Went to the happiest place on earth this weekend and all I can think about is how many nice couples and families are having fun together. They all seemed to have a wonderful experience and I had fun alone too but after I just can’t think about anything else.
Like it’s been over 6 years since I’ve actually been in a relationship with anyone and it ended with a cold and dead eh. I’ve maybe managed to talk with 5 people and have 3 one off dates since that time. Then I see people here who have kids that age and are enjoying their company together……at least I got a lightsaber and some stuff.
The riders were pretty fun too….next month I’m going to a baseball game and I’m sure that experience will be all the same. I’ll see people hugging, kissing, holding one another whispering plans or their thoughts about whatever while I’ll just have my earpods in listening to otnes and bobbing my head.
Just not sure how to continue like this knowing I can go out as much as I want alone and enjoy myself a ton, then at end of each nights I’ll be in the same in a cold bed alone watching youtube getting fat from twizzlers and root beer or whatever. This will be my night for the next few months honestly…again and again. Wake walk dog work dumb job come home cook walk dog sleep alone and repeat over and over and over and over until who knows..maybe I get fired then die in the streets or whatever.
Family isn’t around anymore and don’t care or take a interest in what I do either. Just nothing and no one
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