|scribbler of the night|

And this is all under the guise of exasperation. (but really she's being gay for the new loser girl, love of her life)

But then they get to the charity benefit together, they're on "Andy" and "Em" terms and Emily is exhausted, and sick, and starving and maybe enjoys Andy's company more than she wants to admit. Andy who just got very competent very quickly and makes Emily's job easier and who packs tissues in her clutch because she knows Emily would never do that for herself. Andy who keeps doing selfless things like that for no reason other than to make Emily a little happier. Emily isn't exasperated then, she just wants to be close to her because she likes her, at least a little bit. So she's softer, and she stands a little closer than necessary because she just wants to be close to Andy, thinking maybe it wouldn't be so bad to be friends with her after all.

And then Andy touches her for the first time. And oh, that hits a little different than Andy just letting her touch her and lean on her without saying anything. That's a choice Andy made. Andy who just saved Emily's job is staring at her like she hung the stars in the sky and decided that she was worth holding for a second too. People don't look at Emily like that and they don't decide that she deserves to be touched kindly either. At this point she really wants to be friends with Andy.

And then Emily gets hit by a taxi and Andy steals her dream from her and quits her job while she's in Paris and Emily is so upset. So upset that she could be stupid enough to think she could have maybe made a friend. And then Andy calls her and gives her all the Paris clothes. An olive branch, one that Emily accepts immediately with tears in her eyes because despite it all she missed Andy Sachs. Maybe there's still a chance? So she calls Andy, and Andy doesn't pick up. And that's when Emily decided she was never going to make any friends in this fucking industry ever again.

Then Andy Sachs waltzes straight back into her life after 20 years with the audacity to look happy to see her and after all is said and done she calls Andy (who picks up this time, damn her) again to invite her to lunch. Needing closure, Emily asks about that phone call that wasn't picked up 20 years ago and she's forced to admit that she wanted to be friends. And when she says that? Well, she rubs her arm where Andy held it all those years ago because it's the last time she'd ever let her guard down enough to trust someone that much. And it's the last time she'd ever been touched that kindly. And she wants so badly to trust Andy enough to let her do that again because she misses her more than she's ever missed anyone.

im so sorry

eddie diaz and his expressive eyebrows

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