Apr 4, 2017
I don't recognise myself anymore. I used to have friends... I used to have someone who cared... I used to have someone to talk to... I used to be happy... Now I'm not even close to all of this anymore. I lay in bed, face turned to the wall and tear staines all over my face. I tell myself to let no one know... I tell myself to wear the mask and fake smile around people... I tell myself to just keep going throughout the day because when I'm in the safety of my room I don't have to pretend I'm happy anymore. I finally can let the mask and fake smile fall. I finally can let the emotions take over me. I finally can cry all the pain out. And when I'm done I'll still be alone. Emotionally dead.
