A MOTHER'S GUILT

health related

abby  patching  up  your  muse  /  having  to  perform  surgery  without  anesthetic  on  them

your  muse  is  angry  about  the  restrictions  abby  has  placed  on  them  regarding  moving  /  fighting  /  etc.  after  an  injury.

abby talks your muse through stitching up one of her wounds because she can’t do it herself.

abby  mentors  your  muse  in  medical  stuff.

your  muse  was a  regular  patient of  abby’s  on the  ark

your  muse  allows abby  to  test a  treatment  on them

verse  specific

( pre  show )  your muse  catches  abby ,  a  council member  ,  doing something  illegal

( between  s2  and  s3 )  abby is  healing  from mt  weather  and your  muse  visits her  and  helps her  with  rehab

( season 3 ) your  muse  is  one  of  the  people  chipped!abby  tries  to  convince  to  take  the  key

( season  5  /  eden  au ) your  muse  finds  out  about  the  dark  year  and  abby’s role  in  it.

( season  5 / eden  au  ) abby  hurt  /  betrayed  your  muse  during  her  addiction  and  is  now  trying  to  make  amends  and  restore  trust

( bunker )  your  muse helps  abby  attempt to  detox

( bunker )  your  muse helps  abby  restart her  brain  in the  early  days of  the  bunker

( bunker )  abby  is forced  to  fight in  the  pits (  opposite  your muse  ? because  of your  muse ? )

( wanomon )  your  muse is  in  search of  the  mother of  death  ,  an  ouskejon kru  woman  who gave  birth  to  wanheda  and is  known  for healing  any  injury

( zombie  apoc  ii ) they  all  come down  to  earth to  find  it inhabited  by  the living  dead

random  

your  muse  sees her  shocklashing  scars and  asks  about them

your  muse  teaching  abby  how  to  fight  or  shoot  a  gun  /  sparring  matches  to  practice 

your  muse  asking  about  jake

your  muse  blames abby  for  a decision  on  the ark  /  someone’s death

if  your  muse  is  a  delinquent  :  

on  the  ark  ,  abby  managed  the  medical  files  for  all  prisoners  -  abby  visiting  your  muse  before  they  go  to   the  ground.  /   your  muse  recognizing  and  remembering  abby  being  kind  to  them  on  the  ark  and  defending  her  on  the  ground.  

abby  was  friends  with  your  muse’s  parent(s)  and  promised  them  she’d  protect  your  muse  -  esp  if  the  parents  were  floated  and  abby  was  at  the  floating  when  she  promised  this

abby  was  one  of  the  people  who  voted  for  your  muse’s  parent(s)  to  be  floated  on  the  ark  and  your  muse  resents  her  for  it.

 if  your  muse  is  a  grounder  :

your  muse  teaching  abby  about  different  plants  /  remedies  /  clays  /  teas  /  etc.  that  help  with  healing.

your  muse  teaching  abby  trig 

your  muse  being  horrified  about  various  ark  customs  /  things  abby  was  associated  with

@tormentbled​  sent  :  bleed  from  lincoln. from  action  starters.     bleed  to  find  my  muse  injured.

feet  carried her  beyond  the  edge  of  ouskejon  kru  territory  ,  moving  with  purpose  as  she  aimed  for  the  highlands  with  hope  of  getting  there  before  nightfall. abi  had  gone  in  search of  a  purple flower  with  restorative properties  that  only  grew  on  the  taller mountains  in  trikru territory.  she’d  been  walking  for  most  of  the  day  ,  toting a  bag  to  carry  her  plants  in  ,  a  full  canteen strapped  to  her  waist  ,  and  a  small  knife  meant  mainly to  cut  plants at  the  root.  abi  had  never  been  much  of  a  fighter.   she  had  minimal training  and  failed the  classes  as  a  child  that  determined who  the  warriors were.  instead  she  lived  at  a  trading post  near  the  edge  of  their  clan’s land  that  doubled as  a  healing checkpoint  for  wounded travelers.  it  was  rare  that  she  needed to  defend  herself and  for  the  most  part  she  lived  a  simple life.  

as  she  begins  climbing foothills  ,  she  notices  that  the  fog  hung  close  to  the  rocky  ground. it  made  everything wet  beneath  her  feet  and  the  mossy  rocks  became  dangerously  slick.  she  should  have  known  better than  to  continue in  those  conditions. but  her  desire to  reach  the  summit  before nightfall  pushed  her  forward.  she’s  only  a  third  of  the  way  up  the  craggy  mountain side  when  her  foot  slips  on  it’s  perch  along  the  rocks  and  she  slips  ,  catching  herself with  her  arms  momentarily.  she  hung  like  that  for  a  moment ,  believing that  she  might  be  able  to  pull  herself  back  up.  but  then  the  wet  rocks  slip  from  her  fingers and  she’s  cascading down  the  steep  mountainside  ,  colliding  with  rocks  and  jagged  edges  ,  until  her  back  connects  with  a  tree  trunk  and  she  comes  to  a  sudden  stop  ,  the  air  knocked out  of  her  lungs. 

@skysplita​  sent  :  ‘  i  can  see  right  through  you.  ‘

abby  draws  her  jacket tighter  around  herself ,  hoping  to  hide  some  of  her  transparency.  now  that  they  had  emerged from  their  collective tomb  ,  her  secrets  also  come  into  the  open  air.  now  octavia  knew  what  abby  had  been  hiding  all  those  years  ,  what  she  had  stolen  from  her  own  people.    

though  she  didn’t  appreciate the  insinuations  of  the  younger girl.  that  her  sobriety  wouldn’t stick.  that  she  was  the  same  woman  who  forced their  leader’s  hand  in  the  bunker.    ❛     you  couldn’t  see  through  me  down  there  ,  and  you  can’t  now.      ❜  abby  understood that  she  was  branded  a  thief  and  a  traitor in  octavia’s  mind  ,  but  she  was  clean  now  ,  she  was  repairing all  the  relationships she  ruined.

her hands were soft within in his own and kept him grounded him in this moment. his gaze remains locked with hers, taking in every word she was vocalizing. a gentle squeeze to her hand was returned. “ i know that we will. i just…wish that we could’ve saved more of our people. i don’t believe that i should’ve been chosen over any of them, especially those parents. there are no children here that are my own.” though, he quickly realized the mistake that he made in saying those words. “ –but i have you. yes, i have you. “ he repeated. “ if i didn’t i would’ve given up my spot to one of those parents, so that they would have a chance to grow old with their child. “ he admits honestly. “ they deserved a chance at living more than me…” his tone soft, though he knew that she would be swift in denying his statement. 

@lcftwild​  :  ❝   you’re  not  sorry.  ❞    (  reese  )

@aigonakru​ :  i  can’t  believe  that  you  lied  to  me.   (  octavia  )

swallowing  down  her  guilt  ,  she  knows  she  needs  to  come  clean. she  couldn’t  let  marcus  die  down  there  because  she  wouldn’t  tell  the  truth. desperation  drove  her  to  octavia ,  begging  for  her  to  change  the  sentence  ,  to  see  the  truth. so  she  admitted to  the  drug  use  ,  to  stealing bottle  upon  bottle over  the  last  six  years. abby  doesn’t  expect mercy  ,  doesn’t expect  any  pardon. the  rules  were  clear  ,  she  had  made  herself an  enemy  of  wonkru  by  stealing  from  those  who  needed  it  ,  taking more  than  her  share.  

❛     yes  ,  I  lied.     ❜   she  admits  ,  struggling  to  hide  the  fear  that  crept  up  her  throat.   hands  wring  together in  front  of  her  ,  awaiting  whatever punishment  was  to  befall  her.  she  would  last  only  moments  in  the  fighting pit.    ❛      I’m sorry.  but  please ,  don’t  let  marcus  pay  the  price  for  my  mistakes.  he  doesn’t  deserve it.    you  know  that.      ❜   she  doesn’t  try  to  argue  for  her  own  usefulness ,  that  octavia needed  her  skills. it  wouldn’t  do  any  good.  not  after  what  she  admitted  to.

raven  tries  her  best  to  focus  on  abby’s  questions,  despite  how  she’s  feeling.    ‘   from  where  everyone  gets  their  water.   shaw  brought  me  some  while  i  was  working  but  i  trust  him.  ’    the  second  question  still  gets  raven’s  attention,  the  way  abby  phrases  it…   ‘   do  you  think  someone  poisoned  me  ?  ’    it’s  not  like  she  doesn’t  have  people  that  disliked  her,  especially  eligius  prisoners  but  they  had  peace,  even  if  tensions  were  still  high.   

her  head  nods  as  abby  explains  what  other  symptoms  she  had.   ‘    i  could’ve  eaten  something  too.   it’s  all  kind  of  a  blur  right  now.   ’    raven  adds  quietly,  wanting  to  mention  everything.    ‘  i’m  dizzy  and  my  stomach’s  bothering  me.    ’    it  wasn’t  a  sharp  pain  but  it  didn’t  feel  right  either.   raven  figured  it  was  her  body’s  reaction  to  the  high  fever  but  well,  abby  knows  these  things  better.     a  shiver  runs  her  body,   and  she  tries  to  cover  herself  with  her  blanket  even  more  to  get  more  warmth.    eyes  close  for  a  bit,  trying  to  focus  on  any  previous  symptoms  she  may  have  had.     ‘   i  was  tired,  i  guess.   but   i  was  working  a  lot  so  i  don’t  know  if  that  can  qualify  as  a  symptom.   ’

  lips  press  tight  together ,  faced  with  difficult  questions. usually  she  believed in  complete  transparency in  regards  to  someone’s  health. there  wasn’t  often  a  reason to  hide  things. but  abby  had  no  idea  what  she  was  looking at  and  presenting a  worst-case  scenario wouldn’t  exactly  calm  raven’s  fears.   ❛      not  necessarily.  but  it’s  a  possibility.     we  don’t  know  what  it  is  yet.   ❜   she  hates  not  having  an  answer. 

it was odd–noticing someone meet her gaze with such intensity that almost matched the way she was looking at them. abby was, for sure, camouflaging what was really going on with the act of brushing it off like it was nothing, when it was, possibly something that would get her thrown right into the pit…but what was it?

“ i suggest you tell me what it is before i find out on my own, abby. i won’t be so forgiving later. ”  meaning that now would give the woman a chance to disclose the information that she was holding onto like it was life and death…which it could very well be such. “ spit it out or i can get my guards to look around to find out what you’re keeping from me. i’ll be sure to spare you the feat of fighting in the pit and skip right to the likely outcome.” tilting her head to the side slightly, eyes narrowing to search for any hint of change in her demeanor or expression. “ though, i would hate to lose one of the only two doctors i have here. “

  abby  knows  perfectly well  that  she  won’t  last  a  moment in  the  pit.  she  has  not  wielded a  sword  or  axe  in  her  entire life.  she’d  fired  a  gun  only  a  handful  of  times.  she  was  not  built  for  war.  not  built  for  fighting.  her  hands  were  always  meant  to  heal.   she  offers  a  raise  of  her  brows  ,  as  though  impressed by  the  spectacular reversal  of  roles  that  had  taken  place  over  the  years  since  the  ark.