𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ𐀔 GHOST ?!

⋆｡°✩🕷️⊹ ࣪ ˖ PILE 01.

The Badger and Gingko [R]. The Bee and Pomegranate | Nobody Like U - 4*TOWN. Trip - Akintoye.

Honestly, this pile got the most simple response out of all of them. Your SP is just blatantly whipped. Everything in this pile seems wholesome and loving.

Your partner loves your individuality. Whoever you are, you shine bright. People stop to stare at you - because you are one of a kind. You are the kind of person that people would gawk at when you enter a room, who would never get interrupted because of the sheer power in your voice.

There is a chance you and your SP may have been childhood friends - or, at least, you are now constantly by eachother’s side. You are companions first, partners second. This has given them a broader insight of you and who you are as a person, and they love all of you. Specfically, though, they love your ambition. Your determination. You never back down. Once you set your mind on something, you chase it, and you GET it. They love that so much about you. No matter what happens, no matter what gets you down, you do not falter.

I believe that the exact moment that they fell for you was in a sudden moment of determination. You were frustrated with the fact that you did not succeed at a task, but you immediately dusted yourself off and got back to it. That moment of sheer positivity and perseverance got the gears in their head turning, and it clicked in their brain that they truly and deeply loved you.

The songs / cards themselves give me strong boy-group energy. Are you or your partner in one? If so, I’m vividly recalling the blonde member of 4*TOWN (I know they’re a fictional group, but shh). Perhaps your partner has blonde hair. or maybe you do? This bit is a bit cloudy, and would probably not resonate with the majority in this pile. A lot of you are probably in some sort of K-Pop group (or are famous in some way).

ASSOCIATIONS . . . idols/bands. fame drs. jeon jungkook. fluffy hair. studios. lip rings. blue eyes. restaurant dates. quiet giggling. main character energy. puppies. wealth? angel wings.

⋆｡°✩🕷️⊹ ࣪ ˖ PILE 02.

The Quail and Gooseberry. The Owl and Hop [R] | All For Us - Labrinth. Stereo Hearts - Gym Class Heroes.

This pile… I am so sorry. This one is pretty heavy. You might have also felt drawn to pile 3.

You have not lived a good life. I’m sensing family issues - primarily, though, daddy issues. Perhaps he was absent, did not fill his role properly, or passed away. Whatever it was, it has left its mark on you. Though… I am also getting the feeling that rather than you going through this, your SP might have instead. Whichever one of you did, though - it seems that they succumbed to drug use as a way to cope.

I am getting the message “would you still love me?” very heavily in this pile. It feels as if either you or your partner are scared to be fully yourself, because of the belief that the other will no longer like what they see. There is a lot of insecurity and self-doubt within this pile.

From this point on, I will be using ‘you/your’ for the reading, but please do note that this could easily apply to your SP as well. I am just trying to make it more simply to read.

You haven’t had the best relationships in your life. Your past partners were not good to you, and it has instilled a heavy fear of abandonment within you. Because of this, you are almost unhealthily devoted to your current SP. You are extremely loyal, and devote a lot of your time and energy to them. Maybe you even move too fast in the relationship? Whatever it is, though, they don’t mind.

The vision I’m getting of what moment exactly they fell for you is… more of a concept than a moment. I’m seeing a moment where you provided for your family/loved ones, despite struggle, and despite everything they put you through. A moment of genuine kindness from you. And that moment truly captured your SP’s heart. Because, well… Despite everything, you still loved, and you loved hard. And they admire that.

When reading this, I got a lot of Stranger Things energy. Other than that, there aren't many DR-specific concepts present.

ASSOCIATIONS . . . euphoria. drug use/abuse. foggy skies. loud music. brown eyes. glitter. eddie munson. messy rooms/floors. thorns. anticipation of danger. masking. (self) sacrifice?

⋆｡°✩🕷️⊹ ࣪ ˖ PILE 03.

The Raccoon and Sycamore [R]. The Bobcat and Blackthorn | Am I Dreaming - Lil Nas X. dream - pxzvc

There are a LOT of references to dreams in this pile. Like, a lot. Either you live in your own head, or you lost something and it has caused you to constantly be in a state of wishing. I’m also getting the message that the one of you that is the dreamer is also an airhead. Full of curiosity and wonder. I think that might be you? And if so, that is what your partner treasures about you. If it is your partner who is that way, they treasure that you ground them.

The answer to my question in this pile is… well… sort of difficult to explain. This pile is giving me heavy ‘seperated lovers’ energy - so a lot of this pile feels like yearning. Like wanting. Overall, it genuinely just feels like your memories together have been clouded, and your SP can no longer identify the exact moment. OOr, they don’t want to think about it, because it hurts so much. Anyway.

It feels as if you or your partner can spiral at times. You want to start again, write a new story with just the two of you in it, being happy and all of that. But you can’t, and so instead you (or they) dream about it. You never want one another to forget each other. You want to be together forever. At peace, eternally.

For this pile, there is no exact moment. They have loved you for a while, and there is no longer a specific answer to why. You are their world, and that is all there is to it.

It seems that you two were/are separated, for some reason. Maybe one (or both of you) are some sort of superhero (or agent) and have been tasked with a rather lengthy and dangerous mission. I am getting hints of self-sacrifice here. You both have some fear of abandonment, which is why this separation hurts so much. I don’t know why this idea is sticking so heavily with me, as the concept itself was not prominent within the songs/cards, but I feel heavily drawn to it. So I hope that resonates for at least some of you.

ASSOCIATIONS . . . mcu. villain x hero. blonde hair. missions. daydreams. static noises. corruption. dc. peter parker. suffocation. purple. adrenaline (rushes).

⋆｡°✩🕷️⊹ ࣪ ˖ PILE 04.

The Caiman and Poppy. The Vulture and Asphodel [R] | Outlaws - Au/Ra. I Scared All My Friends Away - Beard

Honestly, this pile is a fun one. Stressful and dangerous, sure, but fun. Anyway! This pile gives me heavy ‘on the run’ energy. It also does not feel modern, at all. This feels like some sort of apocalypse, or olden day, or just… a DR with a lack of proper civilization. So what I say mostly applies to situations like that, and so the moral implications are a lot less drastic.

The two of you are a duo. Usually, it is ONLY the two of you, as well. You’re a pair. You will never find one without the other. It’s a relationship full of laughter and energy. Though… It does have the downside of stress and aggressive arguments, when they are had.

You two help each other survive in the hellhole that you live in. Whether it is via killing zombies or hunting for food, you two are survivalists. I am getting images of bloody hands, torn clothes, greasy hair… You get the idea. For whatever reason, the two of you are almost always separated from others. Either you two simply just are ‘unfit’ for regular society, or prefer the solitude. It seems that either you or your partner struggle to maintain friends. Regardless, you are happy together, even if it does get a bit lonely. You could be exiles, you could simply just be two loners who like travelling… But you definitely are not settled down in one place.

Though, this IS still a traumatizing world to live in. You both have a lot of mental and physical wounds that need to be tended to. I get the feeling that you both distract yourself via adrenaline, and the fact that you’re constantly on your toes trying to stay alive.

The moment which they fell for you was a chaotic one. It was a moment where you displayed physical/mental strength. I’m getting a lot of mental images for this one, so I’m assuming it’s for different people in this pile. I’ll briefly list the images I’m getting. 

CW for mentions of hunting/skinning/dead animals and vague gore mentions.

- shooting the head off of a zombie and grinning victoriously. - wiping the blood of a skinned rabbit off your hands onto your shirt. - kissing despite there being dirt all over your face/body/hands. - almost tripping while being chased by something. - jumping onto a roof and sprinting. - throwing your partner onto your shoulder and carrying them away from danger.

ASSOCIATIONS . . . apocalypse. illegal activities / contraband. conquer. running & laughing. bloody hands. twd. ride or die relationship. red dead. affairs. jilted lovers. 'freaks'. carl grimes. sparrows. adrenaline. zombies. revolvers.

Thank you for reading <3

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⋆｡°✩🕷️⊹ ࣪ ˖ PILE 01.

Seven of Cups. Haunting of Crystals (R). Seven of Crystals (R).

You like to keep your options open; you strongly dislike feeling as though you are chained down to a specific situation, or even person. Due to this, you tend to be somewhat greedy with experiences - moving on from one to the other in rapid succession. It is rare to see you staying with one thing, one person, one job. You get bored, or frustrated, and move on to something more fun.

You feel suffocated by commitment. It feels as though you are trapped once again, forced to obey and kneel to whatever it is that is tying you down. Perhaps you were forced to behave as a child, painted in their ideal image - your own identity was not nurtured. No, you became what they wanted you to be, forced to work in the confines of their expectations. Now, you're free of it, and you don't want to experience that ever again.

Unfortunately, this means that it is hard for you to be truly loyal to a partner. Sure, you may not cheat, but you find yourself believing that eventually you will move on from them. Relationships, in your eyes, are something temporary; perhaps you believe that relationships are for fun, not for a permanent connection. This may in turn result in a never-ending cycle of failed relationships. A self-fulfilling prophecy of lovers who will never stay... if you even become exclusive with them. It is likely that you have a tendency to avoid serious relationships altogether, preferring the ease of choices. After all, why stick to one when you can try out many (or none at all?)

Your commitment issues cause a feeling of unfulfillment within you, a loneliness that you can't seem to fix. You are too afraid of being trapped by someone else to realize that you have trapped yourself. You have created an endless void, which consumes and consumes, with no regard for the empty space that it leaves behind.

Remember: you are your own person. It is okay to welcome stability. Of course, if you enjoy change, that's fine - but really reflect on this. Do you truly want spontaneity, or are you afraid that letting yourself stay in one place will somehow confine you? Are you afraid of giving any thing - any person - power over you?

You will not be loved, if you do not allow yourself to. Places, or things, can't control you, if you don't let them. You are giving them power by running away from them. I promise, the right person (or people) will make you feel safe in their stability. It will be scary, and it will not be an easy process, but you can do it.

Please know that I am not berating you; you have not committed a cardinal sin. The main person you're hurting is yourself. Trust that love is not dangerous, and that being around something for indefinite amounts of time will not instantly make you become a mold of what they want.

Your partner will always have desires, wants, expectations - and that doesn't take away from your independence. What they want from you, assuming that they are a good, healthy lover, is a result of love, and their independence. It's okay to compromise. You won't lose yourself. Maybe, if you ever were in a committed relationship, you got frustrated by their perceived demands and left. Maybe you felt as though they were trying to control you. Maybe they were. Regardless, you cannot deny every request that you're not happy with. Compromise, when it is possible, is important in a healthy relationship.

You need to learn where selfishness starts and independence ends. It's okay to be afraid. We all are, in our own ways. That doesn't mean you can continue to always want things your way, to refuse to submit.

There's safer places to be, but you'll never realize it if you turn away from it every single time. Your attempts at protecting yourself has hurt others, and may continue to do so. Keep an eye out for the safehouses, rather than running from stop to stop without looking back.

Your fear does not define you.

ASSOCIATIONS . . . Fireworks, parties, freckles, messy hair, desk job, green eyes, nails that are painted red, glow-in-the-dark stars on the ceiling, an expensive purse, laughter, quiet anger, nail biting, daisies, plaid skirts, pet dogs, Bluetooth speakers.

⋆｡°✩🕷️⊹ ࣪ ˖ PILE 02.

The Fool. Ace of Bones. Two of Cups (R).

How sweet; you're a delightful group, you are. This won't have much to say, so heed my words, okay?

You don't need to do anything. You've tried enough. You're wonderful. You are beautiful people and you have tried so hard to be better, to heal, to be perfect. Well, it's paid off.

You are incredibly bright. Your energy is bright, and warm, and I am so sorry that you've been hurt before. You deserve so much more than what people gave you.

This is a new beginning for you. Welcome any love that comes your way with open arms, because you deserve it. Don't push it away. I promise, you are not a burden. You are not a hindrance. You are worthy of it. You are care for, and admired, and appreciated. Do not forget that.

You will get the love you deserve, if you let it.

ASSOCIATIONS . . . white lillies, libraries, cardigans, converse, brown hair, wilted roses, sleepovers, potions, willow, snowflakes, 222, band posters, years-old journals, paint-stained dungarees, clear phone case

⋆｡°✩🕷️⊹ ࣪ ˖ PILE 03.

Six of Daggers. The Rigid (R). Ten of Bones.

You are afraid of moving on. You are stuck in the past, trapped in the hurt you've experienced, finding comfort in your misery. Your identity has become so deeply intertwined with pain that you don't want to stop experiencing hurt. After all, who would you be, then? It surely couldn't be you anymore, right?

You may have felt out of control of your life for a very long time. This has caused you to try and take control over whatever you can; and this has mostly translated to your work and your self. You do your best to be organized, to be put-together. You seem to be an extreme perfectionist, forcing yourself to be perfect and to excel at all times. You simply cannot do a "mediocre" job.

How do these things correlate, you might wonder? Well, your pain (overworking) has become a core part of you. "If I am not perfect, I am nothing". You're terrified of failure, and yet to heal from this, you need to fail. Willingly. And you're terrified of that, aren't you? Your entire self worth has been based on a concept which exists outside of you. Based on your capabilities, what you can do, rather than who you are. "Being a perfectionist" isn't who you are. It's how you are.

You're attached to the pain, to the pressure, because it's all that you know. It's what your self-esteem has attached on to, and you're afraid of trying to find something else. You don't feel worthy of other labels, yet the one you've assigned will always make you feel unworthy because failure is inevitable - do you see the cycle now?

You have unreasonably high standards for yourself, and you may burn yourself out trying to be a "perfect partner". Alternatively, you may not even let people be with you, because you don't think you'd be good enough for them. Regardless, your distance from love is a result of your need to be perfect.

There's also a chance that your perfectionism leaks into your home, your habits, your mannerisms. Maybe you get frustrated easily when the chores aren't done, when plans don't go the way you want. This could, unintentionally, cause distress for others. You may sometimes lash out, feeling as though your efforts are not reciprocated, but it's mostly a projection. After all, your own biggest critic is yourself.

You potentially struggle to move on from the present, wanting to clutch onto it as tightly as possible. Things being taken from you scares you - after all, loss is an uncontrollable event, and you don't like not being able to control something! Change is scary to you, and you likely fight twice as hard to keep everything "as it is", even if the change is for your greater good.

To put it bluntly: you need to relax. You need to learn how to be okay with not being perfect, because nobody ever will be infallible. You need to learn when to do your best and when it's okay to just leave it be. You're exhausting yourself non-stop. Firstly, if you're exhausted, your quality goes down anyway, but secondly, your mental health matters so much more than whatever task you have in front of you.

Even if you have to do something well, for whatever reason, it's not worth sacrificing your mental health for it. It's okay to struggle. It's okay to be less than excellent. It's okay to fail completely.

You, as a person, are valuable, because you are human. It does not come from what you do. Sure, you can do valuable things, but they do not define you. They never will. The sooner you learn this, the more at peace you will feel.

"Being a partner" is not another task, another job, to fulfil. You are human, not a robot. It's okay to be imperfect, it's okay to be vulnerable, it's okay to make mistakes. The right person would understand, not berate you. The right person would probably appreciate you being more "humane".

You are amazing as you are. Don't worry about what you can do. Worry about who you can be.

ASSOCIATIONS . . . Round framed glasses, Doberman, Jupiter, legal documents, thunderstorms, 777, burgers with no pickles or onion, PS4 Slim, tiger stripes, acne, painted nails, rock bands, itch scratching, pink roses, cargo pants

⋆｡°✩🕷️⊹ ࣪ ˖ PILE 04.

The Sun (R). Two of Bones (R). Judgement (R).

You are a mess. You are incredibly afraid, and scared, and tired - your bones are weary and you simply just want to give up. Everything is exhausting. Your problems constantly feel like they are piling on top of one another, solutions slipping through your fingertips like sand. Everything is overwhelming to you.

There's a constant knot in your stomach, a twist of dread; an ache in your chest, a pang of guilt. You don't feel seen. Your entire life has been spent in fight-or-flight, and you don't think you'll ever escape it. You can't imagine a world where you're doing anything but fighting.

You've grown accustomed to your suffering. Your identity is so deeply intertwined with your pain, with the bad things that happen to you, that you can't imagine anything good happening. You can't accept love - not in the way that you need it, at least. Hurt people hurt people, and you don't know how to be gentle. (And that's okay. You're learning).

You either push people away, or simply can't stand on your own two feet. There hasn't been much space for you to care for someone else in a healthy way, when you constantly feel like you're being slammed back into the floor. Event after event, wound after wound - a relentless slaughter of your sanity.

Maybe you're afraid of love because of what it has done to you. Maybe you desperately crave it, and act irrationally because of it. No matter the cause, love is something that doesn't seem to stick to you; the affection given to you seems to hide teeth and claws, frightening you at every turn.

The phrase "you cannot love others until you love yourself" is insensitive, and outright hurtful - it lacks so much nuance and understanding. But, unfortunately, some of that sentiment rings true. It's just not in the way that many tend to portray it.

You won't/can't accept love until you deem yourself worthy of it. Your emotions and your fears get the better of you, and that's okay. You don't need to adore yourself. You don't need to have the perfect self-concept. You just need to be willing to accept love. That's it. Having a healthy mindset is one thing, another battle you will need to fight. Fact is, things aren't easy to heal from. But you need to believe that you can heal. You need to, at least a little bit, trust that you deserve it.

You will find people willing to fight for, and with, you. You just need to let them in. You don't need to be alone. I'm sorry that things are difficult for you. You have been hurt without remorse, and it's greatly unfair.

But you need to take care of yourself first. You will get nowhere if you believe that the battlefield is where you're meant to be. It won't be an easy walk out - maybe you'll be stuck in the battlefield for longer. But you at least should don some armor. Your wounds don't make who you are. You're so much more than your pain.

Things will not suffer forever. Maybe your closest stop will just be feeling "okay". But okay is better than nothing. Give yourself some more credit. I know it's hard, but you deserve the happiness you seek.

ASSOCIATIONS . . . Spider lillies, wine glasses, cracked wallpaper, monarch butterflies, dark eyebags, Bojack Horseman, fog, newly bought books, ginger cats, beaches, fluffy boots, short nails, sleeveless dresses

Thank you for reading <3