saskia🧶🐈‍⬛

worried about our host morphing into a prosecutor bc we keep coming out when they are doing things it enjoys doing. why did i come out during a gear night? why did they leave? who knows but i can feel the anger and hear faint whispers and i dont like how all of this makes it feel.

apparently we actually might! talking w the girlfriend and a metamour (that is also a system!) gave us some insight and it does seem like that! not sure many of the details, i havent done any internal dialogue work since finding this out (yet) but there are at least 7 of us including new guy we havent encountered yet

worried about our host morphing into a prosecutor bc we keep coming out when they are doing things it enjoys doing. why did i come out during a gear night? why did they leave? who knows but i can feel the anger and hear faint whispers and i dont like how all of this makes it feel.

and WHY do i get so sad that my person isnt only paying attention to me why does it matter she only barely knows me!!! like we just met!!! but like now im her dog and im scared that itll end soon but i dont want it to

daily affirmation i do NOT have a secret disgusting evil hidden within me that will some day make its way out

Uh oh i think something deep inside me just gave up for good 🤣