ᵍʳᵃᵛᵉʸᵃʳᵈ / 𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍

❝  i need you.  don’t you get that?  ❞

❝  i’m right here.  i’m always here right in front of you but you never see me!  ❞

❝  you’re my person.  ❞

❝  no,  i don’t wanna have to talk to anyone else right now.  i just want you.  ❞

❝  i know you’re busy and i don’t want to bother you i just—  can i just sit here with you while you work?  ❞

❝  are we okay?  ❞

❝  honestly,  i’m always there.  in my head.  the scars on my body might’ve healed but i never really walked away from it.  ❞

❝  do you want me to make the others leave?  or we could go,  get some fresh air.   ❞

❝  look i’m not coddling you,  i’m just trying to help.  i wanna take care of you cause i,  you know— care about you.  ❞

❝  alright,  here’s your coffee.  are you ready to talk or should i find something to ramble about for a few minutes?  ❞

❝  eventually,  you just gotta learn to let go of the past.  it’s always gonna hurt,  but you can choose when to start focusing on something other than the pain.  ❞

❝  hey,  just breathe.  look at me— look at me.  in and out.  breathe with me okay?  ❞

❝  keep your eyes on me—  just focus on me.  we’re gonna be okay.  ❞

❝  no,  i’m not okay.  nothing is okay.  it never is.  but that’s just how i function most days.  so i’ll be fine.  ❞

❝  i’m not gonna pretend anymore.  i’m still fucked up from it all and i don’t know when it gets better.  ❞

❝  if you keep waiting until you’re done ‘working on yourself’ before you let yourself be with the person you love,  you’re never gonna be with them.  and they’ll find someone else who is brave enough to give them a chance to love them exactly how they already are.  ❞

❝  why do you stick around?  what is it you think you see in me?  ❞

❝  not everything needs an explanation.  i care about you.  i don’t have to sit here and figure out why.  i just do.  so maybe you should try just accepting it too.  ❞

❝  i don’t need your permission to fall in love with you.  you don’t gotta love me back,  but it isn’t gonna stop me from being here when you need someone.  ❞

❝  you love me too much.  i know how that sounds but—  fucking hell.  you shouldn’t care that much about someone like me.  ❞

❝  i don’t care if loving you hurts me.  the world already has enough pain to dole out for no reason,  at least i’ll have gotten these scars from something beautiful.  ❞

❝  if people can hate for no reason,  than i can love for no reason too.  ❞

❝  one day you’re gonna need me and i’m not gonna be there to fix it.  ❞

❝  no,  i can’t fix everything for you this time.  it’s your mess.  clean it up.  ❞

❝  i dunno who taught you that love comes with conditions and limitations,  but mine doesn’t.  not when it’s you.  ❞

lyrics  pulled  from  sabrina  carpenter’s  album  ‘  emails  i  can’t  send.  ’  please  amend  pronouns  where  necessary.  nsfw  content  present. 

EMAILS  I  CAN’T  SEND.

“  it’s  times  like  these  i  wish  i  had  a  time  machine.  ”

“  were  you  really  sleeping  ?  ”

“  were  you  lying  to  me  and  the  family  ?  ”

“  there’s  no  us  in  us  when  i’m  lacking  trust.  ”

“  you  want  to  discuss  ?  ”

“  you  disgust  me.  ”

“  don’t  make  me  cuss  you  out.  ”

“  why  did  you  let  me  down  ?  ”

“  don’t  say  sorry  now.  ”

“  thanks  to  you,  i  can’t  love  right.  ”

“  i  get  nice  guys  and  villainise  them.  ”

“  i  read  their  texts  like  they’re  having  sex  right  now.  ”

“  i’m  scared  i’ll  find  out  that  it’s  true.  ”

“  i  blame  you  for  every  worst  i  assume.  ”

“  don’t  think  i’ll  find  forgiveness  as  fast  as  mom  did.  ”

“  god  i  love  you,  but  you’re  such  a  dipshit.  ”

“  you  were  all  i  looked  up  to,  now  i  can’t  even  look  at  you.  ”

VICIOUS.

“  it  was  dressed  up  in  heated  emotion.  ”

“  i  tried  to  look  for  the  best  in  the  worst.  ”

“  fuck  me,  that  caused  a  commotion.  ”

“  you’re  lucky  i’m  a  private  person.  ”

“  i’ve  quietly  carried  your  burden.  ”

“  everyone  thinks  you’re  an  angel  but  shit,  i  would  probably  use  different  wording.  ”

“  you’re  so  vicious.  ”

“  love  me  and  then  pretend  you  didn’t.  ”

“  crush  my  heart  and  wreck  my  image.  ”

“  why  you  gotta  be  so  vicious  ?  ”

“  you  just  run  to  whoever  is  winning.  ”

“  you  said  it  was  me  and  you  for  life  and  now  you’re  kinda  acting  like  i  died.  ”

“  you  don’t  feel  remorse.  you  don’t  feel  the  effects.  ”

“  you  don’t  think  you  hurt  me  if  you  wish  me  the  best.  ”

“  i  should  have  known  all  along  i  was  only  the  next  one  to  take  your  love  songs  as  a  promise.  ”

“  i  loved  you,  but  i  wish  i  didn’t.  ”

READ  YOUR  MIND.

“  i  can’t  read  your  mind.  ” 

“  you  say  that  you  need  to  be  alone,  but  night  and  day  you  want  me  at  your  beck  and  call.  ”

“  you  say  you  know  that  you  might  be  crossing  a  line..  ”

“  to  think  we  could  ever  be  casual.  ”

“  you’re  not  my  friend.  ”

“  why  the  fuss  ?  if  you  say  you  wanna  be  mine  ?  ”

“  tell  me,  what’s  going  to  happen  when  it’s  you  and  me  in  a  room  but  you  know  you  can’t  have  it  ?  ”

“  did  i  get  the  message  in  the  way  you  intended  ?  ”

“  tell  me  that  you  need  me  in  your  life.  ”

BECAUSE  I  LIKED  A  BOY.

“  you  showed  up  with  a  boombox.  ”

“  who  knew  cuddling  on  trampolines  could  be  so  reckless  ?  ”

“  we  bonded  over  black  eyed  peas  and  complicated  exes.  ”

“  it  was  all  so  innocent.  ”

“  now  i’m  a  homewrecker,  i’m  a  slut.  ”

“  i’ve  got  death  threats  filling  up  semitrucks.  ”

“  tell  me  who  i  am.  ”

“  guess  i  don’t  have  a  choice.  ”

“  i’m  the  hot  topic  on  your  tongue.  ”

“  i’m  a  rebound  getting  around  stealing  from  the  young.  ”

“  everything’s  derailing.  ”

“  i  was  only  trying  to  hold  you  close.  ”

“  you  said  i’m  too  late  to  be  your  first  love  but  i’ll  always  be  your  favourite.  ”

“  and  all  of  this  for  what  ?  ”

“  when  everything  went  down,  we’d  already  broken  up  !  ”

ALREADY  OVER.

“  we’ve  been  talking  for  hours  about  how  we  shouldn’t  talk  for  hours  on  end.  ”

“  we’d  probably  be  better  off  as  friends.  ”

“  same  time  here  next  weekend  ?  ”

“  say  we  won’t  do  this  again.  ”

“  how  am  i  supposed  to  close  the  door  when  i  still  need  the  closure ?  ”

“  how  am  i  supposed  to  leave  you  now  ?  ”

“  selfishly,  i  don’t  want  to  give  you  time  to  be  on  someone  else’s  lips.  ”

“  after  the  aftermath,  i  know  you’ll  be  coming  back.  ”

HOW  MANY  THINGS.

“  there’s  no  hiding  from  the  thought  of  us.  ”

“  i  got  ways  to  find  you  anywhere.  ”

“  i  consider  you,  i’m  not  trying  to.  ”

“  it  doesn’t  matter  whether  or  not  i  want  to,  i  can’t  help  it.  ”

“  it’s  a  habit.  ”

“  your  corner  in  my  mind  is  well  established.  ”

“  i  wonder  how  many  things  you  think  about  before  you  get  to  me.  ”

“  i  feel  myself  falling  further  down  your  priorities.  ”

“  i  still  make  excuses  for  you  constantly.  ”

“  remember  when  you  left  once  ?  that  never  made  too  much  sense  to  me.  ”

“  it  hurt  you  so  bad  hurting  me.  ”

“  you  really  came  to  me  for  sympathy.  ”

“  am  i  not  even  a  second  thought  ?  ”

finally kissing the person you’ve been pining for .

a kiss shared during a game  ( truth or dare ,  spin the bottle ,  etc ) .

kissing your lover to show you forgive them .

neck kisses that turn into love bites .

wiping away your lover’s tears as you kiss them .

a kiss to prove you don’t have feelings for them .

a last kiss before one goes away .

biting your lover’s lip amidst a kiss .

an emotional kiss bringing one party to tears .

a kiss while being reunited after a long time .

kissing your lover in a moment of sheer joy .

a kiss while slow dancing .

sharing a spontaneous kiss with a stranger .

an abrupt ,  heated kiss during the middle of a fight .

kissing them to shut them up .

a kiss to wake your lover up in the morning .

sharing a kiss in a heavy downpour of rain .

kissing your partner to seal a marriage .

a possessive kiss that is meant to stake a claim .

a kiss to resolve suppressed romantic/sexual tension .

a kiss attempting to convince the other party to stay .

kissing the top of their head as you hold them .

a risky kiss between forbidden lovers .

stolen kisses while hiding away from a crowd .

a kiss that leaves lipstick stains .

a kiss shared on a rooftop while the sun sets .

a flirtatious kiss on the back of the hand .

sneaking off to a public bathroom to make out .

a kiss on the forehead as the other sleeps .

an  ( accidental / mutually )  drunken kiss .

caging your lover against a wall with your arms to kiss them .

a kiss after joining your lover in the shower .

a kiss after receiving good news .

a tentative ,  exploratory kiss between friends .

a kiss shared between enemies during combat .

kissing your lover after believing you’d lost them .

a kiss after a devastating event ,  meant to comfort .

a possessive kiss in front of a jealous third party .

kissing your lover under the night sky while stargazing .

a kiss between two people in a fake relationship .

a kiss that seals a promise .

kissing your lover lazily first thing in the morning .

holding your lover by the jaw to kiss them .

kissing the tears from their cheeks .

a kiss to your lover’s stomach as you travel down their body .

an abrupt kiss that you melt into after a moment of hesitation .

sleepy ,  domestic morning kisses in the kitchen while making breakfast .

a rushed kiss before one party leaves for work .

are you kidding me ?

[ name ] ,  what just happened ?

hey !  what’d you do that for ?

did you plan on ever telling me ?

do you want to tell me the truth ,  this time ?

you seriously think i could’ve done this ?

did you know about this ?

[ name ] ,  what were you thinking ?!

can we talk ?  alone ?

why are you doing all of this ?

it can’t be that bad ,  right ?

haven’t you heard the stories ?

who did this to you ?

what are you insinuating ?

what did you think was gonna happen ?!

you think i could do something like that ?

who do you think you are ?

why won’t you let me help you ?

do you have any evidence of that ?

can we put away our differences for a second ?

where have you been ? 

is that  …  blood ?

what’s your problem ?

are you real ?

where’s your sense of adventure ?

would you kill for me ?

you’re  [ name ] ,  aren’t you ?

why can’t you just let it go ?

do you want me to stay ?

what if we left  …  ran away ?

what else was i supposed to do ?

how did you get this scar ?

could you give me a hand with this ?

do you ever stop talking ?

you’ve never done this before ,  have you ?

where do you think you’re going ?

how many fingers am i holding up ?

what can i say to make it better ?

why can’t we all just get along ?

can i stay the night ?

what’s that supposed to mean ?

where did your common sense go ?

you seriously don’t believe me ?

what aren’t you telling me ?

do you have a minute ?

why are you lying ?

you’re gonna walk away from this ?

where am i supposed to go ?

can we stop and think about this rationally ?

how long has it been since you’ve slept ?

why can’t we be civil about this ?

what makes you so special ?

where is all of this coming from ?

how are we gonna get out of here ?

you’ll never leave me ,  right ?

were you in on this ?

care to join me for a bit ?

shows what you know ,  doesn’t it ?

do you want to get out of here ?

what were you expecting to happen ?

what are you working on ?

i can tell you’re upset ,  what happened ?

when can i see you again ?

where do we go from here ?

can you sit up for me ?

how long have you been awake ?

what are you getting out of this ?

can we put this behind us ?

where are you ?  nobody’s heard from you .

how can i make this go away ?

were you following me ?

where does it hurt ?  show me .

[ name ] ,  what the hell ?

hey  …  can i ask you something ?

you’re not gonna tell me where we’re going ?

really ?  you’re gonna do that right here ?

are you even listening to me ?

we can help each other ,  right ?

hey  …  did you hear that ?

you have no idea who i am ,  do you ?

how long have you known ?

what exactly are you asking me to do ?

how was i supposed to know that ?

are you new around here ?

can you stop and listen to me for a second ?

do you think there’s something wrong with me ?

what ,  you think i’m not qualified ?

why did you help me ?

can you just look at me ,  please ?

what can i do to convince you ?

where did we go wrong ?

oh my god ,  are you bleeding ?

why the long face ?

are you trying to get yourself killed ?

what do you make of this ?

how much do you wanna bet ?

you’re sure this will work ?

why are you so concerned about me ?

what are you trying to prove ?

did you ever care about me ?

are you drunk ?

isn’t this amazing ?

how long have you been standing there ?

what are you suggesting ?

why are you such a pessimist ?

did you know them ?

can we call it a day ?