with the announcement last week of guild wars 3 coming in a couple years, I jumped back into guild wars 2 for the first time in years. I'd jumped in for a brief few months a couple years ago when the cantha expansion was released (factions was always my favourite in the original game) but I really dove back in this past week.
it's reminded me of the person I used to be and who I apparently still am: the guy that stays in playing video games all day every day. I feel maybe a little bad, but at this point in my life, what else do I have to live for? I don't have kids, I'm likely never going to end up in a relationship, I work a meaningless job with bullshit rules...Even if I move to Toronto in the next few years, what's the point? Will it really change anything at all? Why even move there if I'm just going to stay in and play games all day?
I'm not sure what it was, maybe the video games themselves, but I was just feeling hella depressed today. I'm proud of the fact that I was able to even get groceries and pack a lunch for tomorrow. Did not have the will to do anything else productive. I think I'll buy some vegetables and exercise tomorrow. Or maybe just game. Idk.
Honestly, I think games are all I have left in life lol. To look forward to, I mean. Sure, I can still put in the effort to improve my skills and find a new job, I can maybe continue working out and hopefully achieve a better physique, I can read more books and whatnot....but somehow it all feels empty, you know? At least with games it feels substantial in a way. Like it's guaranteed to be good, you know? I don't know.
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