Grannyeel

we talk a lot about how terrified and angry crowley was when heaven tried to execute aziraphale via hellfire and gabriel told him to shut his mouth and die already, and how aziraphale seemed to be having the time of his life in the holy water bathtub down in hell, asking for rubber ducks and making michael miracle him a towel. we know that crowley was traumatized by the whole appearance-swapping experience by how he reacts to gabriel in the bookshop. and while i wholeheartedly agree with everyone's thoughts about crowley, i'm wondering if we haven't gotten it a bit wrong on az's end. we know that aziraphale tends to shove things under the rug when he's nervous or afraid. he puts on a brave face and tries his best to soldier on through whatever difficulty he's facing (see the whole bit with the metatron at the end of S2). don't let them see your fear. but we also know (per neil) that when crowley's irises go full yellow it's a sign of extreme stress. and throughout the bathtub scene, aziraphale-crowley's eyes are blown wide to yellow. i feel like aziraphale was much more terrified (for both himself and crowley) during this scene than he let on during his later recounting of the events to crowley in the park. just something to consider.