ginghamcheckers

i pull out my handgun and shoot myself in the head and the bullet flies cleanly through the hole that was already there from when i shot myself in the head last week

white people dont even say "its may i go to the bathroom" any more. now they just wander the desert, looking for answers and finding none

i loooooove giving my ocs perpetrator trauma. you hurt people, used and abused and destroyed them, and you will never wash out that stain. you will grow resentful of forgiveness because you refuse to forgive yourself. they don't know what you did like you do. you wear that knowledge like armor, like a sick badge of shameful pride. you can't cut off the hand that struck out and throw it away. you can't pull out your teeth and become something kinder, something more vulnerable.

Refusing to take the cigarette offered to me by the firing squad until their Captain makes an airplane noise before putting in my mouth.