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I’m starting to feel the urge again in my brain of a lonely state that is taking me to a place where I really don’t want to be

And it’s seen as petty

I do just want someone, anyone

I’m

Sounding

Stupid.

My lowness starts mostly early evening. It’s a difficulty I’m struggling. On and on

Lonely

Thoughts 1737996 miles an hour

Giving up

Sometimes I want to give up and end what’s going on in my head. It’s a battle. A slight side of me wants to pull that that trail of thoughts through this mes. It’s like fog with light beams coming through. Most days it’s black with foggy patches overpowering it and some it’s like I’m being blinded with happiness

Atm I’m in a pit

I listen to xxxtentacion all the time because he is the only person that the music I really indulge and relate to

I cry I cry I cry every song only way I let it out

I’ve tried gagging to see if it goes away but I end up crying again

This is going to be a new thing for me. I don’t use tumblr at all.

But I’m changing my blog into a continuous thought stream of what’s on my mind.

You may not give a shit or you may wish to relate or help. And I can also therefore help.