I thought I found you , I thought I found my forever home. A connected soul with a mission . I believe Gd created a path . A path for you and I to share , to walk , to grow, to embrace and share a pride , to bear burdens .. how lucky was I , Gd showed me , to learn from you be around you , mentored by you . I repaid you with trust , growth and most of all my loyalty . you looked me in the eye and sold me your biggest lie. You broke my heart in to a million pieces but shattered my soul . Never ever would I have ever thought. The one person I TRUSTED , would be the one person who would greatly betray me. I bet on you , when I should have bet on my self.
I should have sold you , but I couldn’t sell my soul because that would mean you and I are alike… GD brought us to the same path….. You played on my emotions , manipulated my fears and weakness to carry your agenda . You became cold like ice and burnt me inside . you stole what you can to build your next lie …..when I dropped the veil ,,,, your eyes remained the same.
The path has taken a turn…. I see through the fog , you sell the world with your poison to get your high , when you fall , you swear on your soul to do better and pray to GD to get the venom out and show you the way… I fell prey to your game , I bought in and TRUSTED you bec I believed we were the same , the fool that I am… I prayed to GD about to change your ways
He showed me in fact your addiction never went away… A different game , a different high , a different stake ….but always the same selling lie….. close your eyes and sell your lies , maybe if you repeat it enough times you will believe it to numb your non existent guilt .
You end here , you used me , lied to me and I understand why ….. this why I need to let go …because you and I are not the same . I choose my piece of mind . I choose my soul ….I fell prey , but that was GDS way… your eyes remain the same , your act is in tact. Soon you will be back to plead with him and change your ways , only to start the cycle and have other fall prey .
He has shown me our path .. he has also revealed the truth . I need to move on and let go ..i know you aren’t malicious but broken and fake.. you wear a costume and quote holiness to justify your greed and selfishness . So here is one for you …. When you go down the deep dark pain , that hole you always come back to and ask GD why so much trials and tribulations in your life ……bec you in fact never changed your ways .. you just got more deceiving … more toxic , you build people-only to take , you manipulate and leave destruction in your path to feel the very venom you ask GD to heal you of. Your eyes have never changed , your lies were always the same . Now I am just clear
Thank you for showing me all the red flags . Thankyou for showing me that trust is CHEEP , thankyou for showing me what addiction is , mostly thankyou for bringing me closerto GD and reminding me the he in fact runs the world , Now that our paths have crossed . I will be burning this bridge .. one day in the near future I will move past you and you will be nothing more than a memory and a lesson learnt , while I will always be the best potential that you lost. While your eyes remain the same .. and your greed takes over and you become this ugly lie , this fake… you may copy and take what’s not yours but you will never capture my soul . I no longer need to understand the ending I choose to rise above the ending , my elevation is my closure , my certainty , is MY PEACE