fix your hearts or die

my relationship with my mom is this cycle that goes around and around where she asks me something difficult and i get upset and overwhelmed and can't process it fast enough to know what to answer and she gets angry and upset because she thinks i dont want to talk about anything with her and i get even more upset and have nothing to say and then we hang up the phone, upset, and i cry, and 20 minutes later i have my answer for her but now its too late and she will never know. why can't people give u some time to process it's actually fucked up they should send you a list of all their super intense questions beforehand and allow u to write down notes

ive been thinking about the discourse around heated rivalry's popularity and the line of questioning that is just why do people like this gay shit so much!!! and its not an inherently homophobic question i guess bc u could discuss why m/m romance is so popular in general but its not a useful discussion w heated rivalry and it kind of just puts it in a box and minimizes whats so good about it. focusing so much on why straight women are horny about gay men is sooooo boring to me. and condescending to both the material and honestly to straight women bc 1. cant they just be horny without u writing an article about it and 2. im sure they aren't blinded by lust they maybe just like the show. and its missing the point bc fundamentally it's just a real romance with real chemistry and it takes the romance seriously!! which is incredibly rare so its no wonder it resonates. closest contemporary comparison is i guess normal people? but i also think u could compare it to something like dirty dancing or titanic as big blockbuster sweeping romances that also have sex and chemistry and real star power in them. and it has extra juice bc its gay bc gay romance is just often better and more romantic cause there's inherently more stakes!!!!!!!!! whatever i love #myshow i love the romance genre yay