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i am at the time of my life right now that i am not doing anything. drinking red wine alone on a saturday night. thennnn, i suddenly thought about my tumblr and here i am.

my last relevant post was 2016. it has been 6 years and i realized that a lot has changed. 6 years ago, i was struggling with my course. i’m still struggling now but my life got better. i don’t feel great right now but looking back, i realized that i was just being ungrateful. since i am not good at essays, i’m gonna make a list what changed and happened. alam kong wala kayong paki. share ko lang. 

1. i don’t wear braces now. thanks to my wonderful dentist. my teeth looks like human teeth already, i have horse teeth before. mas matangos pa nguso ko kesa sa ilong.

2. i’m not struggling with my studies anymore but i’m depressed because i am unemployed now and i cannot fvcking shop whenever i want to but thanks to my supportive mother who is always there for me and who buys everything for me. ily. ako bahala sa microblading mo pag employed na ako

3. this blog was all about my ex before. i was in a 7 year relationship and we broke up in 2018. it was a struggle. it was a very hard decision to make. he didn’t understand but it’s for the best. it was really toxic. i loved him but he brings out the worst in me. when we broke up, it felt like i am not walking on egg shells anymore. i felt free.

4. in 2017, i graduated in college and i immediately started working in may 2017 as an accounting associate. my officemates were really cool and we were good friends. we’re still friends after i resigned. i did not take the cpa board exam because i am such a pvssy and i don’t want to study anymore. i also don’t want to fail, that is why i did not take the board exam. i just want to keep on drinking and go to parties with my friends. i am so responsible, wtf.

5. in 2018, i got bored with my job as an accounting associate because i kept on doing the same sh3t everyday. in june 2018, i was hired in RCBC. i have met a lot of people and i have the best boss and best job everrrrrr. i was also nominated as Ms. RCBC Savings Bank. 2018 is the happiest year of my life. everything was great. i am single and i am living my life.  i made new friends. i loved. i smoked. i drank. i played with fire, if you know what i mean ;) it was my selfish year. i didn’t care about anyone as long as i am happy.

6. in 2019, it wasn’t the best year. i was drinking almost everyday because.... i lost the love of my life. charot. drama yan? oh well, it is what is it is. change is constant. the way i moved on was self-destructive but it helped for a little while. sobrang sarap ng alak that time. i was so hurt that i enrolled myself and i studied masters in business administration JUST TO DISTRACT MYSELF from the pain. i was so toxic this year. i was a walking red flag. no one knows what’s going on with my life. just leichael and obet. i traveled this year. i went to a lot of places in the philippines. drinking, going to parties, meeting new people and travelling, it was my escape/distraction from the pain that time. it didn’t really help with the pain though but whatever, i had fun. did i?

7. fvck 2020. i hate 2020. WORST YEAR EVER. can’t travel. can’t drink whenever i want. no parties. curfew. i haven’t really moved on yet. that’s why it has been a real struggle for me. BUT i thought of new ways to distract me. skincare thrice a week. i played sims. i learned stock trading. i visited derma every 2 weeks. i lost 10 kilograms this year. my (dice) dog died, yawa! bought a (peanut) new dog. this is the worst year but i think i got better??? i let go of my old habits and i focused more on myself. my face is clearer and i finished all of my subjects in MBA. i met someone who did not give me anxieties and he was my 2020 plot twist. 

8. in 2021, i learned HOW TO SEW A DRESS. i bought a sewing machine AND A ONE BEDROOM CONDO UNIT IN LAS PINAS. wtf? i’m a very impulsive buyer when it comes to clothes but i never thought that i would impulsively buy a condo. i also got so obsessed with sewing until my position in RCBC was changed.

9. in april 2021, i was transferred as a loan service officer. i was really happy because i have been praying for that position since 2018. thank you Lord. it was fun at first because my boss was really great and i do not have any issues with him. due to re-organization, MY LIFE CHANGED. i’ve had the toxic boss, workload and clients. i have decided to resign before the year ends because i got to the point that i cry before i go to work and i started processing my papers for Dubai in august 2021 because i don’t want to spend my life surrounded with toxic people. i felt unappreciated and underpaid.

10. in october 2021, i felt happy again. the last time i felt serene was 2018. i travelled and i went to my safe haven. i also met someone in november 2021. it was unexpected because i don’t have any plans with him but he made me feel loved, wanted and appreciated. 

11. i submitted my resignation letter in november 2021 after i got back from my trip because i was sooooooooo happy with my trip and i don’t want to struggle again because of my job. i immediately resigned when she asked me where my brain is and told me that i am loud. EDI TAKPAN MO TENGA MO? sino ba kaseng maysabi na pakinggan mo ako? CHAR. i love my job, i love what i am doing but my boss is really toxic. i am not saying that she is a toxic person. i believe she is nice but she is really toxic as a boss. joke. oops. joke again. joke ulet. di ka sure?

12. last day in RCBC is december 31, 2021 but i didn’t go to work that day because my bestfriend forever got married in december 30, 2021. PRIORITIES. friends >>>> work. 

13. in february 17, 2022, i moved from Davao, Philippines to Dubai, UAE.

to summarize, everything changed. my life. my perspective. it got better. i may be struggling right now because i am a broke stay at home daughter in Dubai who binge watch vampire diaries. can someone please hire me already????? anyway, i’m almost done finishing a bottle of red wine. dati tanduay lang iniinom ko, ngayon red wine na. i have changed and i may be sad and pressured at the moment but I THINK i became a better person. okay, that’s all. thank you for reading.