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I'm going through my old Discord and compiling stuff from there, on my new Discord too, and pulling things from Tumblr to put all into one document. I do have these that I can first show, and when I compile more I'll try to post them in bursts before releasing the full document.

FOR CONTEXT: I freshly turned 18 years old at the time of these screenshots(2019), and the "bio" person that ran the server was also either 18 or 17, and did not know what ub (unbirthing) meant. I believe Glowinside was in their 20s at this time, and they were a moderator of this person's server.

Proof she knew what it was in 2018, and lied about not knowing what it was in 2019, because this was a response to people, including myself, talking about different kinds of nsfw and our comfortability in discussing or roleplaying them in my old server:

glowinside hasnt been active in the community for a long time, and their reply has acknowledged they made mistakes, theyve done things to do better, theyve apologized, and have a right to defend themselves or clarify things for ppl

they werent taking offense, they were responding maturely and trying to explain their side, about as calmly as a person can in a situation like this, even more so with you seeming to read their replies and attempts at fixing this in bad faith. you’ve misinterpreted the reply they made, and youre coming across as very unnecessarily and concerningly unkind

go take care of yourself, take a break, do something that makes you feel better, im worried for you

Hi anon, I'm not engaging in respectability politics when it comes to somebody being angry at the fact that people are upset when they try to downplay the harm they have directly caused to children, including myself when I was a minor. Especially when they have directly attacked another victim and claimed that they could have never groomed her because they didn't know her age, as if that was.. an acceptable excuse. Then going to say that they're still in contact with minors.

This community has such deep-rooted problems that it's deemed acceptable to try and make victims out as being unreasonable if they come across as disrespectful in any manner to their aggressor. I'm not going to hide my feelings about the blatant acceptance of grooming in the vore community, or that it's so easily forgivable for adults to seek children to talk about their fetishes with.

I've talked multiple times about how I was victimized and sexually exploited as a child by the "minor accepting" fetishists in this community, and somebody going out to say "my bad... I never actually exploited any kids though when I talked to them about my fetish!" is horrifying to me. I hope you understand.

I also never said you weren't groomed. You said you were groomed by other people in the community, and I believe that! I believe you when you say that. Me saying that nonsexual vore is a thing and anyone can enjoy it is not grooming. Vore and the nonsexual version of it being something that's enjoyed in a non kink way has been up for debate since I joined the community and way before.

And by the way, I'm not cutting off my family members and the children in my family just because someone on the internet says I'm a groomer. That's absurd.

I left the community 4 years ago because of people being just ACCUSED with messages saying weird stuff to minors (and said minors weren't even in my server, they were in a different one) I banned them. Blocked them. And called them out in server. I have the messages to back it up.

You were victimized, and that was wrong. Whoever did it, they deserve to be called out and shunned. They shouldn't have done that and lied to you or taken advantage of you. *That was wrong and disgusting*. And I never said I didn't groom her because I didn't know her age. I said I didn't groom her because I didn't groom her. Grooming entails forming a relationship with someone of a younger age or power imbalance to take advantage of them sexually/assault them, set them up to commit a crime, or to indoctrinate them into a cult. That did not happen between me and Redla because I didn't take advantage of her in any manner like that, make her commit crimes, or make her join a cult. I advocated harshly for children in the community to be careful of who they talk to, who they interact with, and what they are doing. Block and report if someone harasses or makes weird advancements towards you. I even defended Redla and other people against people in the community who WERE weird about shit. I have the screenshots and the blog posts. I also told people to tag accordingly and keep vore out of the main tags of fandoms, keep it out of public eye and to your blogs because not everyone is cool with vore, or g/t, or whatever other interest I had at the time. I always tagged properly and didn't even use the "extreme cuddling" tags or any of the "sfw" tags people made. I always used the tag "vore.exe" on my blog for ages. At no point did I ever label myself as a "safe adult" anywhere either. That phrasing always got me squicked out.

And the right now? I don't interact with minors in kink communities. Haven't for 4 years when I made the rules in my server to be 18+ and that people underage shouldn't be invited. I even had the server closed from the public and it was by invite only because I wanted to try and mitigate minors going to the server. The server got shut down last year because only 3 or 4 people even glanced in there any more. So I shut it down. I run other servers that often discuss kinks, and they're all 18+, because I want to keep minors safe and MYSELF safe. I also pulled myself away from the vore community because of the disgusting amount of nonsense that went on and because several members of the community made me want nothing to do with it. The only reason I even am posting on this blog is because someone sent me a message on my art blog accusing me of being a "vore groomer" to which I then found posts you and Redla made. And now all this. I've made changes to try and do better, but god forbid I defend myself when people are lying about things I did or said. Or that if it happened 10 years ago it somehow means I'm still that same person now/haven't grown and changed and learned.

It does make me feel weird to the fact that there was nothing going on until Redla got called out for posting vore in a public forum, untagged, where minors could easily access it. And she blames me for her mistakes when I advocated with tagging and spoilers and keeping it AWAY from public forums like that. Hell, I had it where people couldn't search for my blog unless they really looked for it BECAUSE I didn't want people who didn't want to see it to find it.

And as I said in my other post, I never said Redla wasn't groomed. She probably was, considering. Chatting about a topic and cute scenarios and stuff is not grooming. Her asking me for advice because adults were going after her for being a minor is not grooming, because she was being sexually harassed near constantly on her bioluminescent-bat blog by full grown adults trying to make weird and nasty advances. Discussing discourse topics between two adults (we were both adults at this point in time) is not grooming. I'm not sure if she's getting me mixed up with someone else, because she already did that before. She accused Tastylittletiny, another person who was 17 turning 18 when I started chatting with her because she asked about help with college and school a lot, of grooming her.

This is not an attack on you or Redla or trying to defend my actions with the server or whatever. I'm defending myself from the parts of these accusations that are FALSE. I have grown and changed my ways but that isn't enough for whatever reason.

Talking to children about your fetishes as an adult is inherently grooming. That needs to be called out and discussed and the stories of victims needs to be platformed.

The stories of victims don't expire. Even if they come out about it years later.

The only time unbirth was talked about by someone we didn't know the age of, which means they had no access to 75% of the server, and it stated in the rules they shouldn't have been talking about it here anyway (and they were messaged via DM). This was the only place I ever saw anything like this chatted about, and I didn't even respond in the chat. I responded to them via DM.

Also, no. It doesn't matter if it was 95% or not. I can interact with minors but do not do so in any kink setting anymore. Because of stuff like this. Haven't done that for years, because it's not proper.