grace

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people who comment on my videos saying “this isn’t funny”. okay? go somewhere else then?

Hardcore character stans. I can’t make a JOKE about Chaol from TOG without someone coming for my neck and I’m tired of it lol

people getting annoyed at creators for talking about “the same five books”. LISTEN, people wouldn’t recommend the books if they weren’t that good, guys. yeah, I’m tired of seeing SoC and The Cruel Prince on my FYP too. does that mean I’m going to comment and say, “have an original idea”? a b s o l u t e l y n o t. recommend whatever you want! if I don’t already have the book, I’ll probably buy it if one of my favorite creators mentions it!

shadowbanning. someone explain this to me. why create an app if you’re going to block someone’s content from the FYP. asinine.

conservative TikTok. if I see one more country bumpkin white girl claiming it’s her right to say the n word because of the first amendment, I’m going to riot.

Tony L*pez and his ugly ass brother. they are PEDOPHILES. why is their content still on the app?

“like for part 2” people or zodiac videos without all of the signs in them. WHY.

okay that’s all for tonight bye

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QUESTION: how did you get into reading?

So, when I was in middle school (many moons ago) we had this thing called AR Testing. Basically, you read a book and take a test on it—the questions were things that happened in the book, it was really simple. If you got a good grade, you got points. The more points you earned, the more eligible you were for the reading party at the end of each semester. Me, being the nerd I am, got top of my class because I went through 8th grade level books like it was nothing. The librarian at my school brought me books from the high school to read since everything was easy for me, and alas, my addiction began. And now that I have adult money, it’s a true addiction. Also, telling my father “I’m bored” and his response being, “go read a book or something” so thanks dad.

QUESTION: what’s one book you ALWAYS recommend to people?

This one is tough because I’ve read THOUSANDS of books, but if I had to choose one, it would probably be Confess by Colleen Hoover. I fell in love with her work in high school when I first read Ugly Love, but Confess is the type of book that pulls at your heart strings, y’all. It has everything people love: humor, sexual tension, drama, love. GO BUY THE DAMN BOOK. Or honestly any book by Colleen Hoover—she’s a fucking amazing author.

QUESTION: outside of making TikToks, what do you do for a living?

I currently work at a restaurant and hate every second of it. If anyone tells you to become a server, DONT. It’s not worth the hassle, I promise you. Sure, you can make decent money but the amount of rude customers and shitty tips you receive each shift is very disheartening. If you really need a job, do anything BUT work in the food industry.

QUESTION: what’s your wattpad story about?

First question: which one? I have about 30 drafts sitting there waiting to be posted. But, I’m going to assume you’re talking about the Harry Styles fan fiction I’ve been working on for the past 4 years and haven’t had the courage to post. I’ll tell you a little about it: Elaine Aldridge is forced into a betrothal to a man she’s never met & loathes. She goes to his court and realizes things aren’t what they truly seem. And the guard her future husband sticks on her??? None other than Mr. Harry Styles. Add in some magic & deaths and you’ve got my story— The First Prince. (Honestly, that’s an extremely shitty description so if you wanna check it out go to my wattpad account)

QUESTION: how old are you?

Ahem. . . twenty-one.

QUESTION: what is your dream career?

Being a published author and having people rave about my books. That’s all. Or, an editor for a publishing company. Imagine reading all day and being paid for it🤩

QUESTION: what was your least favorite read of 2020?

I already KNOW I’m gonna get shit for this but....... the wicked king. YALL I LITERALLY COULDNT GET THROUGH IT IM SO SORRY, I STILL HAVENT FINISHED IT

QUESTION: current favorite author?

Sarah. J. Maas. I don’t know what it is about her writing style, but it’s addicting. Throne of Glass is hands down the best series I’ve ever read. A Court of Thorns and Roses is the first book I’ve EVER reread. Her stories truly suck you in and hold onto you—you get lost so easily in her writing and it’s like once you’re done with a series, nothing will compare. Or, at least that’s how I felt after finishing Kingdom of Ash. Honorable mentions: Jennifer L. Armentrout, Penelope Douglas, L.J Shen, Elle Kennedy and Kennedy Fox.

QUESTION: any recommendations/tips to give to a new reader?

I’ve always given this advice to people who want to get into reading: find what you like and start with that. If you like romance, I’ve got a list for you to choose from. Mystery? Another list. Sci-fi? I GOT YOU. Fantasy? Yes! Sports fiction? It might take me a second but I’ll find you a book. Nonfiction? I’m zero help in that category, honestly. The point of the matter is that you’re never going to enjoy a book if you aren’t interested in the underlying topics.

QUESTION: do you ever find yourself comparing your life to fictional life?

Yes. All the time. I daydream about being apart of the Inner Circle and living in Terrasen with Aelin and Rowan. I think about what it would be like to have real powers and a mate. It drives my boyfriend crazy—but he loves me anyway.

QUESTION: what are your most anticipated books of 2021?

Here’s a list:

A Court of Silver Flames by Sarah J. Maas

The Crown of Gilded Bones by Jennifer L. Armentrout

Gods and Monsters by Shelby Mahurin

Crescent City 2 (Untitled) by Sarah J. Maas

A Vow So Bold and Deadly by Brigid Kemmerer (I just ordered this one & it arrives tomorrow)

Blessed Monsters by Emily A. Duncan

QUESTION: why did you start a Tumblr?

Honestly, I used to love tumblr when I was in grade school (way too young to be on here then but what else is new). I like having an extra space to get my questions and comments out without having to compress it into a 60 second video for TikTok to see. Tumblr is a good place to blog & post things like this.

QUESTION: what’s your favorite song right now?

I’ve listened to Carry You by Novo Amor every day for the past two months and I cry each time.

QUESTION: why write Harry Styles fan fiction?

Simple: I love Harry Styles. I’ve been a fan of him and One Direction since they were on X FACTOR. Read that again. X. Factor. I used to watch their performances on YouTube before WMYB even came out. Of course, I love all of the 1D boys but I was always a Harry gal. And I look up to him in a way—I’ve read things about people wishing they knew him personally and honestly? I would never want to meet him. I like the version of him I’ve cooked up in my brain over the past 10 years. I like the symbiotic relationship I have with his music. Fine Line is a ✨masterpiece✨. HS1 is a ✨work of art✨.

now, some topics I’ve been asked way too many times and want to finally get to:

QUESTION: political views?

the saying “anyone but trump” has been in my brain for the past four years. No, I’m not a republican. No, I’m not a democrat. I like to think of myself as a progressive (ahem, liberal) Did I vote for a democratic candidate? Yes, and I’d do it again and again until the US isn’t one of the worst countries—I’m sorry, businesses— to be apart of. I wanted Bernie but got Biden, and I’m alright with that. And my girl Kamala🥳

QUESTION: how did you feel about the BLM protests?

I went to multiple BLM protests and donated a lot of funds to BLM & other organizations. It’s 2021, people... stop being fucking RACIST. And don’t be afraid to call racist people out! Black Lives Matter, even if no one is posting about it anymore.

QUESTION: thoughts on abortion?

your body your choice, queen! not my uterus, not my problem.

QUESTION: there was a comment on an old video of yours talking about r*pe, why did you delete the comment?

I made a video when I first started my account on TikTok about reading in public and feeling “turned on” by it. Go watch it if you don’t know what I’m talking about. BUT, some ignorant male decided to comment and say “this is how girls get r*ped”. Whew. So. I deleted the comment because ....

I am a victim of sexual assault. Along with a lot of other women. 1 in 5 women have been victims of sexual assault. Talking about being r*ped isn’t funny.

No one else needed to see his comment. I reported it immediately and his account was shut down.

I never got justice for what happened to me, and the fact that some random male—who had never even met me or seen me before my video showed up on his FYP—had the nerve to comment that? Unacceptable.

this question isn’t as controversial but

QUESTION: what’s the best way to get out of a toxic relationship?

okay, let me just start off by saying that the people around you who love and support you are going to be your backbone. Leaving a toxic situation is hard, and every situation is different, but my best piece of advice to offer you is don’t be afraid to ask for help. Your loved ones are going to be there for you when you need them, even if you don’t believe they will. If you explain what’s happening, someone you know and love will drop whatever it is their doing to make sure you get out safely. good luck my babes.

now, back to our regularly scheduled program:

QUESTION: any tips on making tiktoks?

Literally none. I post what I think is funny and relatable and if anyone agrees, I’m satisfied. Even if it’s one view, it’s good enough for me. So I guess my one tip is to not base your life off of an app and followers.

QUESTION: favorite Harry Styles fanfic?

DONT MAKE ME CHOOSE. Duplicity is up there, along with Stall 1&2, and Kiwi. After? Absolutely not.

QUESTION: favorite WEBTOON?

y’all already KNOW. LORE OLYMPUS BY USEDBANDAID. Rachel is a genius and I have reread the series a million times. Hades is my soulmate and Apollo can rot in the fiery pits of the Underworld. also, if we’re talking about other webcomics, reading Walk on Water on mangadex...🤫

QUESTION: favorite movie?

Howls Moving Castle. I will be getting my “a heart is a heavy burden” tattoo very very soon.

QUESTION: I read your Elain theory on tumblr, can you explain a little more?

I thought I was pretty straightforward but I’ll say it again: she is always the “good” one and it’s too suspicious. SJM has already given one Archeron sister a happy ending, Nesta’s is obviously inevitable, but Elain? She has too many options for a happy ending. Lucien, who is her “mate”. Azriel, who is intrigued by her slightly. Her human guy—I don’t remember his name—who is disgusted that she’s not human anymore. Or, alone, planting flowers all day. BUT! My point is that she’s not truly happy. She was forced into the Cauldron just like Nesta. She was ripped away from the life she loved so dearly and didn’t want to give up. The man she was going to marry now hates her guts because she’s a High Fae. She has the perfect set up for a villain plot line and I’m all here for it.

well, that’s all I feel like doing tonight. hope you enjoyed my little q&a! be kind, and talk to you later! byeeee!

•my opinions on the first 5.5 chapters•

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My girl Nesta is going THROUGH IT. Reading her POV made my heart hurt because she is going through SO much but doesn’t feel like she can talk to anyone about it because they don’t understand (in her opinion)

Now, piggybacking from that point, everyone is mad at the inner circle for how they treated her. And yes, I agree they might be going about it in the wrong way, but she needs HELP. She’s gambling away their money, drinking excessively and sleeping with random men when she’s wasted (I’m all for “it’s your body” but she’s been through an attempted sexual assault before so it makes me nervous). This ultimatum they gave her is for her OWN. FUCKING. GOOD.

Being mad at Feyre for how she spoke to Nesta is ridiculous. We just aren’t going to act like both Elain and Nesta were awful to Feyre in the first three books? No. They were terrible to her when all she was trying to do was help them live a better life. Nesta complaining about Feyre and her new “family” irritates me. If the Archeron family was mine, I’d want to leave it too! Also, Nesta talking about how she never helped because she wanted to see her dad step up makes zero sense to me. Clearly he wasn’t going to do shit, so don’t be hateful to your own sister for making sure you fucking LIVE.

Now, back to Nestas inner turmoil. I’m excited to start the book because I want to see her growth so bad. I want to hear how she’s feeling about her trauma and see how she learns to live rather than exist. She’s going through a lot, and I think her going to train with Cassian and work in the library will help her. Giving her no other option—in my opinion—was the only way for her to step back and see what her life has become. She’s damn near immortal, Feyre and the inner circle don’t want to see her become a shell of her former self and they did what they think is best to help her.

Nesta’s powers. Hoooolllyyy I hope she’s super fucking powerful y’all. I wanna see her level a fucking city LMAAOOOO. With all that rage and power from the Cauldron, I hope she’s the most powerful person in the series.

Cassian has a lot of pent up sexual frustration. I’m excited to see what happens with that. That’s all on that subject.

Rhysand isn’t an “asshole” for snapping on Nesta. Rhys has been there for Feyre for EVERYTHING her ungrateful ass family has put her through so he has a right to get upset about Nesta being nasty to Feyre.

Lucien is... bad now? That part kind of confused me because when he left in ACOWAR he was an emissary and now they think they can’t trust his judgement. Which, in all honesty, is smart because we don’t really know where his loyalty lies.

Amren being the only one who can still kinda scare Nesta into acting right made me laugh. Also, her making up the laws was smart and at the same time evil, but again, they only did what they thought was right.

Alright, now everyone being pissed at Mor for saying that shit to Nesta—let me just point out that Mor spent YEARS in the Court of Nightmares. If she thinks Nesta is acting like them, she has every right to say so, even if Nesta is traumatized.

I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again— the inner circle doesn’t understand what Nesta is going through. Read that again. And once more. What happened to her was traumatic, and the only other person who might understand how she’s feeling is Elain—but she’s a whole other can of worms (read my Elain-turning-bad post) They can’t read her mind and know what she’s going through. Sure, Rhys can read minds, but he wouldn’t do that to her because it’s an unforgivable invasion of her privacy. She would never forgive him for that.

They’ve given her time to heal, but she took advantage of that and now they’re forcing her to do something with her life. It’s the same way people treat addicts—get help or we will cut our ties with you. Family or not. Feyre isn’t going to stand by and watch her sister destroy herself, so she did what she thought was necessary. I guess we’ll see how it turns out.

Alright, that’s my take on the chapters. Only a few more days until I can finally sit down and binge the whole book in a day!