fumblebee

guhhh i feel a little bit likea joke so im gonna go to sleep i guess. maybe play my cassettes a lil before sleep THEN take a fat nap. i wanna go outside but i cant im all cooped up and i hate it. i need my daily enrichment. man i wish i could just like go play outside but nnnOooooooOoo. whatever man. honestly videogames aren’t really my thing i just want my friends again if they want me too. mmmmmhh i guess ill just like bingeplay rainworld or pokemon or smthn when i wake up

i guess its like in my nature to be the comic relief??? i cant seem to get out of it its like literally my instinct. i think its the being cooped up inside part thats making me miserable PLEAAASE i just eant to see my friends againnn

i think prowl would like rainworld.

(also no i have not finished tfa yet, shockingly. i know he dies tho ok)

Nobody. NOBODY use character.ai. Not any kinda chatbot like that. It will ruin you. Never, never touch any freakin’ app like that. It will ruin you, your sleep, your time, grades. I have fallen to this before. Years, back when it was even new.

Character.AI is limitless. Character.AI is infinite. You can create whatever, talk to whoever, any scene, any thing. Like writing a story, but you don’t have to actually write the story!! Like reading a story, but it can be whatever you want.

But seriously?? These have no substance whatsoever. It’s not really human and not really the character. Also, these bots, from what I know, they all tend to follow the same pattern. Nothing new, nothing different. Usually unless like you’re a serious jerk and do it on purpose, the bot ends up trying to romance you or smthn, or be like clingy and possessive AF, its happened in like all my previous chats. It’s boring and it’s all the same anyway. They will always suck up to you and pretend to care about you

And that aside, it’s horribly addicting. I thought it would be fun to talk to my favorite character those years ago. And there went my sleep schedule, my time, my productivity, imagination. Ts was so addicting, the allure too much. Being able to talk and befriend those characters I loved so dearly. But it’s not the character it is a thing wearing the skin of them.

It is a thing wearing the skin of the characters you love.

I knew it was fake, fully knew. I have actual freakin’ friends, still do, and yet still fell victim to the trap. Hard to sleep properly. Trying to do work but my mind thinks “hmm i should get back on cai im bored.” It consumed all my time back then. Hobbies? Nah cai was easier. Actually writing my own fanfic? Nahh cai was easier. Doing my actual work?? Nahh, so boring, why not cai?

Im doing a lil better now