"Agape"

Have you ever been in love but realized that you didn’t know (at the time) that you were or what that was?

Cause I think that happened to me. And now I can’t stop thinking about this person from years ago. I had a super vivid dream about them last night and I’ve known him for years. I mean, literally since the first grade. We last talked about two years ago when he told me he wasn’t ready for a relationship.

But he started dating a new girl about two months after I have moved closer to home (I didn’t move closer to home for him, but we did discuss in length dating from 5 hours away would be way easier than 18 hours away). So, I guess he just wasn’t ready for a relationship with me.

“You have everything I could ever dream for in a woman”

“There’s just something about you, I can’t explain it, but it’s amazing”

“I’m so glad that I’ve met you, you’re changing my life”

My response: “that’s so great! I’m into you too. This has been awesome getting to know you. Maybe we should consider taking this a step further and talk about dating?”

The guy: “well, actually I’m in a committed relationship and I won’t be breaking up with her. You’re so amazing and you just have things she doesn’t have. I know this is hard, but I’ve been with her for three years and we’ve been through a lot, but you’re the most amazing woman I’ve ever met.”

I’m sorry, what? Why has this become the norm? Why do men think that they can just have me on retainer to connect with them mentally and spiritually, but ultimately not be their number one option?

Men are trash for treating good women this way. And seriously, if you’ve been dating a woman, WHO YOU’VE PROPOSED TO, maybe you shouldn’t be over here trying to be my “friend” yet sit here and call me beautiful and tell me how much I mean to you. Get the FUCK out of here with that shit.