authors note: posted yay. i know i've written something a bit slightly similar but shhh. also hate this layout, also peek the way his name is fading when he's abut to— hope everyone enjoyed their free time from angst !!!! :)
trigger warnings: death mention (suicide) angst, hurt/no comfort. megumi has a very low self esteem. reader feels unwanted by megumi etc.
starring . megumi fushiguro x fem!reader.
you never knew why megumi fushiguro: stopped starting intimacy with you.
he loved you, you loved him. that's what making love is right? you don't want to ask him such a thing because you care for him way more than just his body.
he's more than that, the lack of intimacy wasn't what was hurting you specifically. it was more of how closed off he is with you.
but then again he's like that with everyone. but, you're his girlfriend. shouldn't some things be different? you felt selfish for thinking like this, but was it necessarily selfish to think like that? you just want megumi to actually talk to you.
megumi fushiguro: wasn't a bad person, he just wasn't the best with showing his emotions. his intentions mean well you knew he cared for you, but sometimes you just felt like you were annoying him.
but the truth is, megumi fushiguro: could never be annoyed of you, the soft smile you give him before bed, the warmth in your voice when you call him pretty, the way your eyes soften after a long day once you see him. you were almost a dream, he knew someone like him did not deserve you. he doesn't even know how to show how much he cares for you. if there was a bitten he could press to find a better person for you and make himself disappear from this world, oh how fast he'd click it.
megumi fushiguro: had an unbelievably amount of hatred toward himself, and he knew he shouldn't have gotten you involved with him. because if you don't love yourself how do you expect others to love you? though maybe it wasn't completely true. because you loved megumi to death, and he knew that you cared so deeply for a person like him. he felt horrible he felt like you were wasting your time on him, megumi didn't deserve your heart. but the thing is. megumi loves you too much to actually distance himself from you, as much as it'd hurt he knows that's what you both need. you need someone as soft spoken as yuji itadori, megumi always compared himself to yuji, for many obvious reasons. yuji is the complete opposite of him, the kind you need in your life.
megumi fushiguro: never said things were starting to get too hard to handle, megumi never once said things were becoming too heavy on him. megumi never once asked you or for anyone's for help, he was the type to suffer in silence. it's just in his nature he's used to feeling that way, megumi would always complain about having migraines, he would take pills to relieve the pain in his chest—head, you never batted an eye at it because you always watched him as he did so, it's just that.
megumi fushiguro: started to stare at the pills a little longer after that day, except megumi completely stopped starting intimate moments with you after that. yeah he kissed you but it was always a quick peck, he held your hand at night. whispered "i love you." when you would fall asleep in his arms.
megumi fushiguro: didn't celebrate 21st his birthday, it's like he had no emotion on his face when the day came. you tried cheering him up, he smiled a few times. even cracked a few laughs genuine laughs.
a week after his birthday, megumi fushiguro's pill bottle was empty. he had a whole tub left just the other day, and he hasn't taken any since last month.
... megumi fushiguro: committed suicide on december 30th, 2025.