Triggers - None. Just pure sadness !
Summary - For years, youāve been captive, a mere servant to the king of Asgard, the only mortal to walk the grounds until one day, you decided you finally want freedom, you want a normal life in Midgard. But the only thing holding you back, is him. Itās always him.
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Ocean piercing eyes watched you from the golden, polished throne - The cold hues that held such beauty had never been soā¦ concerning. Though daily life, surrounding yourself around the king had always felt this way. As if you were any other prey being scanned down by itās predator.
Having promised to serve and obey rather than being a prisoner to the dark elves, Loki had taken up the offer, in his eyes, it would be some kind of redemption, but in yours? - It was a bitter choice you made. Only making you miss family and loved ones back on Midgard.
A year had passed serving under the raven god - The tender and subtle conversations had turned into somewhat jesters and slight teases. Though you didnāt acknowledge them as anything other than the means to get āonā with you. Loki had always attempted ways to get your attention, but the sentiment had been something you knew he couldnāt have, or buildā¦ until a few days ago.
āYou must knowā¦ just because you cater for me, you donāt have to dwindle in that kitchen all nightā Loki started, the crackling fire making the atmosphere around you somewhat, soothing. Soft emeralds had stared you down once more.
āIā¦ I know. But I like to steer clear. Not be.. you know? In the way?ā You respond, although you feel stupid for merely sounding meek.
Loki inhaled, a calculating expression grew to his pale features until he gave out a small scoff āYou are not in anyoneās way. You may cook, clean and serve under me, but if it wasnāt for your services, I wouldnāt have a faithful midgardian to trust around hereā He muttered, pulling on his thin bottom lip ā-Besides, your company comforts meā A sly grin made its way to the corner of his lips. His eyes had again, gave away that sincerity he had in his voiceā¦
You quirked your brow to his last sentence āComforts you?ā¦ how so?ā With your hands on your hips, you grow curious, wanting to pull more words out of him.
āI suppose your irate demeanour makes me amused - After all, I need to be entertained in my kingdom too, no?ā The way he chuckled through his raspy tone made you erupt a small laugh to follow with his, but after it calmed, you stared at him some more. His eyes had diverted to watch the flames within the fireplace entwine and flicker.
You bit your tongue, the nauseous feeling had aroused but you couldnāt help yourself.
āLokiā¦ā you started, quiet, guilt riddenā¦scaredā¦ āI know I have been easy to rely on and had helped you with many things here for a long time. If it wasnāt for you, Iād be in a dark situation, or worse, Iād be deadā You stated, your own eyes now trailing to fixate upon the floor.
āB-But Iāve been thinkingā¦ about home. About how I might want to get out there, explore, see familyā¦ see my friends. I donāt think they can deal with the thought that Iāve āmovedā countryā¦ itās tooā¦ā you paused, features pained slightly ā-Too muchā
The silence Loki had after you had spoken was what started to break you - His empty stare, his slow nodding of his head as if he knew this moment would occur. āI understand. It was never my intention to keep you as someā¦ some kind of prisonerā He replied, as if he had started to be bitter upon himself.
You shook your head and stopped yourself from falling into too many emotions and anxieties āYou never made me feel such thingsā was all you said, until he managed a small tight lipped smile. Then, after a minute passed of processing, Loki had left.
You had the morning to think on it, to decide what was best. Although Asgard was beautiful and otherworldly and breathtaking as you were always reminded of everyday, you still wanted the normality of the busy cities or the quiet country sidesā¦ it was a weird feeling. It was homesick.
Waking up from the warm, large bed. You took time staring into the polished mirror, body and mind not wanting to do anything else. But you made your choice, and you knew you devoted your mind to stay as long as you could. A knock upon the door startled you, and you had frozen into place until you snapped your mind into moving. The sound of silence was all that could be heard on the other side - You knew this may of been Loki, but you opened the door with a brave visage all the same, until it was merely one of the guards.
āMiss? Heimdall is awaiting your Presence on the bridgeā were the manās words, before departing.
You were confused, you thought from the conversation prior that you would be escorted or had some more time with the king himself, but he was no where to be seenā¦ You made way to the bifrost, the beautiful passageway to other worlds, to home.
Yet Loki was no where to be seen. Only the sole protector himself - The curious stare the tall man made had struct more confusion through you, puzzled that this was it - your goodbye, your end here.
āMiss. Are you ready?ā Heimdall spoke, with a small smile the man had stared up into the sky, getting the portal ready to open up, you felt empty, and torn - Where was he!?
āHeimdall? Whereās Loki?ā You asked, through the roars of the warping, the fear had made tears taint your cheeks.
āHeās here miss. We all thank you for your services, and our king does tooā He called over the painful sounds, to this you were more disorientated, eyes darted around the room until you saw Loki standing just a few inches from the portal Heimdall opened, leaning against the entrance, eyes on you as they always were. Full of sorrow, and distraught.
āLoki?ā You yelled, a hopeful expression now grew as you looked over at him. āIām sorryā¦ā
His brow furrowed, and his arms un folded, he started walking towards you, acknowledging what you were going to say - āNo. Iām sorryā He spoke, loud enough for you to understand or read his lips.
āFor what?ā You asked, noticing that Heimdall couldnāt hold onto having the portal open for so long, the struggle for him was making you un impatient to make him wait for all of this. But you had to hear itā¦
A small but saddened smile made way to his face, staring at Heimdall and then diverting his gaze to you. ā-For not making it clear months ago. Knowing this moment would kill meā¦ā His words made you feel more nauseous, as if he had torn straight through you - Heimdall had taken the order to push you through, but all of a sudden the world around you had turned into slow motion, wether it was the processing of it all, the feeling of being teleported, you didnāt know, but all you did know, was the words that seemed to of left the God of mischiefās mouth as you was slowly engulfed by darkness, you sworn you could of seen the movement of his lips tell you āI love youā
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