I FEEL LOVE -

"So I have a hypothetical question for you and I want you to be completely and totally honest with me.” Shelby said to her big brother, ripping a piece of bread that she was nibbling on and popped it into her mouth. “If I wanted to maybe drop out of college... how mad do you think everyone would get?” she scrunched her nose up. “I’m kind of thinking it’s not for me. It’s just really hard, you know. I just... don’t really understand any of it.”

Silas promised to meet Meredith so they could discuss some kind of photography things that her mother would need. He was really happy and lucky that he was always the one on call for the job when photos were required and he always worked his hardest for the Corcoran family to make sure that Shelby always looked her best. “Hey Mer!” he greeted the young woman with a smile before plopping down in the chair across from her. “So what’s the plan today?”

Shelby knew that her sister worked really hard with the daycare and decided that she wanted to do something nice for her. So now that she was out of her own classes for the day, she decided to stop at the cafe where she worked and pick up two coffees. At least then she’ll be able to really sit and chat with her, not that Shelby had anything to talk about. Her life was pretty boring ( or at least boring in her opinion ) the hangover she was experiencing would say otherwise. Hopefully when she did arrive at the daycare the kids would be napping or something so she wouldn’t be interrupting anyway. Deciding to give her a call before just walking in, she dialed her sister’s number and pressed her phone to her ear. “Kristy, it’s Shelby. Tell me the kids are napping and you can sit with a coffee?”

Being a barista was the most thankless job in the world. At least in Shelby’s opinion. It wasn’t that she really hated the customers that came into the coffee shop but when she was recently out drinking her life away the night before it wasn’t always the most kind experience to her. Angry morning people who have yet to have their coffee were never on Shelby’s list of people she actually liked. It was clear she was definitely struggling. “Sorry for the wait.” she said not even looking up from the computer where she was putting in orders. The woman prior to this new customer had the most complicated order it made Shelby want to ask if she wanted any coffee with all that flavoring and milk but she bit back.”What can we get started for you?”

Slinging his camera bag back over his shoulder after pulling out his camera, Silas began to fiddle with the settings for a moment. Sometimes when he was just out and about he would spot certain people, or see certain people in certain settings and it would just strike him so easily as a muse for a picture. His brain worked in really weird ways like that but overtime he learned to absolutely not question it or stop it from happening. “Uh, shit, excuse me? I’m sorry to bother you but i was wondering if I’d be able to take a few shots of you? The light and setting is just really fuckin’ nice.”

Shelby loved going to the bar with Nathan, mostly because she was treated like the little princess she was when she was with him. He would buy her drink after drink, shower her with attention. She truly felt blessed when she was with him. Not to mention she was happy to say that she always had the hottest guy dancing with her when they were together. Not to mention they were just hot together in general. “Nathannnn.” she cooed out when she moved up to him from her spot on the bar stool. “Baby, wanna get me another shot or two?” she smiled sweetly at him knowing very well that for the tiny body she was in, a lot of alcohol was not the best idea, but Shelby always ended up going a little too hard. “Pleaseeeee?”

All Jae wanted was a little peace and quiet today. It wasn’t that she was stressed or anything of the sorts, but she was just not exactly having it. Things were going wrong all over the place, from oversleeping to her internet being out and Jae not being able to get her latest blog post up. That’s how she ended up in the coffee shop, waiting to grab her coffee once it was made. As she did, she turned around and almost collided straight with someone. “Shit, sorry.” she muttered quietly gaining her composure before glancing up coming face to face with Emmett. Great. “You know me - clumsy as all hell.”

I swear, high school children are either getting younger each year or I’m just aging at an alarming rate, because every time I see them I feel more and more old. This also comes because I’m currently sad about the kids we no longer have at the daycare since they’re starting school now. Is this what a midlife crisis feels like? Is that what this is? Is 29 too young for a midlife crisis? So many questions.

Felicia assessed him for a moment, wondering how much he really believed what he was saying. There was a time she knew his every move, but now Jeremy had changed and wasn’t hers to know anymore. Suddenly, the bartender put the drinks in front of them and without thinking about it, the girl took the shot in one sip. “That was the only time I thought in someone that wasn’t me” This time, here eyes were determined, even when they were still blurry from the alcohol. “I thought of you. I put you about everything” Putting the glass on the bar again, her attention came back him and her next words were slow, but strong. “And I would do it again, and again, and again” 

He wanted to believe her, he really did, but at this point in his life he didn’t. Because she was out there living her life so effortlessly and he was stuck here with consistent reminders of what he had and lost. Stuck not living his dreams because of an injury that destroyed his life. It wasn’t anything that he could change. Felicia made her mind up and Jeremy had to live with it. “You may think you put me first, you may think that to make yourself feel better. But you don’t understand the turmoil it put me through.” A pause and he took in a deep breath to try and collect himself. “You’ll never understand.”

I’ve never been more proud of my little sister before. What’d they do to you? Tell me the tea as the kids say.

I’ll be sneaky??

No way. I am not explaining to Chris why you ended up in jail. Plus, that means I have to do some way extra technological things to find IP addresses and that’s more effort than the money I make.

KYLE: I still have to check on you. I wouldn't be doing my due diligence if I didn't.

KYLE: I'm good. The girls are doing well. You should come by to see them soon. I'm sure they'd love it.

SHELBY: Due diligence. If you say so, Kyle, but I you have permission because I do miss you.

SIDNEY: I'm gonna be a baby daddy! How cool, right?

Ohh, you’re a gamer. Got it. Oh, I don’t play any games. I mean, sometimes I’ll build houses on the Sims, but I don’t think that really counts… What do you play?

Sims streaming totally counts. People can find that really soothing sometimes. I play a lot of decision based games, horror games and multiplayer. I’ll dabble in Fortnite but I prefer Apex: Legends.

“This is the real world, Jeremy. Is about time you start living in it” Her eyes narrowed at him, because he sounds too naive for a grown man. “Do you think I could go and that you would be okay with not seeing me for months? With not talking to me every day cause I’m fucking tired? This is hard! Every day is hard and fast and it would had never work” Her voice raised a little bit, this time without the anger. More resigned. “I have made sacrifices, I still do. But you can think whatever you want, if it makes you sleep at night. Make me the bad person when you know I’m right”

“You didn’t even give me a fucking option and that’s the most frustrating part about it. Yes, I get it, it’s your career and whatever but the relationship had half of me in it and you didn’t even attempt to think we could try.” he was so angry, he was so angry at her and he didn’t know how to not be. “It wouldn’t have been so bad if I didn’t have to see you every fucking where, but no matter where I turn there you are. And no, you’re not the bad guy - you just don’t think about anyone else but yourself.”