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b) once burnout hits you CANNOT work that hard, by your standards, so odds are it actually hit a while ago and you just “powered through” because that’s what you’re used to doing. So now, every day, you’re hitting your limit and thinking “wtf man i used to be able to do this, i used to be competent, clever, diligent” and like yeah. you were. and that burns glucose. welcome to the dumb bitch zone.

hey! of course, it's my pleasure, everyone is welcome to learn. okay, so i gather you want audiovisual stuff; i got documentaries and video essays, and i'm glad you know spanish because the majority of these are in spanish.

hour of the furnaces (subtitles in english) it's a militant film from 1968, regarded as 'paradigm of revolutionary activist cinema' (really selling it to you here lol) and it exposes argentina as a dependent nation in its economy, culture and society. there's three parts, all of them together last about four hours, i haven't made it all the way through tbh but i do highly highly recommend watching the first part 'neocolonialism and violence', it actually breaks my heart how present these problems still are today.

what is peronism (in english) this guy is a white australian who's been living here for a couple of years, and i think this video is the closest anyone (on youtube!) who's not argie has gotten to explaining what peronism, the most popular political identification for the past 75 years, actually is (in video form! there are so many videos on peronism by gringos and they're all awful). he's done his researchhhh, goes back all the way to colonial times to make his points. (i hear the guy's kinda controversial so i only vouch for this one vid and this one on the argentine dictatorship, i don't know him)

so. there are two beautiful gorgeous platforms where you can watch a tonnnnn of argentine documentaries, films and series for free, you only have to register with your email and it's done. go crazy go wild because there's just so much.

the first one is cont.ar, this one mainly hosts documentaries. my faves so far are: "Acá estamos. Historias de nietos que recuperaron su identidad" where children appropiated by the dictatorship, now adults, tell their stories | "Archivo de la memoria trans" telling the stories of the trans women who've donated their photographs and memories to the trans archive | "Argentina también es Afro" afroargentine history!

the other one is cine.ar, hosts mainly films. "Juntas" tells the story of the first lesbian couple who got legally married in argentina | "El puto inolvidable" a film about carlos jauregui, an argentine gay activist | "La memoria de los huesos" documentary on the Argentine Forensic Anthropology Team, that does the hard work of identifying the bodies of people disappeared by the dictatorship in Argentina and in similar circumstances all over the world

Embrace the pain that comes with it. Write about it. Acknowledge that what you wanted was important to you and it didn’t happen, acknowledge that it hurts. It also won’t stop hurting for a while, but you can move on. Give yourself a couple of days, but at one point – whether you’re ready or not – try to move past that pain. Ask yourself: what’s the root cause of this failure? how can I address it? Analyse what went wrong and what is in your power to change. Think also of the future: what now? what can you do going forwards? what's your new plan? Everyone experiences failure in life. Multiple times, at different points in life. What’s defining is how you react. Setbacks are only temporary and can be rectified. It’s never too late. Don’t remain in a state where you constantly think about what happened and what didn’t, but instead find ways to move on, to address what went wrong and to just do other things. I’d recommend that after your mourning period, you throw yourself into something different, for a short while. This can be for a short time frame – a camping trip where you spend time alone in nature – or a more long-term commitment – volunteering for a cause you believe in. It can be something completely new – trying out a course or a hobby you wanted for a while – or something you’ve also had been doing before, but with a renewed intensity. Ideally, something involving physical activity, not done between the walls of the place where you live.

If you want more hands-on advice: be more specific, give me more detail, tell me what went wrong. There’s no single universal formula that I can give you that’s going to work, but if you need some help to figure out the next steps, perhaps I can give you some suggestions.