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hiii everyone, long time no see! i was unfortunately busy as all hell for the past month, so i had to take a hiatus so i could focus more on real life things. thankfully, everything has calmed down a lot more, so now all i really have to do is get back into the swing of things. i'm honestly probably just going to unfollow and refollow the masterlist on both jiyul and soyi ( @gossipfest's) accounts because i'm so behind on that too. other than that, i'm in desperate need of some new plots! i know i was in the process of plotting with some people ages ago also and i'm so sorry for flopping so hard, but now that i have some more time, i should do better with that too. so please like this post if you'd like to plot with jiyul and/or soyi, and i'll reach out soon 💓 tysm everyone, and i'm looking forward to writing with u all again!!
a health condition - how convenient. the thought passes just as quickly as it had come up; mouse realizes it was a mean one. while it's inconvenient for him in this particular moment, he can't imagine going through life without alcohol, presumably permanently.
"oh, wow. that's tough," he says, looking closely at jiyul. he doesn't know jiyul on a deeply personal level, but from what he does know, he doesn't view him as a liar. still, anything's possible. he's looking for signs of dishonesty. he doesn't spot any. if anything, maybe some sign of discomfort, but that's to be expected.
they're still by the door. some guy squeezes past him. he moves out of the way, but not before pushing the second beer into the guy's chest until he has no choice but to accept it; there's plenty to go around, and mouse has no need for the both of them if jiyul won't be participating.
"i saw a bucket of water bottles, too - i can go grab one of those for you if you want," he offers. he isn't a good person. he knows he isn't. he feels like he's doing some kind of charity, though; when he looks at jiyul, he sees someone who needs to have a little fun.
he takes a long drink of his own beer, symbolically putting his foot down. they're staying. or at least mouse is staying. he can't gauge how jiyul feels about the situation yet.
"just so you know," he adds, "i do want to work on our project. i'll carry my weight this time, i swear. we can work on it monday. you have my word. but it's fuckin' yeonchella weekend, dude - you should be having fun."
oh, wow. that's tough. jiyul almost narrows his eyes, but manages to keep his expression neutral. he isn't sure if mouse is genuinely sympathetic or being sarcastic to mock him. he already feels embarrassed, and the feeling only grows the longer he stands on the noisy, crowded rooftop. nobody is looking at me. nobody knows i don't want to be here. nobody knows i'm only here because i'm an idiot, he reminds himself.
at least mouse gives the extra beer away. that's a good sign that he at least isn't going to push the drinking issue, which jiyul appreciates. mouse offers to get him water, too, which is...kind? nice? jiyul isn't really sure. the entire situation is a bit confusing to him. mouse tricked him into coming up here but is still sort of being nice to him? "that's okay...i can...get my own water," he says slowly, still processing the moment. at least if he goes to get water it'll give him something to do other than stand by the door awkwardly.
mouse drinks, then assures jiyul that he'll really put in work on their project this time. just not now. jiyul probably shouldn't be as skeptical as he is. it sounds like mouse just wanted him to have fun? that's a nice sentiment, theoretically. the reality of the situation is jiyul does not find getting tricked into attending a party remotely fun. reading a good book is fun. going for a nice walk and seeing a frog is fun. this...is not.
"i was having fun," he argues weakly. and he was! his pre-bed reading was very nice. relaxing. god, what time is it? it's probably past his bedtime already...this is going to ruin everything. he'll only get seven hours of sleep at best, and he'll be tired for yeonchella tomorrow, and this is all stressful, too, so the music will probably give him a headache, and then he'll be grumpy, and tired on sunday, and if he has a headache that makes him tired on sunday he will definitely not be having fun at all, for the entire weekend. all because mouse thought he should be having fun today.
"i don't really like parties," he adds. just in case mouse didn't realize yet. what's so fun about so many drunk people crammed onto a rooftop? oh god, what if someone falls off the roof? this is a disaster waiting to happen.
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the grand canyon was one of the first places jiyul traveled with his parents after "escaping his grandparents' clutches." his first time in the united states – first time on a plane for more than an hour – and he ended up in the rocky desert landscape of the grand canyon. it felt so different, far from home but in a comforting way – like a reminder that the world is so large. there are so many places to run away with fresher air and clearer skies than he'd ever known, and so much beyond the comparative bubble he lived in. the grand canyon taught him that the bubble was worth popping, and he's never been quite the same since.
Looks like three months have flown by already.
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✧ ⏤ lady of the lake
jiyul spots @heracules by herself by the lake and decides to keep her company
jiyul has never particularly considered himself an outdoor person. he's not athletic in the slightest. outdoor sports are usually more embarrassing than enjoyable for him, and while he can camp in a tent, it's usually more anxiety-inducing than peaceful.
he is, however, a nature person, or yeonhwa's mt is making him realize he is. he likes spending time outside in nature if he's just sitting there. he likes taking in the plants around him, and watching the birds and whatever various creatures scurry about around him. the fresh air is nice, too. it's definitely different out here than in seoul.
one of his favorite parts about the mt has been the lake. not swimming in the lake, mind you – but watching it. it's pretty, and watching how the other students enjoy it is a little funny.
when he approaches the lake this afternoon, someone else is in his favorite sitting spot. he recognizes hera as he gets closer. he wouldn't say they're close friends, but they're friendly enough for jiyul to not feel too anxious about walking over to her.
she looks a little sad, he realizes. it makes him frown to himself. well, he was already planning to sit and watch the lake himself, so if she doesn't mind the company, what harm would sitting with her do? if she's sad, maybe it'll make her feel better?
he offers her a soft smile as he gets closer. "hi hera," he greets her quietly. "are you...okay? you just look kind of sad. you don't have to tell me anything if you don't want, i was just wondering." he stands there a little awkwardly for a few moments, then asks, "can i sit with you?"
dear, jiyul // starter for @harpstring
fool me once, shame on you. but fool me twice? kangmin might as well start a group chat titled 'people who have seen my dick (accident)". he should really stop reading words halfway, or maybe invest in a new pair of contact lenses because how jiyul is the second person in a span of less than three months to accidentally receive a nude from kangmin needs to be studied.
maybe kangmin should just stop sending nudes altogether, and maybe sending dick pics isn't the pinnacle of romance in the 21st century after all. he'd meant to send it to someone else with a similar name, a cute transfer student that he thought could lead to a hallmark-netflix-hybrid-like romance, only for it to be a one and done thing ( he remembers her words clearly as she picked up her clothing from his bedroom floor: "you didn't think i was serious right? i have a boyfriend!" ).
and so; kangmin was left with no romance, and a now very awkward relationship jiyul. which sucks. kangmin likes jiyul, a lot. he's cute, and nice, and while they aren't particularly best friends, kangmin would consider jiyul a pretty good friend. one that he'd do anything to salvage their relationship for.
anything, really. and kangmin does just that. he waits (albeit, a little creepily), for jiyul to end his classes and for the class to empty out, before he walks up to him - all 6'2 of him - with a guitar. kangmin has never picked up an instrument in his life prior to this. well, there was a time he'd picked up a drum kit in an attempt to show how 'strong' he was, only to accidentally fracture a toe - but that was something else altogether.
"jiyul," he calls out, voice a little awkward. "i'm really sorry about my - that photo," that photo. he can't bring himself to say sorry for my dick pic out loud, because it sounds absolutely ridiculous.
it doesn't end there. kangmin whips out his guitar and clumsily tries to figure out where exactly he should place his fingers. "i've uh, been practicing. i know you love music and i really wanted my apology to reach you - so you know that i'm sincere! and i wanted to make it up to you so i went and did some online lessons..." he begins, clumsy fingers on the guitar, but his words are genuine. "i hate that you've been ignoring me and that things are awkward between us and i want to go back to how we were so - oh no, that's part of the lyrics i wrote for the song...!" he's rambling, he knows and after a moment he finally decides to strum (terribly), eyebrows furrowed in concentration.
"jiyul... sorry..." he begins, slightly off-key. but his ears are red, and his heart is pounding - still, it's now or never. he doesn't want jiyul to avoid him any longer.
( cw: internalized homophobia )
jiyul has some things to come to terms with.
he knows this. does that mean he's doing it? no. well, maybe. these things just take time. his therapist says it's okay for him to take his time – that despite what society might have you believe, life isn't a race. it's good to be patient, both with yourself and others.
running away doesn't count as patience with yourself, though. however, that is exactly what he wants to do when kangmin approaches him after class.
kangmin didn't actually do anything wrong. he just accidentally sent him nudes. however, it was, unfortunately, quite the ordeal for jiyul. first, he wasn't actually sure it was a mistake. he figured it was, but then he wondered...what if it wasn't? what would he do? and thus it became another unfortunate reminder that he is significantly more attracted to men than women. jiyul knows this. he just...wishes it was different.
seeing kangmin's face following the incident also served as a reminder of his likely homosexuality, because every time he saw him he couldn't help but think of the stupid picture. it wasn't even a good picture, really. jiyul deleted it shortly after he received it out of respect for kangmin's privacy (see: for jiyul's sanity), but the damage to jiyul's psychological wellbeing was already done. it wasn't even that the picture made him uncomfortable. it just made him think too much about things he'd prefer not to think about.
jiyul can't avoid kangmin now, though. he apologizes, and jiyul is about to say it's okay, don't worry, but gets distracted by the guitar. kangmin can play guitar? since when?
kangmin answers that question before jiyul even gets the chance to ask (he wouldn't have asked). kangmin went through all the effort to learn how to play guitar to apologize to him? guitar lessons can be expensive...a simple apology would've sufficed fine. kangmin didn't even need to apologize, really. if anything jiyul should apologize for making things awkward between them.
still, he's touched, and suddenly feels even shyer than usual. he can't even look at kangmin properly, so he watches his awkward fingers on the guitar instead.
he tries very hard not to wince when kangmin sings, but jiyul has perfect pitch and out of tune notes are like nails on a chalkboard to him, so sometimes it can't be helped. he feels bad, though, because kangmin is so sincere and trying so hard. he didn't need to do any of this. jiyul feels a little embarrassed but mostly flattered. kangmin's earnestness is endearing, and he's turning a little red, which also makes jiyul feel bad and more endeared.
he doesn't want to be rude and interrupt kangmin's song before he's done. he worked hard on it and the last thing jiyul wants to do is seem ungrateful for his efforts or make him feel more embarrassed – so he listens.
"it's okay. it was just a mistake," jiyul assures him, soft-spoken as always. "thank you...for, um, apologizing, and your song...you didn't have to do that for me. and i'm sorry for avoiding you...you didn't do anything to deserve that." it's a me problem, he adds silently.
after midnight ft. lee jiyul @harpstring
it’s later than he would have liked by the time micah is finally heading back to the provided housing. he’d stayed behind at trivia night, as one of the only polaris members not involved in the verbal altercation that occurred, attempting to function as a mediator between his fellow club members and those in lyra. which, admittedly, had been easier said than done — some of them had really been going at each other, micah had almost been worried he’d have to physically drag them apart. thankfully, it hadn’t come to that, though he fears it had been dangerously close.
his footsteps are somewhat sluggish as he approaches the housing building, relieved to be one step closer to finally being able to go to sleep, when he spots a figure wandering around outside. through the darkness, he can’t immediately tell who it is, though they seem tense, whoever it is. frowning, he keeps moving closer, and once close enough, he recognizes him.
“jiyul?” it’s been a while since the two of them have seen each other, last time being their photography club excursion — micah had since gotten too busy to properly keep in touch with most of his friends. he’ll always welcome a chance to catch up, though admittedly, he’s curious what the younger is doing wandering alone this late at night.
“are you okay?” his voice is laced with concern, which is mirrored in his expression. “what are you doing out here alone, shouldn’t everyone be in bed by now?”
jiyul feels bad.
he likes his roommates for the mt perfectly well. or, well...he doesn't dislike them.
he just doesn't particularly want to sleep in the same room as them. he can't escape the feeling that he's going to wake up to some terrible prank, like frogs in his shoes, or a giant fake spider dangling inches above his face so it's the first thing he sees when he opens his eyes. he really wouldn't put it past joon and mouse.
thankfully, he took one of the bottom bunks, so he was able to escape their room without causing too much of a stir. he doesn't really know what his plan is, but laying in bed hasn't gotten him any closer to falling asleep. if anything he feels more anxious the longer time goes on.
as expected, the fresh air is equal parts refreshing and soothing. he doesn't particularly want to go on a walk by himself this late at night, but...maybe he can find a nice place to meditate and relax enough that he can fall asleep in his room without fear.
he's trying to think of where a good place might be when micah calls out to him. it makes him jump a little, but once he realizes it's just micah, he relaxes. "ah– yes, i'm fine," he assures him with a soft, close-lipped smile. "i just...um..." how honest should he be? even the thought of verbally suggesting he doesn't trust his roommates not to torment him makes him feel guilty, so he decides it's not worth mentioning. "i'm not good at sleeping in unfamiliar places." that much is true, at least. jiyul is a man of routine, and sleeping somewhere different than usual certainly counts as a disruption of routine.
"and with, um...unfamiliar people..." his voice trails off, quiet. he then realizes that sounds a little odd, because he's not actually sleeping with anyone! "i mean, around, unfamiliar people," he corrects himself. "i was going to try to find a comfortable place to meditate and hope it helped me relax..."
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this month’s photography club assignment had made micah feel a sort of quiet dread. it’s not that he doesn’t understand what leisure is, not exactly, but he’s not sure he experiences it in the same way as other people do. the assignment’s open-ended prompt, “relax and have fun with this one!”, while cheerful on the surface, makes him feel like he’s being asked to expose something deeply personal.
thankfully, jiyul had agreed to come with him. they were both a bit uncertain about what to capture, but if they put their minds together, maybe they’ll figure something out? at least that’s what the idea had been when micah asked the younger.
“gardening probably counts,” he says, after considering jiyul’s question for a moment, as if weighing it carefully. “it’s the kind of thing people do just to take care of things. like, there’s no real goal, other than watch things grow?” his words end up sounding like a question, as he can’t say he has a lot of experience with gardening himself.
there’s a moment of silence then, as they keep walking, leisurely, one might say. micah’s expression is thoughtful, as he’s considering the assignment. “i’ve been trying to think about what i even do when i’m not doing something, you know? like… i’ll go for a walk, but then i find myself trying to make it productive. pick up some groceries, try to get a good photo. to make the walk worth it.”
a beat, and he shifts the strap of his bag on his shoulder. “maybe that’s what we should take pictures of. the things we do when we think we’re not doing enough?” he looks over at jiyul, and feels strangely exposed after speaking.
“or maybe that doesn’t make sense. i don’t know.”
jiyul nods. no real goal. is that what leisure is, then? to do something without a real goal? just for the love of it? "some people garden to grow vegetables, or flowers for um...like...curb appeal?" he points out. those are goals, aren't they? "so maybe it just depends on intent, really." he hopes what he's saying makes sense. jiyul usually doesn't talk too much, but it's a little bit easier with micah than most. he feels comfortable.
maybe it's because micah is so open himself. sincere. it inspires jiyul to be the same, though he is earnest most of the time. he's just quieter about it. he listens, nodding along once more as micah talks. he understands what he means. he knows his senior has a busier schedule than he does, too, so he can imagine the fear of wasting time is worse for him.
"i think it makes sense," jiyul assures him, and maybe that is a good way to explain it. it makes him a little sad, though – the fact that it sounds like something has to be productive for micah to think it's worth something. he doesn't know how to voice that in a way that doesn't sound disrespectful. he's not sure it's his place to, anyway.
what he can do is talk about himself. "for me...everything i do to relax is also productive," he laughs a little. "or, i guess...when i'm stressed, i play instruments to calm down. i play instruments for my classes. i'll play instruments for my job in the future, hopefully. so in my case, my work is also my leisure...?" it feels strange. "maybe i'm lucky for that. or maybe not..." sometimes he gets sick of it. he has days where he doesn't want to touch an instrument, and the weight of it is a heavy burden. those days make him sick to his stomach. who is he, if not a musician? what is he worth, if he can't play? his entire life has been the harp, or violin, or cello, or flute, or countless others. it is his identity.
he's talked about this in therapy. she told him to try some hobbies unrelated to music to expand his horizons. it's why he joined photography club in the first place. "maybe art is leisure? sure, you create something through it, and have a finished product eventually...but it's just for the beauty of it. and we could survive without it. but maybe we couldn't live without it." he feels like he's rambling now – an uncommon position for lee jiyul to be in. he doesn't really know if he's gotten them any closer to their goal, either.
"so maybe...leisure is something that's unnecessary but makes life worth living?" or maybe they're overthinking it. quickly, he adds, "and what you said, too."

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a look inside LEE JIYUL's phone...
hello!! tysm for the well wishes everyone! thankfully my infusion went really well and while i'm still dealing with a few minor physical side effects my mental health has actually improved a lot so i'm hoping i can take advantage of feeling better on that front and get more on top of things! the problem is...i've fallen off so hardcore at plotting, lost track of dms, and people have gotten cleared, so please do me a favor and just like this if you'd like to plot (or continue plotting if we're in the process!) jiyul and especially soyi ( @gossipfest) always need more connections even if i tend to take forever to reply...sklgfjkdssdflkg so anyone is welcome to like this and i'll find my way to you in the coming days! you can also always add me at hyunjinator on dc and we can chat and plot there 💓 tysm!
hello!! tysm for the well wishes everyone! thankfully my infusion went really well and while i'm still dealing with a few minor physical side effects my mental health has actually improved a lot so i'm hoping i can take advantage of feeling better on that front and get more on top of things! the problem is...i've fallen off so hardcore at plotting, lost track of dms, and people have gotten cleared, so please do me a favor and just like this if you'd like to plot (or continue plotting if we're in the process!) jiyul and especially soyi ( @gossipfest) always need more connections even if i tend to take forever to reply...sklgfjkdssdflkg so anyone is welcome to like this and i'll find my way to you in the coming days! you can also always add me at hyunjinator on dc and we can chat and plot there 💓 tysm!
modulation no. 1. with lee jiyul @harpstring may 2025
the library had been unusually crowded that afternoon — noisy, restless, filled to the brim with students on edge. then again, yerim supposes it might not be all that unusual, not with exams looming over everyone like a stormcloud. she isn’t particularly concerned about her own. academic excellence is a constant in her life, and she expects nothing less of herself this time either. still, she had a lot of studying to do, and she preferred to do it somewhere that didn’t make her want to leave the moment she sat down.
studying with jiyul has been a constant over the years at yeonhwa, somewhat of a quiet tradition between the two of them. their majors have nothing in common, so there’s no help to be offered — but even so, she finds his presence grounding. calming. she finds she focuses better with him nearby. so when he suggested they go to his dorm instead, she’d agreed without hesitation. neither of them had much patience left over for the noise, and yerim trusts him. she doesn’t make a habit out of going to guys’ dorms out of the blue — not because she’s necessarily particularly modest, but because she knows how things look, and she’s careful about the image she keeps. but jiyul had never given her a reason to worry. he’s respectful, soft-spoken, and oddly easy to trust.
yerim stands quietly beside him as jiyul unlocks the door, the hallway still carrying the faint echoes of distant noises. still — it’s already miles better than the library. the room that greets her as the door swings open doesn’t surprise her — not really. it feels neat, without being impersonal. it feels intentional. her gaze sweeps over the space — she takes note of his many plants, the greenery adding a calming presence to the room. her eyes don’t linger on anything, not until they land on the harp.
she automatically steps forward, approaching the harp with careful curiosity. it’s beautiful — tall, elegant and completely unexpected. she knows jiyul plays instruments, but she hadn’t expected him to have a harp in his dorm room. her fingers hover above the strings as she admires the instruments, not daring to touch without permission.
“do you play?” she asks, glancing over at him. a second later, she catches herself — of course he does, because who would keep a harp in their dorm room just for the sake of decoration?
“i mean. wow. it’s beautiful.” she smiles at him, letting her hand fall to her side. “i’ve always liked string instruments a lot.”
jiyul doesn't like when it's too noisy. maybe it has something to do with his migraines, like his body is subconsciously averse to something that would make them worse.
thankfully, a migraine isn't the reason for him and yerim relocating their study session – just the noise.
he only feels self-conscious about his dorm when they step inside. he can't help but remember he hasn't dusted or vacuumed lately. hopefully it's not too messy...
thankfully, yerim's attention doesn't seem to be on judging his cleanliness. instead, it's on his harp, which is understandable. most people don't get to see one up close, and they're beautiful instruments. he can't help but smile a little at her fascination, and it grows when she smiles at him in turn.
"thank you," he replies, like he has anything to do with his harp's appearance. still, he feels proud, somehow. "yeah, i'm a strings major. so i play...a lot of them," he laughs a little. "harp is my favorite, though. it's kind of an unconventional choice, but i don't know. i think it's really..." his voice trails off as he tries to find the words for it. "comforting, sort of. calming. at least for me."
maybe it's because the harp never sounds angry. he loves more traditional string instruments, but violin and cello can sound quite harsh if their musician wants them to. even traditional korean instruments have a wide range of dynamics, though they tend to sound more graceful. the harp, somehow, is always gentle. maybe he loves it so much because he sees himself in it. it's a familiarity he doesn't feel with other instruments – almost a kinship.
they should probably get back to studying, but..."i can play for you a little? if you want," jiyul offers regardless. maybe it'll actually help them focus more after being around the bustle of the library. who is jiyul to know?
hiii everyone! i know i know, not another ooc post...girl where are your replies...beats me...but i just wanted to give everyone a little update on me because it might impact my activity on here 💓 who knows how much i'll ramble so i'll put it under a read more, also cw for health issues and such!

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do you wish you were closer to your brother, or are you content with the relationship you have?
"i think...somehow both at once? i'm content with the relationship we have, but i'd also like to be closer?" he's not sure it makes sense, or if it's a contradiction. he does wish he and hyo had more time together growing up. maybe he shouldn't wish he chose to leave with him and travel with their parents by his side when they were younger. after all, he wouldn't be himself without his experiences, and the way his grandparents influenced him. but what if he doesn't like who that is? who would he be if he made different choices? would he be happier? more confident? and would he and his brother feel like real brothers? there's some awkwardness between them. too often, jiyul wonders if hyo still resents him for staying with his grandparents instead of going with him. would it be enough if he knew how much jiyul regretted it? does he know already? he has a lot of questions that he should probably just ask, but he's afraid of the answers he might get. how sad is it to be afraid of judgment from your own twin brother? aren't they supposed to have each other's backs no matter what? them against the world, or something. that's how it always seems in the movies, and shows, and books. sometimes he wonders if there is something broken about them. "i think...if i had to choose one, though, i would like to be closer," he decides. "there's something a little...sad about us now. but i don't really know why. maybe because it feels like in another life things could've been different."
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