YOU DON'T KNOW ME.

forrest had mentioned them, mentioned family dinner ... and there's part of me that wonders if he saw them. but that's ... no, that would be ridiculous. yet here he is panicking and muttering out an apology, making a b line to the door he just walked through. i should let him go, i really should ... because when my family gets brought up i tend to not like what comes out of my mouth.

but his one way out is gone. well, the easiest way out. he's not faster than bobby, so there's no way he could make it to one of the windows, whatever the fuck his plan would be if he could. after opening his mouth a few times, forrest gives up on speaking. he can't force it, especially not now.

❛  wouldn’t it be the perfect crime if i stole your heart and you stole mine ?  ❜ ❛  i just wanted to show this rose how incredibly beautiful you are.  ❜ ❛  falling for you would be a very short trip.  ❜ ❛  do you have a map ? i’m getting lost in your eyes.  ❜ ❛  i’ll be yours forever. just tell me when to start.  ❜ ❛  if you were a tear drop i would never cry for fear of losing you.  ❜ ❛  i’m sorry, i don’t know your name. can i just call you mine ?  ❜ ❛  are you as beautiful on the outside as you are on the inside ?  ❜ ❛  i think the gaps between my fingers were meant for yours.  ❜ ❛  there isn’t a word in the dictionary for how beautiful you look.  ❜ ❛  why would i want to look at the stars when i can look in your eyes ?  ❜ ❛  if beauty were time, you would be forever.  ❜ ❛  when i think of you i smile, and when i smile i think of you. i don’t know if it’s the thinking that makes me smile or the smile that keeps me thinking. all i know is i’m always thinking of you and smiling.  ❜ ❛  my heart forgets to beat the moment i see you.  ❜ ❛  is your dad in jail ? because he stole the stars and put them in your eyes.  ❜ ❛  you’re so beautiful that you made me forget my pick up line.  ❜ ❛  i just want you to know that when i picture myself happy, it’s with you.  ❜ ❛  you are my compass. without you i’m lost.  ❜ ❛  the only flaw in your entire body is your lips ― they’re not touching mine.  ❜ ❛  excuse me, i seem to have lost my heart. i think you must have it.  ❜ ❛  you make my life easier with your disarming smiles.  ❜ ❛  perfect will be making you mine forever.  ❜ ❛  i think we are made for each other.  ❜ ❛  you are a walking art exhibit. i could study you for days.  ❜ ❛  i now believe in angels. do you believe in fate ?  ❜ ❛  i’m not a photographer but i can picture me and you together.  ❜ ❛  do you have wi-fi ? because i am really feeling a connection right now.  ❜ ❛  well, here i am. what are your other two wishes ?  ❜ ❛  are you lost ? because heaven’s a long way from here.  ❜ ❛  you spen so much time in my mind, i should charge you rent.  ❜ ❛  if you are a fruit, you would be a fineapple.  ❜ ❛  i am not drunk honey, i’m just intoxicated by you.  ❜ ❛  i am a man of few words. you are beautiful. would you like to go out ?  ❜ ❛  you know you have the most amazing smile ?  ❜ ❛  i was gonna say something really sweet about you but when i saw you i was speechless.  ❜ ❛  you are deserving of masterful poetry, not mere words.  ❜ ❛  are you a magician ? because whenever i look at you, everyone else disappears.  ❜ ❛  i am not your first love, but i would love to be the last.  ❜ ❛  i was blinded by your beauty, so i’m going to need your name and number for insurance reasons.  ❜ ❛  i know i don’t have a chance, but i just wanted to hear an angel talk.  ❜

i'm officially off the rails

well everybody loves me

no one breaks my heart

when i'm with you i feel like i'm a better person

have you ever been in love?

do you want me to describe it to you?

we're still holding hands through a fucking cat flap aren't we?

i'm not going to be your experiment

sometimes i think i was born backwards

why don't you speak?

don't say you love me unless you really mean it. i might do something crazy like believe it

will you buy me a falafel?

fuck it!

i think i might love you

do you know what hurts most about a broken heart? not being able to remember how you felt before

no offence but you kind of represent everything i despise in the world

don't you wish you could go back to when you hadn't lost anything?

she loved me

you want to be with her all the time, almost like it hurts when you're not

people fucked me up man

i like metal music. why do you think i dress like this?

you need to stop running or you're never really living

just because your life's fucked up doesn't give you the right to fuck up everyone else's

i hope you die puking on your kidneys, bitch

people can't always be perfect because, that's not real is it?

everything i touch, turns to shit

i wish i looked differently

everything's so fragile, didn't you realise that?

why do i always screw up?

i had been thrilled, honestly, that forrest had accepted my invitation to come over for dinner. my apartment wasn't huge, but my kitchen table sat four and that was plenty room for the both of us. i like cooking for people as well, i've come to learn that it's one of my favorite things. i'd worked all day on dinner, a tuscan white bean soup and some fresh baked bread and some cookies for dessert. i had made sure that everything was vegan so forrest could actually partake in dinner this evening.

i was more excited than i thought i would be, honestly. it had been a while since i had anyone over. it felt good, inviting someone into my home, being in a place where i feel stable enough to do so. besides all that, i was looking forward to getting to know him better. i enjoyed his company, i really did.

the food had just finished up when i heard forrest knock on the door, and before i answered it i did one final check that everything was ready to go. i answer the door with a smile, greeting him and welcoming him inside. once he's in and the door is closed, he opens his mouth to speak and my back straightens up ... i feel like i might be sick.

i don't respond, not at first. instead i just stare at forrest as my face twists into a somewhat horrified and confused expression. a family dinner ... was this some sort of twisted joke? i'd mentioned nothing of my family to forrest, and he doesn't seem like the type to say something like that just to upset me. a few seconds pass and my mouth has gone dry. i open it regardless, forcing myself to say something.

the cost of seeing ghosts the way that forrest greene always had is that sometimes, they don't seem like ghosts at all. the sight of a family at the dinner table was so normal, kids that shared bobby's eyes and his smile, and a wife that even welcomed forrest warmly. he had never heard bobby speak of home, but it all just made perfect sense. he hadn't even thought to question it.

this is why he's always so careful about his words. because there is that sudden realization on his end, and he is left with nothing to say. mouth open just a bit, as if he plans for something, but no words come out. he glances back to the table, as if bobby's (dead) family might have some sort of advice, but there's nothing. just sad looks, almost as if saying sorry for the fact that they aren't alive.

"i-i..." forrest must look like a wild animal, the way the panic is really beginning to set in. he doesn't move, but his eyes are looking all over, unable to stay on bobby for more than a second at a time. "s-sorry i. uhm. i'm. i-i'm not feeling good." he finally manages.

"I want to bite you."

"I can't wait to sink my fangs into you."

"What would you look like torn into pieces?"

"I want to feel your bones crack."

"You would look so beautiful covered in blood."

"I wish I could bite straight through you."

"I want to taste your blood."

"I want to feel your heart stop beating."

"Let me crush your throat."

"I'll hold you so tight you'll never breathe again."

"Let me feel your pulse still."

"My hands would feel so perfect soaked in your blood."

"I'll never forget what you were wearing."

"Let me sit my nose in your throat as you gasp."

"You would scream so sweetly, wouldn't you?"

"I could take you to pieces."

"Let me help you feel at peace."

"If only I could take your heart out."

"I'll crack your chest, spread it out, let everyone see how beautiful you are."

"You're so perfect inside."

"I wish you could see how wonderful this is."

"Let the blood ooze out, nice and slowly..."

"Whisper my name. Let me say goodbye."

"You'll feel so free when I let you bleed out."

"There's nothing quite as wonderful as death."

"My bones ache to taste yours."

"Every whisper of your skin promises sweetness."

"There's nothing quite like it, you know? Of course not."

"Say goodbye, my love."

"i never noticed your eyes were this pretty."

"i'll stay in tonight, thanks."

"i can't even trust myself anymore."

"anything to eat around here?"

"i hope to repay your kindness someday."

"you're a terrible flirt you know."

"the only time you talk to me is when you need something."

"how did you find me?"

"how can i possibly trust you? after all you've done."

"i take orders from your father, not you."

"you're not a very convincing liar."

"i thought i'd never see you again."

"why can't i come with you?"

"it was my fault. it was all my fault."

"all this anger and hate, it's not good for you."

"this is the part where you apologize."

"is being drunk an excuse?"

"let me out of here! let me go!"

"aren't we in a good mood today?"

"i was making sure you weren't dead, since you never called."

"there's nothing left for me here."

"i know i lied to you. you can hate me and it's all right."

"i've been waiting for you for a long time."

"what happened? i heard a crash."

"was it you? did you do all this?"

"don't come any closer!"

"looking for something?"

"you're too scared to do it, aren't you?"

"i thought you'd like this."

"you came back!"

"i like seeing you smile."

"i must warn you, i won't go easy on you this time."

"it's better to expect disappointment."

"sorry to put you through that. i guess i owe you one now."

"no way, i'm not doing that."

"it's you! you came for me."

"could you be happy here with me?"

"let me buy you another drink."

"why should i trust you?"

"he's only mostly dead."

"knowledge is power."

"i screwed up. i know."

"we're going to have to stay here tonight."

"help me choose something to wear?"

"i do care."

"i'm sorry, i'm not what you think i am."

"how many more people need to die before you're satisfied?"

"you scared me."

"just try to hang on."

"i risked my life for you!"

"two years later and you haven't changed."

"we're not so different after all."

"i need you to trust me."

"why are you being so stubborn?"

"you don't scare me."

"i'm scared of what you're becoming."

"you look like you just saw a ghost."

"that's quite a scratch you've got there."

"i've always hated it."

"this is the part where you leave."

"don't treat me like a child."

"you were talking in your sleep."

"what are you doing out here by yourself?"

"wait. i've heard that sound before."

"would it be alright if i borrowed this?"

"i think i have a bit more experience with this thing than you do."

"it's not stealing if it was mine to begin with."

"it's nothing personal."

"you were going to leave without saying goodbye?"

"i'll still be here when you wake up."

"don't you fucking dare!"

"you're lucky you're cute."

"it's too dark, i can't see anything."

"i swear it wasn't me."

"that is not an appropriate question to ask a lady you've just met."

"i've got your back, okay?"

"how long have i been asleep?"

"just who do you think you are?"

"i think i might've broken something..."

"i wish you'd take better care of yourself."

"is this what you wanted?"

"what do you want in exchange for it?"

"did you miss me?"

"i'm trying my best and it's not good enough."

"it's not safe for people to see us together."

"don't lie to me."

"i see a lot of myself in you."

"take a seat, we're gonna be here a while."

"i won't hate you. i know you think that's what you deserve but it's not."

"who do you fight for?"

"it's rare to see your kind around here."

"walk with me?"

"i know you better than you think."

"why did you bring me here?"

"what did you want to tell me?"

"you don't even know my name."

"it's nothing, i'm just tired."

"of course i care. you're my family."

"i didn't tell you because i was afraid... of losing you."

"where is my candy, you son of a bitch?"

"you want me to punch him in the face?"

"please... say something."

"who the hell invited you?"

"we need to be careful."

"i just wanted to say i'm sorry."

"we're locked in!"

"don't be naked. i'm coming in."

"do you ever get afraid?"

"you wouldn't understand."

"promise you'll say something if you need help?"

"where have you been?"

"there was blood everywhere."

"i just need to step away for a bit, get some fresh air."

"we're safe, aren't we?"

"how about a little midnight snack?"

"how many people have you killed? how many?"

"whatever you're going to ask, the answer is no."

"you look... amazing."