#negative;;

when i look at all the blogs i set up in good spirits of ‘yeah, this’ll take off’, i feel... mixed.

none of them have ever taken off, let’s be clear, but i used to at least have some people who would perform some semblance of interaction. there’s a reason there’s nothing on these blogs for days at a time, though. no one interacts. all rps are dropped. i’m always left behind.

it makes me question what the point is. what’s the point in setting up a muse and writing droves to tell people about them? the point of trying to get them out there and trying to start things? what’s the point when everyone leaves anyway?

it’s made me doubt my writing, it’s made me doubt that people even like me. something i thought i was good at; character design/development and creative writing has become something swarmed with doubt because i’m always dropped. i’m reluctant to even try anymore.

i understand that life gets in the way and muses change but i wish i was at least given some warning instead of just being left to wait for days or weeks or months for a reply that’s not gonna come.

it makes it hard to talk to people. it makes it hard to look at these blogs and feel anything but mild pain.