I don't know what this is

ive been thinking about bridget from guilty gear and some of the (dumb) criticisms ive seen to her coming out as trans. and the main one that stuck with me that i couldnt put my finger on why, was the idea of "but she was forced to be a girl, so what, her abusive village was right in the end?" because like. yeah, unfortunately.

i UNDERSTAND that the lack of seeing results from hrt is that i am a frog boiling. but i would honestly rather all the pain happen at once in a painful horrifying transmogrification to my final form of a regular ass girl.

sometimes i forget how much cis people dont get trans jokes. went to pick up my script for e and the pharmacist asked if i was my deadname and i responded "legally, yeah" only to be met with blank stares and a "sorry?"

its so easy to be an introverted queer, or internet based queer, or perhaps a queer person in an unsafe area, and feel so so greatly disconnected from community. and i definitely fall into those first two categories more, im not one for a lot of pride events, i dont go out nearly enough, and i often feel so disconnected.

can someone direct me to a star wars fic where there is the equivalent of tumblr/twitter discourse about droid relationships? because in all of star wars there has to be people that are attracted to droids right?

me going into hrt: i dont know if i want breast growth to happen or not, but if i want to be comfortable in my body, which hrt is the way to go for me, i think im okay if i do get breast growth

i am genuinely really annoyed with the stated of "former gifted kid" discourse. it seems to be the current prevailing opinion is former gifted kids are just whining because oh boo hoo i was only good when classes was just naming colours. but that isnt the case. its a group of literal children who were failed by the education system in a manner different to people who werent considered former gifted kids, and werent given the tools to cope with that and in fact were expected to be able to cope. there was the expectation to cope that lingers with them and means that now there are issues that have gone unaddressed because they should be able to cope with them the system told them they should be able to cope why cant you cope you were such a bright child what happened i thought you were going to become a brain surgeon or a world leader its such a shame surrounded on all sides.