after almost three months, what you're not has been updated! not only has chapter 4 been published, but as well as an interlude ? 4.5? idk i just felt like splitting it up would be easier, so double update i guess πββοΈ hope you guys enjoy and lmk what y'all think π«ΆπΌ
spotify playlist - five new songs have been added, and it is very recommended that you listen to track 17, bad omens by 5sos when you read the intermission chapter
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user meichaesplanet is malfunctioning right nowβ¦megan trying to hug yoonchae then going βuh!β and then she picks up yoonchae and THEN they both flex their muscles
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yeah I think I'm done with meichae after that hahaha megan is really going through every moment of meichae and doing it for another ship AND with meizini of all things? yeah nah. I'll just focus on yoonchae
im like meichae pilled all the way but OH MY GOD MEGAN SAYING ALL THAT ABOUT DANI CAUGHT ME OFF GAURD... MEIZINI FANS ARE WINNING I FEAR.
NO BECAUSE although i dont ship meizini, i will admit they do deserve something after not getting alot of moments anymore π and it is a pretty crazy clip IJBOL
call me crazy but i've never thought megan could be that strong...like carrying yoonchae, yk the recent lifting hug
oh megan meiyok skiendiel, i'm very sorry
and yoonchae reallg proves that she is really used to megan hugging
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so, no I did not realise the six pieces representing six years and oh! what's this? a knife protruding through my back? um yeah ur evil and mean and yeah!
secondly I wanted to add that the other girls really pissed me off in the third(?) chapter when they're talking to Megan about yoonchae bc they were lowkey being so insensitive... poor Megan. actually poor Megan throughout this entire fic. someone give her a hug bc imagine almost losing the love of ur life only to have them come back with no memory of you, to live with them like ur just housemates, have ur friends joking around about ur devotion, then to find out that yes, they knew everything and not only that, but they're also angry at you. - if I were Megan, I may or may not have jumped off that balcony by this point (for clarification this is a joke)
I also just remembered it's been an entire year almost by this point. and that Megan had to celebrate so many milestones alone (speaking of which - would u ever do a Megan-pov chapter or one-shot of the time yoonchae was in the coma)
yet again putting myself in megan's shoes bc imagine - genuinely to anyone who happens to read this, sit down with urself and imagine - finding out that the person you love planned to propose to you, while that person is right in front of you yelling at you for loving them with absolutely no memory of loving you.
...yeah
I went back to the fic and just realised that there is no tag indicating a happy ending so im wondering, for my own mental health, if I should put this fic down rn and never pick it back up...
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so, no I did not realise the six pieces representing six years and oh! what's this? a knife protruding through my back? um yeah ur evil and mean and yeah!
thanks im self aware π₯° happy i pointed it out hehehehe
secondly I wanted to add that the other girls really pissed me off in the third(?) chapter when they're talking to Megan about yoonchae bc they were lowkey being so insensitive... poor Megan.
YESSSSSSS OMG ive been waiting for someone to talk about this !! yes yes yes!!!
no one is able to understand megan with what she's going through, and the pool game with the girls shows that perfectly. although they all are friends with meichae and feel bad for megan, they're not properly able to take her seriously with how she's doing. but haha dont worry, we'll see what happens with megan and them next chapter π
I also just remembered it's been an entire year almost by this point. and that Megan had to celebrate so many milestones alone
hey anon, are you in my notes app? β€οΈ god you're like on the dot with stuff im going to talk about in the next chapter (even though i had mentioned the anniversary in chapter four LMAO) but yeah, megan had to celebrate both of their birthday's, their anniversary, halloween, thanksgiving, christmas, new years, valentines, etc by herself. oh my god poor megan (i say as the author)
(speaking of which - would u ever do a Megan-pov chapter or one-shot of the time yoonchae was in the coma)
so like we saw in chapter three and what i just mentioned a few sentences ago, we will get a megan pov for part of the next chapter, as well as flashbacks from megan's pov from when yoonchae was in a coma! i can certainly do a whole one-shot dedicated to megan's pov in the future though πββοΈ
sit down with urself and imagine - finding out that the person you love planned to propose to you, while that person is right in front of you yelling at you for loving them with absolutely no memory of loving you.
holy shit anon. when you put it like that, that's fucking horrible oh my god. why would anyone ever do that haha....wow...
I went back to the fic and just realised that there is no tag indicating a happy ending
dude, ive had this fic posted since, what, january? and im JUST now noticing i never put the happy ending tag holy fuck π ik ive said it before on here that they will have a happy ending but the fact that i never tagged it is so funny LMAO. its updated now!! it's a rough journey for the both of them, but i promise the fic ends on a happy note <3 i cannot handle writing a longfic just for them to not be happy in the end
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and I also clocked the ring situation immediately as she found it but that didn't make reading "βI didnβt even buy you that ring! Thatβs not my ring!β" any less heartbreaking. my heart is also in six pieces in case u were wondering π₯°
but yeah the whole idea behind this fic is incredible im almost inspired to write my own version (ofc If I did, credits would go to u first!!) but I dont really publish my stuff. anyway what I really like is the fact u can feel bad for both sides - yes, Megan is hurting very obviously bc she almost lost yoonchae and kinda did and has to pretend like she doesn't mean as much as she does, but also yoonchae is hurting too bc she lost her memory which must genuinely be terrifying to go through and everyone she knows and loves is lying to her.
this last chapter especially has me heartbroken bc we've seen how much Megan loves yoonchae through everything she's been doing/how she's been acting, but this hits even harder bc it's the other way around. yes, Megan loves yoonchae, but also yoonchae loves Megan!!
and for her to be so so mad until it clicks to her through the ring that oh, this isn't one-sided and oh, we actually did have something very very very deep and real, is so realistic and devastating at the same time. weirdly enough I'm very glad Megan is now getting the chance to be angry bc she actually deserves to feel that way.
hi anon. i hope you had a wonderful morning with this chapter βΊοΈ
my heart is also in six pieces in case u were wondering π₯°
btw did anybody clock that megan's heart broke into six pieces to represent all six years of their relationship π cool little detail me thinks
anyway what I really like is the fact u can feel bad for both sides
im glad i was able to write it well enough! megan having to hold her love back for yoonchae even though she's still with her and yoonchae's still struggling with the effects of her coma </3 and even through we are looking through yoonchae's point of view, it's still so very obvious that megan loves yoonchae. i think it's fair to say that yoonchae's judgement is sort of clouded from her emotions about being upset with how megan has kept things hidden from her, which is fair, but for yoonchae, it hasn't sunk in yet that yes, megan still very much cares about her and that's why she did what she did
yes, Megan loves yoonchae, but also yoonchae loves Megan!!
what's funny is that right now, yoonchae is still on the fence between whether or not she loves or likes megan. don't worry, we'll see her find out in chapters 6/7 (no that was not on purpose. stop it.)
and for her to be so so mad until it clicks to her through the ring that oh, this isn't one-sided and oh, we actually did have something very very very deep and real, is so realistic and devastating at the same time.
something something when you're mad you think irrationally and don't process things like you usually would if your judgement wasn't so clouded π
I'm very glad Megan is now getting the chance to be angry bc she actually deserves to feel that way.
i really thought hard about how to write megan like this: megan too has also kept her feelings bottled up for as long as possible (like we saw in chapter three with the girls, she tried so hard to not talk about yoonchae) and while she hasn't really had a chance to be truly mad, because what is she supposed to be mad over about the accident? she feels horrible guilt over it and tries her best to make sure yoonchae feels okay every day. she really only gets angry when she finds out yoonchae was going to propose, that got taken away from her, and she was having this conversation with yoonchae where she was just yelling and accusing