Coming Out (Again)
For a long time, I have identified as a binary trans man. So many 'accepting' people early in my transition, however, would call me by only 'they/them' and use only gender neutral language around me. It was a way of not having to call me a guy, while being (in their minds) non-transphobic. It always deeply upset me, and made me kinda associate being called 'they' as being called 'she' in a different font, because that's what it was.
That, paired with a lot of toxic rhetoric from transmeds, made me feel like, in order to not be seen as a woman, I needed to be fully masculine in every way possible. It damaged me a LOT, and led to a lot of internalized misogyny. Like, a LOT. Jax's character helped me escape that mentality, and accept that being a man is not who I am. So, I'm coming out as genderfluid. I only intend on using they/them pronouns, but the way my dysphoria fluctuates feels fitting to the term. Thanks to anyone who read this far <3
