MOVED.

dean is off doing... something, she hadn't really asked. so, it's her and @gankdemons, sat on a log, watching the fire. it's movement out of the corner of her eye that catches her attention. she watches, one second, two, then three pass, before she darts down to grab the source.

did you know i hate them

𝒄𝒚𝒏𝒊𝒄

i'd change my name to find a space to get some rest .

i'd give my face to find a place to put my head .

this is who we are ; there's no glamour to it .

i cried at the rain but there's no way that i'm depressed .

if i think too hard i'm scared i might lose it .

the hollywood sign don't catch my eye much anymore .

leave it to time to make me feel i'm getting old .

give me the open mind that i had before .

i miss the days when one was better than the last .

i miss the taste of growing pains i knew would pass .

i miss those thoughts and that fear of losing .

i don't know why i see no light in anything .

leave it to life to turn my strengths back into weaknesses .

𝒔𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒎𝒆

i shut you out just out of habit , i don't know .

i spent five months out here treading water .

now i wonder why you bothered .

why do you keep reaching for my hand ?

do you see something i can't ?

why do you try to save me ?

this fate is well deserved .

i only make things worse .

have i served my sentence ? learned my lesson ?

am i still so selfish ?

do you see my misdirections ?

𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒌

she hates to say goodbye , so she only says goodnight .

she sleeps with one eye closed so she can tell if she's alone .

she's the sunset in the west .

she is sleep when i need rest .

for you , i would never sink again .

i have grown to tell myself a lie and i'll sink .

time slows to let me jog along .

high hopes won't last me very long .

she's the path on which i tread .

she's the shiver up my neck .

she's the blood rush to my head .

𝒕𝒊𝒅𝒂𝒍

you knew me in my spiral .

sometimes i get this feeling i've been breathing someone else's air .

two thousand miles away from home under that sky , i tried to make my peace with fear .

so i guess i'll build a boat and live alone .

i'll teach myself to swim and live in my head .

if i never reach the land or live again , i'll be just fine .

i fell into a pattern where nothing would matter if i didn't care .

it wears me out , all the demons underneath the tide .

i sink like stone beneath the weight of all these dreams of mine .

you can't save someone too far to find .

it's stormy in the sea tonight .

𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒐'𝒔 𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒈

do you remember drinking in the parking lot by the trailhead ?

i see you for a moment , then the morning comes and it's wasted .

we listened to 'only the good die young' and we laughed about its statement .

we walked in the same direction but we both got lost .

we both got lost in your angst and my impatience .

did you find what you were looking for ? some escape from your skin ?

you know , that place you were dreaming of where all light comes in .

i keep burning my bridges down just to keep you alive .

do you remember looking from the fire tower at the sunset ?

i guess i just got busy ; only saw you every other weekend .

i just moved to the city . hope the noise drowns out the regret .

they tell me grief is just love letting go .

they say they don't know who i am anymore .

i just have never shown anger before .

still haven't found what i'm looking for .

i'll keep growing my hair out long just to cover my eyes .

𝒇𝒂𝒍𝒔𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒇𝒊𝒅𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒆

don't take yourself so seriously .

look at you all dressed up for someone you never see .

you're here for a reason but you don't know why .

you're split and uneven , your hands to the sky .

surrender yourself .

i wonder why i tear myself down to be built back up again .

i hope somehow i wake up young again .

all that's left of myself . . . holes in my false confidence .

i'll lay myself down and hope i wake up young again .

don't let those demons in again .

i fill the void up with polished doubt and fake sentiment .

why won't you take me seriously ?

look at me all fucked up over someone i'll never meet .

𝒎𝒆𝒔𝒔

if i could give this all back , i would be home in the morning .

i'd wake up in a cold sweat and take a flight back to the city i was born in .

i would wipe myself clean of what i knew was unimportant .

i'd try to fit back into all my old clothing .

i'll move back home forever .

i'll put all my pieces back together where they belong .

i'm a mess .

oh god , i'm a mess .

i'll take 89 to boston .

there's still weight on my back ; i just try to ignore it .

i guess the stage is my mask .

life's not what i had hoped .

now i'll find comfort in the cold .

𝒉𝒖𝒓𝒕 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒃𝒐𝒅𝒚

i'm afraid to be lonely .

nobody told me it's harder than i thought to tell the truth .

it's gonna leave you in pieces all alone with your demons .

i know that we need this , but i've been too afraid to follow through .

hold me close and i won't leave .

it hurts when you hurt somebody .

so much to say but i won't speak .

and i hate that i let you stop me .

don't know where the time went . . . stuck in the wrong mindset .

i let the rules bend when i know that all along they're made to break .

you got me searching for reasons .

𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒅

oh dear , i'm sorry that you grew up too soon .

i've been drinking alone .

don't fear the warnings ; they're bitterer than most .

keep your time . keep your mind , keep humble .

start your life in the middle of the jungle .

rub your eyes , be surprised , keep hungry .

stay alive , try to lose all of your money .

you're mad for no reason at everything at once .

if you want i can tell the truth .

this life takes a toll on you .

i spend nights stitching up the loose threads of my soul .

in the morning , i'm bulletproof .

𝒃𝒖𝒔𝒚𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒅

you're weak on the surface .

you speak when you're nervous .

all the wrong words seem right in your head .

you can't stand the space in your bed .

all your big plans are small the next day .

the truth might be a million miles away .

hide your secrets . disguise your weakness .

burn your bridges and leave no witnesses .

you spend your days in wait for bad news .

give yourself an alibi .

stand upon your peace of mind .

you're bound to fall if you take your time .

you can stare below into the abyss ; find a home on the edge of it .

if you can't see it , send " lip bite " instead !

my muse's first impression of yours

my muse's current impression of yours

my muse's favorite thing about yours

my muse's least favorite thing about yours

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] i didn't see that [ name ] is holding his junk until after i sent the pic

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] just ate some fig newtons , the extra long ones

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] fuck yeah , go give that beer your dick !

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] maybe he'll let you down quicker if you give him an open mouth kiss

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] you'll want to keep the gondola operator alive but everyone else is dispensable

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] we have parked our lard asses under displays for souvenirs and we are both NOT MOVING .

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] no more mountains you've lost your mountain privileges

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] we still have our sense of humor , but [ name ] may lose theirs at any moment .

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] we are safe . we think . no need to worry . i don't think .

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] it's funny now , but i can feel myself getting a bit cranky .

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] i'm really sick with icantgotowork disease 🦠 it's rough

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] have you guys gotten diarrhea yet ?

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] i hear [ name's ] ex is writing a diss track

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] okay getting food bird pooped on me

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] i just ate a cake that said 'happy birthday baby jesus'

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] the autism is strong today

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] there will be no butt cakes and please take me off this thread

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] i'll start growing my pubes !

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] [ name ] is making us celebrate president's day with a cake

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] my favorite thing is explaining slang that mom will absolutely hate

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] their old dog looked like a cigarette

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] yeah it's really hard being really good looking all the time

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] i'm about to be that asshole that brings their leftovers on a plane

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] i have to focus on one weird thing a day or i'll die

[ 𝒔𝒎𝒔 📲 ] congrats bunghole i'm proud of you 🥰

𝒇𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒐𝒖𝒕 .

❝ do you remember how it felt each time you looked at me ? ❞

❝ you hated what you see . . . or maybe you just hated everything . ❞

❝ i never told you ; it's a feeling i remember too . ❞

❝ let me go , i can't take this . ❞

❝ let me leave you in pieces . ❞

❝ took me too long to see this . ❞

❝ who i am got buried beneath it . ❞

❝ you tried to sneak around and play my insecurities . ❞

❝ you always knew what made me weak . ❞

❝ now it's you that second guesses everything you knew . ❞

❝ i'm the one who's playing you . ❞

𝒆𝒏𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 .

❝ i don't know where to start this . ❞

❝ i'm hitting a wall ; it's the hardest thing . ❞

❝ i can't seem to get to you . ❞

❝ i'm running low on my options . ❞

❝ you always speak , but you never listen . ❞

❝ shut your mouth , 'cause you talk too much . ❞

❝ i cut you off 'cause i've had enough . ❞

❝ kill the noise and listen . ❞

❝ look what you've become . ❞

❝ should've learned when i called your bluff . ❞

❝ every lie got back to me . ❞

❝ now everybody sees you the way you tried to see me . ❞

❝ loose lips and your ship is sinking . ❞

❝ you're out of line and you're out of touch . ❞

❝ watch your step , 'cause the ice is shrinking . ❞

❝ fall back , 'cause you talk too much . ❞

𝒂𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒘𝒂𝒚 .

❝ i can feel it when you come around . ❞

❝ you can say a lot but never make a sound . ❞

❝ even with a look i know what's going down . ❞

❝ save us both some time and just say it . ❞

❝ you never let me know when something changed . ❞

❝ you made a fool of me and i'm to blame . ❞

❝ i'll lay the past to rest and forget your name . ❞

❝ you let me think that we were okay . ❞

❝ i guess you knew that i'd get in the way . ❞

❝ listen to me ; i'm not about to believe that i lost everything . ❞

❝ if it's the end , you better know it's the end . ❞

❝ i remember the words you never had to say . ❞

𝒈𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒐𝒓 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 .

❝ i know i shouldn't call you , but it's raining . ❞

❝ you keep saying that you're all alone . ❞

❝ i ain't with these games you keep on playing . ❞

❝ you gone or staying ? ❞

❝ make up your mind or let me go . ❞

❝ you hide it well but i can tell by the look in your eyes . ❞

❝ you were falling to pieces . ❞

❝ with a glance you let me dance with your greatest disguise . ❞

❝ it's leaving me sleepless . ❞

❝ back and forth you push and pull me . ❞

❝ i get lost in what we should be . ❞

❝ if stars aligned , we would be fine . ❞

❝ i stand here just to fight for nothing . ❞

𝒏𝒖𝒎𝒃 .

❝ i don't know if it's all been me . . . or someone else pulling at my strings . ❞

❝ i'm living every day like it's on repeat . ❞

❝ i'm stuck in place as the walls close in . ❞

❝ i'm plotting out my escape again . ❞

❝ i'm crawling my way from a prison cell . ❞

❝ no one can save me but myself . ❞

❝ i know there's something more that i'm missing . ❞

❝ i'm staring right into the sun looking for the ending before it's begun . ❞

❝ i just need a reason to bleed . ❞

❝ it feels like my heart's going numb . ❞

❝ it's pushing my back up against the wall . ❞

❝ it's hard enough just to feel alive . ❞

❝ i need a way out , but i'm out of time . ❞

❝ i know there's something holding me here at the bottom . ❞

❝ kaleidoscope visions invade my mind . ❞

❝ turn the lights out as it fades to black now . ❞

❝ i can't breathe ; help me crawl my way back out . ❞

❝ this silence keeps screaming so loud . ❞

𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓 .

❝ that's just how it's gotta be . ❞

❝ i'm letting you go ; you're no longer tied to me . ❞

❝ my moment of truth was the moment you lied to me . ❞

❝ never thought you'd see me there . ❞

❝ these voices echo everywhere when you're alone . ❞

❝ every sign in front of me is becoming clear . ❞

❝ this pain begins to leave and it's over . ❞

❝ i didn't see it before , but now it's all i can see . ❞

❝ i fell to the floor just like i fell for everything . ❞

❝ i'm not afraid to say i'll be okay here on my own . ❞

❝ someone else can come and take me home . ❞

❝ there's nothing left to say . ❞

❝ i think it's time for you to go . ❞

❝ i won't see your tears ; you can keep them all . ❞

❝ if it's what it takes , then i'll leave this town . ❞

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