ℳ𝑎𝑙𝑜𝑢

So venting here because I have no where else to vent. I've been in a clinic since January and I've met this guy. He's so funny and smart. I love his smile and the way he annoys me. I love how every time he tells me a joke that could be mean, he apologizes. I love how every time we make eye contact, my stomach drops. I love him so bad, but I know it’s not reciprocal even though sometimes I have the feeling he feels something for me too, but now he’s going to leave next Monday and I’m so fucking sad. I feel like I have a hole in my stomach cause wdym I’m not going to see my cutie boys ever again. Like now, when I'm going to come back on Sunday to the clinic, he's not going to be there to ask me to eat with him, when I'm in the restaurant line he won't be telling my name just to annoy me. Nobody would say that I’m a « gourgandine » there would be no one who could make me laugh with a simple sentence (expect sarah my bby girl ily ) anyway I could talk about him for hours I’m going to miss him so bad probably will kill myself to the thought that I’m never going to see him again but that okay