stuff in my mind

So.. I guess I am autistic and also have ADHD !

How do you explain exhaustion / burnout to neurotipicals?

Until now I have used like a "battery" analogy, as if I am running out of battery / energy and need to recharge, but apparently they don't get this..

And when I combine it with the race against the clock.. man I could become president in a day!

Basically it's:

Don't take your shoes off when you get home and set a countdown for 10 minutes.

Then do as much as possible in that time.

I cleaned my entire apartment in that time (by shoving things behind doors of course).

I never wrote in diaries until..

I remember years ago, before one of my travels a friend gave me a blank diary and told me to write everyday, because according to her: “I always forget and don't tell her anything”

So I did.

I backpacked around central america for 4 months and wrote every single day.

Now, here is the thing:

The first 2 weeks my entries were a list, just a list of the things I have done that day (woke up, had breakfast, went to the beach, etc…) Eventually I realized that that wasn't what she wanted from me; so I tried to write more.

BUT when I tried to do that I made it worse.

I would start describing something, and then write what I thought about that, and then my theories connected to one detail of the story and on and on..

By the time I’d get tired of writing I’d filled multiple pages with only ONE part of the day, ONE story.

Never made any description past lunch time. Who knows what I did for dinner those 4 months?

I do have written records of my thoughts on the connection between colonization and current division of social classes!

They hope that after the pandemic they'll continue with the "home-office"

And.. I really don't.

I find it way harder to focus, to work, to even sit down to do something related to work if I'm home. Especially if I'm alone.

It worked.

Like I go..what if I REALLY have ADHD?