sometimes I think about trinity santos and just start crying like wdym you're callous and jaded and people usually only see that when they look at you, someone abrasive, someone uncaring, someone "with an aggressive energy" and yet you are unwaveringly kind where it matters.
taking in a man you barely know just because he needed a place to stay. noticing mel's loneliness and taking her out for a fun night, even offering to bring her sister along with zero problems. noticing an attempted suicide when no one else did, staying with him and talking to him and showing him that people do care, and life is worth it.
and you've been chewed up and spit out by life over and over again and you're not healed and maybe you never will be all the way but every day you try. you're making a life for yourself, making a career that you're fucking good at, starting to make friends, and if you fail you just keep trying. and you care about doing the right thing. you hide behind a shell but you fucking care. so much.
character of all time I'm crying screaming sobbing my girllll my fucking girl