Idk

like you wish you could peel parts of yourself away for someone? make yourself quieter, easier, less aching..less..needy? less intense.

i don’t even want to be loved grandly anymore. i just want to stop feeling like i exhaust people.

i am so tired of feeling everything so deeply. like every conversation sits in my chest for days. every silence feels..personal?

i try..i do. to make myself smaller, less emotional. less wanting. less honest about how badly i want to be chosen in the way i do for others.

but even then i still feel like i handed them too much of me to hold. and it’s not their fault..