DISNI BOUND

So the b/f is gone. I got so fed up with how disrespectful and disgusting his attitude is that I stopped talking to him. I don't need to be with a man so badly that I let him treat me badly. This might sound cocky, but I think I should be commended on doing the right thing and not putting up with his abuses. Too many women stay in bad/abusive relationships and all for the wrong reasons. Nobody deserves this and I was brave enough to stand up against it. (But if you asked him, it was all my fault and I deserved it. Lol). 

So now I no longer have a residence in Florida and I fear I can't do the DCP. I can't live on Disney property because I have an 8 year old. Yes, people I have an 8 year old! I'm OLD! OK not THAT old, but to someone who's 19, being 32 is OLD. Should I be any less entitled t live out my dream because I have a child? I'm a good mother, an attentive mother, I don't let my child get away with anything, and I have strict rules regarding his behavior. OK I'm not the Führer here, or anything, but I believe the right amount of structure allows boys to become great men.

Anywho, as a "strong independent black woman who don't need no man," I'm looking for some other moms out there to share a house or apartment with. You know, proverbially scratching each other's backs without actually touching each other. I won't tell you how to raise your child, I'm not bossy, I'm a clean freak, I pay bills on time, I love swimming/the beach, movies, books, game nights, traveling to the Keys, camping, and everything DIsney, of course.

So if you've found yourself in a predicament where you must take your child with you to Orlando to do the DCP, or you know someone who is, then please let me know or get them in contact with me.

So yea, I was accepted to the DCP on March 1st for FSFB. Tentatively, I'll be moving in with my boyfriend, who lives in Ocoee, at the beginning of June. I have to admit though, there's major trouble in paradise and there's a chance I won't go at all. Sigh, he's not the greatest guy in the world. Sigh, he's got mommy/daddy issues. Sigh, I'm not really sure I like him all that much anymore. It's been 5 years of off and on ... crap. I really just think he's going to sabotage my DIsney experience and it means so much to me.

I would gladly stay on Disney property, BUT I have a child. Yep, I'm a mama. I love my kid, but I don't brag about it because I'm single and that's not the ideal situation to be in. I could look for off property roommates, but my child has disabling ADHD- he's legitimately disabled from it, and what we go through is tough so I can't do that to innocent strangers.

Application done.

WBI done.

Phone interview scheduling soon.

I dont feel like the wait is going to kill me this time around. I know there will be at least a 3 week initial week before acceptances start rolling out. But after 3 weeks all bets are off!

I want to understand.

Help me understand.

While strolling through the disboards "College Board" forum I always notice an abundance of parents who discuss their child's DCP journey. I usually try to avoid these posts, but sometimes I take the bait and read on. I'm not judging by any means, but it always appears that these parents completely control every aspect of their child's DCP experience. The parents are the ones asking about roles and pay and work locations and time off etc. The parents are the ones telling the stories and giving advice based on their child's experiences. I call these people children, but they are in fact adults who are in college beginning the rest of their lives. 

I think it's great to be an involved parent, but is there such a thing as being too involved? I'm a parent, but to a minor child who actually relies on me making most of his daily decisions to survive. Not one who can drive a car and get a job and legally buy cigarettes (Smoking is bad, mmmkay).

So what's the deal parents? Are you just excited? By all means you have every right to be excited. Be excited that your baby is going to work for the mouse! Let the whole world know!

The stress is starting to pile up like an iced over interstate during a severe winter snow storm, but I keep telling myself I can handle it. So much in my life right now is crazy and great and wonderful and it all seemed to hit at once.

For starters I was accepted into college in the UK (I'm an American) starting my junior year in Fall 2015. I opted to take a gap year to get stuff here at home situated before leaving the country for 3 years to finish my bachelors degree.

Second, my ex and I are working things out after being apart for over a year. I think about how my college overseas is going to affect any future with him, but I know it will boil down to what's best for me long-term.

Third, there's the very real possibility of being accepted into the DCP and I'm thrilled to say I can't think of any bad associated with this. It's a dream of mine and even at a month away I'm prepping for my interview because I'm that excited.

But lurking behind the positives are some serious stress monsters like, moving to Orlando - with or without the DCP. Moving 600 miles away is an event and there's so much more involved than just finding a place to live. Where will I go to school? Will I find roommates? Can I do this all by myself? Can I keep my grades up while working? Will I be safe?

My head is spinning. Do apps really open up next month? Should I even apply? What am I saying, of course I'm applying. Can I handle the wait and the stress of not knowing and wondering and waiting and the guessing and contemplating?

As I think about my DP application and ensuing interview I remind myself that the "glass is half full." Of course I can handle the process and I'm looking forward to it! It's an exciting time and I can't wait to meet my interviewer-I think I'm more excited about that part than anything else.

Two rules that I will force myself to abide by are:

- I will remember to breathe and smile and think only positive thoughts from the moment I submit my application to the end of my interview.

- I will NOT visit the DCP Facebook page under ANY circumstances because we all know that bitches be crazy.

I will especially abide by the latter BECAUSE Like I said, BITCHES BE CRAZY! Tumblr seems to be a nice positive and calm environment in which to connect with other DCP hopefuls. I like positive. Positive is good, right?

I'm going to approach this as delicately as possible.

My glitter shines less and less as the days and waves of acceptances pass. My rock-solid confidence has been shattered, and embedded in the glass are tiny pieces of the luck and pixie dust that once fortified it.

I know that, technically, nothing's official until November 15th. I haven't been NLiC'd, but I wish they'd just go ahead and amputate me before the wound festers any further. As the days pass with no word from Disney, my chances of being able to accept an offer become zero-due to life circumstances that I do not wish to disclose publicly.

On a positive note, I'll be applying for DCP Fall 2014 because I really want to work the Holiday season at WDW. Being there for Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas/New Year is absolutely a dream of mine. And now I have a few months to prepare for next years applications.

Over the past few days I've been thinking about the pros and cons to living "off campus" during the DLCP- that is, if they ever start accepting people to the program!

For me, the pros of living off site are being able to have a guy roommate or six guy roommates (doesn't matter to me because I'm not interested in anything more than roommatedom), have people over at any time of night, and not have to stress over inspections (I absolutely HATE having to make my bed).

The biggest con is the fact that I wouldn't be living in a dorm thus missing out in the whole experience. I have to admit that I'm a little jelly of those of you who will get to experience this!

I know I made the right decision though because if all goes as planned I'll be attending CSUF next fall and will have to find an apartment near school anyway. Living there now just seems easier so I don't have to move twice. (Or it could all backfire in my face. =D Let's hope not!)

It's rumored that if you have then it's still valid. Because this is hearsay, you might want to Google it for validity. But it offers at least one reason why the pending emails before the WBI or lack of WBI altogether.

A few days ago I filled out my transfer application to Cal State Fullerton! I've been waiting for this for months and now that it's all said and done, I'm wondering if I did enough. I have a 3.66 gpa, plenty of volunteer experience, as well as a challenging course load. Because I applied the first day that apps were available for Fall 2014, I'm sure the wait to find out if I'm accepted will be a long one. Wish me lots of glitter and luck!