FORGOTMYGLASSES

listening to the sax solo on 'springtime again' and crying tears of relief

desire begets desire

came home and decided to immediately make a recipe using the ingredients i had just bought. i have so many good ingredients now i don't even want to eat out or order takeout

i've gone the whole month without alcohol, added sugars, or dairy. also kept my hair in braids the whole month. i'm proud of starting off with consistency. as a result, i've also felt like i've been attuned to living seasonally because when i think about it, my body needs all the defenses it can get in the winter. it's kind of strange to eat inflammatory foods or expose my hair to harsh temperatures when its super cold outside. interestingly, these thoughts are occurring at the same time as the "becoming chinese" wellness trends lol, which some people are rightfully skeptical about. i feel like elimination, whether its prompted by personal resolution or economic recession, has made me realize how much casual hedonism (really: the paradox of choice) was causing me anxiety. it's honestly embarrassing how much mental real estate was occupied by dessert options lmao. i want to relinquish the control i think i have or am burdened by and it feels like the easiest way to do that is to observe how the earth wants me to live.