today i had headcanons of tomura as a teenager and i made myself sad.
tw: mention of self-harm and drugs
teen!tomura who breaks mirrors when he looks at himself too long
teen!tomura who sits in his dimly lit room and plays video games while snacking on sour candy and chips
teen!tomura who tries to cut himself and then tears up because it doesn't make the itch go away
teen!tomura who takes drugs alone in his room for the first time, then vomits it all out (and kurogiri who takes care of him and promises not to tell afo as long as tomura promises to never do it again)
teen!tomura sitting in lessons with his private teacher and wondering what it might feel like to sit in a real classroom
teen!tomura who slowly unlearns how to cry over the years because it's weakness and he never wants to be weak again
teen!tomura who plays on his switch the entire night, then quickly hides it and pretends to sleep when kurogiri checks up on him (kurogiri just acts as if he doesn't notice the light beneath his pillow)
teen!tomura who tries cigarettes for the first time and grimaces at the taste
teen!tomura who winces when someone slams a door or talks too loud because sometimes, he still hears his father's voice echoing along with it
teen!tomura who feels a sting in his heart when he spots someone walking with their dog
teen!tomura who smiles a real and bright smile when he interacts with people online and in games
teen!tomura who has repeating nightmares and tries to avoid sleeping as much as possible by playing video games
teen!tomura who tries to keep his smile at bay when kurogiri makes his favourite food on his birthday