The hurt on Tien's face. The absolute agony of realizing that not only is he not chosen but also that the person he loves is soulmates with his brother and that when he was asking him about choosing the last time they were together... that wasn't about him at all.
I want to go back with all of this to how Lomfon wasn't going to tell Tai until he found out Tai was the one who saved him, Tai was the person he considered his first love. And only then did he give in to what he thought was fate and destiny. But he gave in only to be turned down and pushed away and pushed down and Tai left and now he's angry at the world and fate and destiny and all that anger ends up pointed right at Tien because he's there and because he's rude and he's brash and even though Lomfon knows he's more fragile than he lets on... it's hard to remember when you're hurting.
This did not get less painful. Not at all. Not even in the slightest. This is Tien is agony because he's realizing that no one chooses him. That the person he thought might like him in return was in love with his brother and that he was never an option (even though he definitely was, even though he is, but he's never been chosen and now Lomfon has chosen his brother again... like everyone else.)
(I also want to point out that the entire thing with Tien and Lomfon started with Tai taking Lomfon's side in the bookstore and now Lomfon is choosing Tai and Tien is still the one that no one chooses.)
Tien is just hurting so much. He's been watching his brother finally be happy, he's been falling in love with Lomfon, life was so good and then suddenly he's thrust in the middle of this drama where his brother has two soulmates (or none!?) and now everyone can hear in the rain and yet the person who started all of this doesn't know.
And this is why Lomfon reacts so angrily to Tien. Because he was trying to choose between Tai and Tien (I still believe he was, it only makes sense) and instead Tien is pulling Patts in, not himself. Lomfon is trying to figure out what any of the soulmates bit means and Tien is accusing him of only doing this to break them apart when it really, really was about Lomfon's feelings and his own internal confusion... and so he cuts Tien to the core.
Lomfon is lost in this pain. He knows he got rejected by Tai and having Tien accuse him of trying to break up Tai and Patts has lead to anger and nothing else, to unleash this pain on Tien because there's no one else there to put that pain onto except himself and that's too much, he's hurt and he's alone and so many ideas he was holding have shattered, all those hopes and dreams and ideas of fate and destiny and first love and then to be accused of only doing it to break up a couple and destroy their happiness?
It's so perfect because that is not what Lomfom expected at all. It's the last response he expected. Because no one thinks of Tien as this serious. For all the anger and all the bluster and all his rudeness and his brashness.... there is no one as full of care and love and kindness as Tien. He puts up so, so many fronts for the world and only a few get a chance to see beyond it... and even they barely seem to believe it.
Lomfon broke his heart on Tai and then shattered on Tien only he shattered like glass... he's a storm and wind and rain and he blew out a candle and he spread the glass of his pain everywhere not realizing how much he was going to hurt Tien in the process because no one thinks about hurting Tien.
(And Tien is going to abandon their project never week, to leave behind the 'message from the heart' to get away from Lomfon and all the work they've done and all the time they've spent because Lomfon broke his heart and hurt his brother and Lomfon has nothing, he's got nothing, what can he say after this?)
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