Jenn has ADHD

Me: "Sorry what did you say?"

*Brain Bee noises instead of hearing a second time* 🐝

Them: "....which one do you want?"

*Brain Bee noises reappear while trying to recall literally a single thing they said either time* 🐝

🥺 Me: So the thing is I need you to say that again..

Them: *sigh but repeats a third time*

Me: *Brain clings to a single word then goes on its own tangent and still hear nothing being said* "..maybe this isn't for me".

Them: "so you want me to cancel your order?"

✨️[you are overencumbered with thoughts, you can not carry anymore]✨️

✨️[you failed to turn this task in on time]✨️

✨️[you cannot cast focus here, there is too much noise]✨️

✨️[you talked too much, the neurotypical didn't like that]✨️

✨️[buffer de-buff active: 52 hours remaining until you can attempt this task again]✨️

✨️[medication acquired, focus increased by 80%]

✨️[you do not have the required amount of neurotransmitters to cast this spell]✨️

- reduce pathological blame within your language towards others. don't call people stupid, lazy, dumb and crazy etc.

- stop correcting other people's grammar when it's unnecessary. If everyone understood what they meant anyway, then it doesn't matter when it's low stakes, unserious matters.

- be kinder around accidents, life happens, and people don't need more tough love when going through a tough time.

That being myself is a problem.

That I'm something to be cured and fixed and reformed and how I tried to do it is all wrong somehow.

That I made a mess of myself. That it's a matter of personal choice.

But actually pathologizing me is a choice.

- Everyone tells me that I do it as if I'm not fully aware

- Everyone stares, especially children 😭

- No one thought it was a trait of Autism because I'm NT passing

- Forced therapy that ignored neurological connection

- Pain, chronic pain...

- No one told me it's also a type of tick

- No one told me it's also a type of stim

- I didn't really know or seen many others like me

- No one considered how living like that made me feel

- I felt VERY different from other children and they made a point of telling me that

- Feeling self conscious about it

- Still doing it while wearing high heels feels awkward

- My ankles are f*d