Girl with the Blue Backpack

(June 6, 2017. It’s a public holiday in Korea and I have the day off at last! However, there’s an overcast and it looks like I may just be staying in today.)

Oh my gosh. 

I’m having some sort of creative block. 

or at least that’s what most people would refer to this as. 

My SOUL knows what it wants--it wants to create and it needs to create. I have no doubt in my mind that I was made to create whether that be artistically, or in writing, or videos, or idk, there’s so many things out there. But I can’t seem to align what my soul....(omg I sound like such a hippie, but this is the best way I can describe it)...I can’t seem to align my soul with my mind (which is distracted with other things) or my body/actions (which seem to want to do nothing?!?!?) 

I think it might also be pessimistic thoughts that I have towards myself as an artist or as a creator. Thoughts like “Is this even good enough? Who would want to watch this? or read this? or relate to this?” or the dreadful “Why did you even start this?” that then trickles into the “Should I just leave this project all together?” When sometimes it’s still so early to even know what the project can become! 

Then I came to realize--This is good. 

Yes! This is good!!!

I gave myself over week or so to just do nothing, because I figured I needed a little break, but I also tried to figure out how I could fix this BLOCK. Then I came across a pretty mind-blowing video on the Tubes of You hehe and it was called “Why Artists Are Never Happy” by the channel DSLRguide. In the video the quote “Contentment is the enemy of progress” just *makes explosion sound* THREW ME OFF THIS PLANET. 

Because it’s SO TRUE, If I was content with the first thing I made and didn’t question it or didn’t think it was good enough, how would it ever become what I want it to be? How would I grow too? It’s important to see these flaws, and work on bettering them! BUT...hold up, hold up, hold up...BUT just because we’re not content with something also doesn’t mean I should give up on it...it might just mean we’re onto something. 

...and I think that was the most important thing I got out of that video.  Even though we feel it’s not “good enough,” we continue to keep working at it. 

That’s it for now, thank you for reading<3 I’ll probably make a video on this, this week. 

Have a colorful day,