I have too many feelings for a fictional nerd

I was tagged by @noodle-soup to do this for some reason so here they are. 6 selfies I assume are all from 2015, co-starring Gimli, with guest appearance by Charlie. Because I don’t actually take pictures of myself. 

Yes, brain, I did want to spend the end of today wondering if I’ll ever be interesting or a priority to people. I definitely wanted to think about how my threads are always the last answered and the first shelved, and how nobody I follow sends memes because they’re all off plotting with each other instead, and how my last even semi-active ship got dropped like a hot potato with no warning, and how every time I try to change things by plotting or making AUs or generally doing stuff my partner claims to want to do I just get set aside even faster only it hurts more because ‘I’m not not feeling the thread’ always sounds like bullshit when it’s a thread someone pretended to be excited about or even requested and then suddenly they’re responding to literally everyone else faster and making me feel like I’m just being humored out of pity.

Oh, and I definitely wanted that little voice in the back of my head reminding me it’s all because I didn’t move on to OCs or join the new hot fandoms or I don’t fucking know, and that’s the reason I’ll never have anything last because I always get left behind by some new trend and even when I can get into it everyone’s still in their groups from the last trend and I’ll never be invited to or included in anything I don’t literally force my way into by sending memes or something. 

But what does it matter, right? I spent five years being happy with no real friends and yeah, they were the worst years of my life overall, but now I’m so fucking pathetic I feel like I need other people in my life but it’s too late because I’m just always gonna fuck up and isolate myself and have no idea how to even try and change things, because all the things I can think of fail.