Shippers Anonymous

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And why would an angel rescue me from Hell? Good things do happen, Dean. Not in my experience. You guys aren’t supposed to be there. You’re not in this story. Yeah, well… We’re making it up as we go. I’m hunted. I rebelled. And I did it, all of it, for you. What happened to you, Cas? You used to be human, or at least like one. Look, next to Sam, you and Bobby are the closest things I have to family – that you are like a brother to me. I’m doing this for you, Dean. I’m doing this because of you. But we were family once. I’d have died for you. I almost did a few times. Don’t make me lose you too. You used to fight together. Bestest of friends, actually. When Castiel first laid a hand on you in Hell, he was lost. Sorry, but I’d rather have you, cursed or not. I prayed to you, Cas, every night. Cas, buddy, I need you. I know you’re in there. I know you can hear me. Cas, we’re family. We need you. I need you. You gave us order, Castiel, and we gave you our trust. Don’t lose it over one man. No. I can’t. His true weakness is revealed. He’s in love with humanity. Everyone you know, everyone you love… they could be long dead. Everyone except me. But you’re always there, you know? You’re the best friend we’ve ever had. You mean too much to me. To everything. You’re my family. I love you. I love all of you. It’s a gift. You keep those. We’ve lost everything. And now you’re gonna bring him back. It’s good to have you back. Just don’t get dead again.  But I swear, if he did something to her, if she is – Then you’re dead to me. Dean, you asked, what about all of this is real? We are. You used to trust me, give me the benefit of the doubt. Now you can barely look at me. I know you’re sorry, Cas. I already apologized to you. You just refused to hear it. I left, but you didn’t stop me. Cas? Cas, I hope you can hear me… that wherever you are, it’s not too late. I should’ve stopped you. You’re my best friend, but I just let you go. Cause it was easier than admitting I was wrong. And I forgive you. Of course I forgive you. I’m sorry it took me so long. I’m sorry it took me till now to say it. Cas, I’m – I’m so sorry. I hope you can hear me. I hope you can hear me.

Absent: preoccupied 

Agonized: as if in pain or tormented

Alluring: attractive, in the sense of arousing desire

Appealing: attractive, in the sense of encouraging goodwill and/or interest

Beatific: blissful

Black: angry or sad, or hostile

Bleak: hopeless

Blinking: surprise, or lack of concern

Blithe: carefree, lighthearted, or heedlessly indifferent

Brooding: anxious and gloomy

Bug eyed: frightened or surprised

Chagrined: humiliated or disappointed

Cheeky: cocky, insolent

Cheerless: sad

Choleric: hot-tempered, irate

Darkly: with depressed or malevolent feelings

Deadpan: expressionless, to conceal emotion or heighten humor

Despondent: depressed or discouraged

Doleful: sad or afflicted

Dour: stern or obstinate

Dreamy: distracted by daydreaming or fantasizing

Ecstatic: delighted or entranced

Faint: cowardly, weak, or barely perceptible

Fixed: concentrated or immobile

Gazing: staring intently

Glancing: staring briefly as if curious but evasive

Glazed: expressionless due to fatigue or confusion

Grim: fatalistic or pessimistic

Grave: serious, expressing emotion due to loss or sadness

Haunted: frightened, worried, or guilty

Hopeless: depressed by a lack of encouragement or optimism

Hostile: aggressively angry, intimidating, or resistant

Hunted: tense as if worried about pursuit

Jeering: insulting or mocking

Languid: lazy or weak

Leering: sexually suggestive

Mild: easygoing

Mischievous: annoyingly or maliciously playful

Pained: affected with discomfort or pain

Peering: with curiosity or suspicion

Peeved: annoyed

Pleading: seeking apology or assistance

Quizzical: questioning or confused

Radiant: bright, happy

Sanguine: bloodthirsty, confident

Sardonic: mocking

Sour: unpleasant

Sullen: resentful

Vacant: blank or stupid looking

Wan: pale, sickly

Wary: cautious or cunning

Wide eyed: frightened or surprised

Withering: devastating

Wrathful: indignant or vengeful