lonely is the muse .

yoong: i won't mind that. need to hear i'm badass more. can't have people thinking i'm soft. yoong: it looks great on him and glad he decided to do something different. i can only imagine how it was. i'd be all for seeing at least. maybe change my mind and not keep the black. i know. you got all the colors to choose from. yoong: i did. i do like doing things without say. can't let people know my next move. you'd have someone beside you. i'll be sure to let you know easily. we can run a marathon together and complain about it the whole time. yoong: thanks. we appreciate it. then we had to drink afterwards during our live so that was fun.

ASHLEY: pft, i mean, besides that gummy cute smile, you're bad to the bone, dude. ASHLEY: i mean, even if you don't end up changing it... it'll still be fun, right? something to think about for the future and when you're feeling adventurous. ASHLEY: yeah? do you usually run with someone else? is that how it's done? oh my god, thank you. i feel so safe when i can complain to someone freely. ASHLEY: i have to admit, ender woke me up and i watched some of it before i fell asleep again. did you guys actually eat that cake? or was it just for show? cause omg... a piece of cake and champagne would be amazing right now.

yoong: it's been a bit but i appreciate hearing it. love you too. yoong: i don't even blame you. you gotta protect him and they love getting all in your space no matter what. it's annoying honestly. oh you do and they'd find out if they push their luck. yoong: maybe one day. tae added blonde to his hair so i might be a little inspired. yeah? glad you did. feel a lot of people loved the orange. i mean... that would be a way to see if i wanna dye my hair again. i know you'll laugh. it will be fine. i mean, he's where i get it from. we all try to be honest no matter what especially with what we've dealt with. yoong: i get not everyone would wanna do so and i couldn't help myself. proud of myself for doing something like that even. you could have run that long easily, ash. i believe in you. yoong: thanks. we were proud to receive each one 💜

ASHLEY: then i'm going to have to say it more often. i'm sucking lately. ASHLEY: i know! i remember seeing it and thought it looked so good. i love the placement. i remember when i was younger just grabbing a thing of bleach and developer and going wild, those were the days. right? you could see what colors your vibing with... you know i have the rainbow and more. ASHLEY: i think you shocked a lot of people which is amazing. keep 'em guessing. maybe if i had you or a buddy with me, there's no way i'm doing that shit alone. next marathon you run, hit me up. ASHLEY: 100% clean sweep deserved.

yoong: aww, i'm glad. yoong: they did so they don't deserve to have me give them any attention. they can take photos of the back of my head for all i care. if i could give them the finger i would have easily. they just won't get a front facing photo of me for awhile. yoong: it really is. i remember when i did more with my hair. now the decision is to grow it or cut it. he did! it was after they say me cut it for military service. i was taken aback. maybe but knowing my dad, he was being very honest. yoong: thanks. i had fun doing so and then had everyone questioning why i was doing so.

ASHLEY: you're so badass, have i told you that lately? i love you forever. ASHLEY: that's how i feel when i take ender out and they start getting in our face. momma bear mode activated. i don't know why they think i can't still throw a punch... i still got it. ASHLEY: would you ever do a fun color again? i loved the orange on you, that was amazing. when we hang out again, you can try on some of my wigs to see if you wanna do a color again. i promise i'll only laugh a lil. like father, like son. we love it. i've never met an honest man in my life... besides you seven. ASHLEY: i would personally pass out after a mile... no... not even... like 5 minutes of running. that's impressive. naw, actually... fuck it. i gave birth. i need to give myself more credit. ASHLEY: congratulations on all those awards, you guys deserved every one of them. 💜

yoong: i do know that. i'm always there for you. you're one of my best friends so i'd drop everything for you if i could. yoong: oh, i am. i didn't even give them the time of day when we flew from south korea. they gave me too much shit so i'll never acknowledge them. yoong: oh? i'm sure the two of them will love that a ton. i'm sure they will. i wouldn't mind that. promise, i won't be busy or sleeping even if it seems that way. yoong: i couldn't agree more. i don't mind longer hair and knowing me, i'll let it grow out more. you suit either style well though so they can fuck off. though hearing my dad say i look better with long hair made me feel offended. oh, i bet. i think about it once in awhile.

ASHLEY: and the same goes for you, of course. ASHLEY: they really put you through so much unnecessary bullshit and i'm so proud of you for giving the metaphorical finger to them every time they try to get a picture of you. ASHLEY: love you forever for sacrificing your sleep for me. promise to be out of your hair soon and you can get some proper rest. ASHLEY: changing your hairstyle is like a fun little game... trust me i've always been this manic. wait, really? he said that? maybe he was just jealous you can pull off anything. ASHLEY: congratulations on your marathon, you go getter.

yoong: i'd do that for you always. well, even if we weren't friends for long then, i wanted to be there for you. yoong: exactly. i'd never say no to free food. that would work. they'd be all over us if we went somewhere public. yoong: i'll deal. i've dealt with the maknae line for years and other children, i'll be fine. i already wanna sleep forever but the members won't let me. yoong: i'll save you a seat easily. nope. cut it off and already had people wanting me to have long hair again. jin already grilled me saying i need to grow it out as well. i will let you, don't worry. everyone got a laugh out of it the last time when you tried to make my hair match yours.

ASHLEY: and that speaks volumes, yoongi. i need you to know that... even though you already do. you've always been smart. ASHLEY: i'm sure you guys are so sick of it especially after a show. i remember going out after my shows, i'd feel so much rage if i saw a flashing light in my direction. ASHLEY: speaking of, i'm going to let jungkook and taehyung take ender for a few hours the day after the show. they will all have such a blast. maybe we can go out and have lunch or something, if you're not busy or sleeping? 😛 ASHLEY: i mean, it's all about what you want. you do you. i think you look dope either way. exactly what people said to me when i cut mine off. "ashley, grow your hair back out or wear a wig". fuck right off. the look on your face was absolutely priceless. i still think about it and laugh.

yoong: that's true so it makes sense we gravitated to one another. which i'm glad for. you are one of my closest friends. yoong: i'd be up for that. i'm sure the others would be as well. that's true. he'll wake up enough to tell me hi i'm sure. yoong: he does. yes otherwise i'd be so worried. at least he adores my family and isn't hiding from them. yoong: yeah, i'm there. i'd be upset if we didn't spend time together while on the trip.

ASHLEY: the same goes to you. the way you showed up for me after i had ender was so fucking rad. i had friends that i've known for years who didn't even do that. ASHLEY: i mean, who isn't up for free food, right? we can get takeout or something because fuck the paparazzi. we deserve some privacy. ASHLEY: ender will sit on your lap and drive you crazy, just watch. you're going to want to sleep forever afterwards. 😂 ASHLEY: me too. save me a seat? i'd offer to recreate some cute ponytails for the show, but i don't think your hair is long enough for that... yet. you have to let me redeem myself.

ALEX: you're probably better than you think you are! As a boy mom too, i definitely get it. i'll have to endure the dinosaur phase eventually. not looking forward to that, idk why. how old is your son? ALEX: yes, that sounds like fun. i brought a ball with me so we can definitely set something up! you just tell me when.

ASHLEY: what? you don't like dinosaurs?! i feel like that's my favorite phase. he's 4. how old is yours? ASHLEY: since today is the last day, i think we better do it now. this afternoon sound okay? then we can go and get ready for the concert.