So Be It.

3am and I can't sleep. Gotta be up in 3 and a half hours for an 16 hour shift. I have no idea what's going to be in store for me, what job I will be working, or who I will be working with. I have no idea when I will actually get to bed tonight, or how much sleep I will manage before my following 18 hour shift. I never know any of these things. Until the major schedule changes last week, I didn't even know what day I would be back from a trip, with gradual or sudden delays upwards to 20 hours (even a 45 hour delay I was lucky enough to miss) 4 months into a job and you usually know what you're doing and can wake up to a schedule with confidence, but next week I could be sent out with a crew of 30 people I've never met before doing the same work but with a whole set of new rules and trying to learn the quirks and habits and expectations of a whole new set of people. 4 months into a job and I'm still feeling the stresses of being a brand new employee and I'm exhausted. Just 2 more months. 4-6 more trips and I will be finished. I'm not sure if I will be back next year, but I don't know where else to go...