one of you guys?”
“Fuck, not me,” said Henry.
You already knew it wasn’t an option.
Didn’t mean you would leave him out, though.
“Patrick?” you asked.
“Not tonight, sweetheart,” he said.
“Belch?”
He thought about it.
“Fine,” he said. “But only ‘cause Mama’s working tonight.”
“Thank you, thank you, thank you,” you said, putting a hand on his shoulder.
He had the biggest bed, anyway. He was the best option.
After he dropped off first Patrick and then Henry, you drove the long way back to the center of town, to Belch’s neighborhood. You dozed in the front seat until he put on the e-brake and you woke up, eyes wide.
“Fuck,” you said. “I bet I’ll have a fucking hangover.”
“Not if you’re smart,” he said.
You both got out of the car and let yourselves into his house, winding your way through it in the dark.
In his bathroom, he gave you a cup of water and two ibuprofens. You took them, grateful, and went to his room, taking off your shoes before crawling into bed.
He got into bed after you, down to his boxers and shirt. You laid in bed, facing each other, saying nothing.
You fell asleep like that.

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chasing after dreams ch 1 (nsfw)
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summary: you’re secretly in love with all the boys in your gang. with graduation quickly approaching, you cause some trouble. also, getting high, flirting with a teacher, jerking off, making a bet, and waiting tables.
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a/n: HERE IT IS!! I’M SO FUCKING EXCITED FOR YOU ALL TO READ THIS!!
In the dream, it always started with Henry.
It went like this:
You were at a party. Everyone was wasted and buzzed and fucked up. Your boys especially, though all the more sharp for it.
You ended up on a couch next to Henry. You were always talking about some hot looking chick grinding on some douchebag in front of you. Then he’d turn to you, one hand under your chin, just looking at you. You’d laugh, ask him what he was looking at.
Then he’d kiss you, always a surprise even though you’d had the dream maybe ten times, twenty if we’re pushing the limits.
You’d kiss him back once you got over your shock. Then you’d feel hands on your waist, lips on your neck. It was Patrick, always Patrick. With one of your hands, you’d reach back, tug on his hair.
Then Belch and Vic would come out of the crowd, pull you up so you were standing in between all of them. They’d kiss you, one by one, pushing you off to the boy next to them, each kiss more intense and nasty and wonderful than the last.
You’d end up pressed to Patrick’s front, feeling him against every part of you. He’d suggest you all take this somewhere more private.
Somewhere more private, to do things for your eyes only.
They’d pull you into an empty bedroom, pulling your clothes off with hungry eyes. You’d stand in front of them, completely bare, and then Belch would rush in and kiss you, pulling you up against him. Vic would come up behind you, grinding up against your ass.
They’d pull you apart with their hands, their mouths, their teeth.
And then you’d wake up, terrified and elated and so, so sad.
Because it wasn’t real. And it couldn’t be.
It was only a dream.
You woke up on a Friday morning in late May, graduation just days away. You beat your pillow in anger that slipped into sorrow and then flopped back down on it, looking at the ceiling.
A boy like them — like any of them — and you? It just wasn’t possible.
Much less all of them.
God, but you were hungry. God, but you wanted. Them. All of them. Always.
God, what was wrong with you? Why couldn’t you just be satisfied with them as they were? They were your best friends. There was nothing more you could ask for. Nothing more.
You got up and got ready for school. The guys would be here soon to pick you up, and you worked hard on putting the dream away, like you had countless times before.
When you were ready, you ran downstairs and got something to eat. Your parents were already gone for work, hadn’t even said goodbye. Typical.
Then you went outside, sitting on the curb, smoking your first cigarette of the day.
When the guys showed up, Henry got out, pushing forward the front seat so you could climb into the back. You got settled between Patrick and Vic, in the middle of some argument they were having. Patrick had his arm over the back of the seat, and you forced yourself not to think of it as having his arm around you.
You deserved better than chasing after dreams when you were awake.
“What’s on your mind, sweetheart?” Patrick asked, pulling you out of your thoughts.
You laughed, caught off guard.
“Had a fucked-up dream last night,” you said.
“Mm,” he said. “My favorite. Was it clowns?”
You laughed again.
“No, no clowns this time.”
“Good for you. They fucking haunt me.”
He pretended to shiver, and you smiled.
Nothing could really haunt Patrick Hockstetter. You knew it well. Things happened, and they rolled right off his back like water, beading up and sliding off. Nothing scared him, nothing bothered him, and nothing, certainly nothing, haunted him.
“I’m so sure, Hockstetter,” you said, patting him on the knee.
“What was your dream about?” Belch asked.
Time to make something up, and quick. But not a complete lie. They would know. They always knew when you lied to them and didn’t appreciate it.
“Sex dream,” you said. You lit up another cigarette. “Gretta fucking Bowie.”
“Nasty,” Henry grunted.
“I dunno,” said Patrick. “She’s got decent legs.”
“You think everyone’s got a decent something,” said Vic. “You’d fuck anyone.”
Your cheeks tinged. You hid it by pretending to scrub one hand up and down your face.
“So what?” Patrick asked.
“So you’re a man whore,” said Vic.
“Nothing wrong with that, Criss. At least I get ass. What do you get?”
“A sense of self-respect.”
Patrick laughed, a big thing that shook his body. His arm slid down until it was actually around your shoulders. You grinned at him in spite of your muddled head. A laugh like that meant it was a good day. He pulled you close, messing up your hair. You batted his hands away.
You pulled up to the school with a roar, parking and all piling out. Each of you lit up a cigarette.
It always went this way, with you standing around, looking for trouble. There was always trouble to find or make, and it was what you were good at, all of you.
“There they are,” said Patrick.
You followed his excited eyes until you saw them — that group of junior twerps who clung to each other like ants in honey.
You ashed your cigarette.
“Think we should leave ‘em alone?” you asked.
“Fat fucking chance,” said Henry.
He threw down his cigarette, crushing it under the heel of his boot before he pushed off of the car, stalking towards them.
You all followed his lead.
He singled out the tall boy with the reddish hair, pulling him into a headlock.
“F-f-fuck off, Bowers!” the kid spat.
“Fuck off, Bowers,” you said. You imitated him, his cracking voice.
Belch laughed, pulling the tiny boy with the fanny pack to the ground by the back of his backpack. The girl started towards him, to help him off the ground, but you pushed her, both hands on her shoulders. She swore under her breath at you, and it only made you laugh.
“Try harder,” you said. “Your boyfriends need you.”
“Fuck you,” she ground out, pushing past you only to be cornered between Vic and Patrick.
You grinned, watching as she looked between them in panic.
She had every right to be scared.
“That’s enough,” shouted Mr. Cleaver, the big Chemistry teacher, running up to all of you and pulling that boy away from Henry.
“Aw, Mr. C,” you whined, sending him a flirty smile. “We were just playing.”
“If that’s playing,” he said, giving you a hard look, “I don’t want to see what you think is rough.”
He pushed the kid away from him to his friends and grabbed you and Vic by the arms.
“All of you, to the principal’s office. Now.”
Patrick laughed, following you as you were dragged to the office.
You all got detention.
Separate. Detention.
They knew by now what to do with you.
You served your detention during free period, wondering what the guys were doing without you. What their detentions looked like.
For you, it was being lectured on how to be a good, upstanding citizen, by a lady who really looked like she knew what she was talking about. You wondered when the last time she let her hair down was and laughed.
“What?” she snapped.
“Jesus, lady, let me live,” you said, bouncing one leg. “I’m a teenager. I don’t have to be an upstanding citizen.”
“That’s what you think,” she said, pursing her lips. “You’re eighteen, aren’t you?”
“Yeah,” you said, rolling your eyes.
“Well, you’re an adult now. It’s time to start thinking about what you do and how it affects other people.”
“Trust me,” you said, giving her a shit-eating grin. “I know.”
When school was over, and you were back with the boys, you gave each other the rundown, bored, about detention.
“Upstanding citizen,” Vic scoffed. “I don’t think you know how.”
“Oh, I know,” you said, taking the cigarette from between his lips and taking a drag. “I just choose not to be good.”
“Thank god for that,” he said. “Also, loving the look you gave Cleaver.”
“Oh, you noticed that?” you asked, eyes glinting.
“And he noticed,” said Patrick. “You gonna suck his dick, or what?”
“Now that you mention it,” you said.
Belch interrupted you.
“He’s too smart to fall for someone so much younger.”
Patrick scoffed. “Fuck that. No one’s too smart for this pretty little mouth.”
He grabbed your face, making your lips pucker. You batted his hand away, grinning.
“I’m gonna suck his soul out through his dick,” you said. “One way or another.”
Because if you’re already pining after four untouchable boys, why not add one more, right?
Henry let out a barking laugh.
“Sure thing, sweet cheeks. Bet you ten dollars you can’t.”
“Twenty, and you got yourself a deal,” you said, leaning back on Patrick’s chest, one of his arms thrown around your shoulders, relaxed.
“You must be confident about this,” Belch said, squinting against the sun.
“Oh, I am. Twenty, or no bet.”
“You got it,” Henry said. “Now let’s get the fuck out of here.”
You all piled into the Trans Am, in your usual positions. You sat with your legs spread, giving Patrick a run for his money.
“So,” said Patrick. “Cleaver’s a lifeguard over the summer.”
“Ooh,” you said. “Yum. Think I should pretend to drown? Try to get some mouth-to-mouth?”
He grinned down at you.
“If you don’t, I’ll be very disappointed in you.”
“If you do,” said Belch. “I will.”
“Aw, Belch,” you said, pulling a lock of hair at the back of his neck, “don’t you want to see me get some dick?”
He laughed.
“Not that dick.”
You pretended to pout, catching his eye in the rearview.
He smiled, his eyes crinkling.
“There he is,” you said. “There’s my Belch. You do want me to get that dick.”
“Dick,” he corrected. “Just not statutory rape dick.”
You scoffed but didn’t say anything.
“Statutory rape,” said Patrick, slowly. “Such big words from a guy who’s never opened a book.”
“Says the guy who claims that school isn’t real,” Vic shot back.
“No, no, he’s right,” Henry said, clapping a hand on Belch’s shoulder, leering back at all of you. “We’re all eighteen. We need to be careful about the ass we get.”
You grinned back.
“Sure,” you said, slowly. “Sure. Besides, I’m not a minor anymore. If I get with Cleaver, who’d stop us? It’s not statutory rape.”
You pulled up to Patrick’s house, going inside. His parents were both out, and too afraid to do anything to make any of you leave if they had been there.
You went to his room, flopping down on Patrick’s unmade bed next to him.
“Vic,” he said, flicking his hand at him, “roll us a joint.”
“Yes, sir,” Vic said sarcastically, but getting to it anyway.
Patrick had a seemingly unlimited supply of weed. He’d told you once in confidence that this was because he was regularly eating out the girlfriend of your class’s best drug dealer.
But what he said in confidence was surely said to everyone in the group. You weren’t special.
Though you wanted to be.
“And how is it that you have this weed, again, Hockstetter?” Henry asked, sly.
“You know how, Bowers,” Patrick said, one of his hands going to your hair, handsy as always.
You pushed into his hand like a cat looking for a scratch, wondering what he’d told Henry. Maybe something different than what he’d told you.
Vic finished rolling the joint in a minute, licking the rolling paper to seal it. Then, he handed it to Henry. Henry took it, holding out a hand for Patrick’s lighter. He took his hand away from you to hand it to him.
You tried not to be disappointed.
Your time getting high with them was always the same thing — pretending not to want more. Pretending what you had was enough. Pretending that you wouldn’t die of happiness if one of them shotgunned a hit to you.
“What I don’t get,” said Belch, ten minutes later and lightly toasted, “is why you don’t want to go for dick even in your league.”
You laughed. You did a lot of laughing when you got high.
“You think Cleaver’s out of my league?” you asked. “Seriously?”
“Yeah, let’s be fair,” said Henry. “If anything, you’re out of his league.”
“Oh, you’re too kind,” you said, putting a hand on his knee. “Too kind by far.”
“Just being honest,” he said. “From what I hear, no one sucks dick like you.”
You blushed. You did a lot of blushing when you got high.
“Well,” you said. Not confirming or denying.
But let’s be real.
You had four boys you couldn’t have. So why not get the ones you could?
“And,” said Patrick, positively leering at you. “No one takes a dick like you.”
“Oh, you,” you said, looking away from him. From all of them.
It was true. You’d worked hard for your reputation. No one was quite like you — and you knew it.
“Leave it alone,” said Belch. “You want us to leave it alone, right?”
You looked at him, grateful.
“Yeah,” you said. “Yeah.”
“So bashful,” said Patrick, taking your chin in his hand like he had a million times before. “Our little slut.”
“I’m not yours,” you said, pushing his hand away.
“Mm,” he said. But he didn’t argue.
That night, you had the dream again. You woke up in the middle of the night, gasping. You’d woken up in the middle of Vic going down on you.
“Fuck,” you said.
Out of curiosity, you slipped one hand into your underwear. You were more than just aroused. You were an absolute mess, shaking and sweating and ready to be fucked.
You sighed and gently stroked yourself, thinking of Henry. What it would feel like for him to actually kiss you. You’d seen him kiss someone before — a sweet little junior. Poor girl cut it off with him pretty fast, once she realized what she was getting into. But his kisses — they were so much bite, so much sliding tongue against his partner’s.
And in your mind, you were his partner. You were just his.
Your hand sped up as you imagined Patrick on you, pressed up against your back. Nosing at your neck, kissing your skin.
You reached down and pressed two fingers into your hole, slowly pumping them in and out, wondering what it would be like to be held by Belch. For more than the fleeting hugs he’d give you, of course. What would it feel like to lay in his arms, to have him fuck you with his arms around you, holding you down on him?
And Vic. God, what would Vic look like going down on you? You had an idea because of your dreams, but you wanted so much more. What sounds would he make? Would he groan? Tell you that you tasted so, so good?
You came, holding back the moan you wanted to let go.
Then, the guilt came, rolling over you like the tide. God, what was wrong with you? Why couldn’t you just be satisfied to have the boys as you had them?
But who would be satisfied once they thought of the guys that way? That was evidenced enough by the endless stream of people who came to the guys looking for the ride of their lives.
The guys. Your guys.
At least they belonged in part to you.
As much as they could.
You rolled over and tried to go to sleep. Sleep evaded you for a few more hours, and you only got a wink’s worth before you had to be up for work.
You worked the breakfast rush at Lucky Day Diner, flirting here and there for tips.
“I swear, honey,” said Marcia, one of the waitresses, who’d been in the game since before you were born and would probably be there long after you were out of this fucking town. “You flirt more than a whore on her way to jail.”
“I don’t hear anyone complaining,” you said, counting your tips.
“One day, you’re gonna go after the wrong bitch’s man, and then you’ll see.”
“I’m too careful for that, and you know it,” you said. “But if the bitch’s back is turned, her man is free game. I get twenty percent or more for this smile, and I’m not gonna stop for anything.”
She laughed.
“Besides,” you said. “We can’t all be everyone’s favorite waitress. I’ve only been here a couple months. Barely anyone knows me.”
She smiled, knowing that everyone’s favorite waitress was her.
“Honey,” she said. “I — oh, you got someone in your section.”
You looked over your shoulder.
“Damn,” you said. “And I was almost gone.”
And then you smiled. Because it wasn’t just anyone in your section. It was Mr. Cleaver.
You stuffed your tips into your apron, straightened your shoulders, and put on your best sweet smile.
“Mr. Cleaver,” you said, approaching the table. “Fancy seeing you here.”
He smiled, a little tense.
“Are you waiting on me?” he asked.
“I sure am. What can I get you?”
“Pot of coffee, please.”
“Sure,” you said, making a note of it, smiling at him. “So. What are you up to, with school almost out?”
“Dreaming of freedom,” he said dryly. “It’s almost here. You and your boys will be gone, soon. I might throw a party.”
“Oh, we’re not going anywhere. Sure, we’re graduating. But we’ll be around.”
You took a chance and put your hand on his shoulder for just a moment. You felt muscles below his conservative button-down shirt and were pleased. Very pleased. He looked up at you, surprised.
“Well,” he said, as you pulled your hand away from him. “What is it you all do when you’re not terrorizing underclassmen?”
You had to bite back a flirty response. You wanted to eat him alive, but also take him slow.
“We throw rocks at babies and separate newborn kittens from their mothers,” you said easily.
Finally, he smiled.
“I wouldn’t be surprised if that was the case,” he said.
“Aw, come on. You know we’re better than that.”
“Mm. I’m not so sure.” Then, he paused. “Maybe you are.”
“Oh, trust me,” you said. “I can be very good when I want to be.”
He looked at his hands, hiding his face from you.
“I’ll get you that coffee in just a moment,” you said, walking away.
Marcia thumped you on the shoulder while you filled up a pot of coffee for him.
“Shootin’ a little high, aren’t you?” she asked.
“For the moon,” you agreed. “But just you watch. Just you watch.”
“Mm hm.”
She walked away, going to greet new diners in her section. They smiled at her like she was family. For a lot of the diner’s customers, she was.
You went back to Mr. Cleaver’s table, plunking down the pot of coffee.
“What can I get you to eat?” you asked, giving him a sweet smile.
“Short stack and some bacon,” he said, handing you the menu.
“Anything else… I can get you?” you asked. “To eat?”
He looked up at you.
“Don’t think I don’t know what you’re doing,” he said. “Flirting with a married man.”
“You’re not married,” you said easily. “Don’t think I didn’t notice every time you forgot to put on that ring before coming to school.”
He narrowed his eyes but didn’t disagree with you.
“You’re this town’s most eligible bachelor,” you said. “And I’ve noticed.”
“You shouldn’t,” he said. “You’re just a kid.”
“No, not anymore,” you said. “Turned eighteen in December.”
“If you think being eighteen doesn’t make you a kid anymore, you’re in for a rude awakening.”
“Hush. I won’t lose you your job,” you said.
“Mm. So you are aware of the stakes, here.”
“Oh, trust me,” you said. “I know.”
You went back to the kitchen, putting in his order. It would be ready in just a couple minutes, and you spent the whole time either seeing to your other tables — collecting a tip your award-winning smile got you — or watching him. How he took his coffee, how he stared out the window.
How he fidgeted with that fake wedding band, twisting it around his finger. How he took it off, slipping it into his shirt pocket.
You picked up his plates, carrying them on one arm back to his table and setting them down gently.
Then you sat down at the table, right across from him, putting one of your feet next to his.
“I see you decided to stop pretending,” you said, nodding at his hand, the one that usually sported the fake ring.
“Well,” he said, unrolling his silverware from the cloth napkin they rested in, “since you seem to see right through me, what’s the point?”
You took a chance and reached across the table into his shirt pocket. He watched in surprise as you slipped the ring out, putting it on your thumb, the only finger even barely big enough for it.
“What are you doing?” he asked.
“Consider it a promise,” you said.
“Of what?”
“You know exactly what it’s about.”
“We can’t do this,” he said softly, looking away from you, out the window. “I can’t do this.”
“You can.”
“No, I can’t. You’re just a kid. You’re one of my students.”
“If you want me to leave you alone, I will. But just think about it.”
You lightly slipped one of your feet up his leg, nudging him.
He looked at you, looked you over.
He was thinking about it.
You smiled.
“There it is,” you said.
“I can’t.”
“You will.”
He swallowed.
“That’ll be all,” he said.
You stood, and before you walked away, you put your hand on his shoulder. He looked up at you like he was lost. You grinned and walked away.
When he left, he left you a fifty percent tip.
Whether it was because he was paying you to keep this quiet, or paying you for it not to happen, you didn’t care.
That night, you met up with the guys.
“Guess what I have,” you said, holding your hand out for Patrick and Vic to inspect.
“It’s a ring,” said Vic, uninterested.
“Not just any ring,” you said. “It’s Cleaver’s fakey wedding ring.”
“He gave it to you? When, and what the fuck?” asked Henry.
“I took it,” you said, proud. “He came into Lucky Day. We… talked.”
Patrick clapped you on the shoulder as you looked at Henry, gloating. The bet would soon be over, and you’d get that twenty dollars if it was the last thing you did.
“Well, shit,” said Henry.
“Uh huh,” you said. “Just you wait. I’m gonna get that dick. I swear to god.”
“Don’t swear to something you don’t believe in, sweetheart,” said Patrick, putting an arm around you.
“If God is what’s putting dicks like his out in the world, then I might just be a believer,” you said, a little smile on your lips.
“You’re really gonna do this, huh?” asked Belch.
“If you’re surprised, you don’t really know me,” you said.
“Oh, I know you,” he said. “And I know when you’ve bitten off more than you can chew.”
You snapped your teeth at him playfully.
“I wonder what he likes,” you said. “You think he’ll try and romance me, or fuck me raw in the back seat of whatever piece of shit he drives?”
“Who the fuck cares?” Henry barked.
“Oh, I do,” you said. “I’m gonna win this fucking bet. And I’m gonna tell you all about it, rubbing your pretty little face in it as much as I can.”
He scowled at you.
“You don’t really have the guts, sweet cheeks,” he said.
“Oh, but I do,” you said. “But I do.”
chasing after dreams ch 1 (nsfw)
poly bowers gang x reader
summary: you’re secretly in love with all the boys in your gang. with graduation quickly approaching, you cause some trouble. also, getting high, flirting with a teacher, jerking off, making a bet, and waiting tables.
word count: 4022
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a/n: HERE IT IS!! I’M SO FUCKING EXCITED FOR YOU ALL TO READ THIS!!
In the dream, it always started with Henry.
It went like this:
You were at a party. Everyone was wasted and buzzed and fucked up. Your boys especially, though all the more sharp for it.
You ended up on a couch next to Henry. You were always talking about some hot looking chick grinding on some douchebag in front of you. Then he’d turn to you, one hand under your chin, just looking at you. You’d laugh, ask him what he was looking at.
Then he’d kiss you, always a surprise even though you’d had the dream maybe ten times, twenty if we’re pushing the limits.
You’d kiss him back once you got over your shock. Then you’d feel hands on your waist, lips on your neck. It was Patrick, always Patrick. With one of your hands, you’d reach back, tug on his hair.
Then Belch and Vic would come out of the crowd, pull you up so you were standing in between all of them. They’d kiss you, one by one, pushing you off to the boy next to them, each kiss more intense and nasty and wonderful than the last.
You’d end up pressed to Patrick’s front, feeling him against every part of you. He’d suggest you all take this somewhere more private.
Somewhere more private, to do things for your eyes only.
They’d pull you into an empty bedroom, pulling your clothes off with hungry eyes. You’d stand in front of them, completely bare, and then Belch would rush in and kiss you, pulling you up against him. Vic would come up behind you, grinding up against your ass.
They’d pull you apart with their hands, their mouths, their teeth.
And then you’d wake up, terrified and elated and so, so sad.
Because it wasn’t real. And it couldn’t be.
It was only a dream.
You woke up on a Friday morning in late May, graduation just days away. You beat your pillow in anger that slipped into sorrow and then flopped back down on it, looking at the ceiling.
A boy like them — like any of them — and you? It just wasn’t possible.
Much less all of them.
God, but you were hungry. God, but you wanted. Them. All of them. Always.
God, what was wrong with you? Why couldn’t you just be satisfied with them as they were? They were your best friends. There was nothing more you could ask for. Nothing more.
You got up and got ready for school. The guys would be here soon to pick you up, and you worked hard on putting the dream away, like you had countless times before.
When you were ready, you ran downstairs and got something to eat. Your parents were already gone for work, hadn’t even said goodbye. Typical.
Then you went outside, sitting on the curb, smoking your first cigarette of the day.
When the guys showed up, Henry got out, pushing forward the front seat so you could climb into the back. You got settled between Patrick and Vic, in the middle of some argument they were having. Patrick had his arm over the back of the seat, and you forced yourself not to think of it as having his arm around you.
You deserved better than chasing after dreams when you were awake.
“What’s on your mind, sweetheart?” Patrick asked, pulling you out of your thoughts.
You laughed, caught off guard.
“Had a fucked-up dream last night,” you said.
“Mm,” he said. “My favorite. Was it clowns?”
You laughed again.
“No, no clowns this time.”
“Good for you. They fucking haunt me.”
He pretended to shiver, and you smiled.
Nothing could really haunt Patrick Hockstetter. You knew it well. Things happened, and they rolled right off his back like water, beading up and sliding off. Nothing scared him, nothing bothered him, and nothing, certainly nothing, haunted him.
“I’m so sure, Hockstetter,” you said, patting him on the knee.
“What was your dream about?” Belch asked.
Time to make something up, and quick. But not a complete lie. They would know. They always knew when you lied to them and didn’t appreciate it.
“Sex dream,” you said. You lit up another cigarette. “Gretta fucking Bowie.”
“Nasty,” Henry grunted.
“I dunno,” said Patrick. “She’s got decent legs.”
“You think everyone’s got a decent something,” said Vic. “You’d fuck anyone.”
Your cheeks tinged. You hid it by pretending to scrub one hand up and down your face.
“So what?” Patrick asked.
“So you’re a man whore,” said Vic.
“Nothing wrong with that, Criss. At least I get ass. What do you get?”
“A sense of self-respect.”
Patrick laughed, a big thing that shook his body. His arm slid down until it was actually around your shoulders. You grinned at him in spite of your muddled head. A laugh like that meant it was a good day. He pulled you close, messing up your hair. You batted his hands away.
You pulled up to the school with a roar, parking and all piling out. Each of you lit up a cigarette.
It always went this way, with you standing around, looking for trouble. There was always trouble to find or make, and it was what you were good at, all of you.
“There they are,” said Patrick.
You followed his excited eyes until you saw them — that group of junior twerps who clung to each other like ants in honey.
You ashed your cigarette.
“Think we should leave ‘em alone?” you asked.
“Fat fucking chance,” said Henry.
He threw down his cigarette, crushing it under the heel of his boot before he pushed off of the car, stalking towards them.
You all followed his lead.
He singled out the tall boy with the reddish hair, pulling him into a headlock.
“F-f-fuck off, Bowers!” the kid spat.
“Fuck off, Bowers,” you said. You imitated him, his cracking voice.
Belch laughed, pulling the tiny boy with the fanny pack to the ground by the back of his backpack. The girl started towards him, to help him off the ground, but you pushed her, both hands on her shoulders. She swore under her breath at you, and it only made you laugh.
“Try harder,” you said. “Your boyfriends need you.”
“Fuck you,” she ground out, pushing past you only to be cornered between Vic and Patrick.
You grinned, watching as she looked between them in panic.
She had every right to be scared.
“That’s enough,” shouted Mr. Cleaver, the big Chemistry teacher, running up to all of you and pulling that boy away from Henry.
“Aw, Mr. C,” you whined, sending him a flirty smile. “We were just playing.”
“If that’s playing,” he said, giving you a hard look, “I don’t want to see what you think is rough.”
He pushed the kid away from him to his friends and grabbed you and Vic by the arms.
“All of you, to the principal’s office. Now.”
Patrick laughed, following you as you were dragged to the office.
You all got detention.
Separate. Detention.
They knew by now what to do with you.
You served your detention during free period, wondering what the guys were doing without you. What their detentions looked like.
For you, it was being lectured on how to be a good, upstanding citizen, by a lady who really looked like she knew what she was talking about. You wondered when the last time she let her hair down was and laughed.
“What?” she snapped.
“Jesus, lady, let me live,” you said, bouncing one leg. “I’m a teenager. I don’t have to be an upstanding citizen.”
“That’s what you think,” she said, pursing her lips. “You’re eighteen, aren’t you?”
“Yeah,” you said, rolling your eyes.
“Well, you’re an adult now. It’s time to start thinking about what you do and how it affects other people.”
“Trust me,” you said, giving her a shit-eating grin. “I know.”
When school was over, and you were back with the boys, you gave each other the rundown, bored, about detention.
“Upstanding citizen,” Vic scoffed. “I don’t think you know how.”
“Oh, I know,” you said, taking the cigarette from between his lips and taking a drag. “I just choose not to be good.”
“Thank god for that,” he said. “Also, loving the look you gave Cleaver.”
“Oh, you noticed that?” you asked, eyes glinting.
“And he noticed,” said Patrick. “You gonna suck his dick, or what?”
“Now that you mention it,” you said.
Belch interrupted you.
“He’s too smart to fall for someone so much younger.”
Patrick scoffed. “Fuck that. No one’s too smart for this pretty little mouth.”
He grabbed your face, making your lips pucker. You batted his hand away, grinning.
“I’m gonna suck his soul out through his dick,” you said. “One way or another.”
Because if you’re already pining after four untouchable boys, why not add one more, right?
Henry let out a barking laugh.
“Sure thing, sweet cheeks. Bet you ten dollars you can’t.”
“Twenty, and you got yourself a deal,” you said, leaning back on Patrick’s chest, one of his arms thrown around your shoulders, relaxed.
“You must be confident about this,” Belch said, squinting against the sun.
“Oh, I am. Twenty, or no bet.”
“You got it,” Henry said. “Now let’s get the fuck out of here.”
You all piled into the Trans Am, in your usual positions. You sat with your legs spread, giving Patrick a run for his money.
“So,” said Patrick. “Cleaver’s a lifeguard over the summer.”
“Ooh,” you said. “Yum. Think I should pretend to drown? Try to get some mouth-to-mouth?”
He grinned down at you.
“If you don’t, I’ll be very disappointed in you.”
“If you do,” said Belch. “I will.”
“Aw, Belch,” you said, pulling a lock of hair at the back of his neck, “don’t you want to see me get some dick?”
He laughed.
“Not that dick.”
You pretended to pout, catching his eye in the rearview.
He smiled, his eyes crinkling.
“There he is,” you said. “There’s my Belch. You do want me to get that dick.”
“Dick,” he corrected. “Just not statutory rape dick.”
You scoffed but didn’t say anything.
“Statutory rape,” said Patrick, slowly. “Such big words from a guy who’s never opened a book.”
“Says the guy who claims that school isn’t real,” Vic shot back.
“No, no, he’s right,” Henry said, clapping a hand on Belch’s shoulder, leering back at all of you. “We’re all eighteen. We need to be careful about the ass we get.”
You grinned back.
“Sure,” you said, slowly. “Sure. Besides, I’m not a minor anymore. If I get with Cleaver, who’d stop us? It’s not statutory rape.”
You pulled up to Patrick’s house, going inside. His parents were both out, and too afraid to do anything to make any of you leave if they had been there.
You went to his room, flopping down on Patrick’s unmade bed next to him.
“Vic,” he said, flicking his hand at him, “roll us a joint.”
“Yes, sir,” Vic said sarcastically, but getting to it anyway.
Patrick had a seemingly unlimited supply of weed. He’d told you once in confidence that this was because he was regularly eating out the girlfriend of your class’s best drug dealer.
But what he said in confidence was surely said to everyone in the group. You weren’t special.
Though you wanted to be.
“And how is it that you have this weed, again, Hockstetter?” Henry asked, sly.
“You know how, Bowers,” Patrick said, one of his hands going to your hair, handsy as always.
You pushed into his hand like a cat looking for a scratch, wondering what he’d told Henry. Maybe something different than what he’d told you.
Vic finished rolling the joint in a minute, licking the rolling paper to seal it. Then, he handed it to Henry. Henry took it, holding out a hand for Patrick’s lighter. He took his hand away from you to hand it to him.
You tried not to be disappointed.
Your time getting high with them was always the same thing — pretending not to want more. Pretending what you had was enough. Pretending that you wouldn’t die of happiness if one of them shotgunned a hit to you.
“What I don’t get,” said Belch, ten minutes later and lightly toasted, “is why you don’t want to go for dick even in your league.”
You laughed. You did a lot of laughing when you got high.
“You think Cleaver’s out of my league?” you asked. “Seriously?”
“Yeah, let’s be fair,” said Henry. “If anything, you’re out of his league.”
“Oh, you’re too kind,” you said, putting a hand on his knee. “Too kind by far.”
“Just being honest,” he said. “From what I hear, no one sucks dick like you.”
You blushed. You did a lot of blushing when you got high.
“Well,” you said. Not confirming or denying.
But let’s be real.
You had four boys you couldn’t have. So why not get the ones you could?
“And,” said Patrick, positively leering at you. “No one takes a dick like you.”
“Oh, you,” you said, looking away from him. From all of them.
It was true. You’d worked hard for your reputation. No one was quite like you — and you knew it.
“Leave it alone,” said Belch. “You want us to leave it alone, right?”
You looked at him, grateful.
“Yeah,” you said. “Yeah.”
“So bashful,” said Patrick, taking your chin in his hand like he had a million times before. “Our little slut.”
“I’m not yours,” you said, pushing his hand away.
“Mm,” he said. But he didn’t argue.
That night, you had the dream again. You woke up in the middle of the night, gasping. You’d woken up in the middle of Vic going down on you.
“Fuck,” you said.
Out of curiosity, you slipped one hand into your underwear. You were more than just aroused. You were an absolute mess, shaking and sweating and ready to be fucked.
You sighed and gently stroked yourself, thinking of Henry. What it would feel like for him to actually kiss you. You’d seen him kiss someone before — a sweet little junior. Poor girl cut it off with him pretty fast, once she realized what she was getting into. But his kisses — they were so much bite, so much sliding tongue against his partner’s.
And in your mind, you were his partner. You were just his.
Your hand sped up as you imagined Patrick on you, pressed up against your back. Nosing at your neck, kissing your skin.
You reached down and pressed two fingers into your hole, slowly pumping them in and out, wondering what it would be like to be held by Belch. For more than the fleeting hugs he’d give you, of course. What would it feel like to lay in his arms, to have him fuck you with his arms around you, holding you down on him?
And Vic. God, what would Vic look like going down on you? You had an idea because of your dreams, but you wanted so much more. What sounds would he make? Would he groan? Tell you that you tasted so, so good?
You came, holding back the moan you wanted to let go.
Then, the guilt came, rolling over you like the tide. God, what was wrong with you? Why couldn’t you just be satisfied to have the boys as you had them?
But who would be satisfied once they thought of the guys that way? That was evidenced enough by the endless stream of people who came to the guys looking for the ride of their lives.
The guys. Your guys.
At least they belonged in part to you.
As much as they could.
You rolled over and tried to go to sleep. Sleep evaded you for a few more hours, and you only got a wink’s worth before you had to be up for work.
You worked the breakfast rush at Lucky Day Diner, flirting here and there for tips.
“I swear, honey,” said Marcia, one of the waitresses, who’d been in the game since before you were born and would probably be there long after you were out of this fucking town. “You flirt more than a whore on her way to jail.”
“I don’t hear anyone complaining,” you said, counting your tips.
“One day, you’re gonna go after the wrong bitch’s man, and then you’ll see.”
“I’m too careful for that, and you know it,” you said. “But if the bitch’s back is turned, her man is free game. I get twenty percent or more for this smile, and I’m not gonna stop for anything.”
She laughed.
“Besides,” you said. “We can’t all be everyone’s favorite waitress. I’ve only been here a couple months. Barely anyone knows me.”
She smiled, knowing that everyone’s favorite waitress was her.
“Honey,” she said. “I — oh, you got someone in your section.”
You looked over your shoulder.
“Damn,” you said. “And I was almost gone.”
And then you smiled. Because it wasn’t just anyone in your section. It was Mr. Cleaver.
You stuffed your tips into your apron, straightened your shoulders, and put on your best sweet smile.
“Mr. Cleaver,” you said, approaching the table. “Fancy seeing you here.”
He smiled, a little tense.
“Are you waiting on me?” he asked.
“I sure am. What can I get you?”
“Pot of coffee, please.”
“Sure,” you said, making a note of it, smiling at him. “So. What are you up to, with school almost out?”
“Dreaming of freedom,” he said dryly. “It’s almost here. You and your boys will be gone, soon. I might throw a party.”
“Oh, we’re not going anywhere. Sure, we’re graduating. But we’ll be around.”
You took a chance and put your hand on his shoulder for just a moment. You felt muscles below his conservative button-down shirt and were pleased. Very pleased. He looked up at you, surprised.
“Well,” he said, as you pulled your hand away from him. “What is it you all do when you’re not terrorizing underclassmen?”
You had to bite back a flirty response. You wanted to eat him alive, but also take him slow.
“We throw rocks at babies and separate newborn kittens from their mothers,” you said easily.
Finally, he smiled.
“I wouldn’t be surprised if that was the case,” he said.
“Aw, come on. You know we’re better than that.”
“Mm. I’m not so sure.” Then, he paused. “Maybe you are.”
“Oh, trust me,” you said. “I can be very good when I want to be.”
He looked at his hands, hiding his face from you.
“I’ll get you that coffee in just a moment,” you said, walking away.
Marcia thumped you on the shoulder while you filled up a pot of coffee for him.
“Shootin’ a little high, aren’t you?” she asked.
“For the moon,” you agreed. “But just you watch. Just you watch.”
“Mm hm.”
She walked away, going to greet new diners in her section. They smiled at her like she was family. For a lot of the diner’s customers, she was.
You went back to Mr. Cleaver’s table, plunking down the pot of coffee.
“What can I get you to eat?” you asked, giving him a sweet smile.
“Short stack and some bacon,” he said, handing you the menu.
“Anything else… I can get you?” you asked. “To eat?”
He looked up at you.
“Don’t think I don’t know what you’re doing,” he said. “Flirting with a married man.”
“You’re not married,” you said easily. “Don’t think I didn’t notice every time you forgot to put on that ring before coming to school.”
He narrowed his eyes but didn’t disagree with you.
“You’re this town’s most eligible bachelor,” you said. “And I’ve noticed.”
“You shouldn’t,” he said. “You’re just a kid.”
“No, not anymore,” you said. “Turned eighteen in December.”
“If you think being eighteen doesn’t make you a kid anymore, you’re in for a rude awakening.”
“Hush. I won’t lose you your job,” you said.
“Mm. So you are aware of the stakes, here.”
“Oh, trust me,” you said. “I know.”
You went back to the kitchen, putting in his order. It would be ready in just a couple minutes, and you spent the whole time either seeing to your other tables — collecting a tip your award-winning smile got you — or watching him. How he took his coffee, how he stared out the window.
How he fidgeted with that fake wedding band, twisting it around his finger. How he took it off, slipping it into his shirt pocket.
You picked up his plates, carrying them on one arm back to his table and setting them down gently.
Then you sat down at the table, right across from him, putting one of your feet next to his.
“I see you decided to stop pretending,” you said, nodding at his hand, the one that usually sported the fake ring.
“Well,” he said, unrolling his silverware from the cloth napkin they rested in, “since you seem to see right through me, what’s the point?”
You took a chance and reached across the table into his shirt pocket. He watched in surprise as you slipped the ring out, putting it on your thumb, the only finger even barely big enough for it.
“What are you doing?” he asked.
“Consider it a promise,” you said.
“Of what?”
“You know exactly what it’s about.”
“We can’t do this,” he said softly, looking away from you, out the window. “I can’t do this.”
“You can.”
“No, I can’t. You’re just a kid. You’re one of my students.”
“If you want me to leave you alone, I will. But just think about it.”
You lightly slipped one of your feet up his leg, nudging him.
He looked at you, looked you over.
He was thinking about it.
You smiled.
“There it is,” you said.
“I can’t.”
“You will.”
He swallowed.
“That’ll be all,” he said.
You stood, and before you walked away, you put your hand on his shoulder. He looked up at you like he was lost. You grinned and walked away.
When he left, he left you a fifty percent tip.
Whether it was because he was paying you to keep this quiet, or paying you for it not to happen, you didn’t care.
That night, you met up with the guys.
“Guess what I have,” you said, holding your hand out for Patrick and Vic to inspect.
“It’s a ring,” said Vic, uninterested.
“Not just any ring,” you said. “It’s Cleaver’s fakey wedding ring.”
“He gave it to you? When, and what the fuck?” asked Henry.
“I took it,” you said, proud. “He came into Lucky Day. We… talked.”
Patrick clapped you on the shoulder as you looked at Henry, gloating. The bet would soon be over, and you’d get that twenty dollars if it was the last thing you did.
“Well, shit,” said Henry.
“Uh huh,” you said. “Just you wait. I’m gonna get that dick. I swear to god.”
“Don’t swear to something you don’t believe in, sweetheart,” said Patrick, putting an arm around you.
“If God is what’s putting dicks like his out in the world, then I might just be a believer,” you said, a little smile on your lips.
“You’re really gonna do this, huh?” asked Belch.
“If you’re surprised, you don’t really know me,” you said.
“Oh, I know you,” he said. “And I know when you’ve bitten off more than you can chew.”
You snapped your teeth at him playfully.
“I wonder what he likes,” you said. “You think he’ll try and romance me, or fuck me raw in the back seat of whatever piece of shit he drives?”
“Who the fuck cares?” Henry barked.
“Oh, I do,” you said. “I’m gonna win this fucking bet. And I’m gonna tell you all about it, rubbing your pretty little face in it as much as I can.”
He scowled at you.
“You don’t really have the guts, sweet cheeks,” he said.
“Oh, but I do,” you said. “But I do.”