i feel really freaking old

Caution* Spoilers ahead

I do not know where to start. The fbaa series is my favorite series! I loved the love story, speed of the love story, the characters and relationships, and how JLA wrote the series. I loved how it didn't just seem like p*rn without a plot. I thought they were way better than ACOTAR.

Now, I did not like this book very much. Or at all. Maybe because I have too high of hopes. I read the Dimitri's pov from Vampire Academy fanfics. They were the best fanfic I have ever read. Amazing retelling of the original series. The fanfic capture every feel, emotion, and character perfectly. I will always reread those fanfics. I wish I could own them. I highly recommend to go read them. @gigi256 wrote them, and she is best author ever. But moving on..

So expected the same, and it was not. Why have two story lines at the same time? The present story line had nothing to give or add to the actual plot. It was Casteel dumping his worry about Poppy and/or him summarizing what we just read. These chapter become more annoying very fast. They were unnecessary breaks in the retelling of story.

I also did not like the 'BTS' scenes. Such as the Casteel walking in on where Kieran is busy with a woman, and staying. It just made me cringe. I did not love it nor think it was hot. I makes me wonder if Kieran, Poppy, and Casteel will be made into a couple. I also did not like how much Casteel repeated how much of bad guy he. The baby vampire scene just seem random. Casteel never talked about at all these past 4 books?! How does this add anything? It just add how Casteel nonstop talks about killing everyone he is around. Now there is more about Shea we don't know?! At this point, just tell us all of it. I feel like that will a plot hole we will never hear from again.

Also why is Castle's brother heart mates with Poppy's sister. This family is TOO connected each other. Poppy's mother used to be Castleel's Mother's ex-husband's lover. Poppy's mother had sex with her past lover's brother, and had two daughters from him. Now Castle's older bother is soul mates with Poppy's older sister. What is Thanksgiving going to look like. This is becoming too much like The Mortal Instruments. What will Poppy and Casteel do when her Uncle/Casteel's Mother's ex-husband is awake and learned his ex-wife had his child killed. His niece killed his lover. Oh! His brother has sex with his soulmate, and had two daughter. I cringe with Malik talks about loving Poppy's sister. Does no one see this being weird??

All of this just feels so rushed! I loved the first three books so much. I cannot tell you how many times I reread the those three books. I loved maybe handful of scenes. Now it seem like storyline has changed or been expanded too fast/too much. I know that her prequel book series explains it, I guess. I do not feel like reading the prequel tbh. I cannot read another long series just to be explain some family history.

I finally finished the book. I am speechless, I am amazed but also overwhelmed. I enjoyed this book. This has been my favorite series in a long time. Poppy is amazing character, and I love the relationship with everyone.

This book felt slow but fast, and so much information, almost too much? Tbh I don’t really know what Poppy is? I’m guessing she is a super Primal god? I had to reread chapters and paragraphs, because it was so much to take in.

I didn’t mind the joining. I was just worried it turn into a ploy relationship, but the amount of hate for doing the joining. Especially since I have seen so many people wanting the joining. It’s wild. I would like to see Kieran find some love.

BUT I THOUGHT SO BAD that Millicent was going to be Shea. I swear I thought Shea was going to pop up. Does anyone else find it crazy that we have more Casteel 2.0 and Poppy 2.0? I don’t how I feel about it. How Malik and Millicent are basically replicas of Poppy and Cas? Especially after Malik was all gross about him being Poppy’s Ascension? It was hard to believe that Malik went from that to being “don’t you dare talk about my heartmate!” I don’t trust him yet 

The hate is wild and too much. did this book have some plot holes and hard to read at time, yes. JLA is a good writer, and I truly enjoy this series. It makes me so mad when people just bash on it.

I’m so glad Isbeth is finally dead!! I am cheering Poppy on! I can’t wait for the golden boy to get it next. We do only two more books in series, so I’m interested how the series will end now that we have started a whole new story line with new bad guys/gods.