thinking thoughts about post yellowjacket ethan.
thinking about him having a too big, too empty apartment in his name and being all alone. thinking about him blowing up lex's phone for days, fully convinced if he can just talk to her he can convince her and hannah to come home.
thinking about him walking around hatchetfield and seeing people that work for ccrp, people who were - knowingly or not - complicit with coven's bullshit. maybe even seeing the people that held his family at gunpoint in the grocery store like nothing ever happened. thinking about him never being able to put his guard down.
thinking about him considering going after lex, making plans, even getting in the car and driving before stopping himself because surely coven is waiting for that, and he won't be the one to lead him to hannah and lex.
thinking about i love hannah like she was my own kid and he's lost control, and someone else has taken the wheel.
thinking about him sitting up at night, wondering what the hell happened to him, why the hell he opened his mouth and gave hannah over to coven even when every cell in his body was screaming otherwise. thinking about him hating himself for a decision he doesn't even know he didn't make.
thinking about him looking at the rollerama kids, hannah's friends, however briefly, that hannah risked everything to save, and knowing he has to look out for them. thinking about how him looking at these kids that were put in a ring like fighting dogs and fed to a fucked up god by their families like he did hannah and deciding they deserve better, and if no one else in this hell town will give it to them, he will.
thinking about him buying the rollerama. fixing it up. making the house of horrors that was once a fighting arena for children into a place of joy again. giving those kids a place where they will be safe. thinking about him being so determined to protect these kids the way he failed to protect hannah.
thinking about him wearing an engagement ring on a chain around his neck. thinking about him talking to hannah's imaginary friend when he's alone.
thinking about be young for all of us and ethan green categorically deciding he can't, that he is utterly incapable of honoring the love of his life's last request of him.
