this is a love song.

Ayo Edebiri as Sydney Adamu in Beef (S02E01) The Bear (2022-present)

KNEE-DEEP IN THE CITY THAT NEVER SLEEPS, I LAY DOWN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET ...

#CRUSHSUNG: ind. original character roleplay blog. written by dillon. triggering themes will be present. mutuals only, minors do not interact.

KNEE-DEEP IN THE CITY THAT NEVER SLEEPS, I LAY DOWN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET ...

#CRUSHSUNG: ind. original character roleplay blog. written by dillon. triggering themes will be present. mutuals only, minors do not interact.

she  can't  blame  jamie  for  leaving  and  never  keeping  in  touch.   it  must  be  hard  for  him,  too.   this,  she  can  understand.   ellie's  the  tether  between  the  two  of  them.   even  if  olympia  adores  jamie  on  his  own,  even  if  she,  too,  considers  him  her  own  brother,  it'll  always  be  because  of  ellie.   now  that  she's  gone,  the  tether  is  still  there,  just  in  a  different  way.   they'll  always  be  the  ones  who  were  left,  always  the  ones  who  never  got  to  say  goodbye.   they'll  always  be  a  reminder  of  what  they  lost  to  each  other.

it's  been  so  long.   she's  always  wondered  what  he  was  doing  away  from  their  small  little  town  with  little  minds.   more  importantly,  she  wonders  if  he  found  happiness  in  the  way  she's  always  hoped  he  would.   in  a  way,  he  reminds  her  of  herself.   rolling  with  the  tide,  trying  to  stay  afloat.   what  do  you  call  being  homesick  without  a  home  to  return  to?   what  do  you  call  it  when  you're  waiting  for  a  little  bird  to  lead  you  back  knowing  it'll  never  come?

there are very few things jamie missed about home, but olympia was all the best parts of it. their youth was fraught, but filled with childlike wonder of their own design. even the woods, despite their looming darkness within those trees, are sorely missed just for those few moments of tranquility. he thinks of the three of them, running around, feral and wild in their escape. they had no cares back then. some things were easier.

KNEE-DEEP IN THE CITY THAT NEVER SLEEPS, I LAY DOWN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET ...

#CRUSHSUNG: ind. original character roleplay blog. written by dillon. triggering themes will be present. mutuals only, minors do not interact.

what if all i need is you?

love to think you'll never forget.

i'll pay the price, you won't.

but if i'm all dressed up, they might as well be looking at us.

if they call me a slut, you know it might be worth it for once.

if i'm going to be drunk, might as well be drunk in love.

everyone wants him. that was my crime.

we'll pay the price, i guess.

you're not saying you're in love with me.

it might blow up in your pretty face.

i'm not saying "do it anyway," but you're going to.

we're a shot in the darkest dark.

i'm holding out hope for you to say, "don't go."

i would stay forever if you say "don't go."

why'd you have to lead me on?

why'd you have to twist the knife?

why'd you whisper in the dark just to leave me in the night?

you kiss me and it stops time.

i'm yours, but you're not mine.

i was trying to see the cards that you won't show.

why'd you have to give me nothing back?

why'd you have to make me love you?

i said, "i love you," you say nothing back.

did you get anxious though, on the way home?

from the outside, it looks like you're trying lives on.

i miss the old ways, you didn't have to change.

i cannot be your friend, so i pay the price of what i lost.

truth is, i can't pretend it's platonic, it's just ended.

guess maybe i am better off now that we don't talk.

the only way back to my dignity was to turn into a shrouded mystery.

you were so magnetic, it was almost obnoxious.

i didn't come here to make friends.

when you hold me, it holds me together.

you kiss me in a way that's gonna screw me up forever.

you'd be more than a chapter in my old diaries with the pages ripped out.

i know that you still remember.

i broke my own heart 'cause you were too polite to do it.

you don't knock anymore, and my whole life's ruined.

you dream of my mouth before it called you a lying traitor.

you search in every maiden's bed for something greater.

baby, was it over then?

and is it over now?

did you think i didn't see you?

at least i had the decency to keep my nights out of sight.

oh lord, i think about jumping off of very tall somethings, just to see you come running.

if she's got blue eyes, i will surmise that you'll probably date her.

i was hoping you'd be there.